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2006 3 January :: 1.56pm
well i had a good new years
but everything else has been pretty uneventfull which i dont really mind. im reading a really good book right now its called the gunslinger and its by steven king, its not a horror which is suprising.
im getting ready to go to chad and have him show me the ropes real quick that way i can finally start on what i need to do. i also need a REAL job to make actual money so if anyone knows if anyone is hiring let me know please.
mt older brother has kindny stones which sucks but he will be fine, hes tough.
but other then that thats about it.
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2006 3 January :: 2.17am
Blah.. it's been a while.. quick recap. New years was outstanding. We spent the time from 11-12:15 by ourselves at rosa parks ice skating and just being the fun couple we are. And midnight was a blessing, because I couldn't have asked for a single thing to make that night better...
We're growing... together. and that makes me happy :)
Rampage games start february 3rd... and that's our deadline to have some routines together... I'm getting anxious to start performing in front of such a big crowd, and also getting kind of nervous. Which I guess is normal, but something I'm not really used to. If you get the chance this year, go to a rampage game (arena football) and watch us dance. it'll be an overall good time.
Oh, if you wanna see a quick trailer of us dancing go here.
http://media.putfile.com/Tek-Trailer
That's all folks.
-K. Loye
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2006 2 January :: 10.35pm
I am the happiest person I have ever met!
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2006 2 January :: 9.29pm
January 15th.
I'm going to see my dad. January 15th is when I'll be going there. I might be there for a week, or a few days.. I don't know. But I almost cried when I was on the phone with him. Next week I'm gonna go get my nails done, and then I'm gonna go see my dad.. and talk to him. Actually sit down, and talk to him. Tell him about my mom, about how I hate my job because my boss is a douche bag, about school, about my plans, and about.. whatever else comes to mind. I'm not into church, so I'll leave before Sunday, but I'll probably stay there for a week. We'll see. I'll take enough clothes to stay for a week anyway.
Maybe I'll even have him take me to go look at apartments downtown Chicago. That'd be fun. I'm excited. Alright, I'm gonna go do something now. Much love. <3
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2006 2 January :: 5.50pm
ya know, if what you're telling me, isn't what you mean, then I would rather you just get pissed and yell at me. And say what you mean, I don't like walking around on eggshells, and that's what I'm doing. So, fess up and yell or scream at me if that's what you gotta do, I'll sit there and take it from you.
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2006 2 January :: 5.03pm
You pretty much just lost me.
So walk away like you always do.
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2006 2 January :: 4.03pm
Here’s pictures of the GOOD part of my New Years.
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2006 1 January :: 11.18pm
alright, so pretty much, I don't know what to do. Should I stay around, or go? I'm leaning towards staying, but when has that EVER worked for me? ummmm never. So I guess I'm not going to get my hopes up. There is already too much crap in this situation that I'm not comfortable with. I wish I was easier to get to know, well, I at least wish that I was able to open up easier. I'm so BOORING! It drives me crazy! I can't just be made vunerable. That is so dangerous! Ok, I'm done, I don't want to hurt. oooh, but guess what!!?!?! I already am in this too far! and it's gonna be awful either way. So I guess I'm screwed. eh! shit on me!
damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn................................
seriously, BRAIN! SHUT UP!! I DON'T WANT YOUR HELP!
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2006 1 January :: 9.19pm
so i think i've decided that im gonna go on doing pageants. i think i have the right kind of personality, and if you do those things right the scholarships you get are amazing. i could PAY my way through college and be making a difference at the same time. if i really set my mind to it... i dont think i'll win all of them.. but i definatly think i could get down to the last 10 or so... and either way.. i know from experience that the pageant process itself is an amazing experience. plus i have a pretty impressive resume for one. i decided this while i took a bath tonight.... honestly.. a candle lit bubble bath is where you come up with and figure out the BEST things. plus my mom has a skylight.. and nothing is more relazing than listening to a gentle rain.
im scared about high school ending.. ANXIOUS but scared.... and for the first time in my life i have a plan. its so reassuring to know where i want to go with my life. and if i change my mind about this whole interior design thing.... at least i'll have a great side hobby to fall back on later in life! we went to schulers today and i found this book that was just amazing. it was 40 dollars.. but covered every (well im sure not EVERY) aspect of interior design.. even down to tips on creating your sample board. i think im gonna get it tomorrow. and when im done with this entry im gonna look at different colleges and their design programs.
its just so exciting to have an outline for my life. i've never had that before. i've never been sure about something so HUGE. im extremely indecisive. VENDING machines are a hassel for me! wayyy to many options! so when it comes to my life, and where im going to be in the future... you cant even imagine how confused i get. i havent ever delt with the whole "future" issue before. i just kind of made it through school.. and here i find myself at the end, and i was about ready to break. what kind of 17 year old doesnt have a career picked out? well i'll tell ya from experience.... a very normal one! i now know that im just lucky that i've chosen a career... because you cant just do that overnight. i dont think we should be rushed into deciding the rest of our lives! and i was feeling really down because i thought EVERY one had it figured out except for me. that is NOT the case. design is a passion that i've been practicing for years... and i didnt even know it! my room has always been a haven for me.. and a reflexion of my style. when we lived with brandi i was going crazy because i didnt have a space of my own. it sucked! i need that one place that just screams ME everywhere ya know? i'm very big on personal style.. and even though yes, i do wear abercrombie sometimes... i like to think i have my own style. its the little things that make me unique. i just love fasion and i think you're home should be a reflexion of everything that makes you feel like YOU. ughh.. im just SO excited!
*smiles really big......
with all these "plans" or whatever.. i've realized that in order to stay confident and focused i HAVE to get in shape. im not toooo far from it.. but far enough. i need to have alot of energy. i have a good head on my shoulders... and like i said in my last entry... i dont have any type of negative thing affecting me. that means i have no excuse not to suceed. i just have stay in shape and be on my toes. i am SO ready to embrace life. i wasnt put here to sit in cedar springs the rest of my life. and yeah.. everyone "hates" Cedar and wants to get out... but ya know what.. this is my home. and has always been my home. even though i know that there are bigger things out there... i know that in littler nowheresville michigan.. theres a small town that holds all my memories and the foundation for the rest of my life! i dont think you're SUPPOSED to want to stay in your hometown for the rest of your life! and lets face it... Cedar Springs is all over the united states. there are towns just like ours in every single 20 mile radius of every state... just a few different variations.. and some BIG cities like new york. dont be naive and think that this is the only small "hick" town around! this is our starting place.... not ending! be thankful for that! whether you want to admit it or not... this town has helped make us who we are. if we lived in LA we'd all have much different ambitions.
im just so content with my life right now.... and its so wonderful to feel this good!
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2006 1 January :: 4.32pm
Hey hey! Happy New Year everybody. Mine is starting out pretty damn good. Hope all of you have a good start to the year too!!
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2006 1 January :: 4.14pm
:: Music: Will Smith - Switch
2006.
So, the first thing I remember of 2006 is.. Anne being drunk, me crying myself to sleep, and my brother calling me when he's drunk. What a fabulous way to start the new year.
Last year, I started it with Jill. This year, I was with Bradford, Anne, Ross, Heather, John, and Joey. Oh, and Michelle. That all? I think so. It was fun though.
I'm eating fudge. So far, my new years resolution isn't coming true lol. I'm gonna make a new rule. New Years Day doesn't count. Starting tomorrow, I'm cutting out pop and a lot of chocolate. Every once in a while I'm gonna drink chocolate milk, but that's not bad for you. Unless you drink it like.. all the time. I don't think I'll do that. But, I am gonna stop making fudge and just eating it because it's there. I'm gonna actually try and.. be good with food. Eat only when I'm hungry, and not when something smells good lol. I have a habit of doing that. Being fat gets old.
That's pretty much my main goal. That and actually taking pride in what I have and what I do. Granted, I'll be like "fuck this day" every so often, but that's human.
Alright, enough. I'm bored and done now. I'm gonna go watch a movie and eat a lot before I have to stop :) Happy New Year.
ps I'm gonna try and go see my dad for about a week. I don't want to be here anymore, and I think it would be good for me to go see him for a little bit. Yeah. Sounds good.
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2005 31 December :: 6.25pm
:: Music: Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out
Suck.
I got Franz Ferdinand in the mail. Not the cd I orded, but their first one. I'll keep it though because I do like this one song. I'll just have to get their other cd later. Asses.
Alright, so I'm on the quest of a new job. My boss, fuck man Lee, is a fucking douche bag whore and needs to die tonight. That'd be the best last Christmas present ever. He fucking yells at me infront of customers so he can look like a big hot shot. Well, fuck that. Tanya's getting sick of it, and so am I. So, job hunting again. Yes. Gag me.
Oh, Happy Totally-Not-In-The-Spirit New Years. 2005 was good to me. Made a ton of new friends, got rid of a bitch of a friend, my future is set and ready to take action, I got my first job, Anne kissed me.. lol. Whatever! I love my friends. Anne, Ross, Liz, Allison, Dennis.. so on n so forth.
I'm gonna go play a game. I don't feel like going anywhere today. I'm taking the night off from people and life. Hope everyone has a great party to go to. My great party is totally gonna be in my basement with Head Hunter.
Scratch that. Anne convinced me to go to Bradford's. So, I'll be there at 8 until whenever I decide to leave. Great days.
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2005 31 December :: 1.52pm
:: Mood: tired
I count the days that we have spent apart. I've got a bad liver and a broken heart. There's no salvation in the comfort of you. I finally realized your tearing me apart.
I think what hurts me the most is the fact that you don't hurt at all.
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2005 30 December :: 5.46pm
Puddin Flop (as Stacy/Dani says)
Last night once again was fun as always. Like Stacy said this is mostly just going to be more for my benefit than anyone else's. I went and hung out at Danielles house with Big Nasty, Ryan Case, Dan, Tyler, Shane, Dustin, and of course Stacy. Stacy and I decided we wanted to make bacon randomly and we had the worst time making it and then like an hour later we were finally finished. "The dacon is bangerous" lol one of Stacy's wonderful lines. Then at like midnight we went to IHOP and I said I wouldn't ever go there again after what happened to Erika and I but I went anyways since I wasn't just going to not go with my friends and it wasn't all that bad. Our waitress was extremely weird and we were all trying to be nice and all of the sudden she asked someone at our table "how they wanted their meats?" and I looked at everyone and they were all trying not to laugh and all of the sudden I just busted out laughing and I made Ryan and Dan bust out laughing too. She was definitely odd. And then when Ryan, Tyler, Shane, and Dan went by the Rockford Church some kids threw snowballs at Shanes car and they stopped and got out and beat them up. It was pretty funny to hear about but I didn't see it since I wasn't riding with them and at first when they called us we didn't believe them but it really happend because when we got back Dan's face had a huge hole in it and was bleeding and Ryan's face was swelling up. I couldn't believe it and then on the way to IHOP a cop pulled them over because Shanes lights went off because Ryan said "they were jammin' too hard"...I don't know but I just couldn't stop laughing last night. We always have some great times.
I should get going though because I'm hanging out with Logan, Emily, and Justin later.
So everyone have a good weekend.
<3 Ashley
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2005 30 December :: 3.58pm
Woooh! Last night was so much fun!!! Me, Ashley, Bum, and Eddy went out for a girls night! It was a blast. We went to Steak and Shake for dinner and had lots of fun just talking about b.s and old times, which was pretty fun. Lots of laughing and all that. Then we went to Rockford lanes and bowled three games (two of which we got ripped off of) We took SOOO many crazy pictures! It was great! We definitly have to do that more often!!
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2005 30 December :: 2.35am
I'm about to go running in the other direction.
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2005 30 December :: 12.55am
:: Mood: Spent
:: Music: Korn - Twisted Transistor
Now, I'm done.
I spent $112.79 at Walmart tonight. I only have like.. 20 bucks left in my account. Bad. Now, I'm done spending money. January 6th I get paid again, and I swear that money is going straight to the bank. I'm gonna pay my mom her 120, then my grandpa his 150, the rest is in the bank. I'll open a savings account probably next Thursday. I'll just close my Credit Union account, and go soley through Independent. I might even check out the other bank in town. Bank One and Fifth Third. Just to check out their savings account and insterest rates. I'll probably just stay with Independent though. That way I can do all my banking in one area. Makes life easier.
Tomorrow I work 10-7:30, then Saturday I work 10-5. After this weekened, things will go back to normal. So dumb lol. But, me and Tanya will each get a day off during the week, so that's good. I'm trying to ask for Thursday's off, but if I can't have those, then I'll just deal with Wednesday or Tuesday. Not big thing, but Thursday nights are GVSU nights, and since school starts soon.. I'm gonna go. Maybe, I'll see if Lisa and Allison want to hang out on Wednesdays instead. Even though, Thursday is OC night. Eh. I dunno, I'll figure something out.
Right now, it's 1am, and I have to get up in 7-8 hours. Preferably 7, but if I can't then I'll just rush in the morning and look like ass. Gotta make chicken dip. So gay! Too much mixing. Tanya did it last time. Well, she did the fiesta dip. But chicken dip is worse.
Anyway, bed time. Goodnight.
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2005 29 December :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: Unbelievably Happy
:: Music: Touch The Sky- Kanye West
What A Wonderful Day!
Today was like the best day . I saw the 3 most important people in my life today and I loved it. Last night Ashley Elizabeth Gage (teehee) randomly came over and spent the night… and I totally loved it. I haven’t hung out with her like in like a 10 months (kinda not exaggerating either)! Even though we pretty much did NOTHING it was still like the best ever. So I got to see her this morning so that’s 1 out of 3. Then I went over to Jordan’s for about 10 minutes (person #2) THEN at about 3:00ish Kerrilynn called me and told me to come over (so that’s person #3). But I was really tired, so I took a nap there lol… eh oh well Kerri slept too. Then we ate tacos, (mmmhhh yum) then at about…7:15ish I left and since I only saw Jordan for about a total of 2.5 seconds… after Kerrilynn’s, I went back to Jordan’s. THEN more people show up at Jordan’s randomly like… Brianna and Ashley Anderson, then of course since Brianna came over Dan had to RUIN the girls night we had going on… lol jk. Anywho: I know that it probably sounds like a kind of boring day but I loved it. So here’s some pictures.
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I Have The Bestest Friends In The World.
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2005 29 December :: 3.28pm
Stop, stare, and watch me burn. Someday it'll be your turn. You can't fool me. I can see all the things that you didn't want me to see. You threw my heart away and thats the price I paid. I know it's never fair, you promised me you'd always be there but you never really cared.
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2005 29 December :: 3.00pm
Yay!! Girls night tonight!!! We are gonna have so much fun! And I guess im getting a lap dance from Ashley for my birthday!! wooh!! Happy Birthday to ME!
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2005 29 December :: 12.56am
well! WHOOO! I'm excited! yesssssssss! I can hardly wait!
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2005 28 December :: 11.53pm
What the hell am I supposed to say to that? Seriously. I don't think I have ever been so shocked in my entire life. That is the nicest most weird thing ever.
Stacy: I have to tell you something and I know what you told me wasn't supposed to be anything exciting but my news is. It's actually pretty much top secret. No joke.
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2005 28 December :: 11.23am
Last night was so much fun. I love you Stacy, Mishy, Dani, and Brittani. Devin and Ben were also pretty awesome guys. Nate on the other hand, let's not go there. Stacy and I are sluts, we rocked their worlds, end of story. Kidding we aren't. We stayed out all night and we went to Morningstar, Vertigo, and Skelletones. It was so fun. We met Trisha, Natalie, and Brittani there too. Dani is the worst driver ever. I'm not kidding. We almost died a few times. She just drives downtown in GR and she doesn't even stop at red lights or stop signs. The worst part about it is that she doesn't even realize that she runs red lights and stop signs. So I figured that most of us didn't really want to die so I made sure to tell her where she needed to stop and go at. We went to Bens at around 1 and I was playing video games with Mishy and at first she was losing so she just quit and I didn't really realize this until afterwards but I got so into the stupid game. They have this video of me and I'm like freaking out while I'm playing it. It was hilarious. Anyways we didn't get home until like 4:30 and I slept probably about three hours so I'm sort of tired but I'll be okay. I had so much fun and we are going to do it again.
"Use my strong hand"
"105.4" lol
I didn't realize that if you wear a skirt in the middle of winter, it made you a slut but then again what do I know?
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2005 28 December :: 5.15am
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Howie Day - Collide.
I hate this.
I'm so incredibly tired, I just can't sleep. Why not?
I've realized that I might be a little insane. Not like crazy, but retarded. The thoughts going through my head are ones that I haven't had so long, and it felt good to not think about it for a while. Now, I can't stop. What's with that?
I've been tired for a few hours, I layed in my bed for a few hours. I played solitare on my iPod for a little, then I just layed there some more. I can't stop thinking about him. It's not right, and I don't.. want to anymore. Do I?
I told him some things, kinda mean things, but true. Something I never really thought I'd say, but after I said it, I wish I didn't. I'm afraid to lose him, even though he was lost before and I didn't care. Well, not lost, just.. busy.
I've been crying a lot, and it's scaring me. I feel like crying right now actually. I just hope this comes and goes before March.
I had a day off. That was probably the best feeling thing in the world. I actually did things too. Granted, I didn't do anything I really should have, but I got some things done, sort of. I like having a day off. Maybe I will take Lee up on that twice a week offer.
I believe these earphones are making my ears bigger. The things are huge, and my ears kind of hurt.
Starting right now, I'm done splurging. Time to start saving. 500 dollars for spending money (since I payed all my debts off with my grandpa's money), and the rest is going to be saved for a laptop. I don't think I can get enough, but it never hurt to try. Even if I don't have the money by March, I'll have that much more money to put towards one after I get back.
I always tend to update this thing and make the entries longer than what anybody wants to read, but oh well right? I guess if you care, then you'll read. Otherwise, you'll bypass it and just wait for shorter entries.
I should try to sleep now. Howie Day is kinda putting me to sleep. Goodnight.. or morning. However you plan on reading it.
Even the best fall down sometimes..
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2005 26 December :: 8.35pm
god i hate being sick. i threw up three times. the first was really bad (there was actually blood in it) and i was freezing my balls of. so i took a hot bath at 6:00 in the morning.
christmas was awsome...i got my tattoo stuff and i know ive said this a thousand times but im really excited and i know all of you are getting sick of hearing that. i had fun with ben today. to bad he couldnt stay longer. well thats about all i got so say so.....bye
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