:: 2004 2 May :: 2.10 pm

bleh....I hate sundays

yesterday I woke up and drove over to the FAU campus at 12 for chem tutoring. It was alright janyll and german were there too. I felt so shitty thought like I had a hangover without the alcohol. I couldnt wake up or make my eyes focus and I had a headache it was messed up. I actually need to go to teh eye doctor my eyesight is starting to get weird. Ive been putting it off for a while. Damn computers....

Afterwards I was in the WORST mood. It was just one of those days where my dads mere existence just pissed me off to no end. I was so mean to him in the car. I had left my stat book in my locker cuz im a dumbass and I didnt have an AP book so we had to go to barnes and noble to get one and I bought the AP government book while I was there.

Afterwards my dad wanted to take me out to lunch at PF changs or sumthing and I Was just like no were going home. and hes like why and I was like because if we go to a restuarnt that means I have to sit with you for a longer paeriod of time than necessary...you guys have NO idea the things I say to him it's really horrible. We ended up picking up sandwhiches at the whole foods market and I was gunna scream because it was full of obnoxious boca people and there was this whole hawaiian thing going on outside with loud obnoxious music and I just wanted to whip out a machine gun and go to town on everyone out there with their fucking happy smiling faces....did I mention it was beautiful outside? The sunlight annoyed me immensely.

Went home ate bitched at my mom when she came come my parents finally got the mesage to stay away from me.

I fell asleep for 3 hours and woke up unsure of whether it was 6:30 am or pm...then I did sum styduing....the AP book has a year-long studyplan...a 3 month plan...and a 5 week plan for those who like to cram.....yeahhh there doesnt seem to be a 2day study plan...the test is on tuesday : / fuck it

My parents ordered Duplex on pay per view so I watched it with them even though I saw it already.

I was wired all night couldnt sleep could only study for a little bit. Nothing on TV then I started to feel nauseous and dizzy and delerious. I made myself throw up and I felt better...not the healthiest of skills to possess but it helped.

My parents are visiting my aunt and the baby today and I'm supposed to be studying...I will eventually, hope everyone else's weekend was better than mine.

~Jess~

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:: 2004 30 April :: 5.31 pm

I'm so tired, thank god this week is over...

today was pretty uneventful looked thru liz's yearbook in epstein. I love that I spent like $60 on the thing and I'm not even in it. My pictures didn't come out and I was too lazy to get retakes. I'm only on the eagle ette pages which kinda suck and in that horrible picture with ally from time warp day and on Richelles senior page where my hair looks sooo bad. Oh well I definately don't buy the yearbooks to stare at myself.

Got a 69 on the stat free response even with all the insane curves I love it if I don't get a B on her tests I get a 69 no other grade if its not a B or the occaisonal A its a 69....every1 thinks its symbolic lol

Then we played asshole...havnt played in a while but I managed to work my way up to VP eventually it's no fun when JB and carlos cheat so much...grrrr

Looked at sum1 elses yr book on the bus, then I got exhausted and fell asleep on casey's shoulder, I woke up when his brother came back there and leaned over the seat to go "awww look theyre sleeping!"....he has been worrying me though he overdoses on pain killers and has been starving himself...I don't even know what to say he won't hear any of it and I don't really know him that well....idk maybe hes just doing it for attention but its upsetting

then it was POURING rain when we got to the bus stop luckily my dad was waiting there so we didn't have to walk all the way home. lol when steven was in the car his mom called his fone and the speaker was on so we got to hear their whole conversation ending in "Bye sweetie I love you!"

I got into some comfy dry clothes and sat my fatass on the couch when I got home to eat adn watch swimfan...drifted in and out of sleep now I'm here talking to heather. I have to get up tomorrow to go to chem tutoring with janyll. bleh

lol I think I was the only one not invited to Amanda's party...I just attribute it to the fact that all IB chicks hate me....no big loss...really i'm good not being invited to IB parties. It will be funny if JB manages to have his motel party in the middle of hers. No way I could manage to get to that one but I would still be amused from afar.

That's all pretty boring shit have a great weekend every1....study for stats!! (right)

~Jess~
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lol tlkin to shane and jimmy cuz theyre at his house...

CircaPunk93 (7:34:47 PM): thats why im gonna be president

MisScarlet219 (7:35:12 PM): yes jimmy
MisScarlet219 (7:35:14 PM): of course u are

CircaPunk93 (7:35:41 PM): just wait

MisScarlet219 (7:35:59 PM): no i could totally see it
MisScarlet219 (7:36:05 PM): ur just a bitch like that
MisScarlet219 (7:36:08 PM): ill be ur secretary
MisScarlet219 (7:36:19 PM): cuz ill be useless for anything else
MisScarlet219 (7:36:22 PM): u can take pity on me
MisScarlet219 (7:36:27 PM): get me out of the porn industry...it'll b a scandal

CircaPunk93 (7:36:32 PM): u'll be my secretary and so will carlos
CircaPunk93 (7:36:39 PM): and u'll be like
CircaPunk93 (7:36:48 PM): 'dammit carlos, why dont you have my papers done yet'
CircaPunk93 (7:36:53 PM): and he'll be like
CircaPunk93 (7:36:55 PM): i dunno man
CircaPunk93 (7:37:06 PM): and u'll be like 'god dammit what are you good for!'

MisScarlet219 (7:37:18 PM): ha haaa
MisScarlet219 (7:37:21 PM): i will
MisScarlet219 (7:37:28 PM): and u will always mistake him for the lawn guy

CircaPunk93 (7:38:01 PM): dammit sanchez! the lawn still isn't cut
CircaPunk93 (7:38:08 PM): jimmy, im carlos, your friend from high school
CircaPunk93 (7:38:15 PM): you still can't tell me apart form sanchez?
CircaPunk93 (7:38:37 PM): god dammit sanchez get off your lazy mexican ass, stop pretending to be carlos and cut the fucking lawn!

MisScarlet219 (7:38:46 PM): lmao
MisScarlet219 (7:38:51 PM): u will forget my name entirely
MisScarlet219 (7:38:55 PM): get that slut in here sanchez

CircaPunk93 (7:39:14 PM): what are you doing bringing sluts into the white house sanchez
CircaPunk93 (7:39:22 PM): you know thats not right

MisScarlet219 (7:39:25 PM): u mexicans and ur white whores!

CircaPunk93 (7:39:35 PM): now put her back where you found her
CircaPunk93 (7:39:54 PM): i found her in your office jimmy
CircaPunk93 (7:40:01 PM): now wait just a god damn minute sanchez

MisScarlet219 (7:40:07 PM): and ill come in and take of my slutty yet buisness dress high heeled shoe
MisScarlet219 (7:40:15 PM): smack u in the head with it
MisScarlet219 (7:40:25 PM): and ull be lyk oh yeah sry jess

CircaPunk93 (7:40:32 PM): and then i'll be like
CircaPunk93 (7:40:38 PM): fucking sanchez you let jessica in!

MisScarlet219 (7:40:45 PM): ha
MisScarlet219 (7:40:50 PM): then u get hit with the other shoe

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:: 2004 29 April :: 8.54 pm

hmmmmmm whatever to say

I'm a bit depressed (what else is new right?) no this time it is for an everyday chick reason no deep rooted psycological problems today ur dissapointed im sure.

he's ignoring me...I hate what he does to me...end of story

KBS-the killboy society....they hurt you...we hurt them back...protecting our own

so many guys need to be killed.

Idk i'm just so sad and it feels so stupid he's done this to me a million times though I should be used to it...at least I'm not crying.

other things...

Jimmy drove me home today there were no obnoxious ppl in the car after dropping nick off a few minutes away from school. It was nice...far better than the bus as usual.

yesterday we did AP questions in gov't I was in a group with christina danielle and altan....interesting.

"just becuz i ask for some gum everyone has to go an think i'm incompetant"

Patrick was insulted I changed my phone banner to "I hate PJ" when he decided to go thru my purse thinking I was hoarding gum (its all about the damn gum i know its a sick addiction) but yeah their group decided to spend the whole time discussing how I was the "whore" of our governemnt class....I so know half of those IB ppl are FREAKS behind cloed doors lol ya never know.

I think I either scare or amuse christina...I can't tell...

more l8r must go

~good nite~

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:: 2004 26 April :: 7.06 pm
:: Mood: depressed wtf...

Today was a good day this was a good weekend. What is my problem. Everything is going great but I have this feeling of the world crashing down around me. Its like I don't deserve happiness my mind is a hopeless cynnic that has to twist all good thoughts into negativity.

school was easy today did nothing basicall, my health project went well I didn't do too miserably on the government mock. I had my captain interview after school for eagle ettes. It went fine. Not like spectacularly amazing but I think I gave some good answers. I'm more worried about teaching my dance but thast in a couple weeks. Guys are...nonexistent this past week, I've been busy they've been moody w/e its not even bothering me.

Friends are....friends I don't even care. I'm in a loner mood all of a sudden, happy perky jessica wore herself out or something. I'm getting into one of those moods again where I just don't like people. Nothing suicidal this time dont worry (ifu even would) im just...apathetic I expect too much from people and I will only get hurt so I'm not going to expect anything and it will save me pain later. I'm shutting down again I feel it. I'm ready to close myself off from the world.

I was sitting outside of my interview waiting for michelle and the seniors to be done so michelle could drive me home. And I wanted human contact so I looked thru my fone book I didn't wan tto talk to anyone. I called jimmy cuz no matter what I can always handle him but he was at swim I think...left him sum long babbling message. Then John called cuz he needed sum1's number it kinda cheered me up but I wasn't really into talking to him either. Everythign is just so...dissapointing

like myself I dissapoint myself. I couldnt even stay sober for a few weeks until school ended I could have not drank on saturday just gone and not drank there were sober people there. I also didnt have to literally drink until I passed out even jimmy said I had to much and thats saying something. Do I really have a problem? I made such a big deal about not doing it I'm pathetic.

why can't I let myself be happy?

im sry none of this makes sense oh well...

~numb again~
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**yeah either danielle forgot to give briana my money or briana didnt write my username on the paper when she sent it in cuz I didn't get a message saying my journal was saved...NE1 know anything about that?**

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:: 2004 25 April :: 8.43 pm

forgot to say a whole bunch....much updating to do.

mall with Heather and Danielle so much fun so many laughs...

Heather: omg...how did we get downstairs?!
Heather:...but sterling doesn't wear tube tops
Heather: yeah I was in the towncenter mall yesterday and it was so trashy..I was like why are there black people here?

heather's mom and grandma are also quite entertaining we ran into them a few times throughout the day. lol other funny things...aviator glasses, birds shitting on the sign, so much more I can't even remember it all.

lol danielle and I are big chubs and ate pretzal dogs when heather left (we had already had ben & jerrys) lol then we went into spencers to browse a bit lol edible underwear and such.... useful things at spencers.

I love prom dresses. Fuck prom I will just buy a million dresses and prance around my house like a princess. mmm loved the dominatrix dress too bad danielle broke it!! lmao.

yes...been talking to altan lately such an odd kid he is very dominic-like in the sense that he spews a lot of meaningless crap to every girl he talks to. I'm well hardened to such things so I can see it objectively...I see now how he makes them all fall for him tho it never did make sense. Danielle and I have a plan to fix him. muahahaha but I don't mind his conversation until then.

more from last night....I somehow got a hold of garys guitar and started playing it for darcy and her friend. lol they were either REAL messed up or I am sum sevant drunken muscian cuz they said it sounded like I knew what I was doing...I think idk maybe I imagined it.

My captain interview is tomorrow. I have to dress nice and such I'm a bit nervous I suppose. *cross fingers*

oh yeah danielle and I got a job application at 21 forever and are gunna look in2 working at aeropostale when it's open. That would be so great.

This was a good weekend...hangovers aside I feel good again. Happy and free and loved school is almost over just smile a little longer...

~no te pierdas el ahora~
(don't lose the now...)
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*edit*
Prom was this weekend didn't go got my 2am drunken fone call as promised so I felt like I was at the afterparty...so sad.

had a show on saturday morning I'm sure the seniors heads were all spinning with hangovers. Christina was in the audience <3 didn't see her when I left tho...prbly goign to see AJs sax quartet there were sum bandos there from atl.

lauren came over after to work on chem and our audition dances....much hilarity and strangeness ensued. "eat your fucking french fries!"...ahh good times good times

ok i'm really done now

~Jess~

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:: 2004 25 April :: 10.26 am
:: Mood: tired as hell
:: Music: shhh quiet please

like nobody's

:: 2004 22 April :: 9.21 pm
:: Mood: happy

Half day today, turned out pretty good. !st hr was...well english who cares about english. The government test actually didn't seem that bad considering all I did was read the outline 5 minutes before the test we'll see. Health we had a sub and she left no work. I was NOT in the mood to sit in a room with those people for an hour so I got out an old pass told the guy sum shit about a rehersal and headed for the dance room.

On the way there I heard the familiar sound of "Jessica Brandi is such a skank" from somethere above. lol I looked up and saw alicia and hillary and some other seniors I kinda knew just chillin outside of their english class. They were supposed to be doing work or something but they were'nt so I went up there and sat and chilled with them until they had to go in. Jimmy had been a skank and left me messages from home laughing at me for being in school so I called him and talked to him for a bit. lol I love how when your in the annex you can do whatever you want. When they had to go in I did make my way over to the dance room and watched a few minutes of Chorus Line with the class in there until the bell rang.

Went to stats...actually pulled an 81 on the AP mock...couldnt have done it without logan but eh what can ya do. lol spent a lot fo time making fun of Dave's soccer trophy considering half of my dance ones are big enough to eat it.

I had caught michelle in the hallway earlier and asked her for a ride so I met her in the annex after school and we made r way over to her car. Hillary was parked next to her so we decided to go out to lunch. We got a lil held up though because Hillary decided to be nice and give this girl in the parking lot a jump when her car wouldnt start. lol I was a little scared they were going to blow sumthing up since no1 knew what they were doing. We ended up getting like 5 people to help. After a wonderful meal at burger king (lol I only had $5) we went to michelle's house to chill. Finally got to see her brother even though it was only for a few minutes. We sat around and looked at pictures for the eagle ette slide show messed with the computer a lil...it was good times. I came home and fell asleep for about 4 hours then woke up for dinner. Now I'm talkin to CHUB and co.

I want to go to prom so bad!!!!! I'm so jealous they are all getting a room at embassy suites where shariffs party and sum other ones I think are going on. They all wanted me to go but going home after (which I would have had to do) would have been pointless plus I'm broke, dresses and updo's are expensive. eh Next year...to bad they will all be gone : (

I'm going to cry at banquet....

I'm not going to get captain or co- captain I know it I'm so nervous about my audition and my interview whichis on monday eeekkkk!!

ok well that was pretty damn boring for you all I'm sure....again fuck you no one makes you read it. : )

~Jess~

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:: 2004 20 April :: 10.12 pm

Notes:

*practice canceled wasted half the afternoon sleeping
*did bad on the AP mock I know it
*barely finished my spanish project due tomorrow
*Have another project due thursday....have yet to start
*I'm getting sum IB chick to tutor me in chemistry...I don't even want to bother
*hopefully going to the mall with heather sunday
*HOPEFULLY going to danielle h's post prom night party on saturday
*show on saturday morning
*it hurts me when he hurts himself...it hurts when he hurts me....he made me cry again
*I don't cry
*drugs are bad for you
*I need some desperately : \
*my friend tried to kill himself....i think...he upsets me too
*I miss the simple happy times
*I miss the beach at night
*I love Gilmore Girls
*OC tomorrow more therapy (the show that is)
*someone had sex on danielle's bed
*Government test thursday.....no
*A Kiss Kan Kill......
*I'm dying here

*Jess*

like nobody's

:: 2004 18 April :: 10.37 pm
:: Mood: ahhh

Thought:
IB band-aids for school inflicted wounds. My mind is in shambles it will manifest upon my flesh soon enough.....

~This stress is beginning to break skin~

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:: 2004 17 April :: 11.37 pm

mmmm dance show day 2...went pretty good we were all sore and tired so maybe not as good as friday night but eh...me and brittney's duet actually did look good tonight neither of us fucked up and we were all on count so I felt way better about that.

After the show I was so tired I just wanted to go home, brittney nicki and jenn were going to bostons i think and hillary richelle and co. went to fridays, Jessica went home like a loser lol I had an exhausting day.

woke up at 7:20 took a shower got dressed and did my makeup for delray affiar michelle picked me up at 8:30 we drove around looking for a parking spot forever and finally found one abotu a millon miles away from teh stage. So then we walked and walked and pondered what the hell we were doing up this early. So yeah did the show and it sucked cuz we were all too sore and tired to care lol.

After that michelle and lauren came back to my house to work on lauren and my captain audition dances we have to teach the squad. It helped a lot just having some1 there to give me opinions I choreographed a lot more and michelle helped me fix my formations. And we filled in sum holes in laurens dance. lol were not really competing against each other we just want to be captain and co captain together so we have to beat every1 else. crazy dance politics its ridiculous sumtimes. I want co captain next year I don't think I can handle captain but idk they mite not even give me that. ahhh this is stressing me out so bad I just want banquet to be over so I know.

lol lauren michelle and i have to be the oddest human beings on the planet. It is so funny when we are together. Michelle losing her car keys in the lining of her warmup pants at subway...well either u take off ur pants or we hang u upside down and shake until they fall out.....lauren having the nerve to be a backseat driver when her car is totaled. lol another odd yet nice day.

talkin to jackie myers shes so cute...lol I think shes gunna try out for EE nxt year and danielle was considering it i think...that would be fun if they made it..well my children I think it is sleep time or something of the sort I shall see you soon.

~so much love~
Jess

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:: 2004 16 April :: 10.34 pm
:: Mood: CRAZY

AHHH so much to do tonight my adrenaline high and this coffe mocha milkshake from steak n shake will surely help. Dance show was tonight I feel so good I mean yeah some of teh dances blew ass mostly because of awkward costume (ehh pimp suit anyone?) but some of them I felt awesome about. The trio with me britt and dorianna was...lol we did really good for learning it a few days ago even though brittney stopped dead on stage for like an entire 8 count.

Danielle and Christina came and gave me big hugs after it made me feel so great and happy. lol all the sexy moves were for you danielle. Janyll's mom bought me flowers and I saw some other people I knew....sterling, sum other IB guys Jessica C...dom was there I think didn't wanna talk to him.

Drove lauren home cuz she messed up her car lol shes commin over tomorrow to work on our audition dances. Oh yeah I got nominated for captain next year so I have to choreograph a dance to teach to the squad. I'm so nervous and stressed.

tomorrow morning we have an eagle ette show at the delray affair then me and lauren are working for a few hours then it's back to dance show for the second night...the grandparents are comming.

I had an hour to kill after school before I had to be at rehersal and Jimmy had an hour to kill before swim so we began to drive around aimlessly. lol aimlessly that is until he decided we were going to nick warrens house. so yeah spent an hour there watching jimmy play halo and hoping nicks dog wouldnt bite me and listening to him and his dad's extreamly amusing conversation. lol his brother Dave must have thought it was weird considering he just saw me in stat last hour and I show up at his house for no reason. aw well it was interesting. I miss hangning out with Jimmy no matter what we do it's always good times.

So my dad got a job managing a new American Eagle opening in the pga mall, that means 40% off of everything for jessica and i love that store. They only hire 16 year olds in boca though so I'm not gettin a job there. : (

In other news...couldn't go in and finish my chem test why is that? Mrs. Kenyon fucking lost it! she ALWAYS loses my papers. I know she thinks I took it home to cheat with too even I'm not that stupid theres no way to cover that shit up.

ok so overall really good day all the dancing I've been doing this week has kicked in the endorphins I'm slightly pleasant to be around at the moment, this will never happen again.

off to clean and do homework...this motivation cannot go to waste.

~good night to all~

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:: 2004 15 April :: 9.02 pm

don't know why I'm updating, I'm not in the mood and I have so much to do. *sigh*

omg I love Jimmy he just helped me so much with a chemistry question I think he needs to be my teacher. when you just give me a prblm and tell me how to do it I get it...I don't need to know all the theories and reasons behind shit I never plan on looking at chemistry again in my life.

yeah well as you see my test did not go very well. Nobodys did I dont think but I really didn't know a goddamn thing. We're all going in to finish it during 5th hour tomorrow. Hopefully I can salvage a D or maybe a low C??

Dance show is tomorrow I'm so not ready. One of our costumes is so horrible I just don't even wanna talk about it. lol we are pimps.

The dress rehersal went alright I guess it seems like a lot of people are actually comming to watch I'm suprised. I am sure to fall on my ass at some point now. lol

rite now with god as my witness I vow to be good for the next two months. No more lying/drinking/drugs of any kind. Not because it's the right thing to do lol but because I wanna go to gainsville with michelle this summer.

MisScarlet219 (8:17:05 PM): im going to be good for the rest of the year
MisScarlet219 (8:17:11 PM): no more drinking and lying and shit
MisScarlet219 (8:17:17 PM): cuz i wanna go to gainsville this summer
CircaPunk93 (8:17:31 PM): thats good about the first part
CircaPunk93 (8:17:33 PM): whats in gainsville
CircaPunk93 (8:17:35 PM): drinking and lying?
MisScarlet219 (8:17:38 PM): hell yea
MisScarlet219 (8:17:42 PM): only doing it right
MisScarlet219 (8:17:46 PM): with college guys

lol wat can I say...nah I'd be careful though I really just wanna go cuz I don't want to lose touch with Hillary and Richelle and everyone when they move up there. And I do wanna see the campus since I will most likely end up going there. Evan is afraid I'm going to get raped and murdered....wouldnt be a huge loss to humanity I don't think

I still have to convince my parents tho...theyre not compleatly sold on it.

laaaaaaaaa lalalala I have much to say but I suppose I will go and do things that need to be done....damnit

no maybe I won't maybe I will lie and sit here talking to people

as long as I had the intention of doing something productive at some point in the day I feel good about myself. Now that I have filled my moral obligations for the evening...I shall return to my CHUB & co.
here's your happy thought.....smile for me

~Remember The Best Kiss You Ever Had~

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:: 2004 13 April :: 4.32 pm
:: Mood: creative

*Written in the Stars*

It's like a relentless design that I can't help but fill
and we were written in the stars against all sanity and will
so let me struggle in your arms just hating love and loving hate
it's like a knife deep in my chest but it just feels so fucking great.

We're like a twisted cosmic joke 'cause heaven's hard up for laughs
forget the scene they wrote it's not my words I take 'em back
but there's no use leaving now
because I'm only comming back

I don't control this life
don't feel a thing but somehow it's right...

Why does my body set on fire when we're caught up in the night
it's like some predestined desire i'm not strong enough to fight
so fuck it all let's be ironic and make out beneath the stars
surrender to reluctant passion and split open all these scars.

We're just a twisted cosmic joke cause heavn's hard up for laughs
forget the scene they wrote, it's not my words I take 'em back
I'm really trying to give up
but something keeps us comming back

so here's to the goddamn night
it's real but there's nothing right
it's ok not to feel tonight...

<3

2 watching | like nobody's

:: 2004 13 April :: 4.17 pm

ok much to tell....i will prbly forget it all

lol yesterday I was so late to school and my mom wouldnt give me a note so I just wandered around the annex most of the time. Passed like 10 aps didnt get stopped once it was nice...chilled in the dance room, met some hatian girl had a nice chat lol then we met a substitute teacher, a senior aid from the IBO and some other interesting people....what a random morning

3rd hour went to the CAS fair...me danielle and heather wanna do habitat for humanity lol dont laugh I can build a goddamn house if i want to...every1 do it with us!!

5th hour took a health test then left early to go reherse with brittney...then stats was all review

then I had still more rehersal after school (if NE1 wants tix to the dance show gimmie $10 this week)

came home was in a very take control bitching out mood. lol logan pissed me off as u see so I biched him out on his journal but he pussied out and erased it.

Evan made me so fucking mad. I always let shit go with him but I wasn't letting him get away with this one. I swear all guys are too goddamn busy thinking with their dicks to have a shred of common sense.

I felt so good though, im finally starting to feel like me again. Ive taken too much shit from people lately fuck being a pacifist and letting people walk all over you, I'm taking back control, getting my self-respect back a lil too. If that means remaining on the side of virtue more than i usually would...idk i'll buy a vibrator or sumthing idk lol.

After last night I went in my room and just started writing I havnt done that in forever it felt so fucking good. idk how bad it is but i wrote sum lyrics and a poem I miss being able to let it all out thru that. maybe ill write em in here.

~Be Yourself Always~

like nobody's

:: 2004 10 April :: 11.34 pm

lol tonight was fun even tho i wish it lasted longer....

lol it was another one of Briana's bursts of spontinaity to go bowling tonight. lol yes we are losers but o well. We danced to the music and played a very shitty game and JB brought sum uhh...fun?? lol it was danielle, briana, jb, me and sum people from their neighborhood who were all pretty cool. Bri brought the digicam, she's really taking her new perspective on life seriously kudos for that.

tlkin to amanda...i miss her i should call her more often...

oh omg rite in the lane nxt to us was allen...idk if u know who he is but hes sooooo fucking hot he has to be lyk the hottest guy in the damn school...lol i told heather about it...

MisScarlet219 (11:54:53 PM): he was in the lane nxt to us when we went bowling 2nite
iluvBITP (11:55:00 PM): what kinda car?
MisScarlet219 (11:55:06 PM): no the bowling lane

...lol its ok heather

Evan says he still doesn't know what the other night meant...idk what to think of that I'm going to let him figure it out since I was the one who fucked up the trust before I really have no right to be offended if he doesn't want to be with me i guess...

ok gettin bitched at must sign off

again...happy fuckin easter lol

~Jess~

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