Kandy

Kandy

:: 2006 27 October :: 10.17pm

2 jobs plus being a full time student is killing me.
i don't eat when i work or basically on the days that i work at zales.
i hate knowing more about computers and jewelry than my bosses, aaaand
i really just wish that i could get shitfaced and not have to worry about when i need to get up the next day...
but wait, i never have time to do anything but homework and take brief intervals to vent about how much i hate or love my life depending on the day.

gah. if only life was easier... but wait, i guess then it wouldn't be life. : (

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rayray

:: 2006 27 October :: 10.34pm

So its been awhile since a real update.
There really isn't much to fill you in on.
As I'm sure you all know the contents of my life.
And I'm sure most of you are just as surprised as I am, that next tuesday will be mine and Michaels 1 year anniversary.
My longest relationship.
We've been in a slump the last month or so.
But things are so much better.
And I love him so much.
I get depressed way too easily.
But anyway.. this isnt much of an update because I have to go to bed.
I have to be to work at 4. Sucks to be me.

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box	:: 2006 24 October :: 8.35am Anyone want to buy a brand new Video Ipod 30 gig?? 13 No way... \| Tell me...

rayray

:: 2006 24 October :: 12.41pm

I called in sick today.
Probably shouldn't have because I desperately need the money.
But what can ya do.
I can't seem to get rid of this headache.
Depression is starting to get to me again.
The one thing I should probably do, I can't.
I don't want to. I want things to get better, fast.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2006 22 October :: 7.42pm

would getting a third job be comparable to suicide... figuratively?

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joslyn_julia

:: 2006 21 October :: 11.04pm
:: Music: The rolling stones- luxury

so, i got the 2nd job, and now i just have to wait until life calms down.
i didn't eat for over 24 hours because i was working and then just wasn't given the option. I haven't gotten nearly enough sleep and homework is the only thing making this worse.

I am already distant... now, i may as well be gone to the kids who called me their friend.
I am so insanely busy. the next few months should be interesting. but they will be covered, i won't have to worry about being short on paying my bills... it should all be normal again.
just me, and being a workaholic to stay out of trouble. i like it.

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rayray

:: 2006 18 October :: 5.58pm

I have the internet back!
Im happy.
I love my boyfriend.
And did I mention I have my internet back?

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joslyn_julia

:: 2006 15 October :: 1.28pm

weeeeellllllllllllllllllllllll.
i don't know how much i have to say other than
I BOUGHT A NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAH!
lol, my dad had heart surgery last week so, i was home. but i didn't see anyone. which is neither good nor bad.
I am now being a hermit in my quiet dorm, where i can peacefully do homework and ignore the girls down the hall. go figure.

anyways, i plan to finish my homework, find a second job, aaaaand paint or knit. something like that.
toodles!

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Upchuck

:: 2006 15 October :: 2.01am

After 22 years of waiting.

WE'RE GOING TO THE WORLD SERIES BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Eddy	:: 2006 15 October :: 1.11am :: Music: The Killers - Bones Don't you wanna come with me, Don't you wanna feel my bones, On your bones. It's only natural. Don't you wanna swim with me, Don't you wanna feel my skin, On your skin. It's only natural. I love their new CD. =) Tell me...

rayray

:: 2006 8 October :: 11.14am

I don't feel good enough for him.
I don't feel pretty enough, or smart enough.
I feel completely worthless.
I don't cook.
I have a job, but that doesn't even seem good enough because I'm behind on bills.
I cheated, the one time. Which still gets thrown in my face.
I whine too much.
And I'm a complete burden.
Nothing I do is good enough.
And I cry too much.
I make mistakes, that I can't fix.
He might as well just leave me.
As much as I don't want him to, and wish he wouldn't.
Eventually that is going to be the only thing he can do.

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rayray

:: 2006 16 October :: 5.34pm

Life still kind of sucks.
I hate my job.
I need a life.

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allyson

:: 2006 4 October :: 10.32am

I want a family of my own
I don't even know how to start this.

With Jared and Morgan, I always feel left out because well.. I'm not her real mother. So, things will always have to be discussed with another woman. It sucks that something so special that I waited to do. Jared has already done with someone else.

You always hear from people that the happiest day of their life was when they got married and then when they had their children. Jared's already had that and with someone else and I really don't feel like I should be a part of it. Especially not right now at that.

Jared always says you don't think our marriage is special. It's not that.. I'm just ready for the next stage in our marriage that he's already been in for 2 and a half years. I don't think he understands that we can't just pretend Morgan is mine forever. She calls me mom often with the occasionaly ada in there with it that (it's cute). The way I feel when she calls me that... man, I can't even imagin how it's going to feel when she/he is actually mine. I want that. But I can't have it.

For some reason going to get family pictures (I think) is going to make me feel like what we have is a real family for me. But it isn't. It never will be. There will always be someone else in the picture.

Does anyone understand how I feel?

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Upchuck

:: 2006 3 October :: 9.39am

I don't care is we win the division or not. If we would have made it to the ALCS, everyone would still be picking the Yankees. I am now starting to gain more respect for what Red Sox fans have to endure.

The Yankees are a bunch of over-pampered overpaid jerks. The onyl thing they have to worry about is if there MVP thridbaseman has a mental issue with throwing.

The national media ignored us for the first three months of the season. They said we would blow it. Well, guess what, we didn't blow. Sure, we lost the division by one friggin' game to the Twins. So What!! No one even picked us to win 90 games, let alone lead the division for the majority of the season.

The experts be damned. I saw one where the Tigers were ranked dead last in starting pitching and bullpen out of the four teams in the American League. Who lead all of baseball in starting pitching this year? That was us. Not the damned Yankees, not the Twins who have nothing behind Santana. Who's bullpen has better guys in it than ours (we've had our moments, but you can't tell me that Scott Proctor is better than Joel Zumaya)? I saw one that had Robinson Cano being a better second baseman than Placido Polanco. There is a blatant piece of east coast biased bull I've ever seen.

We had to prove ourselves during the season, now everyone is going to make us prove it again in the postseason. And we will.

DS Tigers over Yankees 3-1 A's over Twins 3-2 Padres over Cardinals 3-0 Dodgers over Mets 3-2

CS Tigers over A's 4-2 Dodgers over Padres 4-1

WS Tigers over Dodgers 4-3

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Eddy

:: 2006 1 October :: 1.16am

Hehe. Eric talks in his sleep. It confuses me because when he does he's completely clear and legible, he just says very wierd things. By far the best thing he said was last night. He told me to "Come down and bring the manequin"

......yeah...

<3

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rayray

:: 2006 30 September :: 12.08pm

Things suck.
I hate life.
I cry all the time.
I work all the time.
I got a tattoo.
My life sucks.
And I feel sick all the time.

Anyone want to trade me?

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allyson

:: 2006 26 September :: 6.33pm

Last night I woke up feeling so sick and then I wake up this morning.. fine and dandy. It was really odd. Anyways, we get morgan tomorrow all the way to sunday. How exciting huh? We bought her so much new stuff in the past few weeks. Like a total winter coat and pants, snow boots, and fall jacket. OOH these way cute levi pants that have a button waist so you can make them tighter without using a belt. We already bought her a new pair of shoes. They are all pink and adorable. Also we got her a few new shirts too. We bought her some learning puzzles and a book too. So far she's digging the book more then anything else we bought her. Jared and I plan on getting a family photo done this weekend. We are unsure of what we are going to wear. I already have Morgan's outfit picked out though. Haha.. I'm pathetic. Let's see what else... Jared and I are also getting the house in rockford figured out because.. my dad is getting really annoyed with us. I was annoyed with him as soon as we moved in.. but at least he let us move in right? What else...

I'm still looking for a frick'n job. I need at least a part time job of anything so that we can afford the house in rockford. 1422 a month.. yippy :| That's if Lance is okay with letting us take it over. We asked today...

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joslyn_julia

:: 2006 26 September :: 9.01am

well here we are. school again. the so-called happy place.
no, things are pretty good. i have a few crazy teachers this semester but it really isnt that bad. except for the damn cold that i have recently acquired.

my parents got a new puppy. His name is riley and he is adorable. but i think i should go get ready for class, so i will see you.... wait, no.... well maybe i will run into one of you this weekend when i am at home.

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allyson

:: 2006 25 September :: 9.46am

This is not a request for compliments so...don't think that
*deep breath* Last night on desperate housewives I was crying inside for lynnette. Then, I did actually end up crying. Not because of that though. Well.. partly, but mainly because of how I feel about myself. I honestly believe that I am absolutly ugly. I told jared last night that, Once we get a house I'm saving all my extra money so that I can get the plastic surgery I've needed since I was thirteen. And, of course he said I didn't need it. But I do. I don't feel pretty at all. I mean I don't even think about it when I'm with just Jared but.. I'm not always with just him. I feel bad for him that he has to be seen with me. I try my best to look as good as I can. Cakein' on the make up and wearing (try to at least) nice clothes. I've felt this way since I could remember considering I got this scar at the age of 4.

Anyways, enough of my sad pathetic..ness. Jessica (morgan's mother) has taken away her friendship and says she will take away the nice things she's done for us ie. lowering the child support 70 dollars. She would prefer it if I delete my entry on myspace about Jared having sex with her and all the things she said. Her friend is sticking up for her and saying it's non of my business. How is it not?

I'm holding my ground for now. Needing a job, applying everywhere. Sending out resumes as well as filling out applications. Still no luck. I applied for a receptionist posistion at a company in cedar. That's the latest. I sent it out saturday so.. maybe I'll actually hear. I doubt it.

Alright, hope whoever reads this has a good/nice day.

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allyson

:: 2006 24 September :: 9.33pm

I feel like lynette on desperate housewives. Her whole situation.

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allyson

:: 2006 24 September :: 9.28pm

alright, just letting everyone know that I am posting under friends only from now on.

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Eddy	:: 2006 23 September :: 6.29am I haven't felt this way in the longest time. Its a wonderful, dramatic change. <3 P.S. Tonights phrase. Created by Connie and Yours Truly. "She's got a weiner in her buns and its full of condiments" (about Terri's hot dog) 4 No way... \| Tell me...

chelthesmell

:: 2006 22 September :: 3.04pm

pep assembly today. I have a headache from hell. I just have so much pep in me. enough spirit to share with the whole school and so much more.

Homecoming game tonight and then it's time to show off my dancin' skillz tomorrow. I am excited! yay! My voice is already going, I'm going to be fucked come sunday at work. haha! oh well.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 21 September :: 3.24pm

work is probably one of the gayest things i have to do...

and i have to do that in a few minutes...errg..!

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allyson

:: 2006 20 September :: 2.05pm

Well, a lot more has happened since I last wrote. I havn't been keeping up on this obviously but I'm going to try to more.

The cells have upgraded again and we will decide on November 8th if we will go ahead with the surgery to remove the lower portion of my uterus.

For those of you who didn't know, Jared and I planned to start a family of our own at the end of october. So, it looks like that probably won't be happening. I cried.. it was pathetic.

Over the course of two months Morgan's mother and I had been talking. Well that ended. Yesturday at that. Supposidly we're too much of a "great family" for her to handle talking to us. It makes her feel like a "bad mother". How pathetic is that. Oh, she says that she can't deal with us anymore and she's going to talk to friend of the court. About what... we already have scheduled times when we see her and who gets her on holidays... she's just jealous is what everyone is saying.

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