Leeder

Leeder

:: 2004 9 July :: 5.33pm

an X if its true, an _ if its false. add one of your own at the end.

.... stars *** are things i've added. duh.

(_) I have never been drunk
(_) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) I never have kissed a member of the same sex *on the cheek I have*
(x) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan *
(_) I never ridden in a taxi
(_) I never have had sex
(_) I never have been dumped
(_) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(x) I have never cut myself on purpose
(_) I never have been in a fist fight
(_) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(_) I never have been arrested
(_) I never made out with a stranger
(_) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(x) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(_) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(_) I never slept with a co-worker..hahahah!
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(x) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I never have eaten sushi
(x) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(x) I never have met a movie star
(_) I never went to a prom
(x) I never bungee jumped
(x) I never have been to a pop concert
(_) I never have dated someone for over a year
(x) I never ate a mango
(x) I never killed anyone before ...or have i...
(x) I never went sailing
(_) I have never had a job
(_) I have never told someone how much they meant to me.
(x) I never have gone sky diving
(_) I never ran outside and danced in the street naked.
(_) I have never had a lesbian/gay close friend.
(_) I have never watched C-SPAN for over an hour.
(_) I have never been out of the country
(_) I have never made out in a carwash..
(x) I have never had cum come out of my nose during a blow job
(x) I have never gone night swimming with a hot person of the opposite sex
(_) I have never eaten peanut butter.
(x) I have never seen Citizen Kane all the way through.
(_) I have never broken a bone.
(x) I have never enjoyed eating veal
(x) I have never been whale watching
(_) I have never stayed up until 10 AM listening to music
(_) I have never seen real boobies
(_) I have never been happier in my life than I am right now
(_) I've never been involved with complete jackass

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 7 July :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: VERY tired
:: Music: Franz Ferdinand - Dark of the Matinee

I don't know why I find this unsettling, but George W. Bush and Sylvester Stallone were born on the same day; they both turned 58 yesterday.

So, I'm back. ::and the people rejoiced:: YEAAH!

It's good to be back. The end of my trip (i.e. the last couple days) kicked major arse, and I'm left with a happy outlook of life at present. All very good things.

I'd like to say more, but I still have to finish unpacking... another time perhaps.

I had a song picked out to post the lyrics of upon arrival back to the States and to a computer that, y'know, had a working mouse ;-) Before I left, I had decided on Dido's "Sand In My Shoes," but looking at it now, it really doesn't fit. Neither does the Dylan tune I picked out halfway through the week. Neither does Franz Ferdinand's "Take Me Out," which, yes dear, I broke down and bought within 3 hours of being back in MI (I bought a DVD during my trip to Best Buy as well; care to venture a guess? So whipped by sentimental purchases). So, I guess I'm going to have to bite the bullet and use my own words...

Thank you.

::big smile::
::passes out::

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 7 July :: 11.09pm

What song...
Fits your life as it is currently the most?: Rolling Stones - You Can't Always Get What You Want
Reminds you to be grateful for the little things?: Incubus - Here In My Room
Makes you wanna get up and dance?: Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out
Makes you reach for a box of kleenex?: Gary Jules - Mad World
Reminds you of something you've lost?: Eels - Dirty Girl
Is the one you secretly like but would NEVER admit?: any single by Celine Dion
Reminds you of your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?: Incubus - I Miss You
Is the most depressing?: Elliott Smith - Needle In The Hay
Can put you in a horribly depressing mood?: Counting Crows - Colorblind
Can put you in a hyperily happy mood?: Modest Mouse - Float On
Causes your imagination to soar?: Pink Floyd - One Slip
Makes you want things you can never have?: NIN - Something I Can Never Have
Inspires you?: Cake - I Will Survive
Makes you kinda horny?: Rufus Wainwright - Instant Pleasure
Is your all-time favourite?: U2 - One
Makes you calm and rather content?: Talking Heads - Heaven
Has personal meaning to you?: Dido - See The Sun

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 7 July :: 10.01pm

First Things First...
Continuing my recent sthick of recording meaningful/poignant quotes from books I've recently read, these come from John Irving's The Fourth Hand:

pg. 202 - "Destiny is not imaginable, except in dreams or to those in love."

pg. 294 - "It struck Wallingford as typical of himself that here was an essential element of his fate, which he'd unwittingly set in motion but over which he had no control."

pg. 322 - "But books, and sometimes movies, are more personal than that; they can be mutually appreciated, but the specific reasons for loving them cannot satisfactorily be shared."

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jedibumblebee

:: 2004 5 July :: 11.08pm

My life has changed so much in just over 6 months.

I have changed so much as a person.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 5 July :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: drunk again
:: Music: Pink Floyd - Speak To Me

Listen, you (I) have to understand that what's happened is no one's fault. It's an intersection of a number of random occurences resulting in an outcome beyond anyone's preconceived notions. It is, is simplistic terms, called "really shitty luck."

All I'm doing is playing the cards I was dealt... I only wish that I could string together enough good hands to make a run for it.

I've always thought people who write fiction that is so loosely based on their own experiences to be uncreative, but you look at it, and this material is just too good to pass up.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 5 July :: 10.10am

Just as a forewarning, I'm going to be posting a lot of lyrics in the next week. To help allievate some of the pain of the experience, I'll cut 'em out for you, and you can look at them only if you want to:

Read more..

That aside, I don't know what else to say. Two times in one "year," talk about starting from scratch. The more time I spend in this state of mind, the more I become cynical, the colder I get, and it's going to be that much harder to get the confidence to start again.

Jason, if you are reading, I can't thank you enough for last night/this morning. Thank you for being a constant in my life. You always know what to say.

It also occurs to me that I've kept my parents in the dark for a long time now. They really need to know what's going on with me, because they deserve that. They need to read all this because, well, they are my frickin' family.

"I can bend and not break, or I can break, and take it with a smile."

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 4 July :: 12.14am
:: Mood: tipsy
:: Music: Espanol - Immersion Style

So, the question remains:

"What do you do once you've had the best sandwhich you'll ever have in your life?"

You cherish and remember it? Or you begin a search for another sandwhich to replace it?

What do you think? Seriously, I want YOUR opinion...

BTW, what the fuck did you do to me tonight?

I feel like I'm being freed here, but maybe it's just wishful thinking...

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 3 July :: 1.11am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Modest Mouse - Ocean Breathes Salty

Wow, what a day. Went out for the day w/ Meru and her uncle and got taken out to one of the surrounding islands, where we snorkeled for the majority of the time. Great fun, but my mask kept leaking water in, so I had to go up for air, and in the process got a crapload of water in my mouth... saltwater, mind you. The oceans down here are so beautiful, but I miss the taste of my freshwater lakes. Anyway, after that incredibly uncoordinated activity, we headed back to the mainland. So I'm sitting there, and the boat that's taking us is also transporting about a dozen others that were out there, and I look at a middle aged Puerto Rican lady smoking a cigarette and drinking a Heineken, and what is she wearing? A tourist-looking Kalamazoo, Michigan t-shirt... talk about freaky odds!

After that, we ate lunch, which was great... the cuisine down here is delicious. Better than the frozen pizzas I've been doing as of late back home. Then we went to another beach on the mainland as the sun was going down and read and relaxed for a bit. Drove down the road a bit, and found out that we were going to do some kayaking and that I'd have a little workout ahead of me... but it was amazing, it was one of the greatest experiences I've ever had in my life ("in the top 3" as Meruan described it). What made it so amazing was that once we got out into this lagoon, there are these bioluminescent organisms throughout the water that kind of remind of a firefly... but anyway, you move your hand or whatever in the water, and it creates this beautiful glowing stream wherever you moved the water. The best way I can think to describe it so far is a Japanese martial arts computer game like Tekken or something... how a colorful streak will follow behind a fast movement. These descriptions don't do it justice, but magical is the best word I can think to describe it. All this in the calm darkness under a full moon... I'm serious, so many images out of today have seemed like they belong in a movie.

I highly recommend coming down here... there's just so much picturesque beauty and everyone is so hospitable. Anyway, try kayaking as well. Very enjoyable, if not very difficult and stressful at times. A good workout either way. Still, I couldn't help but share Meru's fear as the current dragged us right smack dab in front of a seemingly huge motor boat barreling down on us.

It was just an amazing day.

Instant classic quote of the day:
(encountering some serious difficulty and lack of communication in the kayak)
Meruan: "This really doesn't bode well for our compatibility."
Me: "I disagree. To me it's a sign we are compatible... in fact that we aren't sports types."

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 1 July :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: opening up
:: Music: Oasis - Hung in a Bad Place

...for too long...
Puerto Rican Denny's are amazing. We were in and out of there in less than 30 minutes, and that's including the 10 minutes I took up residency in the bathroom (don't ask.) And the food (i.e. the Meat Lover's Skillet) is good too.

I have the most uneven skin tone right now... it's a conglomeration of pale, tan, and burnt. I look like a friggin' candy cane right now. BTW, there is nothing greater than the feeling of aloe vera... well, almost nothing.

I'm going to give up now, and just give in... accomplish what I came here to.

Last night was... excellente. Puerto Rican Irish pubs are the only thing more impressive than the Denny's.

I have a feeling things are going to get a lot clearer in the next 24 hours.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2004 30 June :: 9.58am

Working 45 hours a week sucks.

On a positive note, two weeks and one day!
And 4 days until my 6 months.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2004 28 June :: 8.20am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Everclear - Good Witch of the North

there has never been a time when i didn't want to be your boyfriend/there has never been a time when i didn't want to know your name...
"All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go..."

So I'm off. For 10 days.

For those of you who don't already know, I'm off to Puerto Rico to visit Meruan, the love of my life.

You ever anticipated what you are going to write for a journal entry, and then when the situation arrises, you come up with something completely different? I know I'll be back at my scheduled arrival time back here in the States, the only question is a matter of what I come back with.

''Further down the river..."

I love you dear, and I can't wait to get there and see you again...

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jedibumblebee

:: 2004 26 June :: 6.33pm

Does anyone know where I can get my computer fixed? Or someone who will fix it for me, and do a good job? I'll pay good money.

I need to have more RAM installed, to eliminate mad crazy pop-ups that occur on startup, and make the Sims actually work without freezing up.

Please let me know if you have any suggestions.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2004 26 June :: 4.50pm

Upon sorting out "things I don't need" in preparation for my move, I've realized that I have a shopping problem. I was extremely proud of myself for getting rid of 14 pairs of pants...until I realized that I have 26 left.

I think I may need professional help.

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