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2004 27 September :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: UB40 - Red Red Wine :)
Kelly has invaded.
Kelly is on Emily's sn sn sn Kelly is on
Emily's sn dom dom dom
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I'm awesome.
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2004 27 September :: 6.46am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: none...
hello
lol its been a while since i wrote in here again... seems like i writein it like once a mounth... but i decided to say hello bright and early.. now im off to school
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2004 26 September :: 2.38pm
2 new songs..
http://www.soundclick.com/util/streamM3U.m3u?ID=1310785&q=Hi
*dedicated tears*
i have, i have thought about you.. (x4)
its been a few weeks since youve been gone
i miss you, i need you, your scents still here so strong
i know that you are happier this way
what wouldve happened if things were different that day
(chorus)
i have, i have thought about you..
ive tried to give all my love to you
in my dreams i think all about you
my hearts filled with tears all for you
i heard your laugh the other day
listened close as it slowly faded away
i shed a tear each and every reoccurring day
they all begin and end the same dissorienting way
(chorus x2)
your all i need.. all i need
lemme hear you say
your all i need.. all i need
please just stay
your better off this way
http://www.soundclick.com/util/streamM3U.m3u?ID=1413788&q=Hi
*last night*
you had me for 11 weeks
you stole my heart in just one beat
i tried to keep you from yourself
your nothing without my help
i took your words to be complete
they werent shit not near concrete
melting under heavy pressure
why are we appart when we could be together?
(chorus)
wont you please help me
i need you
like you needed me
and i want you to know
that i love you
through everything
i still love you
you took me deep that night
all that was wrong felt so right
no need to question what i felt
once we touched my heart began to melt
my sense of fear intoxicated
in search for love.. but always hated
it felt right then, with eyes so true
that it must be this it must be you
(chorus)
(bridge)
i'm going crazy.. cuz i need you here
thoughts of others disapear
bite me soft and carress my tounge
feel so old as the night is young
intimate sensations..chills down my spine
sips of hypnotique allow us to unwind..
(chorus x 3)
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2004 26 September :: 12.59pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: thamkful: kelly clarkson
needed to update
hello i dont have much to say. school is still no fun lol. i went to the movies yesterday and saw cellular with my neighbor caileigh and then we just basically hung around till like 1130 :-D. haha most fun ive had in awhile. anyway i dont hvae anything else to say so ill update later :) .
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emmyd
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2004 26 September :: 9.43am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: eminem...
mea
so yesterday was interesting...gui came over with ben..then left...then came over with Ryan, they were here for a lil while..i think that me and ryan are good now, which makes me very happy..
once they left.. my mom came home, then we went out...
OMG we went to stop and shop and i got to see Valerie,her sister and brother, Cassie,Meggy and Kelsey...ahh i was SOOOO happy..i hadn't seen val or cassie since like fuckin....freshman year ahh omg i missed them SOOOO MUCHH ahh i love you girlz!!!
i was talking to Gui last nite for a lil bit, about a lot of stuff thats happening right now...hes in a messed up position right now,and imma try to help him..cuz Gui's one of my best friends, lol i love you gui!
well i think i am going to go now...
leave a comment if u'd like..
pcce
-emmyd
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emmyd
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2004 25 September :: 11.56am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: eminem shit....
ahh
gui and ben randomly came to my house this mornin haha gui called and woke me up and told me they were coming..i was like umm okay lol so we all chilled here for a lil bit..then they left cuz gui had to go to the gym and meet ryan i think...
last nite i chilled with Jeshia..lol we went to the mall..she got her new cell phone, cuz hers fell in water lol..we saw manda there and som other pplzz...
wow just got in ANOTHER huge fight with my mom..she told me once again that her mistake was having kids, meaning me cuz she loves peter and mark...but not me as she says....yea i fucking hate her too
every1 has been making me frustrated lately..then once i snap i say things i dont mean..so sorry if i said ne shit to any of u ppl lately that was mean..lol
umm ryan if ur reading this, which u mite be, um i hope u kno that i didnt text her saying anything to her, i would never do that..im sorry if u think that i did, but u must really not know me all too well...i really dont want you to be pissed at me, cuz i figured we could still always be good friends, but if u dont want to be...then w\e...i hope its not like that tho...im sorry for whatever i did to you..
well i think im gunna go now :-\
i wanna go out tonite..anyone wanna chill?
leave a comment...
-emily
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silentcriez
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2004 24 September :: 12.13am
i needed that :-)
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emmyd
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2004 23 September :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: nothing :-(
whatever...
i dont care anymore..
but i do...
ughh if ne of u remember how i was in like...febuary and march and april..and how like wierd i was (u kno wat i mean)
..its happening again..
katie i cant help it anymore...i want to um..do sumthing that i kno i shouldnt do..i think u mite kno wat im talking about :-\
why..why whyy....omg i cant even put things into words anymore...my head is just ugh- so many things goin thru it..emotions...HATE...saddness..mad...ugh :-(
guis helpin me thru it tho, lol hes so coooool lol i love you gui, im ALWAYS here for you!
people really need to NOT talk shit anymore..seriously wtf..i love how sumhow EVERYONE in fuckin natick high knows wat the fuck is happening in my life..AND IM NOT FUCKING FRIENDS WITH THEM...hmm wonder how the fuck they know...i have a guess...ughh yea that stupid...AHH NVM I WONT SAY IT
ughh u kno wat im fuckin sick of sooo much shit :-( nothing is good anymore! everything is fucked up! once i get happy, sumthing happens, and ruins everything :-\ all the time mann i really dont like it...
im going to talk to gui now lol and helena...
-emily :-\
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emmyd
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2004 22 September :: 7.28pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: welcome to my life...
la la la
just made my mom buy me a ring :-) haha she says i HAVE to get a job now...thats um not cool
today in school was pretty gay..haha i stayed after with heidi for a lil bit then i talked to katie on the fone for an hour...haha THEN serge called and i told him to come with fil haha so they came...and we sat around for a lil bit...then serge drove us all home :-) hes just so nice like that haha
aww i like having serge and katie being happy :-) haha its like old times again...me serge katie and fil..just all chillin' lol good times...good times..
today..wow Heidi was sooo pissed at like..madd ppl but mainly like maybe 3...haha sum freshman chick and um 2 other people..that wont be mentioned i told her not to be mad or anything but she OF COURSE wont listen to me, she was gunna start shit but i was like um no dont ever do that lol
i wish today was thursday..so tomaro could be friday and then it would be the weekend...and i can finally relax..
ugh i have so much homework tonite..and i havent done shit cuz i was at school for fuckin..forever
well im out....
byez
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2004 21 September :: 10.10pm
blah
hi, i guess i actaully deleted the last one on purpose. i dont know whta im sayign anymore. im making no sense.
i just want to be happy, i really do. and i want it o be real. that might not happen for a year even, but if it does, it will be worth the wait.
im sorry for always complaining. my heads so messed up rite now...its all i can think about.
im just angry. but really, i need to move on. and stop wondering about the past, because it hurts too much.
everyday i find myself crying for some reason, and it needs to stop.
poeple have their reasons for doing things, and i cant let my mental state depend on others anymore.
i guess ill always wonder about certain things tho. the people i loved, the memories i had with them, and the things they said. was it real? i dont know if ill ever find out.
you probably dont care, but i was happy and ill remember that.
please comment :(
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