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2005 22 February :: 2.58pm
:: Mood: content
WE FINALLY SAW HITCH !!! yay !! =]] hehe, it was good and i had an extreamly good time with dann, no real reason really?! just hppy to be with him <333333
anyways, were supposed to hang out today =]] im excited =P...
hehe, but i gotta go do some homework at the office befor he gets off !!
toodlesssss ;)
<3333 ashhhhyy
I LOVE DANN !!
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2005 20 February :: 5.49am
its almost 6am, im still going. i cant stop.
my eyes are swollen shut.
you;ll never understand what you mean to me
i love you
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2005 18 February :: 11.50pm
Tonight was Awesome!
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2005 18 February :: 12.57pm
:: Mood: chipper
well, iv had some pretty crazy days latley .
i really want to see hitch. and iv tryed numorous times with dann, but its like were not supposed to see this movie !! The other night ..we planned on going --> i get a phone call at the tinme hes supposed to be leaving.." im going to be fucking stuck here for another hour" bla bla bla... some shit happend so im liek fuck, ya kno? so whatever
-----> 20 minutes laster i get a phone call form him. . . "meet me at my house im going to change" im like wait huh? "ASHLEY !!" okay okay im coming lol
so we leave his house and rush over to the boynton theater were five minutes late for the movie 5 no big deal. . . previews and stuff..." were closed" the movie started 5 minutes ago?? "were closed"
..... yeaa
so we get in the car and go to the other boynton theater, we are 30 minutes late, so we just gave up. since we both were hungry we decided we would go out to eat, as were driving to find a place eat . . . he mentions city place... hmm ?!
i call 411 and the guy tells me the last showing is in 20 minutes. soo we get on i -95 and rush down there. 1 mile befor our exit. dead stop. down to one lane. we stat there a good 45 minutes, we finally got out of the traffic mess, and our exit was even closed
so we got off, and back on to go to town.
Ended up at Dennys at 12 at night.. we get a phone call fdrom krystina, her car is broke down all the way back where we were so we go home and wake up his parents and tom and dan left to go help her, i went home.. just when we though the night was ending.. mann
Befor all this i went over to best buy to buy dann a cd, as im pulling in, i fuckin hit a god damn car, i was so fucking freaked, im not going into details, nothing at all happended to his car, mine has a scratch really, but i thought i was gogin to die, and this really nice kidd and his friend helped me out the whole time, thanks "dan" & "trick"
and where was i going with all this ?!?!
--> oh yeah that was that night. lol i dunno, i was inturupted and im so confused now...
....soo i promise, you and i will go together to see hitch
i love you !!
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2005 18 February :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: annoyed
thats why i don't talk about you in here anymore = \
GR
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2005 16 February :: 9.31pm
well whats new? valentines day sucked, but who gives a shit because ::
NEWSFLASH :: so did a shitload of other peoples
plans for the weekend fell through, figured they would and im starting to not trust who i trusted before. I realized almost everybody talks shit and when its possible for you to get caught in anything you always point fingers.. always.
Ive been sick since monday which sucks, but eh what can you do? didnt go to school today for the first day this year. Stayed in bed all day and watcched movie after movie. [italian job, oceans 11, a cinderella story, freaky friday, and getting there] My cat was with me the whole time, almost like he knew i was sick. hmph.
ive decided to MOVE ON. Theres obviously not the same amount of feeling coming from both of us, so whats the point of me wasting my time. Im not gonna dwell over a guy who isnt even worth it. Friends, yeah of course i still wanna be friends, but other than that, i expect nothing. and what ive realized is .. his loss, not mine.
The only thing i wish is that this fight between my family would get resolved because i really miss rob and joe. but foreal, i dont know why i let myself cry over a guy. A guy who is being persuaded by a bunch of people who wouldnt know the truth if it hit them on the head. but thats okay, because i have my friends and even tho theyre far away, theyre still there for me. [zach i was almost ready to say fuck everything i dont give a shit, but i just needed one push to get it overwith - and u did it, like u always do, and i love you] im finally ready to say FUCK YOU and move on.
so lets be honest now
fuck you pops for never being there for me when i needed you, and now im being there for you. it killed me for years that you werent a real father, but you know what, i cant change you and i have no desire to try. so heres my new slate. fresh and clean. i forgive you
fuck you all at jfk for not being there when my mother needed you. i cant go back, i cant make my mother here again, but i forbid to hold a grudge on you fucks who have hearts blacker then night, i forbid to let ur faults stay in the back of my mind and drag me down, i forbid to let u make me feel miserable. i forgive you
fuck you alex for being a dick, fuck you mo for being the stalker you are, fuck you mike and christine for mindfucking me, fuck you jimmy for being a tease and letting people get to you and for making me hear shit from the grapevine, but you know what. i pity you all for the bullshit you put me through. but i forgive you
fuck you you bastards who broke into my house and stole from me and my mother while she was on her deathbed. but more then disgust i have in you, i again hold pity. but because you dont matter and you never did i forgive you
and God, i hated you for taking my mother from me, i hated you for taking her the way you did, making her suffer, and me not being ready for her to leave, i hated you for the life i now live and i hated you for not letting me get one last hug, but you know what, she's in a better place, and she's happy, and she's looking down on me always. of course i want her back, but shes not coming back, and i think ive finally accepted that. and God i forgive you
and last but not least
fuck you danielle for letting all these people get to you and for spending nights crying and feeling sorry for yourself, nobodys life is perfect and nobodys ever will be. fuck you for feeling inferior and for holding on to things that cant change. fuck you for holding back feelings and not doing what you want when you want to, but even more then that, fuck you for not letting go and not being yourself. but it all doesnt matter because i forgive you
i finally forgive myself, and im finally going to take a leap and let go. i have to, because denial is no better or easier then the real deal. God help me and please help me to get through the rest of my life, dont let me sell myself short, bc that is something i do easily. help me to stand up for myself and be a strong independant woman.
forgiveness is beautiful. much love to my friends and family
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2005 16 February :: 2.10pm
:: Mood: crazy
i love my friends and my boyfriend
=]]
♥ ♥ ♥
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2005 15 February :: 11.19am
:: Mood: tired
so its the day after valentines day . . and i still have this big cheesey face =]]
yeah* i had a good day . even with work . even though i had to stay way to late , and now my boyfriend is madd at me = \ . . . .
Happy Birthday !!
<33
hope you guys enjoyed your day too !!
He Gave Her A Dozen Roses .. Eleven Real and One Fake
And Said I Will Love You Until The Last One Dies <33 `*
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2005 14 February :: 1.46am
Give me three random colors.
1. Pink
2. white
3. black
Your name is: Brittany
You love: Matthew
You want: to spend the rest of my life with the person I love.
You wish: i could see him.
You have: Matt, and megan
You need: to go to sleep.
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2005 13 February :: 10.25pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: lohan - rumors
asdkfljas
____ the world. you fill in the blank.
anyway, so im not in the mood to update anybody on anything right now. I am so pissed for so many reasons I'm shaking. lauren - we NEED to talk, lets say by that one link you gave me, I found and saw a lot of information i didnt want to read and see.
i dont know what i feel, or what i should feel and frankly i dont know what to do anymore in this situation.. well im so shaken right now i cant concentrate or say what i want to say so ill just write about this when i have more self control. i dont want to say anything ill regret or anything i dont mean.
Im a strong girl who keeps my shit in line, even with tears streaming down my face i still manage to say [I m F i n e] .. fine .. freaked out, insecure, narotic, and emotional. [the italian job, so true]
love no nigga' . trust no ho'
dont allow someone to be your priority .... while allowing yourself to be their option
you gotta live your life no matter what comes along, its gonna be tough, but you gotta stay strong.
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2005 13 February :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: scared
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okay so i wasnt scared untill now
hold my hand . . . <33
my boyfriend , told me i "may see him" on wed . . . .
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2005 12 February :: 10.51am
i brought her back today ...
=]
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2005 10 February :: 9.35pm
So I'm going to swirl this weekend. Dont have a date or anything, but it should still be fun. My Dad actually bought me a dress, I couldnt believe it. I'm taking my acts this Saturday 2, my goal is to get a 20. Otherwise I'm gonna have to take them over prly. I think I'm gonna go away for college. I feel like I need something new.
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2005 8 February :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: upset
MY "VALENTINES DAY SUPRIZE" WAS RUINED TONIGHT.
=[[
----> HE DIDNT HE LIKE THE IDEA
......OTHER THAN THAT I HAD A GREAT NIGHT
--> SPENT WITH HIM <--
OX*<3
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2005 8 February :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: bs - dont let me be the last to know
soooo anxious
kk. well lemme check my last few entries to see where i left off...
iight, well last weekend on friday me and lauren hung out. uhhm what did we doo?? oh yeaa haha. friday me and lauren went out to pizza classica and got some food and talked about a lot of shit, then we went to her cousins play out in long island. it was great, they performed bye bye birdie.. [we love you connnrad] [[SUFFER]] lol. I guess one of her family members wanted to "slap me in the face" because i laughed too loud or some shit, whatever. After the play we went back to laurens and passed the fuck out.
saturday we woke up around 8 because she had a dentist appointment to go to. after the dentist we went out to eat at omega. i finally got my eggs benedict which was greaat. Then we went back to my house so we could get my money and shit and then went back to her house and then we went to roosevelt field. Me and Lauren got john a valentines day present [cds] and then i got jimmys present. Its sooo nice. I got him fierce cologne w/ a keychain that has his name on it. And a cute stuffed animal and a card, im also going to get him a rose. I also got two shirts for myself from the mall. After the mall I went back home. Kristina came over and we watched A Cinderella Story --- cuuute ass movie, CMM is sooo hot! After that we played cards n stuff and went to bed.
Sunday morning was b e a utiful! Me and Kris woke up and ate breakfast, then we got in touch w/ lauren, went to abby doos and got some cards and then we met up with laur and went to bowne park. There we went on the swings nd i gave my adolecence speech, it was soo funny, good times good times. dont make me get into it hehe. After the park we went to mcdonalds for lunch and then playeed texas holdem on my grandmas patio. It was fun. after that we watched lake placid and had dinner. My cousins left and me and lauren wetn downstairs. We did our hair and watcheed the superbowl. We wnt to pick up paul around 830 and droppeed off lauren. that was about it.
hmm yesterday was school, nothing special.. days are dragging on like all hell. i guess its cuz i cant wait til sunday! i want to see him so bad but im SO nervous about seeing him, idk why, its like im scared. I duno. I cant wait, no matter what we do its gonna be fun.
Anyways, i was going to get shit off my chest, but i dont feel like complaining in this entry, soo im just gonna go and save the rest of the babble for another entry.
full week -- tomorrow go to rainbow and west coast video [gotta get something for lovie], thursday - go to johnnys with lauren n get nails done, friday - grams pickin me n lauren up to go to the city so i can get my hair done, might sleep there might not., saturday - kids should be coming over, chill w/ them, maybe s/o laurens. sunday go to a.n.s and get the flowers then head over to ronkonkamo. this week needs to go by a lil quicker - - - its only tuesday!
toodles
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