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2004 9 June :: 1.04 pm
omg steph nd jenn hate each other nd when they were outside screaming jenn called one of them a twinkie so her nd caroline come back in nd throw bags of ho ho's at her and say "here in case you ever forget your name" ... caroline's profile: ((Thinking up a plan..2 minutes, Buying 2 bags of ho ho's..$2, The look on Jenns face when she actually got it..pricele$$)) lmaoo im not taking sides in this but omg she was soo pissed that was good.... i have no money now... i had to pay for matt too nd then ev walked outta there crying nd i had to pay for her too cuz no one else had the money to... oh well...
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2004 9 June :: 7.39 am
wooot my new phone rocks my socks lol love it... so yesterday i talked to shawn for like an hour nd a half before i had to change for my game but while we were talkinn i told him we were at 79th nd shore playinn nd halfway thru the game, him nd adam showed up!!! =] ::smilesssss!:: but he left like an inning before it ended nd adam stayed nd he was like ohh u guys r good, u were great @ first, good baserunnin ((i didnt get a good hit when they were there... crap)) but i was like haha thats so sweet ((wish shawn had said it)) lol but ah i was soo happy nd ali was a bitch screaming out my name so he'd know i was here when he obviously already did... omg im gunna hit you today ali!!!! but he knew i got a new phone nd he had to make sure i had the same numberr so he still had it lol omg you have no idea how happy he makes me.... ALI RUINED IT YESTERDAY THOUGH! ahem... gotta get ready for schooool... sorry i havent updated in so long i've just been busy... yesterday was my birthdayyyy woot woot lol anywayss im outt...
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2004 6 June :: 8.52 pm
omg i havent updated in forever... anyway... i had the time of my life that nightt omg soooo much freakinn fun!!!!! oyy i didnt want that night to end... ok what else happened, i made emily hate me, peter asked me out nd i turned him down for 3 reasons:
1. i dont like him
2. em would hate me oh well she does anyway
3. im crazy bout someone else
so now peter hates me too and caroline said the following about me:
shes a fukin looser that has NO chancce with some 9th grade kid nd she shood be happy that some1 as nice as u takes even a little interest in her...she dont have the personality or looks to get picky with her "feelings nd rules" im gunna make sure she realizes that.
kinda pissed me off... we lost our game nd james party was fun nd his uncle won 1600 bucks on the belmont that smarty jones lost in the last 5 seconds and the breakfast this morning was fun too and i got GREAT picturess nd today i went to see harry potter w/my girlss ((molly nd coco<3)) and omg i get in there nd i turn on my phone for the first time since friday night nd i have a voice mail nd i dunno when its from nd its shawn nd he tells me to call him back so i call his house cuz i didnt have his cell and his mom said oh yeah everyone went to the movies last night he wanted you to come and i said awwww ((to myself lol)) nd then later he called me from his cell so i have that number now lol nd right after i told mj i'd go to the movies with them, he says 'what you doin tonight' nd i tell him im leavin in 5 to go see harry potter w/my girls nd he says oh i was just about to ask u if u wanted to go see that nd i was like omggggggg dammit! 5 minutes early and i could have! oyyyy i was soo mad... but anyway i told him to call me this week nd if he doesnt ima call him one night lol but i was soo happy he wanted to go with me!!! anyway thats the summary of my past couple of days lol mwa
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2004 5 June :: 10.19 am
last night was SO MUCH FUN! omg<3 almost everything was perfect! omg everyone looked SO nice aah it was sad thoughh... at the end me and tim had to give each other our 11 year speech and a huge hug lol... it was soo stupid how everyone was hugging everyone when we're gunna see them tomorrow lmao but omg it was great<3 i was like gunna cry when they played the cha-cha slide cuz its like a tradition with us! we play it at EVERY dance nd we even did it in the middle of our class room lol... its been sooo much fun... teresa blew out my hair woot woot its all straight and everything lol oyy more later... breakfast time...
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2004 3 June :: 7.58 pm
youre everything ive ever wanted!
i gotta tell him how i feel... its ridiculous when he doesnt know... but i dont want things to be awkward... ya know? i wanted to talk to him when i got home from practice today but he was with like 10 people lol... nd i didnt wanna do it with all of them around..
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2004 3 June :: 3.41 pm
omgg yesterday was courtney's birthdayy and when we went over for birthday cake the phone rang so i picked it up ((cuz i live there and im allowed to answer the phone lol)) and its desiree so mj's talkin to her WHILE THE CANDLES ARE LIT and im like mj we gotta start singing nd shes like hold on a minute im on the phone and finally when the wax that completely melted onto the cake starts burning courtney yells "MY CAKES GUNNA CATCH FIRE!" and so goes omg desiree lemme call you back! and as we're singing happy bday at like 100 miles a minute courtney blows out the flames before we're done so the whole thing does explode lmaooo it was SOOO funnyy nd mj's like why didnt you tell me! and im like omg... I TRIED! lmaooo it was sooo hysterical
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2004 1 June :: 8.52 pm
:: Music: somewhere i belong - linkin park
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me and im
Trying to bend the truth
The more I push the more I'm pulling away
'Cause I'm Lying my way from you
This isn't what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this
you know...sometimes i remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories i wish i didnt have...sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back and never moving forward, so there would never be a past...
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2004 1 June :: 8.48 pm
ali called and asked me to do her a favor nd then shes like i'll call u when my night minutes start i need to talk to you im like ok i say i need to yell at you she says ok and we're both like bye! =]~
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2004 1 June :: 8.27 pm
oyy he makes my heart fall to my feet...<3
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2004 1 June :: 6.39 pm
omg i've never felt so happy to be around someone in my entire life... how i feel is so indescribably great and bad at the same time... it kills me inside to know that i dont have him... me and meghan went to his grandpa's wake today... and i got two kisses on the cheek =] =] =] both times i had to turn around nd put a big smile on my face nd go woot! lolol... but seriously he makes me soo happy... its unbelievable how crazy he makes me... even when im not around him, hes with me every second -- cuz thats how often i think about him... ive never EVER felt this strongly about ANYONE.. and i kinda like it and i kinda dont... im soooo happy to be with him but the fact that he aint mine and i hate missing him every waking moment... i need him in every sense... physically and emotionally... physically cuz i think my heart will collapse on me and emotionally is kinda obvious cuz hes every thing i've ever wanted and more... and i mean that... he is EVERYTHING you could wish for in a guy... and i dont know how to control my feelings for him because everything i do is about him... all i see is him all i feel is him all i think is him... I CANT GET MY HEAD AROUND HIM!!! its not the falling temperature that makes my bones run cold... its the breeze he makes... the presence felt when he's around me.. i dont know whyy i feel this way i just cant help it... hes the sweetest guy i've ever known nd i feel like the luckiest person alive to know him... sometimes people say they fell head over heels... well i kinda did.. but i didnt fall nd just hit... i SLAMMED!
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2004 1 June :: 5.25 pm
i dont know whats worth fighting for or why i have to scream
i dont know why i instigate and say what i dont mean
i dont know how i got this way i'll never be alright
so im breaking the habit tonight...
i'll paint it on the walls cuz im the one at fault...
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2004 31 May :: 7.23 pm
:: Music: lying from you - linkin park
"Figure .09"
Linkin Park
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do
Would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say
I put all the pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free
I took what I hated and made it apart of me
It never goes away
It never goes away
And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from
What I've done
I've given up a part of me
I've let myself become you
Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I'd see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was
Committing myself to them and every day
I regret saying those things
'Cause now I see that
I Took what I hated and made it apart of me
It never goes away
It never goes away
And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from
What I've done
I've given up a part of me
I've let myself become you
It never goes away
It never goes away
It never goes away
It never goes away
Get away from me!
Give me my space back, you've gotta just (go)
Everything just comes down to memories of (you)
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you (know)
I've let you go! So..
Get away from me!
Give me my space back, you've gotta just (go)
Everything just comes down to memories of (you)
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you (know)
I've let you go!
And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from
What I've done
I've given up a part of me
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside
These thoughts of you
Giving up on part of me
I've let myself become you
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2004 31 May :: 2.25 pm
sorry i havent updated... i've been @ the jersey shore!!! woot woot! timmy's second birthdayy.. if u asked him how old he is, he'd say two! and hold up 5 fingers lol it was sooo cutee!!! chrissy nd TJ came for that night too omg TJ's taller than me now!!!! its not fair!!! i've got a year on him but hes got a couple of inches on me! i was like nooo lol ok ANYWAY! OMG!! WE HAD SO MUCH FUN THAT NIGHT!!! WE PLAYED FOOTBALL IN THE DARK ON THE BEACH AT 10 AT NIGHT!! OMG SO MUCH FUN! me and chrissy actually scored touchdowns against TJ nd matt lol it was funny... and then we kept having to move cuz the big sand trucker guy was gunna run us over =]~ hahaha... me and chrissy got ELMO PARTY HATS!!! SO TOTALLY GHETTO! lmaooo chrissy's new nickname is ghetto girl rofl... but our hats were soooo cool lol... we went to the beach yesterday but it was cold and i got sunburn so no fun there... but then when we got back my brother HAD to play mini-golf so we went nd we were talkin to the people in front of us nd the lil kid was like maybe molly's age but his personality reminded me soo much of thomas's lol it was like i was talkinn to him i thought it was funny... ok soo lets see... then we went to kellys for dinner and then this morning i ate lots of pancakes nd bacon lmaoo... then we left and a one hour trip took THREE AND A HALF HOURS i was going CRAZY! oyy and now i gotta go cuz i got finals to study for... oh and after thinkin bout him ALL weekend, i saw him when i got homee<3
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2004 28 May :: 9.32 pm
:: Music: in the shadows, the rasmus
aaaah i got the rasmus cd!!! yayyyyyy! woot woot! ive been watching ive been waiting in the shadows for my time ive been searching ive been living for tomorrows all my life! in the shadows<3
omg the lead singer is soo cool im beginning to think his voice is cooler than jordans!!! aah! and omg he loooks sooooo cool... he looks hot with eyeliner nd his feathers cominn outta his head lol im like in love w/him!
i feel really bad i kinda blew off shawn today... aah! its torturing me cuz i feel HORRIBLE! he asked me around 3 if i wanted to go to the movies nd i said i had a game nd he could come if he wanted so hes like alright nd then my game got rained out so i called him to tell him not to come but i was @ kaitlyns house when i called him nd hes like u wanna go then? and i said omg i didnt even think of it im @ kaitlyns nd hes like oh ok... and im like u can come w/us to 86th street if u want nd hes like no i told my friend i'd go to the movies w/him nd i was like ok well i'll ttyl then nd hes like ight bye and i feel bad cuz he asked me to chill before kaitlyn did and i went with kaitlyn! and i feel SOOOO BAD! i kept tellin kait come on lets go to the movies nd shes like i dun wanna and OMG I STILL FEEL BAD!!! I FEEL GUILTY!!!!! someone, ANYONE tell me how to stop being guilty...
i told kaitlyn im gunna apologize to him next time i see him... and if i dont talk to him by monday im gunna call him monday nd be like "hey im sorry for not goin w/u on friday u wanna go to the movies tonight?" oyy LEAVE ME A COMMENT PLEASEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
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2004 27 May :: 9.33 pm
:: Music: velvet revolver - slitherrr
this is a good song.. BUT SO IS 'IN THE SHADOWS' BY RASMUS!!! woot omg good song! one of my new favorite bands... its YC,SOTY, and now them! woohoo!!! omg i wanna write a long entry but i have nothing to write about!!! grrr!!!! ok well i must go now so bye...
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2004 27 May :: 4.19 pm
omg it was soo funny we did the cha-cha slide in the middle of lunch wow i was cracking up it was great... who did it? oyy i cant remember everyone... um me and athena n jaime n mike and lorraine and evelyn n lucy.. wow it was hysterical
today was the last time im gunna see my kids!!! omg im so sad!!!! and i dont think me nd adrianna can go to their graduation cuz we have finals that day!!! ::tears:: i took LOTS of pictures today though! i got 2 pics of najee lolol adrianna we're never EVER gunna forget najee lol i cant believe james wasnt there he;s the cutest little kid EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everytime i try to fly i fall without my wings i feel so small, i guess i need you baby, and everytime i see you in my dreams i see your face, its haunting me i guess i need you baby<3 i've had a sudden obsession with that song! i cant remember if i updated yesterday lol i know im a loserr with no memory...
em's mad at peter nd i feel bad cuz hes upset! im tryin to help him but theres only so much i can do, i mean, she wont listen to me when i talk about him... omg now i feel horrible hes so upset he really really really likes her!!! ughhh this suckss... im outt... i dont have anything left to type...
shoutouts to that special someone<3
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2004 26 May :: 2.31 pm
sorry i didnt updae yesterday... OMG! crap its late i gotta do my plan but i'll write more when im done with it!
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2004 24 May :: 8.02 pm
i just found out that the end of my favorite line from a song is "i can live without you" instead of i cant lmaoooo oh well i still count it as cant lol
LOVE IS LIKE NOVACAINE!!!!!!
ali i miss talking to you alot!!! we never have our long conversations anymore i miss you!!!
im starting to work on the pages for the yearbooks for my close friends... cuz im not just signing like near my picture im writing pages lol... like on computer paper... that i can stick in lmaoo.. i gotta get started on decorating my softball book too... ima bring it on friday so that people can start writing in it...... i cant believe im never gunna see half of these people again!!!! no!!! omg im gunna miss katie SO much... OMG it suckss she lives so far away im never gunna see herrrrr...but ima take her on a buddyday next yearr so we can spend a whole day together...its hot out lol... mike barrett's my new best friend lol dont ask... shes the blade and your just paper... sryy if i just start singing songs randomly lol.. eww why are my journal colors black and PINK? ughh what was i thinking... i need to change that...
woot check out me nd mike's convo!
BlindedByTears2x [8:03 PM]: hey best friend!
streetsk8ter4638 [8:03 PM]: hey best friend
BlindedByTears2x [8:03 PM]: what ya doin best friend
streetsk8ter4638 [8:04 PM]: nothin best friend
BlindedByTears2x [8:04 PM]: so best friend what cds u bought latelyy
streetsk8ter4638 [8:05 PM]: jay z
BlindedByTears2x [8:05 PM]: u are kidding, right best friend?
streetsk8ter4638 [8:05 PM]: yes best friend
BlindedByTears2x [8:05 PM]: just makinn sure best friend
streetsk8ter4638 [8:05 PM]: i got sublime
streetsk8ter4638 [8:05 PM]: rufio
streetsk8ter4638 [8:05 PM]: starting line
streetsk8ter4638 [8:06 PM]: which isnt too bad
BlindedByTears2x [8:06 PM]: whoa best friend has some cashh
streetsk8ter4638 [8:06 PM]: even tho there kinda emo
BlindedByTears2x [8:06 PM]: i dont like them...
BlindedByTears2x [8:06 PM]: oh well if u like them best friend then i like them
streetsk8ter4638 [8:06 PM]: lol
lolololol
'this may never start' ... what if me and him never start? will i be ok? i dunno... 'my heart's beating faster'
streetsk8ter4638 [8:10 PM]: cool man
streetsk8ter4638 [8:10 PM]: i mean girl
good catch there mike!!! lol hes so cute
i NEED to watch the inferno tonight... i wanna see katie screw up the mission lol
i just randomly broke out into:
BlindedByTears2x [8:14 PM]: MIKE!!!!!
streetsk8ter4638 [8:15 PM]: KRISTEN!!!
BlindedByTears2x [8:15 PM]: MIKE!!!!!
streetsk8ter4638 [8:15 PM]: KRISTEN!!!
BlindedByTears2x [8:15 PM]: MIKE!!!!
streetsk8ter4638 [8:15 PM]: have you ever tried ass?
BlindedByTears2x [8:15 PM]: lmaoo
im sorry our convo is just hysterical lmaoo... i gotta go finish my collage nd i wanna work on my softball book so laterrrr!! mwaa
my last minute dedicationss to ali cuz i miss you babyy call me laterrr mwaa love youuu
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2004 24 May :: 6.19 pm
omg yesterday was SOO MUCH FUN!!! it started with MJ just spraying me n meg w/the hose nd then it turned into a HUGE water fight w/molly n coco n me n meg n then we HAD to get shawn cuz me AND meg both love shawn lol so we get him n then we get alex who came outta shawns house looking for him n then adam came back to shawns nd we got him to and we were out there for like an hour it was soooo much fun nd i was like in heaven when he was tryin to get the hose from me and he like had his arms around me lol but it was soo fun cuz we were both like hysterical laughing nd soaking wet... ::sigh:: hes soo effin perfect! oyyyyy... ok so anyway we changed n then he ordered a pizza for me n him n alex n adam n then we played round up n it was soo cute cuz adam kept being it firstt nd he always went for me first cuz he knows he can catch me even though it takes alot cuz i run fast but victor kept goin around cars, alex kept hiding, and no one can catch shawn so he went for me nd shawn kept tryin to distract adam so i could get away it was so sweet lol it sounds like its not alot but if u were there it was like total 'aw' and then he got my cell# laterr nd he called me nd told me to come over n chill nd we watched a movie ((X2 -- good movieee)) n i was like with him for such a long time!! from about 2 to 9 lol yayy<3
today me nd meg took a 2 mile walk around the track... it was fun...
dinner timeee mwa ali leave a commentt luv yaa like a siss call me laterrr<3
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2004 22 May :: 6.37 pm
:: Mood: in a cloud thinking about these two..
:: Music: champagne - sugarcult
ok im gunna write a lil about each guy im trying to decide between nd leave me a comment with which one u think is better for me!!! im not putting names so you cant pick judged on who u like better (coughalicough) but ali you'll probably know who it is anyway but whatever...
guy#1
soo sweet like omg this guy is so nice to me like omg sometimes i wonder if theres any other guy who's so nice... he always, ALWAYS says hi to me no matter what, n hes got a great family... he doesnt judge people... he'll never let there be an akward silence! he always asks questions to fill the space its so cute i love it... he's athletic, hes funny, we agree on alotta the same stuff and he'll support what u, and always cares how things go in my life... he always asks bout how my softball team is doing, etc. i can never wait to see him! <3
guy#2
this guy is unbelievably sweet too... really really really really REALLY sweet.. and hes confident... not just in himself, but in others... he believes in you and always tries to make u feel better if ur upset... hes caring... like, if he sees that ur hurting he wants to make it stop. and its so sweet. i cant write anymore right now cuz i gotta go but just lemme say that #2 is like definitely one of the sweetest guys ive ever met! i need to see him every day!
pleaseeee gimme advice on which one u think is better for me... not who you'd prefer, but who's better for me... pleaseeee i need help... i hate trying to decide between two guys!!! if u comment mwaaaa i love you!
~krissss
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2004 22 May :: 12.10 pm
:: Music: back home - yellowcard
i finally talked to him last night<3 not alot n nothing too interesting cuz molly was sitting there with me, but still i was so happy to see his sn sittin right there on my screen! i gotta make up my mind between these two guys... which one am i gunna try n get? oy they're both really really sweet...
everybody here is living life in fear of falling out alive. tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time... and the eyes get red in the back of your head... this place'll make you blind... put it all behind me and i'll be just fine!
all my life i've been looking for the answers to the questions you never asked and we never planned on this disaster when will i let it go?
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2004 21 May :: 8.06 pm
aah<3
i told u i was kindaa over shawn for ahem most of you know who but omg i was like in heaven when i was talking to him for almost 2 hours on his steps! he totally loves the fact that im in love w/hockey too lol... he said hes not big on it but hes like yea its weird cuz u dont see alotta girls that like hockey so later he's like 'im gunna be thinkin about this all night i cant believe u love hockey' i was like aww dont think about that, think about me =] .. hes soo sweet... not as sweet as that other guy but soooooooo close like REALLY REALLY close lol.. i keep gettin to him thru his dogs lol i had to run down there cuz brian was riding his bike backwards down the block and almost ran over krystal ((one of his dogs)) so i had to run nd grab his handlebars cuz he wouldnt listen to me when i told him to stop n then we started talking nd we didnt stop for bout 2 hours lol
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2004 21 May :: 10.54 am
oMgGg alias' next season isnt gunna start until JANUARY!!! like omg they're completely torturing me!!! the season finale is THIS sunday and i have to wait HALF A YEAR! aaaaah!!! no!!! oyyy this suckssss... i need to talk to julia and lauren! a-hibble-shmibble-bibble... sorry. im sooo bored! i wanna listen to yellowcard! now i am listening to yellowcard.. i talked to anthony last night... yes we're still fighting... but i asked him if we could talk n try to work things out n he said yeah and signed off so that kinda tried my patience n then he signed back on after i sent him an email tellin him hes a jerk n he signed back on n we tried to talk about it but it didnt really work... so yea... im still mad at him...
*i still wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile*
im having soooo much trouble not being able to talk to him! geez i need his number... he's never online! grrr... omg.. taylor's reaction to alias not being on til january...
Lavenderblue8 [10:48 AM]: NO!!!!!!!!!
Lavenderblue8 [10:48 AM]: NO NO NO NO NO
Lavenderblue8 [10:48 AM]: THEY CANT DO THAT!
Lavenderblue8 [10:49 AM]: taz got to be illegal or sumthin
Lavenderblue8 [10:49 AM]: january? january?
Lavenderblue8 [10:50 AM]: wut r we supposed to watch every sunday until saturday??
Lavenderblue8 [10:50 AM]: until january*
ROFL ... gtg get my dress taken up... laterrrs
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2004 20 May :: 8.32 pm
just got back from my game... we smoked em 17-5... and i FINALLY hit again! wooot! thank goodness i would have gone crazy if i didnt...
ooh food!
im out
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2004 20 May :: 3.33 pm
wooooooot i got turtle pants AND piggy pants!!!! aaaaaah!!! woohoooo! guess what else i did... woooooot... i finally got my ears pierced! for those of u who didnt know i didnt have em, its cuz of my history which some of u know and some of you dont and cuz i didnt really want em... but i got em doneeee! woohoo! ummm what else did i get? i got shorts n a tank top n i didnt get any stickers in hot topic cuz they didnt have any!!! grrrrr... umm yeaa and i got bras lol nd i got..um... what else did i get? i cant remember??? ooh yea a reallly good hair straightener... woot woot im sooo hyper right now... game later... 68th preceinct tonightt...
OMG!!! CALGARY ADVANCES!!! NO!!! SAN JOSE LOST!!! AAAAH!!!!! tearsssssss!
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2004 19 May :: 6.49 pm
omg i miss him!!! i havent talked to him in a couple of dayss... grrrr aah i need to talk to andrew too.. i want himm sooo bad hes like the sweetest guy i've ever EVER met!!!!!!!!! ((not andrew lol the other oneee)) but i need to see him again to kinda like hit on him lol so he gets the picture that i like him backk... roar! that was a bad roar lol omg i need him to hug me again... IM GETTING MY TURTLE PANTS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!
but omg my heart... i need to see him... its like something u dont realize how much ur gunna miss until u cant have it for soo long...
you want it, you need it, you can’t explain it, u fight it, u beat it, and I can’t live without you!!!!
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2004 18 May :: 10.06 pm
holaaa! dude like OMG! i have no clue what im so excited about!!! aww cori n joey broke up<3 but its ok cuz they both agreed on it nd i dont think either of them has a broken heart soo... yeaaa i have dance tomorrow... n its gunna be like all day!!! that reminds me that i need to pack a change of clothes!!! maybe i'll get ali to wait @ bens w/me and i guess james can stay too if he wants to... lol sryy hun...
i wanna see him soo bad<3
im gunna tell my mom i dont wanna babysit on friday so she can tell the other mom im supposed to babysit for... maybe i can tell him to come chill w/us then... omg i really wanna see him... forget get with him... just at least SEE him... oy.. he didnt want me to sign off last night... as soon as i said gotta go hes like "why?" n i was like aww... and last night he answered my IMs right away... like he was sitting on top of them... i was like aww
woooooooooot!
that was just a random woot
dont worry about it...
like omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg paulie is SOOOOOOOOO HOTT!!! omg lorraine's like "theres paulie!" and im like omg thats him? n shes like yes! and i just died omg hes soooooooo hott its unbelievable omg hes just banginnnnnnn hes hott and cutee at the same time and YES there IS a difference for those of you people who r stupid... hott is like banginn while cute is like adorable... yes ali im directing that at youu lol cuz i dont think you'd get it first try... i dont have much time left... i didnt talk to him at all today... darn lol
im not sure what else to write about today... nothing really happened... oh yea i started crying hysterically again after watching the afi video for silver and cold... for those of you who have seen it and dont understand why i cry which will probably be kelli cuz she doesnt care about me dont argue that kelli, why else am i not letting u see my friends only entries anymore, i cry because no one knows what i went thru!!! omg omg omg i cryyy soooo muchh n then when i cry, they always play anthem of our dying day after it... loserrr... byee
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2004 18 May :: 6.21 pm
im sure you've all seen this quote in my journal before but im serious when i say this:
SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! IM LOSING EVERYTHING WHEN IM WITHOUT YOU!
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2004 18 May :: 6.05 pm
I GOT CATALYST!!!!
woot woottt!!!
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