What Am I Doing Here Again?

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:: 2003 3 December :: 9.34pm

Nice going...everyone knows the best NYers live on the UWS!
YOU'RE AN UPPER WEST SIDER.
You're fun, but not pretentious; down-to-earth, but
not boring; overly educated, but only mildly
irritating...and you've got the world's best
bagels AND spreads within spitting distance of
your apartment. Congratulations! You have
chosen...wisely.

What kind of New Yorker are you?
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:: 2003 3 December :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: have yourself a merry little christmas

I just wrote a really really long private post...i got out a lot...the only thing from it that i really can share with the public is that
I MISS MIAMI SO MUCH i miss every aspect of it...i am so happy there..i love the atmosphere and that *feeling* i have when im there..and 17 days is just way too long.

im gonna go postal soon

and why cant i be more like elise??? she shrugs things off so easily i wish i could be more like that..i used to be more like that..what am i saying..i have no idea who i am...i dont know what i like i dont know anything about myself..im having an identity chrisis

..again im gonna go postal soon

and it doesnt feel like christmas season but it should...that makes me so mad...maybe this friday when my next tradition occurs it will be better.

and i feel like i have no one to share these things with but my woohu--u know how everyone says u tell ure pals anything and everything? well i love and adore my friends but i dont feel like i can tell them or that theyd truly LISTEN to me or understand me, i cant even tell my mom some of these things and she understands me best out of everyone...im so used to listening to everyone else i think my friends forget, i get sad too. but i really dont blame them--im a very private person..i dont wear my heart on my sleeve..i keep things in.

And im so MAD at myself for being in a bad mood i really am so mad. its christmas...what the fuck am i doing being sad? and i really have no reason to me upset..i just--am. i need to stop thinking.

i need some mindless games or television to get me to stop thinking...

haha maybe i can just watch Paris Hilton tonight on the Simple Life....that'd def. be enough

haha ok i feel a little better

wow this turhed out to be longer than my private post!

*CiAo*

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:: 2003 29 November :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: going under- evanescence

alone
when i think of you i cant imagine why i feel the way i do,
but all those feelings come rushing back as soon as i am around you,
i dont want to be alone in this battle for your heart,
i want you to feel the need to fight to feel me in your arms,
i hate how you ruined the chances of this ever coming true,
i hate how you make it so hard for me to feel the way i do,
but when i see you smile, hear your voice, feel your touch,
i finally realize why it is that i love you so much.

---i really thought i was stronger than this...why cant i be stronger than this?

NYangel1327: time will heal all
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
wise words from one of the best people i know, i cannot tell you how awesome u r, thanks for everything....

:: 2003 29 November :: 5.43pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable

I just saw my grandmother. I wanted to just cry. She makes me and other people who I care about so miserable. It makes me so sad because she used to be so great. I just want to slap her and tell her to wake up and realize what a selfish person she is. I know it's terrible of me to say this, and God forgive me, but I hope I never have to see her ever again.

My Grandpa (grandma's ex) is just getting worse...and the reality that I have to face just gets more real.

and we're doing something to help underprivelaged kids in the boroughs this christmas..it makes me so happy and excited. i love helping people..and reading these letters makes me feel even more and more grateful and a little guilty for being so fortunate..but still, i feel like i AM making a difference because not only is my family helping but i am using MY money for this, and not like 20 bucks, it's a very signifigant amount..and trust me its a wonderful feeling knowing you can give back.

and there's a couple things i HAVE to stop doing...
because
Santa's watching ;)

And Christmas is sooo near its so beautiful!
And so are 4 day weekends!

xoxo

briggs17

:: 2003 29 November :: 1.12pm

by the way if someone can give me n e advice on how to make my woohu more enjoyable to look at ..let me know i like what other ppl are doing to theirs but i wanna do something different but fun!

briggs17

:: 2003 29 November :: 12.42pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: none at the moment

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hey whattup every1..happy belated turkey day!..i had an awesome Thanksgiving night with my cousins..it was soo much fun just hanging out with them..for all of you that have seen the pictures from that night, than you knooo we had fun, lol..for those who havent.. just IM me for the site of my photos online!

anywayz-- ive been enjoying this little vacation for ever last second that its worth, i woke up like half an hr ago and am gonna hang out with my cousins frum michigan. unfortunately they're leaving tomorrow morning but its all good it was an awesome trip and tonight we're chillin in the city..Time Square :)

yah so yesterday I had a basketball scrimmage vs briar clifff or some team like that..we lost but its all good i was watching and our team definately has good potential! we have another scrimmage on saturday at 5 30 at the hs..u should all come watch! im really starting to like it alot more..i was soo nervous yesterday before we started but once i went in i was comftorbal..:)

i cant fcuckin wait for Christmas!! im sooo excited yesterday was like the beginning of Christmas season, for real this time!! its great i cant wait to go Christmas shopping with my hard earned money (heheheh..no)...i know like i said Christmas is not all about that..im just playin, but it is difficult when people are constantly asking me what I want for Christmas, i dont even know its so tough..one thing i know im getting is my new cell phone, but im not sure which yet..theres 2 i have in mind..i guess i'll have to see which one grows on me..and i also asked Santa (yes, i do have one already but this ones soo cool) for one of those really small and flat digital cameras, i think id get suchh good use out of it and i love taking pictures, its a big hobby of mine now..;-)

alright well there's my Christmas list Santa, hopefully i've been on your good list this year!

<3Signing off, I am Sheldon<---
always,
briggs

:: 2003 28 November :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: AHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OMG I JUST GOT A CALL FROM HAVANA JEANS AND I WON THE JINGLE BALL TICKETS!!!! WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT?!!? OMG I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOHHOOOOOOO!!!!

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:: 2003 28 November :: 10.23am
:: Mood: allergic

thanksgiving and my family
thanksgiving was only semi-disastrous

no it was actually quite lovely with the occasional akwardness and badness.

it was me, mom, dad, my grandpa (dads), grandpas wife, step-grandma's son and his two children, and my dads brother, and oliver the dog, who scared the shit out of my cat i felt so bad for her :(

i had to say grace. i sounded like a flaming idiot i was like "um well we should appreciate that we have the ability to have food" yikes!

food was great, company was surprisingly good. but i felt so bad for my mom because my step-grandma, uncle, and step-uncle and her had a convo about like war and france and all of that and my mom is a major pacifist and theyre not and they were being so mean i tried to defend her but i was like wheres brig when i need her??

sigh, then theres my grandpa. he has prostate cancer thats spread to his bones, and parkinsins disease. he just got the house and layed on the couch with blankets the whole time. hes only 67 too. its so sad. it goes to show you how important your health is. he had so much life...he was a painter, he loved to gamble, travel, go to the track, play tennis, and he has a lot of money..that gives you a great 20 years, but once he lost his health none of that mattered. he was kayacking this past summer, i cant imagine what he'd be doing if he were healthy. but im stopping this is sad.

then my neighbors came over after dinner for drinks and we sat outside in front of the fire..it was was really nice.

my dads side is so disfunctional though...those damn guineas. not disfunctional like my moms side which is screaming at eachother and being really weird..disfunctional like they beat eachother up at family gatherings and threaten to kill eachother...luckily thanksgiving didnt turn out like that.

and tomorrow i have to see my grandmother who contributes much to the disfunction. but thats a whole other story.

id say: successful turkey day...sure beats being at my aunts house in miami with 70 people i dont know (uncle is irish has 7 siblings..u get the picture)

sorry this was so long--blame my family for having a lot of problems

ADVENT 2 DAYS!

ciao<3

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:: 2003 27 November :: 12.10am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: i'd do anything- simple plan

how do i love thee.....or do i love thee?
your witty comments,
your quick remarks,
your mean and hurtful ways,
you made me miserable,
you made me sad...angry...
but your smile,
your laugh,
the way you look at me,
the way you hold my hand when we're talking,
i thought you were gone,
thought you were out of my life,
but when i see you all i want to do is hug you,
you made me sad, you made me angry...
but you make me laugh,
you make me smile,
you make me wanna be in your arms
i hate you-

but maybe i love you too

briggs17

:: 2003 25 November :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: chingy- right thurr remix

hey i just felt like writing in here like big time today, i have no clue why

my little brothers and my older cousin paul are screaming over a football video game..

my bro mark screams than like breaks into a song ..theres a song called "sexed up" by robbie williams..and its like "screeww you!! i didnt like your taste anywaayy"and thats wat hes singing..

ok now matt is singing milkshake.. wowww my family is totally just like....unique, i suppose... before my brother was blasting "which backstreet boy is gay" hes listened to it 10000 times, yet still laughs just as hard when he hears it..odd...

yah so i finalllyy got my math and global tests over with today, thank God! i dont think either was too bad..some tricky....ugh tomorro my global essay..if i didnt have it id be soo happy right now..

i just cant wait till thanksgiving, its a great time..than after that i cant even sleeep im so excited for Christmas!!..

my cousins from michigan are driving here tommorro theyre comin tomm afernoon! they have to leave at 4 in the morning tonight ..hehehehe...

yah so i went to the dentist today i got signed out the midd of 8th period, and i was told my adult molar needs to be removed..completely..ugh i gatta go to a dentist surgeon! wow that really sucks

basketball has been good lately im havin a good time, i like it alottt more than I did last yr--duh

gabi-- without our random raged assignment book fights,ceramics bikkering and fencing experiences, i dont know what id do with myself..ur priceless

i just took my digital cam and put new batteries in it and downloaded the old pics on it to the comp, and now its good as new!! im bringing it into school tomorrow...

i guess i can take pics wit aaron! i miss that kid..its cool hes coming back--

signing off, i am sheldon..

<3 Briggette M. Groban <---

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:: 2003 25 November :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: access hollywood (sigh more gossip)

I have such a weakness when it comes to my woohu...i love writing in it, i dont know why, but its just like so theraputic.

The week has been good. Interesting as well...with friends...tension i guess with some, i feel like i have a lot of pressure when it comes to that
...also that 1 friend of mine i mentioned in a previous entry i find drifting further into being so desperate to become someone else...it makes me so sad I <3 her so much and i dont wanna lose her

a more serious weakness of mine is gossip. dammit i do like it. all kinds too. celebrity esp. but still i find myself sometimes saying things that i just feel disgusted at myself for saying...but i dont know how to get my feelings for people out besides talking about it..im very verbal..but i have been so NOT judgemental lately im very proud of myself, and ive really shaved the gossip down...its just something that i feel stupid by doing and that it doesnt represent me as person, and i hate the thought of people thinking of me as some regular edgemont gossiper who has no deep thoughts and is just like everyone else because im not..
but i dont blame people for thinking that sometimes i put it on myself
...and on a more realistic side i know how we all hate gossip, but comeon we all do sometimes...but i never gossip without reasonable cause :)

wow that was a long ass paragraph tooshay to whoever read that. and yes im expecting the bitchy comments so go ahead and fire away just remember that YOU GOSSIP TOO!...

i was looking back at my woohu and at that selfishness post i wrote in june and got 12 comments...yeah whoever wrote that bitchy 1: i have ure ip address and im gonna find u so watch out fucker!

the walk from school to my house is so nice and brisk i loved it...

thanksgiving is coming...and im pretty excited, its gonna be kind of awkard though.

this was a sketchy post ew im not liking it but w/e ill just post it it took too long to delete now

ciao bellas

:: 2003 24 November :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: relaxed

ToP 5 hOtTiEs Of DaNiElLe'S cUrReNt LiFe!!!
*steve toale....queer eye for the straight guy's son, im a 1st yr college, close with my family type guy, too bad im just the same age as his sis lol...uggh he is sooo gorgeous

*gregory smith..."feel bad for me hottie", theres just something about him, i cant put my finger on it but i just cannot get enough ephram

*toto...guido hottie, romantic, look at me im gorgeous and have an accent! wooohoo!! if u dont think hes good lookin' theres somethin wrong with ur eyes

*ashton kutcher...just plain hottie, i cannot explain this guy, hes just so....UGGH!!! i could look at pix of him forever and be totally mesmerized ::SIGH::

*"hot tom" aka tom welling...my eyes can hypnotize u hottie, and let me just say they really REALLY can. oh and his smille...hes just yummy

sry had to get that out....wow i love it when people are hot :)

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:: 2003 24 November :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Breathe: Blu Cantrell & Sean Paul

gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble...
I HEART THANKSGIVING!!!

this week is soo awesome.
MONDAY: spanish test, think i did awesome. got mostly the same answers as gabi (gabi always gets spanish right, so im feelin good about that one) watched nuevo cinema paradiso in l'italiano....toto is gorgeous, i want to be elena soooo badly.... ::SIGH::

TUESDAY: math test...uggh dreading that but thats at the end of the day and i get to watch nuevo cinema paradiso afterwards so its all good. aaron flies in during the late afternoon/evening....so excited, u have no clue

WEDNESDAY: aaron comes to school!!! CANNOT WAIT! wayyyy too much fun today. no tests/quizzes, hopefully no hw, and the last day b4 a vacation!!!

THURSDAY: i absolutely love this day. thanksgiving= turkey, stuffing, homemade pies, family and new outfits to wear...omg sooo much fun

lots and lots of thanksgiving lovin...
dml

:: 2003 24 November :: 6.56pm
:: Mood: high

woooooo ahhhh my house REEKS of paint i am getting really woooozy ewwww

shakeeee it like a polaroid PICTUREEEEE

heyeyyeyeyyeey yyaaaaa

ahhhh cannnnt breattthee

my cousins back with her steaming hot boyfriend which is good but bad b/c hes not right for her..but dammmmmn hes fucking gorgeous...ok sry random

1 of my friends is a pathelogical liar i think

ahhhhhh getting lightheaded

ONE MONTH TIL CHRISTMAS YAY

lalalalalalalalalala

DIE earth science DIE

uh oh i think im gunna pass out