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2004 31 October :: 2.26pm
:: Mood: pumpkiny
:: Music: beach boys- wouldnt it be nice
QUEEN OF PUMPKINS!
YAY PUMPKIN!!!!!! I NAMED HIM TED AND IT HAS A BABY NAMED FRED! yay! me and joey went and got two pumpkins today. and then came home and carved one! its so big!!! big pumpkin!!!! yay!! Happy holloween! and joey got a new toilet....yay! but on a diffrent note, POOP! there is no diffrent note! yay!!!! my very own pumpkin!!!! yay!!!!! i love my joey =) he buys me pumpkins. yay!!!! kk, going ps. yay!
Feasher fish.
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2004 24 October :: 5.42pm
:: Music: zeromancer-nee you like a drug
penis! erm...soup..
yay! third batch of the best soup in the world today! hooray for super chef joey and sidekick felicia! its like super heros.... ::tv guy voice:: Super Chef Joey with his radioactive spatula and utility belt including his atomic egg beater, and handy pepper grinder. With sidekick Felicia!!!! ert ert ert ert!!! ::end tv voice:: so......soup anyone???
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2004 21 October :: 6.25am
:: Music: orgy-suckerface
hi
hi...im not allowed to get a cat. no cat named jack. no little kitten running aorund my room being destructive. nope. i feel kinda lonely. kind of like everything i have ever had has just been ripped from me and hidden away somewhere. and ill be damned if i can find where. because if i could then i wouldnt be typing this sad excuse for an update now would i? I wouldnt be sitting here at 6am hopeing that my some miracle joey wakes up and talks to me. or even reads my journal in less then a month ::lets out a bitter haha:: well im guna go to school. why? i dont know. its not as if i learn anything anyways.
-me. you stupid fucker.
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2004 17 October :: 7.03am
:: Mood: ::all groggily:: huh?..
:: Music: Thourougly Modern Millie Soundtrack
Knott's Berry Farm
Ok the past few entries in here have been too much about Ryan, and today seems the best day to change that constant flow of Ryaness. So yesterday in the wee early morning Marlene had her baby! I heard he was adorable, but still doesn't have a name. I'm feelin' something for her probably happiness but I hope things turn out fine which they probably will knowing them. I learned a dance to the begining of Cabaret...I give dancers so much damn credit...it is not that easy at all. Gah I need to practice that dance today after work. I got the part of Louann in my highschool play. Were doing "The Book of Days" it's a murder mystery thing, I haven't read it yet. But my part I'm the wife that gets cheated on and freaks out finally after not saying anything about it for a long time. It's not a big part but I have one good scene. I'm actually doing pretty well in school, I've been in school mode and I think the only thing I have to worry about now is my AP english class I haven't been getting good grades in her class...so lets see how bad I'm doing in there so I can bring it up. I can't wait for the SAT scores to come out. My teacher said it would take up to 6 wks...but thats too long. I want to know how I did. My dress that I ordered should be coming this week hopefully...if not..oh some asses will be capped and some skulls will be bashed. Hehe. Well must get ready for work, tata!
-Chasmin-
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2004 13 October :: 10.14pm
........
We are not sure of sorrow,
And joy was never sure;
Today will die tomorrow;
Time stoops to no man's lure;
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[Algernon Charles Swinburne 1837-1909, The Garden of Proserpine]
<3
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2004 13 October :: 6.43pm
::goes outside:: ::grabs hatchet:: ::grabs mallot:: ::punds the fuck out of it:: so yea..i cut my hand..and the bitch didnt even come off. althought it was fun as hell. =)
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2004 13 October :: 6.27pm
:: Music: Faggot-msi
ive been denied all the best ultra sex.
ive been denied all the best ultra sex.
hi.....went to best buy today with joey. bought him is birthday present and he is getting that installed on friday. faggot faggot faggot. erm....fuck me later. So....didnt go to school today. Went over to Joeys this morning and slept with him for an hour. Then came to my house and slept here. then he went to school. And I just sat here downloading songs..and being boring... I wish my mom would buy me food...that would be nice. to have food again...ok..im guna go kill my window shudder now. tah tah
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2004 12 October :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: Wow...
:: Music: Queen
Breakin' up is never easy I know but I have to go...-Mamma Mia
Well, Ryan and I will not be getting back together again...and now I can cry. I'm crying alot. And it hurts. He said he's not ready for a relationship and I respect that, but god damn does this hurt. I've lost him, and it hurts. I wanted to cry and now I got my wish.
-Chasmin-
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2004 11 October :: 8.33pm
i wana fuck your mom in the ass!
WOOT! what a special day!
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2004 11 October :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: Full
:: Music: Mix cd
Lysol?
*Takes a moment of silenc to remember Christopher Reeves
RIP Mr. Reeves you will be missed.
-Chasmin-
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2004 10 October :: 6.52am
:: Mood: Damn work
:: Music: Into the Woods
There are giants in the sky!
Well yesterday I took my SAT at Atlantic. Honestly it wasn't that hard. I admit there were questions that stumpped me but all and all it was good. Now because I said that I probably got a crappy score. The only bad thing was that I was studying for the new SAT and I forgot that on the old one there are analogies...ahh I like yet dislike those. Depending on my score on this SAT, will determine wether or not I take the new SAT in march. After the SAT I went to see Oklahoma at the Broward center. It was really good. I enjoyed it. I got a pretty Tshit to add to my collection of Tshirts. Then after the show was over I went over to Waynes house in Boca and had my acting lesson. I love Wayne he is such an awesome guy. I mean for about late 30 to early 40 guy, he is easy to talk to and we have so much fun. Were working on this monologue from Oleana which I have to go see if I can find it at the library or somewhere. It is a totally awesome mono. I have alot of fun with it. When that was done my mum dropped me off at Luna Rosa so I could get some food. Cause Franny and my mum were going to Bill and Carol Scotts for Chilli. Oh earlier yesterday morning when I was getting ready to go to SAT. Franny was like are you taking a test today? I was like yah. He was like here put this in your pocket it's a good luck charm. I thought that was really sweet of him. Casue Franny is a nice guy it's just hard for him to show it to someone who isn't in the AA. Well I have to finish gettin ready for work.
-Chasmin-
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2004 8 October :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: Bouncy
:: Music: Shtuff
Pictures of my friends.
Read more..
Hehe it's the Lorelei
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This is Meg (bagheera)
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Freddy the pie man
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Amanda
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Jimmy
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Matt
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Amberkins
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Eddy the nipple and butt king
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Carrie the cool
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Sparkles (sparks)
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The infamous Cesar
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Some kid running away. I forgot his name
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Kylee hehe
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Ross
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Devin with a wig...the other half of Lorelei.
These are my friends, well some of them arent' they pretty?
-Chasmin-
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2004 7 October :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: Teary
:: Music: None
Dreams
Well I was going to put something in here...but then events changed. Ryan and I talked for about 2hrs. I don't know what got solved out of it but something did. So hopefully things get better...why do things happen the way they happen. What is it that we have to learn from it? lets see if I can figure out in days to come to see what I need to learn. Ryan I'm sorry for making you angry, you know what I'm talking about.
-Chasmin-
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2004 7 October :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: Grrr
:: Music: Mi mama's violin playing
Lava lamp
God why did I let Ryan take me home? I was doing fine I was happy then he took me home and I got depressed. There was so much that I wanted to say but I couldn't say it. I had plenty of chances to as well. It was almost like "god damnit bitch go ahead and tell him if you don't now you will never get this chance again!" God on the way to Ryans car so many things sent jelous vibes through me it was so annoying. Helen gave Ryan this bracelet and he was wearing it which sent me off. Then he yelled out this girls name which did as well. Then he saw that same girl and sorta said her name. AHHH it's so amazing frustrating. I wanted to tell him that I missed him but I wanted to know if we would ever go back out again. I can't take this whole thinking about him 24/7 and not even being able to have him. Sadly though I think if I dated Cesar Ryan wouldn't even give a damn. But if he did he wouldn't show it and I would never know. I don't know what to do anymore and I just want to scream. With Cesar I am happy, but I love Ryan. But now its all up to him on what I do....I can't even fend for myself anymore. Why can't I cry! I want to cry....just let me cry...
-Chasmin-
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2004 6 October :: 10.37pm
i want to spend the rest of my life with you. please dont leave me.
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