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(So Many Assume) ...So Little Know...

:: 2005 9 August :: 7.32pm

Hey EVERYONE!!

Tomorrow night, we are going to the Margarita Grill to party!!! So if you think you can take it!! come and help us celebrate Dani's 18th Birthday by dancing till you drop!

We're gonna be there around 9:30, so I REALLY hope to see you there!

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eyesofcrystal

:: 2005 9 August :: 12.36pm

Soooo.......I never write in here anymore....as Im sure everyone can tell. But people could only notice that I never write in here if there was, in fact, anybody who READ my journal. This has ended up being something where I can just be like "FUCK SHIT COCK ASS" and scream whatever I want because no one will notice. HA!

Yea.....so school starts soon. Yippy for that.

If like, any of my old friends who read this or any of my new friends read this and want to hang out or something, give me a call because i have nothing to do anymore and I need places to go and people to spend time with. I still live with Tony so you all should know the number.

Bye

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swimfan14

:: 2005 9 August :: 12.55pm

I'm back from Detroit. Well I was back last night but I didn't have time to write about it. Detroit was quite eventful.

My cousin Brina is here. She is two. She came back with me last night and she is staying for a couple days. Shes so cute and usually my cousin Lindsey who is my age (her sister) watches her but my Aunt says she doesn't think Lindsey does a good job so she wanted me to watch her. She loves lip gloss and found all my makeup and is destroying my room and she makes me take her in the pool every five minutes.

My cousins friend was over when I was there and for some reason my cousin got mad at me and her friend so we just left her went outside and talked. It was nice talking to someone that doesn't go to my school or who didn't use to go to my school. She views things differently I guess and it just helped talking to someone for once because I don't trust anyone here at all.

Anyways my cousins friend was there like 3 days before I got there and everyday she would walk to this party store right down the street and buy candy so then when I got there she wanted me to go with her so I did and this guy was in there that was there when she went too and he kept flirting with us. Then the next day we went there and there was another hot guy working there and he started talking to us and he was like "your all cuties" and hes like "you should come party with us" and were just like "umm right" and anyways it was really akward. We went home and like 5 minutes later my aunt was like "can you guys go to the store and get chocolate milk" for my cousin Brina so were like sure but were not going inside the store because of those guys so we made my cousin Haileigh go in and she went in and the guy asked her where her crew was and she told them we were waiting outside and so we were sitting outside and I go "wouldn't it be funny if they walked out" and soon enough the guy walked out and hes like "why are you guys standing out here" and we were laughing hysterically and he made us come in the store and we told him we felt dumb for going twice in one day and he was like "well thats what a store is for" so we talked again and the next day only one of the guys was there and my cousin wanted candy so we went with her but didn't go in with her and the guy told her to tell my cousins friend and I that he was mad at us for not coming in but we didn't really want to because once again we felt dumb. The next day we went there again and made my cousin Haileigh go in there and buy us more candy and the hot guy that was working there wouldn't give my cousin Haileigh the change from our candy unless we went inside so we told her to tell him to keep the change and she came out with two packs of cry babies for us because he told her to tell us we were being cry babies. It was really funny and then the next day before we left we went insisde and talked to him and we gave him our cell phone number just so he would be happy lol.

When I was there my cousin and I went running everynight and we would run 2 miles and anyways she lives right by 8 mile and we were running at 10:30pm and we seen a hooker on the corner and we started laughing at her and she said hi to us. It was really gross.

I have to go take Brina in the pool and then im going to the mall. <3

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swimfan14

:: 2005 8 August :: 9.14pm

Thats all I needed to know.

Things are finally, finally looking up.

So what, I'm better off everyday.

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tonyp.

:: 2005 8 August :: 3.50pm

well ive been better but i guess ill have to manage. if anyone wants piercings ill hook you up just call me 696-9784 call me and id love the support. and if anyone ever wants to hang out im free

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whispers

:: 2005 8 August :: 4.56pm
:: Music: oasis - stop crying your heart out

oh.. man.
i'm not sure of what's going on in my skull, but i don't believe i like it. it's coming too early. like.. way too early. last night it hit me hard. i was talking to j, and he told me to talk about what i was thinkin about, so i did. i just.. kept talkin, tellin him everything that was on my mind. and.. lol. he told me my dad was a dick, but i'd probably end up bein with someone like him. and i told him i probably will be, if the guy is anything like he was before he married satan. then.. j ruined the mood by saying "the spider?"

okay, long story short,
the spider j was referring to
would be the spider that tried to kill me 2 nights ago.
i named it satan.

so then i got out of my bad mood and jus.. laughed. but anyway, it's like.. randomly coming and going. i feel like i'm in 10th grade again.

alright, so i watced rosa parks story today. it was good. i'm gonna watch some of roots later. not all of it, because it's a 10 hour movie. but, some of it. i'll take shifts lol.

anyway, i'm gonna go find a way to cool off cause i'm really fuckin hot sittin here. good day.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 8 August :: 10.47am

keegan just left for work, i suppose i should do something productive like mow the lawn.... i'll just wait for him to do it! :)

my senior pictures went pretty good. we were there for 3 and a half hours and he's still not done. so tuesday we're going to the beach, and then we still have set up another indoor session. and yesterday i came to the realization that my cheeks are entirely to fat. i really really dont like them. i told my mom that im gonna get lyposuction done on my cheeks.. laughs... its true.

we went to see keegan at work last night.... simply HAD to give him a hard time. he's a good waitor. my cousin audra was working too.. so she sat down with us for quite a while... said she was gonna have it out with keegan cuz he took her family and we should have been sitting in HER section. giggles* audra said i was the talk of server alley last night..... ohhhhh yeah.

when he got out of work we went and got life and guess who... gotta love the classics. what nerds we are.

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 7 August :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: Eric Clapton - You look wonderful Tonight

...
ATTENTION : If your not interested in reading a pissy entry then just look over it.

I'm having one of those days where i just....I'm not happy. I'm not happy with myself. Like when you look in the mirror and say "im not satisfied". I dont understand why anyone else is satisfied with me either. I wish that i looked like some of my friends. Sometimes its like..when im around them i feel....lower. Like For instance : I wish i had amys long, gorgeous hair, and her 100 watt smile that could make the most pissed off person light up, and jordans big brown eyes and I wish my body looked half as good as hers. Even things about my mom. My moms great self.... and her personality. My mom is great. I think im just looking into it too much... But still, its upsetting. Tomorrow will be better and i wont think like this..its very rare but i hate it when it happens.

But then again, i can only blame myself. Because im still trying to adjust to being a new person. Theres alot that im not showing alot of people and I think that would make me a better person. But i still have to figure all that out. I'm slowly finding me. I'm slowly beginning to see who i want to be. Alittle bit of each of my friends.

And sometimes.. I just wish he would rub off on me. It used to be when we were friends i was learning something new from him everyday. Different qualities... Everything he does is an inspiration to do great. Granted he's not perfect and has issues to deal with...And he handles them so... maturely. I wish I could be like him. It seems like it would be so much easier to deal with if i were alittle more like him.

I suppose I'm done.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 7 August :: 9.28am

yesterday was one of the best days this whole summer.

we had our grand haven parade... and let me tell ya, it was HUGE! but it was so much fun before hand because we got to walk around and hand out massive ammounts of red flannel buttons to the other floats and there are some CRAZY people! one of the floats was a huge coast guard boat, and all the queens and court members that were around all got up onto the boat with the coast gaurd men..... *mmmm* and got a very lovely picture taken with all the guns on the boat.... i dont know it was just sooo fun. and the parade itself was huge... at one point one of the guys from WGVU jumped on our float with his camera crew and asked me all these questions...... i was like woohu! *giggles.

my mom and keegan made it to the parade just in time, they werent even there for 10 minutes when my float went by. after the parade we went to my uncle mark and aunt pattys (me, my mom, keegan and shelby) and then we came back into cedar.. by the way.. i have MASTERED the art of changing in the car. its pretty difficult to change out of those red flannel dress and all the stuff with it without flashing all the other cars..... laughs* anyways..... we came back here to freshin up and all that good stuff.. then me and keegan went over to his house for jennys shower.. jenny is keegans cousin, and she's marrying my cousin ben... they've been together since the 8th grade... it was kind of odd being at keegans house for a bridal shower for my cousins fiance... a little ironic. but it was so cool, cuz my aunt susie was there... so i was in like my second home, eating really good food talking to my OWN family! te he he..... but NO this does not make us related... and besides he's adopted... mwah ha ha ha.

after the shower me keegan and emma went back to my house to pick up shelby (she's four) and the 4 of us went to chucky cheese. we got 160 tokens... holy cow! it was sooooo much fun. one of the funnest things we've done in the summer! *laughs.. we're such nerds... but it was cool because it was me and keegan and our sisters. it was sweet and all that jazz..... :)

OH yeah... and between the four of us shelby had 1102 tickets to choose stuff with.... *shakes head. its funny cuz we spent 30 dollars on tokens for probably 5 dollars worth of stuff..... oh well, we got good pictures and those are "priceless" *laughs...... OH the cornyness.

i have my senior pictures today.... they BETTER still be today. they got reschedualed last time. im excited.. im super tan right now. well... i think anyways *shrugs.

yancy didnt make it out to grand haven yesterday.... the traffic was to bad, he never would have made it.... ahh well.

when we left chucky cheese we went to target and i bough shelby this disney princess game... well the setup took forever, so me, shelby, my mom and keegan were up till midnight because she HAD to play it before she went to sleep. she's so cute.

alright, i've babbled on enough. i dont like writing long descriptive entires.. AND i dont like reading them... but whatever

have a good day loves.

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kellilynn21

:: 2005 6 August :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: aggravated

[Shit Happens]
Best friends are so over rated sometimes, because most of the time� they end up betraying you a number of times or you get in a fight and you stop talking� and I�m sure there�s a billion other things out there of why �best� friends aren�t friends anymore.

But thankfully, I know who are my friends and who are my best friends and luckily I only I have 2 I have to keep tabs on lol.

I hate it how people think that just because your best friends with someone, means that you talk to them all the time and you hang out all the time, because that�s not true. I have the bestest friend ever- but I hardly ever see her. It just bugs me when people question stuff like that. She happens to be the best person I know, which really also sucks because we don�t really get to hang out a lot. (I miss you like you wouldn�t believe)

But thankfully (also), my other best friend, that I love to pieces and even though sometimes we both want to strangle each other, I do see all the time and hang out with� normally lol. She means the world to me, and I love how honest we are with each other about everything. I think the best thing about our friendship, that I really haven�t seen a lot of with other peoples friendships is that when we fight� 5 seconds later were talking and laughing again. We just yell at each other then, start laughing about it. (except for one fight that I can think of).

I just hope that everyone out there knows who their true friends are. And make sure you keep them, because I know that I�ve had a lot of best friends before in the past that I thought we would still be friends too. So just make sure that you work hard at your friendships� there not something worth throwing away over a fight or something dumb like that.

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 6 August :: 3.57pm

To sum up last night
>>>>>>>Intense.

I miss Dan. I miss him alot. It hasn't been that long, but reguardless...I just feel like I need to see him. There is an empty feeling in my stomach. :(.

I'm going to walk away from the computer now to go do something more imortant... Like lay on the couch and watch Full House re-runs.

Bye

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wierdo

:: 2005 6 August :: 9.46am
:: Mood: tired and bored
:: Music: Def Lepard

Well, its been quite the time since i've been in here. Going on like 7 months now or something like that.

Well, i guess i'll start with the bad/depressing news. Emily broke up with me July 20th. We were together almost 9 months. It was bad........i mean really bad. I just can't stop thinking about her. I swear...for a while ....thinking about her was the only reason that i didn't kill myself. I don't want to kill myself and i'm not going to, but i did. Last week was the first time i saw her in 2 weeks. I saw her at the gas station. Then later on that night at a friends house. We didn't really talk at all and it was quite awkward. But then we talked on the phone the next day for like an hour. Nothing happened. We just kinda concluded that we would just try to be best friends. She still loves me and wants to be friends, is what she said. So yeah, once again i was heart broken. But you know what, thats life. Shit happens, and most of the time there's not a damn thing anybody can do about it, so why try.

Well, i guess the good news is my summer is going pretty good. Except for the whole paragraph up above. I'm hangin out with alot of my old friends that i haven't been around in a long time. Its alot of fun. My sister had her baby towards the end of may or beginning of June, one of the two. But she had a girl. Her name is Kelsie Rose. Kamie and Todd just got their appartment too. So i'm really happy for my sister right now. She has a baby, a job, support for the baby, and her own place with the baby's father. Its good to know that she's in good hands right now.

So yeah...i haven't wrote in here in a long time. I'm sure i missed a few people's birthday's.

Umm...Happy 18th B-day to Amy! But i already saw you after your birthday.

Erika....happy 17th birthday to you.

Um......and yeah i can't really think of anybody elses. So if i missed you, then i'm sorry and happy birthday. I've gotta get going now. Everybody in here should leave me a message or comment. It will make me feel good cause then i'll know that people read what i write and yeah.

Kevin L. Meek

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 5 August :: 2.19pm

Yesterday was a good day. Woke up, went to Jorda's and SHOWERED. Went to allyns and got my clothes that i haven't seen in a couple of months... Then went to the mall with jord and pavlak to see DAN. It was a good time. On the down side i was pretty upset. Jordan and I went to look at the rings and I just thought it would be the sweetest thing to get one. Not that I need one it would just be the SWEETEST thing in the world. Especially since AMY is getting one from Kevin thats over 4 grand... It's just depressing.

Anyways after the mall we went back to pavlaks and andrew c was there and we all played pool and stuff. Joes brother is the sweetest!!!
Then dan rescued me from there and we went back to my house to find my room just TRASHED, after i cleaned it for about 6 hours. It was messy ... again. I was FURIOUS!!. Then dan went to Jakes for a bit then came back over.

Yeah Amy that was weird. I can't really explain what happened. I dazed off and just....i could see his face. It's as if the world stopped and he was instantly there and it was just us on this planet. It was really freaky. THen i snapped back into reality and i had to tell him that i loved him. That second.

F R E A K Y.

Oh yeah its drumms going away party tonight give me a call if your interested and i'll give ya directions to my cottage.

835-8151

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Paradox

:: 2005 5 August :: 2.18am

It's crazy, we've been together for a long time, and the emotions I feel are so much stronger than just liking you. and just caring about you. But contrary to popular belief. I don't love you.. yet... So what's the word I use here?

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jennapie

:: 2005 5 August :: 12.30am

awwww shit.

I'm thinking that one year at CC would be perfectly fine with me. I don't know why it matters to anyone that "that's what my sister did," I'm not her, and I don't have to have the same type of Education, this isn't like high school where you have no choice. I don't wanna go to CC. One year, I'm serious, then I want to move on. Stacey's going to State, and yeah it's a good school and everything, but I don't think I wanna go there too. It would be cool to go to different schools. I need to be independent sometime in my life. I have already been asked to live in a house at Central, so that's a possibility, and a good one! and I have to get a new job because the ice cream shop won't cover college, or once the summer's over, my car payment either! So I HAVE to do that anyway. and the lady that I baby-sit for, said that she would raise me a dollar to stay, but that still won't cover like......anything, so I think I'm going to have to turn that down too, but it's hard thinking about doing that when I have nothing else lined up yet. BUT I HAVE TO! I don't want to follow my sister, I want to be on my own, I seriously want to live away from home for a while, wouldn't it seriously suck if I never had the chance to have roommates? or live on my own, with my own job, and my own car, and my own bills, and not have to report to my parents everynight about where I'm going and who I'm seeing! I can't wait for that. I want it to happen sooner than later. I can tough it out at CC this year, but I honestly don't know if I want to the second year, I also want my parents support in whatever I choose to do, so staying at CC might be the only way. I mean, Stacey left CC with no bills to pay. none, and I'm going to I think, just because I can't seem to get it together. I need a good paying job, but everything seems so bleak, I don't even know where to begin looking. I don't know, I guess I just had to try and sort this all out on my own, but it doesn't seem like I've gotten anywhere at all. ugh!

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jennapie

:: 2005 4 August :: 10.33pm

Dani, please call me. It's kinda important.

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jennapie

:: 2005 4 August :: 9.59pm

I love llama's.

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jennapie

:: 2005 4 August :: 8.45pm

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 3 August :: 11.53pm

i went with keegan down to blues tonight... its such an exciting atmosphere... *giggles.

im never down town.... but TONIGHT... oh man, tonight we got REAL fresh squeezed lemonade, i witnessed hours of incredible break dancing, and a big fat girl and her gang of trailor trash started some drama with this awesome girl that can breakdance.. i mean comon.. if i was fat and ugly and "on fucking probation" i wouldnt be starting something with a girl who has every breakdancer on the floor telling these nasty girls to go home..... bahh. some people make me sick! i mean there were little kids around... and keegan told them that and they were like "fuck the little kids" im thinkin "who the hell is you!" (te he... chris rock stand up is so funny) but anyways.. that was about it. keegans gonna teach me to break dance... *laughs.... i'll run this shit. *cheezy music plays..... "do do do do do do do, jump on it, jump on it" gotta love that song......

then after we left there we stopped over to gorters house played some pool which we lost terribly to him and taylor..... oh and all the gorter drama... if you dont know ryan and arent affiliated with him.. leave it alone. its none of your buisness... i dont see why it matters so much.

idiots.

anyways... long day... gotta call my favorite asian since its an early night for us. usually i wouldnt be home for another couple hours.... this sucks... but its all good. sometimes sleep is good.

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 3 August :: 11.00pm

Dan, im so sorry. I had no idea what they were doing.
I swear i had nothing to do with this...I'm sorry baby.

*anyways*
They cant be mad at MY boyfriend because he disapproves. ugh. He was the only honest person I think. I want it to work believe me. And theres always hope from me no doubt...but...its so soon, and they are SO young.

They disrespect MY BABY, in my own house! They cant be mad at him because of his opinion. Especially if more then one persons feel the same way. They are mad at him because he is a peer to them. THey are expecting support. NOt that he doesnt support it...but he has many doubts. But was really pissed me off is my MOM said the same thing and they still love her and would do anything for her. I'm sorry i just want them OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goodness...

Jenna sees it.

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 3 August :: 8.37am

I never knew that words meant so much. The way you throw them together, you made last night perfect.

Gah your so perfect!!!

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 2 August :: 2.32pm

MY BEST EFFING FRIEND IS GETTING MARRIED!!!

Just so that's out. It feels GREAT to be home, like unbelivable. I missed it so much. Last night was...Memorable

I love Dan!

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jennapie

:: 2005 2 August :: 12.43pm

I'M SO EXCITED FOR DANI!!!!!!

SHE'S OUT ON HER DATE WITH TOM!! IN LANSING AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR HER TO GET HOME AND TELL ME ALL ABOUT IT! CALL ME MISS LAUER! I SERIOUSLY AM REALLY EXCITED TO HEAR ABOUT IT! AND DON'T LEAVE ANYTHING OUT!

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jennapie

:: 2005 2 August :: 11.27am

I don't wanna go to work today. I have to work at 4, so if you really wanna make my day, come and entertain me there! You can get ice cream too!!! hahah!

Ouch, my back hurts!

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swimfan14

:: 2005 1 August :: 1.43pm

I'm leaving again tonight. I'm going to Detroit and we might be going to Cedar Point but I don't know yet. Reguardless if I go to Cedar Point or not, I wont be home until Saturday. Somehow I'm never home and I still manage to be okay and I'm never homesick. I think that if I moved far away from here I would be happy with that as long as my mom and dad both moved. Only two more years and im outta here.

Brie: I called Dan back last night and he gave me your number and then I called but it was busy so I told him to tell you to call my cell phone sometime this week.

Kevin two wayed me twice yesterday. Were going to hang out soon. I miss him.

Other than leaving there is nothing new. My sister keeps going in and out of my room because shes trying to find something to wear today and it's really annoying me. I hate when people wear my clothes. I need to go pack though.

P.S.-looks like you'll never know what happened then, will you? ;)

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