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Why does my world have to crash? I mean jesus christ haven't I been through enough? I might as well be a fucking jew, Hell I'd rather go threw the Holocost as your run-of-the-mill Jew. Dads dead, lacking Friends, lieng females,bad female boinking choices, Family bullshit, religon fucking me in the ass, and Biological grand partent issues >.> and the worse, my mouth and anger, seperate, there harmless, but together, they're bad news >.>

I don't even have a clue were to begin, not one, Should I start with my "Friends" that lie to me or only call me when they know I'm pissed? or only come over when it involves me spending money? Like how They say that they were working from 9am-8pm but really wern't, and how they were at my house while everyone was gone, at work? (Kinda angers me)
or how I get snapped at for smartassing around, my brain says forget about it, but my heart says, I'm hurt so everything now, must hurt,

I'm not even touching the dad subject, not even with a fucking 100ft pole,

Girls? "I don't even hang out with her anymore..." not so much the truth. But I'm not going to say anymore, just becuase I don't have the will to fight so many battles at once...

Called My Grandma today, after I got called at work, to find out what the hell happened, about peoples being at my house while I was at work, Grandpa picked up...oh man...If I had a gun...I prolly wouldn't be typing this <.<

Brentons sister has been nothing short of a total bitch, which again, make me orny, chances are 10-to-1 if I would have never done anything, this wouldn't be happening. none of the current bs drama shit would.

The Catholic Church is useless, "If somebody kills themself, that in a sense is "murder" and that is a mortal sin, which means most likey they will go to hell" hearing that straight from the mouth of a priest (no he didn't touch me, fyi for all you sickos) after listening to him preach on about gods forgiveness...My will to live after that? 2%

My Bio-Grandpa, Roger McClurg wants to meet the sin-spawn that is me, for the 1st time, on the 29th, Memorial Day, Irony at its' finest, hes' only seen me twice in my life time, 1 when I was a baby, and 2 when I was the ring bearer at my Uncles(My 2nd uncle jim, my dad dads brother not scott but you all knew that ) wedding, when I was 8,

Suicide seems so like the logical choice, but in the long run, it's not worth it, What kinda person would I be to put my mom, both sets of grand parents, and all my Uncles and Aunts threw that shit, again, they delt with it once, and that ripped everybody a new one, but I have a tiny brain between my ears

So whatever...

To all the people I've hurt,ignored, disrespected, made fun of, didn't give two shits about and was down right nasty to ,

I'm Sorry

I understand now, honestly, I do

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