TaoMan1121
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2004 27 September :: 9.25pm
wait...
worry...
who cares?
this is who we are.
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TaoMan1121
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2004 27 September :: 7.09pm
:: Mood: coy
:: Music: Dashboard - Vindicated
I decided to update just now because I like being on top. ;-)
(edit 9:18pm) New layout. All Millennium, all the time. Best I've done in quite some time. ::toots own horn:: Rocky's gone... for now.
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TaoMan1121
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2004 27 September :: 12.36am
:: Mood: tired again
So I got to a few of you already, but for those I haven't already told, I'm thinking of having everybody over next Saturday evening for a "show off the nice new place/Eternal Sunshine viewing party." Besides I have the GRE test earlier that day, so I either want to celebrate or drink myself into oblivion, depending on the outcome. I just have to make sure I don't open on Sunday or anything; which I shoiuldn't because I'm supposed to have the day off.
::puzzled:: Why won't this homework do itself??
::looks at clock::
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOE!
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TaoMan1121
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2004 25 September :: 11.55pm
:: Mood: tired
"Kid on Bus: What are you gonna do today, Napoleon?
Napoleon Dynamite : Whatever I feel like I wanna do, gosh!"
Today kind of sucked. Not in any real prominent or profound way; I just never left the house and it was just a very blah like atmosphere. I got a lot done though.
Yesterday... was... entertaining, if nothing else. I love watching people. Not stupid, ignorant, and/or immature people, but everybody else.
Bought 21 Grams and The Works of Spike Jonze along w/ Joe's birthday present yesterday at Best Buy. The urge has been satisfied... until Tuesday and Eternal Sunshine.
I should be mad at some people these past few days, but I'm not.
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TaoMan1121
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2004 24 September :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: pragmatic
9 Months
I find it amusing how people don't take the time to consider their birthdate and the backstory behind it. Take your birthday, subtract nine months, and see what you get. You'd be suprised what you end up with sometimes. I give you a few examples:
- Born in early to mid-November (like me)? That means you have arguably the most romantic birthdate possible; you were a Valentine's Day love child.
- Is your birthday late September... as in today or Monday (looks at Alicia & Joe)? Well that means your parents most likely had a three-some with Santa Claus.
- Late August? You should have plently to be thankful for, because your parents jumped on the good foot and did the bad thing right around Thanksgiving.
And I could go on, but you get the gist (and I'm sure you want to stop thinking about your parents having sex). Here's another thing: Ever consider why you see so many birthdays toward the end of the year? Well, parents need to keep warm, and 10, 11, and 12 minus 9 will get you some pretty cold months.
It got me thinking though: What would be the most ideal timeframe to conceive a child? I came up with May 22. It coincides with the end of spring and the beginning of summer, a pretty optimistic time, and it's not so hot that it would prevent you from thinking about all the sex required to make a baby. On the flip side, your kid will be tentatively assigned to a late February birth, right smack dab between Valentine's Day (yet still far enough away so you won't get a two-for-one present package) and February 29 (I think being a leap baby would be tight, but I can't speak for my future child). Yes, February 22 would be nice for little Samantha. Hehe.
These are the types of things I think about. :-P
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TaoMan1121
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2004 20 September :: 9.41am
:: Mood: awake
An excerpt from "The Hours" by Michael Cunningham
I love this...
"Yes, Clarissa thinks, it's time for the day to be over. We throw our parties; we abandon our families to live alone in Canada; we struggle to write books that do not change the world, despite our gifts and our unstinting efforts, our most extravagant hopes. We live our lives, do whatever we do, and then we sleep-- it's as simple and ordinary as that. A few jump out of windows or drown themselves or take pills; more die by accident; and most of us, the vast majority, are slowly devoured by some disease or, if we're very fortunate, by time itself. There's just this for consolation: an hour here or there when our lives seem, against all odds and expectations, to burst open and give us everything we've ever imagined, though everyone but children (and perhaps even they) knows these hours will inevitably be followed by others, far darker and more difficult. Still, we cherish the city, the morning; we hope, more than anything, for more.
Heaven only knows why we love it so."
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TaoMan1121
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2004 15 September :: 10.14am
:: Mood: accomplished
This entry is going to mean nothing to you if you don't go to WMU...
Pleasant suprise; turns on that the Computer Lab near the library (would that be the UCC then?!) purchased new computers over the summer. Granted, their Compaqs, but anything's an improvement over the dinosaurs they had in there.
::switches into infomercial mode:: So, do you attend Western and are looking to earn a few extra bucks this semester? Boy, do I have the answer for you! Tell 'em about him, Jason!
Want some $$$?!
This semester I'm working with Doug J., a doctoral student in psychology at Western Michigan. We are looking for individuals to participate in a study designed to determine how well individuals perform a data entry task under various conditions. The data entry task simulates the job of a proof operator at a bank and consists of entering numbers using a numeric keypad on a computer. Computer games will also be available during the sessions if individuals want to play them. The study will be conducted in Wood Hall on WMU's campus.
If you are currently enrolled in or have completed either PSY 444 or PSY 344, you are not eligible to participate. In addition, you must play computer games at least one hour per month to be eligible to participate.
Sessions will be 45 minutes and you will be asked to attend 8 sessions over a 3-week period. The amount of money you earn will depend upon the conditions of the study, but it is likely that you will earn from $4.00 to $8.00 per session.
Your participation is completely voluntary and you may withdraw at any time. If you do withdraw, you will be paid the money you have earned up to that point.
If you are interested in participating in the study, post a comment and I will forward your information to Doug, or if you prefer, I can give you his contact information.
Thanks!
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TaoMan1121
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2004 14 September :: 1.14am
:: Mood: comforted
:: Music: Bob Dylan - Don't Think Twice, It's Alright
where i'm bound, i can't tell...
All those kind words (deserved or not), all those sweet sentiments, I have trouble grasping them from her. If I heard similiar suggestions from others, I might nod my head and quip, "Well, it's about time you came to your senses!" but from her, it's different. It's more of a Travis Bickle phenomeon (::looks around:: "Are you talking to me?! I don't see anyone else, you must be talking to me?!") (Was a bit forced? I suppose it was.)
Maybe it's the distance, maybe it's the intermittent reinforcement, maybe it's the still-wounded soul, maybe it's all of it, but I do realize one thing about it; it's another characteristic that sets her apart.
I really need to figure out what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I've got some big decisions ahead of me. I'm scared, to be sure, but I kind of like being the first to make it to this point; I feel like a pioneer.
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TaoMan1121
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2004 13 September :: 11.35pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Billy Joel - N.Y. State of Mind
I am 45% evil.
I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
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TaoMan1121
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2004 13 September :: 2.55pm
:: Mood: transitional
:: Music: Fuel - Empy Spaces
cause all thats been left for me/is to fight to fill these empty spaces now...
I hate people who become what they hated before and said they were never going to become.
I think too often I confuse fatigue and boredom with depression and emptiness.
Yesterday sucked. My computer went haywire, and I ended up having to reinstall Windows. Actually, this weekend sucked immensely, with the exception of my Saturday evening w/ Ricci. Even then I was feeling rather ass-ish.
Time to get back on the wagon.
I bought "1984" and "GRE for Dummies" today. I like buying books; it makes me feel smart. :-P
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TaoMan1121
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2004 9 September :: 5.52pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Eve f/ Pink - Let Me Blow Your Mind
Today has been a good day. Had my first mtg. for my other research opportunity. Should be a pretty interesting, valuable, and straightforward study. And I'll end up with another letter of recommendation out of the deal.
So in between periods of listening to my professors and participating in class today, I made another list, this one I got the item from Fras. Turns out I have a DVD/VHS to satisfy every letter of the alphabet, with the exception of Q. Consulting my list, I have an option (in order to complete my quest) of purchasing either Quest for Fire, Quick Change, or Quiz Show (none of which I want, mind you). So, anybody know of any good "Q" movies that I might like?
I'm feeling like a Monaco Breeze... it is College Night.
(edit 6:13pm... Christ, how is it 6 o'clock already?!) After all that spectulation about the Valley 3 cafeteria, I just found out from reading my Honors Connection that the Eldridge/Fox complex is actually closed for renovation. The interim Honors dorm is now Ackley/Shilling. Just thought I'd mentioned it in case you hadn't already heard.
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2004 9 September :: 4.42pm
So if I am smooth...
I have 13 classes left to take until graduation.
I will end with three majors, two minors, and a concentration.
Majors:
Sociology
Human Resources Management
Lee Honors College
Minors:
General Business
Economics
Concentration:
Social Psychology (not certain if I will qualify here, still checking it out)
And I said I was taking it easy in college. Sheesh.
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2004 8 September :: 8.24pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Randy Travis- Forever and Ever Amen
They say time can play tricks on the memory...make people forget things they knew...But it's easy to see that it's happening to me, I've already forgotten every woman but you...
I think it is wedding season. Everyone seems to be getting married and its upsetting to me, I feel like I'm somehow inadequate or behind schedule or something.
Going to my cousin's wedding is going to suck, all my family's going to be like, "what's wrong with you? why are you married yet?" since it will officially make me an old maid.
Poo. I wanna get married. (Don't tell Paul that though).
The collection of bridal magazines next to the bed might be a tip though.
Actually, I don't think I really wanna get married for a while still. But I would like to be engaged or something, so that I don't feel like a loser.
Someone tell me that I'm not a loser. :(
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2004 8 September :: 11.27am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Badly Drawn Boy - Another Devil Dies
My social anxiety frustrates me to no extent sometimes. You think after all I've been through, all of the opportunities to extend my abilitity to function in situations where I might feel uncomfortable or off-guard, I'd be more adept at it. Hell, even my undergrad work here at Western, specifically CfA, has prepared me for meeting new people on a regular basis. But for me, when there's a structure, a build-up, or a power hierarchy attached to the situation, I have a strong tendency to clam up. I always go through with the situation (i.e. I see my responsibilities through), but I don't always accomplish it effectively. Yet, I'm sure this is me being too hard on myself... but the instant I hear that quiver in my voice, it makes me second guess the next statement I'm going to make, and it all windfalls from there. That sticky feeling sticks with me for a while, and it contaminates everything I think about or attempt to do for a short period of time.
It just goes to show you, if you think about something too long, and you are going to fuck yourself with it.
Eh, I'm already feeling better and I'll be fine on Friday. I can take some solace in the fact that I've learned to, at the very least, get over it quickly. There's no time to dwell, anyway, I've got a lot to get done.
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2004 7 September :: 11.12pm
:: Mood: nerdy
:: Music: Pink Floyd - The Great Gig In The Sky
A couple news items on IMDB that struck my fancy today:
“Netflix And TiVo in Partnership
Subscribers to the Netflix DVD rental service will soon be able to download movies onto TiVo personal digital recorders instead of receiving them by mail, Newsweek reports in its current issue. Details of how the service will function were sketchy. Newsweek suggested that it will likely employ software developed by a recently acquired company, Strangeberry, that allows a DSL or cable modem to be plugged into a TiVo recorder to receive content from the Internet. Reporting on the development, Newsweek commented that it "could shake up the media world." Both Netflix and TiVo declined to comment on the report.”
Now this is the rental development that I’ve been waiting for. It molds the strengths of pay-per-view with the strengths that Netflix has going for it. And number two:
“Cruise Could Make $360 Million from 'War of the Worlds'
Movie superstar Tom Cruise has become the highest earning actor in Hollywood history after signing a deal that could earn him a staggering $360 million for his role in War Of The Worlds. Rather than agree a set fee for his part in the Steven Spielberg-directed epic, Cruise will earn 10 per cent of the film's box office takings plus a share of profits from DVDs, video games and toys. Experts predict the film - based on HG Wells' classic novel about a Martian attack - could make $1.8 billion at the cinema alone, of which Cruise's share would be an incredible $180 million. And, if he stars in the two planned sequels, Cruise's earnings will double at least. A Hollywood source says, "No expense will be spared. Spielberg wants to make it the film of the decade - the one that everyone talks about and rushes to see."
Wow. Enough said.
Shifting gears, I was looking through my schedule today, factoring in my two research opportunities, my three classes, and my part-time job that has been giving me near full-time hours as of late, and it occurred to me that I’m not going to have a life this semester. On the upside, I’m optimistic that this semester will finally teach me to hunker down and get the work done as it’s assigned, instead of just bullshitting my way (albeit quite effectively) through it all. I’m actually attempting to read all the selections for my Brit Lit class; hell, I’ve ever reread a couple so far. If I don’t take this opportunity to expand my study repertoire, I’m going to be absolutely fucked when grad school rolls around.
Evidently, Lynda and Ross recently had a discussion at work, and they have deemed me “most dateable” of my department. They cooked up such adjectives as “smart,” “reliable,” and “predictable” to describe me. Evidently, these are necessary qualities for a guy that they might hook their family members with (when Lynda me that Ross said he was the type of guy that he'd want his daughter to date, I replied, "Yeah, but isn't she like 6?!" I was partially amused and partially befuddled when Lynda informed me of all this, but either way I felt very humbled, as, at this point in my life, those are entirely appropriate and kind adjectives to describe me. So for that, I thank them for their recognition. It got me thinking though, after the conversation, are said adjectives mutually exclusive from ones such as “alluring,” “exciting,” and “charming”? The one set certainly doesn’t imply the other, but I guess I’ve always been one for defying categorization.
Another issue I've been pondering: I stated recently that lately I’ve been keeping the larger picture in focus. True, I had done this more in comparison to earlier this year, when my primary objective was attempting to merely survive from day-to-day, but I don’t think I’ve given myself enough credit for prior to that. I’ve always looked at my life in a long-term sense in addition to my day-to-day concerns, which is saying a lot for a person who doesn’t have a strong intrinsic reasoning for looking at the big picture (i.e. I’m not religious, I don’t believe in a larger plan). My main value to keep me going is my notion of love, a value which incidentally, though thoroughly tested and maintained, has nonetheless lessened its impact and become simply another goal or objective in my life, notwithstanding a very reinforcing and important one. But I am sure that’ll change once someone new comes along; the fact that, in some senses (though not many), I’m not waiting for that next endeavor to come around, speaks to how weird, or at least how fresh, these new set of values are. Forgive me though, I’m getting off-track from the thrust of my entry, which climaxes with the question of, “Has all this planning and concern for my future in any way affected my ability to enjoy the present?” I think in some senses it has, for example, in causing too much anxiety over the years. But in the most important implications, such as “Have I really lived my life to the fullest up to this point?” I think I’m safe.
So, that went WAY longer than I had planned it, and I apologize for loquacious writing style this evening, but hey, I’m a brainy mood, and there’s no sense in letting these talents go to waste.
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