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2004 7 July :: 9.40am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Outkast
WARNING
Well I'm at the office again with my brother and I am so sleepy for some reason and I don't know why. Aaron picked me up after he got on base and he had the government car but I'm not supposed to be in there so the whole ride back to the office I had to ride with the seat down so they couldn't see me. I just laughed about that. There is some contraversy between Aaron and the other guy that works here so that isn't too cool. I found some really awesome artwork on Deviantart yesterday I was like oooo...pretty. I can't remember the name today though so that sucks. I think it might be Hey~poo~guy or something like that I dunno. I miss Ryan alot, PSSC (paper street soap company) The band that Ryan is in is having another concert that I am MISSING on sunday not fair. I hope I get to see them one day. God this computer is slow...I'm going to go d.l a ring tone for my phone since I didn't do it when my mum and I were talking about it hopefully I can find a good one.
-Chasmin-
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2004 6 July :: 10.07am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Judge Mathis
Life, liberty and the pursuit of all who threaten it.
You are a Day Dreamer..
Daydreamers tend to be away from the normal, and have a deeper aspect when looking at things. Most of the time, thier outcasts of the social society, but don't worry. It just means your so deep it scares thier simple little brains.
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2004 6 July :: 9.06am
:: Mood: Drunk?
:: Music: Usher My confession II
Courage the anti-drug
Well right now I'm in Sumter south carolina....never come here..there is NOTHING to do. I'm hanging out with my brother and all that fun stuff. I was supposed to be leaving yesterday for the airport but on the first day I was here I realized that I wanted to stay here longer. So I had to beg and pleade with my thick headed mom to change my ticket. Finally in the end I got my way so I'm staying here another week till next monday. I'm havin' lots of fun actually. On 4th of July we went to his friends house...their names are..Yavonne and Tommy. It's a pretty interesting house. They used to just have a trailer then they added a two story house onto it. They pretty much have a farm they got goats ducks geese horses cows...everything. They got these three big ass dogs the st. bernards name is Cujo...makes you feel safe no? They are really nice people. Tommy has a shit load of guns and he was shooting them off during the fire works. I got some of the gun shells. Aaron took me on the dirt bike thing and he almost went through a barb wire fence...isn't he smart. Aaron is tryin' so hard to get me drunk...I don't think I have I was close to it last night but I think the affects of alcohol ware off fast on me or something all I know is that I have gotten buzzes mostly. He made me a screwdriver (thats his favorite drink) but he put to much vodka in it so it was sorta gross. Lil' Aaron my nephew is so adorable. He's getting really big, and is talking really well. He's very emotional though, he cries about almost everything the funniest thing yesterday that he cried about was he was fiddling around with the controls of the PS2 I was in the kitchen watching him making sure he didn't mess with my controler so he would screw up my game but he was messing with the wires then he started talking to them and then yelling I guess the wires did something wrong and he started crying. I was laughing cause that lil dude is crazy. Well right now I'm at work with my brother at the Navy recruiting station. We just had to go jumpstart Matt's car she's bad luck around cars, at least that's what Aaron says. Matt's real name is Malinda I just always call her Matt cause of her old last name Matthews. I told her not to feel bad cause I do it to Ryan too. Every time I'm in the car with him he stalls but only with me. Aaron said he should dump my ass right now and be done with me. I just laughed. Well I'm gonna find some more to do on this computer...since it's the only internet that I've had since I left thursday.
-Chasmin-
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2004 30 June :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: ...I don't want to move
:: Music: Kingdom hearts once again...I'm a dork
The longest, tallest woody!
Today I had a loverly time with Ryan. He picked me up at my house at 10am. I did one of those dash put clothes on because the movie we were seeing started at 10:30am. I had to stop by Luna Rosa first so I could get my paycheck so I had some money when I go to South Carolina tomorrow. I get my paycheck and it brought a sadness to me...it was only $35 because my manager was having a bad day and made one of the hostesses go home, and the other one wouldn't go. Ryan and I make it to the movie right on time. We were seeing the Notebook...such a good movie. I made myself read the book before I saw the movie, and honestly the movie followed the book better then the new harry potter movie did. But I was very happy with the movie and there was an awesome house in it that I am going to steal from Ryan because he wants it. We leave the movies and we were going to get some food but Ryan really wasn't that hungry, so we went to his house for about 45mins until his brother was ready to go to work. Ryans house is starting to look really nice on the inside. I like his moms choice of colors. Miguel drives the 3 of us to his work then Ryan and I finally go get some food. I decided on Applebee's...they have the best stuff in the area that's not too expensive. After that we went to Veterans which I decided on too. Ryan and I sat there for maybe an hour to two hours just doin' random things. Sean called and asked if we were going to Muvico and I decided against it but Ryan was going to go so that cut our day short a bit. I just didn't want to be around anyone. It was so hard to leave Ryans truck when I got home..but I did it. He is always saying sarcastically how well we agree on things when it's me usually making all the decisions and him not. He's rarely made decisions and it's sorta annoying...or maybe it's just me. Anywhoozles I have to finish packing...I have to leave the house at 5:30am because my mother likes to get to the airport 2hrs ahead of time...and I have to wake her up..oh joy..
-Chasmin-
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2004 30 June :: 7.53pm
:: Mood: Yes
:: Music: Star search
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You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...
You're warm, and the most approachable. You have that gentle prescence about you. People can relate to you, and find you easy company. However it's likely you've been hurt in the past and it has left you scarred so things can become rather chilly with you at times. Being the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy and loyal to your friends but prone to depression and negative thinking.
Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)
?? Which Season Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla
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2004 30 June :: 2.21am
:: Mood: A tid bit sleepy
:: Music: Norah Jones :Turn me on (I will learn this song)
Hehe
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2004 28 June :: 8.06pm
:: Mood: I don't know
:: Music: 311
Tarot
Wow it must be nearing that time of the month cause I am having some fucked up mood swings...everything is like setting me off....blah.
-Chasmin-
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2004 27 June :: 6.02pm
:: Mood: Tired what's new?
:: Music: Nightwish
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Ok fuck writing about Cali...it's too much...I know what happened and I have a journal with what happened so if anyone wants to know anything about it ask me. Just IM me or something, or if you want to talk to me at all for shits and giggles here's my s.n Blueicingfairy. My now new favorite band is Nightwish...they are so awesome it brings a tear to thine eye. Ok I just had to say that.
-Chasmin-
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2004 26 June :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: Dweedly doodle
:: Music: Bob Rivers
Hello I love you (lets get tested)
*Alrighty here it is my journal from Cali. I kept one so I could remember everything...prepare for mucho longness up the wazoo.
Thursday June 17,2004
After having a lovely day with Ryan at Veterans park I had to go home and he had to go to work. It was a very sad goodbye. I think...no actually I know that was the first time I ever saw him cry it was much ::le tear::. There were many more emotions creeping through me at that moment as well...but I think it was only me...Ryan you evil bastard. Now pushing Ryan aside for the moment we will return to me. I finished some last minute packing after playing some Furcadia, and talking online. I didn't even have to take care of the dogs before leaving. Later my mum and I set off on our journey to the airport. It was sorta sad though we passed by the exkerds where Ryan works and it was bringing back mushy feelings. We got to the airport and my mom decided we were going to check our bags a good/bad idea. They were heavy little fuckers. Well we went to the area where they check your bags and holy jesus were the lines long...I mean un naturally long. After a nice wait we got through. Our gate was the fist one so that was easy. We bought some mints and I got a mad magazine (awesomeness to the extreme) I was hungry so I went to Miami subs and got a gyro wrap..it was sorta crappy. Well it was time to board the plane and it turned out it was a different one then what we usually ride. It was called Song and honestly I had always wanted to ride it cause it was called song...I'm a sad sad person. We get on the plane and we weren't sitting in the back. But this plane was sooo retro, and it had tv's on the back of the seats with satellite television. So great. Before we take off I texted Ryan that I was getting on the plane and my mom began to make fun of me she was like "God do you tell him everything?" I just said "Yes" then she begins to say "I inhaled...I exhaled" I just glared at her but it was funny at the time. Throughout the whole ride I watched FUSE thank god that was my savior. The plane takes off and we didn't crash but there was some turbulance which was sorta scary. The plane was up so high in the air that the air outside went to -7 degrees is that not crizazy?. There was this person sitting behind me and he kept hitting the seat so I'm thinkin' it's a little kid who needs to die, then he yells damn and i was slightly confused it turned out to be this older man I guess he was watching the sports channel and was getting really into it? Sometime during the flight I passed out but it was a wonderful sleep I don't even know how long it lasted. We finally arrived to LAX and we dragged our heavy ass bags to the bus to pick us up that would take us to the car rental station. On the way there I tell my mom "It'd be really cool if we could get a convertible" she says "Thats impossible they cost too much extra money" Well I proved her wrong. When we got to the car rental place the lady at the desk said "Would you like to have a convertible with no extra charge?" I just smiled like HA! The convertible turned out to be a silver Spyder eclipse.....so pretty......brings a tear to thine eye. After finding our car we went to In & Out burger so yummy... With the time change it's 3hrs earlier in Cali so in acutality we were eating dinner at midnight fun no. I got a cheeseburger, and my mum and I split a frie (better food then any damn mc donald). After eating we went to our hotel and unpacked then fell asleep. That was the end of our first day.
*Well i"m tired of writing so I will post more over a period of days...don't worry they get a bit more interesting.
-Chasmin-
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2004 26 June :: 7.29am
:: Mood: Still a bit tired
:: Music: Sam Kinison "Have you seen me lately" comedy cd
Pocket toys
Yesterday was a fun day, after my lil' nap consiting of I think 2 hrs I woke up to find some IM's from Ryans cell on my computer saying that him and Helen were at Ben and Jerry's and come over and hang out all that stuff. So I called him up and said I was going to take a shower then head over there. Well my slow ass self took a bit long to get there. I took a shower answered some e-mails fed and walked the dogs then I finally headed over. We left Ben and Jerry's after a half hour or so and walked to Doc's....so hot....I was finally hungry and got some chicken tenders yummy, Helen just got some fries...and well Ryan doesn't eat. During that time there I tried to call my mom asking her if I could go to the movies with Ryan and Helen but she was asleep and not answering her phone (it was scary trying to call her). We leave Doc's then walk back down towards the beach, on the way I saw my friend Lana and I talked to her a bit. Helen had my long board so she was going to get there before us. Well we couldn't find her and it turns out she was already at my house waiting we told her to go to the beach cause I was going to pick up my paycheck. I go get my paycheck and Ryan said that they should go or they would miss the movies so they start walking down A1A and I got really sad. I start to go home and lo' and behold my mum calls and she was like "You look sad" I was slightly confused and wondering how she saw me and I said "Where are you?" she said "I just drove by you looked sad what's wrong?" I told her "Ryan and Helen went to the movies and I wanted to go" she replied "Why didn't you go?" I got annoyed and answered "I tried calling you to ask and you didn't answer your phone" pause no answer "Well go catch up with them" I smiled happily and called Ryan telling him to wait for me and I caught up with them. When I got there they were sitting on the street that leads down to Johans house and Helen tells me "Were going to Johans to see if we can get a ride" I was just like ok. We walk down to his house and Helen knocks on his door and his friends are there but no Johan. We hang out with them for about an hour waiting and he doesn't show up. Finally his mom comes home and they have to go pick him up and we had to leave. So we started walking again....We should have just walked in the first place but whatever. Helen takes the longboard and she is already way ahead of Ryan and I. It's such a long walk in the heat...damn knats. We start walking up the huge bridge and theres Jared walking towards us to meet us. We walk with him to the movies and Ryan soon becomes silent he was just really not in the mood to walk and wanted to get to the movies. We finally make it to the movies at like 8 I think. I've already missed the movie I wanted to see and we end up sitting in Toot sweets for like an hour. Cooper and some other kid were sitting with Helen when we got there. Ryan and I go to sit down and Cooper was like "Thanks for going to my friends house trying to get a ride" she said that all nastily (she was in a really pissy mood) and Ryan just says "whos idea was it?" and cooper says "I don't know" Ryan points to Helen and Helen even says "It was my fault" I don't know Cooper was really testy that night. I was also thinking that Johan was our friend too not just her's. We may not be that great of a friend with him like she is...in many ways, but were still his friend. Whatever. I sortof stopped paying attention to everyone and just payed attention to Ryan. He seemed sorta sad and I asked him what was up and he said he felt a bit sick. I asked him if he was hungry or not and he said I want chicken wings, I say from where and he says Doc's....I just sortof laugh like are you kidding. I asked him if there was a substitute he could have for chicken wings and finally I got out of him Ribs. So I ask everyone if we could to to Roadhouse and they say sure. We walk over there and I see some people I know that worked there then I saw Keira and Brandon and I said hi to them. We sit and order some drinks then Helen was like "We told Sparks to meet us at toot sweets" she calls him up and tells him where to meet us. He finally comes and Carrie was hanging out with him. Carrie is a really nice, cool, and funny guy. We eat our foodage and I told Ryan that I was going to pay for half of his meal cause he didn't want to spend all of his money I payed for my meal and all that good stuff. Were sitting there at the table and I look up and I see Peter, some random kid, then my buddy Michale who I haven't seen since 8th grade. I get up and he doesn't see me so I push him and he was like "Woah you got braces" I laughed we talked a bit and he thought I said Ryan was the milk man it was a funny conversation I laughed. I said bye to him and everyone went over to the arcade and played games for awhile. Jared and Carrie were trying to get those stuffed dolls with the claw thing...no luck. I finally ask Carrie if he could drive me home because during dinner my mum calls and was like "We just watched the Terminal are you ready to go home I can give you a ride" I told her "Our food is right now coming so no sorry" she said "Well just come home after your done eating" so I had no ride. Carrie said he would take me hom thank you Carrie. It was nearing towards 11...and I was getting a bit nervous. I didn't want to get home after 11 so I ask Carrie if we could go and he says yah. He took Ryan home as well. He drives me home and there was good music playing in his car. I say my goodbye's and thanks and enter my house. I wasn't in trouble. So that ended a good night, except Furcadia I played that when I got home it was kindof a sad game for me yesterday but I'm ok but not my charecter. Anywhoozles I have to finish getting ready for stuff I have to do today...wow this journal took me about a half hour almost damn. Well love peace and chicken grease!
-Chasmin-
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2004 25 June :: 8.09am
:: Mood: not enough sleep blah
:: Music: Yellow Card
Wow...special.
Well I just got back in from the airport...and I didn't get much sleep. There will be a very long journal entry coming soon to squishylover's journal near you (You can tell I haven't gotten any sleep). But yah when I find the energy and time...I could do it now but I'm too lazy, I'll write about my whole trip. Which was truly awesome. More on that later. I wanna see The Notebook...I wonder if Ryan will go with me, I'll ask him today.
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2004 17 June :: 6.29am
:: Mood: It's 6:30... need I say more
:: Music: Full Monty
She's got that shelf kinda ass the kind where you can display your chatchkies and collectibles on...
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY RYAN!!!!!!!!
Wow 1 whole god damn year since I asked you out...since you said yes. So many things have happened to us over the year, some good some bad. It was all worth it. Being with you makes everything worth it. I love you...god there aren't words to describe how much I love you, but you know that already. You've changed my life Ryan, and you've had an affect on me that no other person has ever had. Your always there for me. Even when your makin' fun of me I still love you more then ever. I like our little games we play and the random rules we make up just so it benefits us both (More me) But yah. I have fun when I'm refreshing your memory. You are so perfect in my eyes, and I wouldn't change an thing about you. Not even your shyness, you are amazing. I just love you and now I'm going to go take a shower so I can meet you at the beach and then we can see where our day unfolds.
-Chasmin-
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2004 16 June :: 9.51am
:: Mood: Trying not to fall asleep
:: Music: Linkin park
Hypodermic Media?
Well today I get to hang out with Ryan all day cause he has a day off...I have to pack today for my trip to California tomorrow...doesn't that sound exciting. I'm actually pretty excited to go...I'm just going to miss Ryan of course. Last night my friend Sony told me that he liked me....that was odd. I don't know how he didn't know that I had a b.f. He had my spanish class with me, so he should have heard me talking about him...and I think I even mentioned Ryan to him. But were still friends so alls well that ends well. I need to go take a shower soon so I can get my lazy ass out of bed.
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2004 13 June :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: Awake
:: Music: Disney shtuff
Mangoeygoodness
Grr Ryan's band's first gig is on Friday...and I won't be here to see it....I really wante to go too. But meh whatever. I'm sure they will do fantastic, and kick everyone elses butt and maybe learn a few things from the other bands. ::le sigh:: Wish I could have gone.
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2004 13 June :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: Sticky
:: Music: Thembelina
Mmm food
Well I was going to write about yesterday...but I don't really want to look back on that day. Ryan and I talked and got everything settled hopefully...most likely. Today I worked and now I am very sticky because I got sprite thrown at me...fun stuff. Now I'm at home chillin' and drinkin' some sangria (yummiest wine) and some green tea. Also eating a turkey club wrap so I'm happy. Well thats all for now. Toodles.
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