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:: 2004 22 April :: 10.05am
:: Mood: bitchy

i guess now movies are more important than me, wtf. that's fuckin' pathetic.

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:: 2004 21 April :: 1.57pm

*smiles

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:: 2004 21 April :: 10.31am
:: Mood: blank

haven't writen in almost a month. a lot of things have been going on- my internet being down for one. but my mom said she's calling today to fix it.. we'll see if she forgets.

i hate when people lie. especially when the lie involves me.

i hate when i eat all the time.

i hate it that i'm getting fat.........

i hate always having to watch my little sisters because i'm the only one ever home.

i hate getting up in the morning.

i hate when jim disappoints me.
..and when he never comes over.
..and when he lies.
..and when he doesn't keep his promises.
..and when he does something that makes me feel like shit or hurts me and it seems not to phase him or he turns it against me and acts like it's my fault.

i hate that my life revolves around jim, and his doesn't seem to revolve around me.

hmmmm, i started out only going to say something about people lying, and then i got a little carried away..

i still haven't paid the $2.. i have the money, i just haven't sent it yet. ahhh.. i have to send it soon, or my journal will be deleted.

:: 2004 21 April :: 8.22am

migrane. ouch.

i've got some sort of work project today, but i dont know when, and i dont know where. so i might wanna find that out i suppose.

im pondering whether or not i should join the church's softball team. *shrugs

brandi and i had quite the adventure yesterday......

anthony dropped us off at my house and as he drove away i realized that we were locked out... me never having my key, came to the conclusion that we were indeed screwed. so i walked around the house seeing if any windows were open, which they werent, and if any other door was unlocked, which they werent, which brought us back to wondering what we should do. then i look over and see that our basement window was open a little bit, so i went over to it to see if it would open more, and not only would it open, but i could completely pull it away from the house, it wasnt even connected, (i guess thats not exactly a good thing) and then brandi climbed down into it, and i was waiting for her to unlock the door until i realized that she couldnt get the basement door open from that side. te he.so she climbed back out. then we both climbed back in, and with a pair of scissors i got the door open.

it was funny... te he

lack of time causes me to go.

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:: 2004 20 April :: 9.58pm

yes. i am a "witch".

i thought that it was so predictable that i would say that, but then you turn around and say the same exact thing. hmmm... i guess you're more like me then you'd like to admit. forget it, lets not get into that again.

i cant wait for alaska.
i cant wait for this weekend.

this weekend will be so much fun. and no im not talking about our prom, im talking about kent citys prom. *some* people got a little confused. and no im not going with a date, im going with like 13 other people. not that it matters, but if im going "tick" people off then it had better be for a ligitimate reason. and if any of you say that i spelled that wrong... well... i dont know. just dont...... or else. yeah. thats it. or else. what a scary phrase. yep.

*Jess, Becky, Brandi, Taryn, Lindsay* (i think thats all the people on woohu) senate meeting thursday.. nobody forget

im at brandi's, i love her..... *HUGS*
you are my cat skinner and i shall call you crazy and you shall be mine. come here crazy!

between slicing my elbow with a scapel, spraying me with cat juice, and "breaking my heart" i'd say brandi could have let me DIE today. *mishu mishu? rawrrrraaawwr (crazy animal noises)*

:: 2004 19 April :: 1.23pm

thats great. just great.

tonight i have boot camp, and im going to watch ryans baseball game. i dont really feel like doing anything tonight though.... ah well.. it'll probably change.

im going to prom this weekend with some of my friends. i cant wait till this week is over, this year really. *screams

what do you do when you're so _____ (adjective here) you dont even know how to manage it? pray.. thats all i can do right?

*im more depressed then mad. you're supposed to be my best friend.

:: 2004 18 April :: 3.37am

screw it.
consider yourself an aquantance...

i cant stand you anymore.

tonight was fun. that concert thing was ok. forever december kicked arm. i thought the highlight of tonight was laying on the tramp till 3 in the morning.. to scared of stacys mom to go inside. stacy, dustin, dylan, and kate...... it was quite the fun. erm.. yes.

i raked for 4 and half hours today.. just thought i'd whine.

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:: 2004 15 April :: 11.26am

i stayed home yesterday.

and i made my first turkey. i was so proud. i even cut up little pieces of celery to put on top of while it cooked. i made develed eggs too. and when my mom got home we made stuffing and mashed potatoes and corn.

*mmmmmmm

so yes, i am proud. my first turkey didnt burn, it was done on time, and it was juicy.

i loved yesterday. *grins.

im so excited, im not really to say why... but im so excited!!!!! *eeek. woot woot.

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:: 2004 13 April :: 7.19pm

te he he he he he he he he.

so, i find it funny that it is so widely known how small he is. ahahahahahahaha.

*note to you* if its not something to be lets say... "proud" of, you might not wanna show it to everyone.

*giggles to self.

fun day after school. yes, it was.

:: 2004 13 April :: 1.25pm

so, my mom and i fell in love with some land yesterday. i think we're gonna try and buy it. its gorgeous. when we drove up over the hill to get to it there were 5 deer standing in the middle of the road staring at us. i was like, its a sign! te he. then we went back to it with my aunt susie and there was a bunny rabbit hopping through it... and if you knew how much my mom loved bunnies... lol. it was like the heavens opened up and started singing. i really like the area... but i dont want to get my hopes up. i think though, we just might be able to do it. *smiles

so in 4th hour my dad was brought up. and it really suprised me. because now i know that there IS a possibility, and for some reason that makes me happy, even though it shouldnt. i want to ask her more about it, but she probably wouldnt know anything else anyways. i guess thats another thing i shouldnt get my hopes up on.

my hair said to me this morning.... hey, im not going to be homosexual today. and i was like, thank you.

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:: 2004 12 April :: 11.49am

woot woot
so my break was pretty.... ok.

saturday kicked lots of arm. i went to the switchfoot concert at the orbit room with Alyssa and we met around 8 people there. BUT, one of the girls we were with knew the bouncer so we got in for free.. surpassed the hour and half line... very cool. so me and alysa pushed our way up and ended up being one person away from the stage. i touched the lead singer. te he. major strokage of the armage..... or... erm, something of the sort.

the first band that played (Colepland... sp*) was really awesome. after the show i got the lead singer's autograph after telling him how he was... he smiled, brushed the hair out of his eyes and said thank you. he actually talked to me, AND thanked me for comming out. *faints

so yes, it was a good night.

over spring break, i spent a total of 3 nights alone. thursday, saturday, and sunday. busy.

this weekend however.. not so fun. friday my aunt pats picking me up after school to do yard work to earn money for the missions trip, saturday i have to meet at the church and the whole youth group is going over to some church family to do yard work for the missions trip (we're making 300 though, so i guess its worth it) and sunday my cousin sylvia wants me to come over after church to do some yardwork. Oh.. im sooo bustin out the rake AND the heavy duty garden gloves. mm hmmmm

so in this rush to find a house my mom and i drove over to wiersma yesterday, sat in the driveway of this house, and discussed all the possible things we could do to it. i guess she's gonna call jon and see if he'll show us the inside, or give us the key box code. its cute, and its got a really nice yard.... but eeeeewwwww i dont know if i could be THAT close to stacy. i mean....... same road, i dont know if i could handle it. *shudders. te he. i dont know.........

ok, well out of time, stupid algebra, stupid school.... uuughgghhhhgh... i'd yell my curses at it if swearing werent all sinful and BAD. no swearing in my journal.. new rule. i'll try my best, but YOU, you all are "forbode". mwah ha ha ha ha.

yadiffy04

:: 2004 11 April :: 8.40am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: none

Hey everyone,

I havent been on the comp to update this lately, srry. Anyways Happy Easter!!! My mood is amused cause instead of a chocolate rabbit or something like that, my parents put toothbrushes in our baskets. Every year of Christmas gets worse and worse, and its starting to be that way with every other holliday, except for Holloween, cause my parents dont decide how long you stay out. But anyway, Aubrey got her hair cut, I cant wait to see her. Anyways besides that not much has gone on. ttyl.

Yadiffy

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:: 2004 9 April :: 12.07am
:: Mood: cranky

jim came over today, he went home around 7 to clean out his dresser for his mom- and he promised to try really hard to come back tonight, but no way.. jim keep his promises?

..so me always seeming to have so much time on my hands;; i cleaned my room. with the help of sam/anna. they did a lot to. i was glad for the help. but anyways, i'm still not completly done. i have to dust/clean off the top of my computer desk where my stereo is.. and sweep. it needs swept badly.

easter is sunday, i can't wait for my easter basket! =) haha.

have to go back to school on tuesday, spring break is over. eh, it sounds horrible to even mention it..

anyway, i'm gonna go back to finish reading my english book.

:: 2004 8 April :: 1.26pm

we are now awesome. we are now nasty, tired, disgusting awesome people. *i love you becky*

we just dominated that block. we started at beckys dads house, walked up to simmons, then turned around, walked down to algoma, to wiersma, to simmons, to 19 mile, to dads house. te he he he. we reckon it was about 3 and a half miles. go us.... skinny ass, here we come.

revolting stick of celery...... *reluctantly..... here we come as well.

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:: 2004 8 April :: 10.56am

so yesterday.... yep.

becky spent the night, we fumed, and yelled, and watched johnny.

a little blown away, very angry, and also very meha;jklvadsirvclakjel;kja. yep, that almsot sums it up. except that IT DOESNT.

*controls anger......*

in other news, becky and i watched johnny and it was wonderful.

so far i havent spent the night alone. he he.. sounds dirty....

friday and saturday i was at the burns, sunday i was at brandi's, monday brandi was at my house, tuesday sara was at my house, and last night becky was. its been an ok break. could have been better........ growls.

sara is obsessed with johnny too.... and that rocks my socks. we watched dirty dancing and footloose when she was over. she is SO my friend.

well.. becky and i are going to eat swiss cake rolls and then proceed to run it off. mm hmmm....... where could we be right now?

*still angry. both of us. yep.

:: 2004 7 April :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: distressed

things are.. wierd lately.. i can't tell if i'm having a good day;; a bad day..? umm..

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:: 2004 5 April :: 6.44pm

please, read about my day.. it was exhilerating.

woke up: 11:00
ate breakfast: rice crispys with bananas
listened to dashboard: always fun.

ok enough of that format. so anyways. brandi and i got in our "excersize gear" aka: tanktops and swishy pants..... and walked around the block. oh yes, around that block we walked.... BUT.... it took us 45 minutes, because its quite long of a block. we almost got attacked by these rotweilers. we were on whipple and they came running at us barking and growling and they were right at our heels snapping at us. it was scary! we were for sure they were going to attack us. so i just started yelling at the top of my lungs.... "your dogs are outside, come get your dogs.." sadly, nobody came! there were no sticks to pick up and hit them with though. so yes, that was our "near death" experience. so then we got back after that "exhilerating walk" and did 20 push ups. oh yeah, go us. THEN... we made a healthy lunch. i even made fruit salad. it consisted of bananas and apples, but it was cute! cut up into tiny little squares. ah yes, cute it was. so anyways. the health "binge" didnt stop there. we also had ham sandwitches, carrots and half a container of yogurt...... ALL while eating on her picnic table outside and listening to dashboard. paints a picture of perfection dont it. *giggles.

so after that we went for a bike ride.. oh yes my friends, i said a bike ride. and OH MY GOSH... we could have died!!!!! if i would have jumped out in front of that huge truck that passed us, it could have ran me over, and i could have died. its sad isnt it. but that doesnt compare to when we were eating dinner tonight. if i would have choked on my spaghetti, fallen on the floor, and brandis dad could have not knowing i was dying... moved his chair back and squashed me. *gasp....... i could have died.

*brandi and i have randomly been comming up with near death scenarios all day. the reason behind why is what makes it funny..........

so yes, we shalt go off to my house where we will walk at the track and laugh incessantly at all our fatness as it whithers away to nothing.

permanant size 3 here i come.

oww.. my legs hurt, i want some ice cream.
but NO, i wont, becase what am i? healthy. yes thats right. I erika, and you brandi..... are healthy... and retarted. yes... healthy and stupid. no no.. stupend.

"you stupend movie."

we have also developed a new found love for mongooses. i love them. i shall marry them and call them chris after dashboard.

*swoons

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:: 2004 5 April :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: calm

i was in 7th period, when i really started thinking about all these things that i wanted to talk to jim about, and i figured i might as well just write them down because i would forget what i was thinking about. well, by the end of 8th period i had a 3 page letter to give him. it basicly has what i'm feeling in it, and i'm glad i wrote it all down.. but i don't know if i'm going to give it to him or not. i'll read it over and make sure it doesn't sound to stupid.. but yeah- i think i will give it to him..

got report cards today.
english- 91%
global studies- 76%
history- 57%
science- 79%
algebra- 86%
advanced word processing- 93%
child development- 97%
health- 83%

i brought most of my grades up, 3 went down, but only by a little bit. i did really good except for the history grade, but my mom knows about it already.

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:: 2004 4 April :: 9.50pm

stupid computer. stupid stupid computer. i just typed long stupid entry and then all of a sudden the screen goes white and its all gone. gah.

this is the 3rd night i havent been at home. friday and saturday night i was at the becky and ryans house. now im at brandis. but, it beats being at home. by far. its funny...... i feel like i�ve just gained 2 best friends. like i�ve skipped the �friends� stage and gone straight to �best friends�. its nice. hopefully ya�ll can meet them soon.

it seems that becky (visser) has fallen off the face of this planet. i am unable to get ahold of her. *wonders why, rolls eyes* there is now noone to swoon over johnny with.

i watched somethings gotta give with the becky and ryan... man thats a long movie. good, but long.

im a little sad about the missions trip. the burns AND the odrens arent going now. long story, really sucks though.

to clear up some confusion. this �mystery guy� i speak of.. i just think he�s hott. thats it. as brandi said, its sad when thats the depth of his personality. but wow is he ever pretty to look at. at least he�s not over dramatic and stuck in the past. *clears throat* moving on.

ok, so i might have one crush. brandi seems to think that i do. well as long as she thinks so. but i dont know...... i giggle alot, and i smile constantly when i think about him. i just dont know. im having to much fun being his friend.

oh, yeah... and apparantly im screwing my life up. *its nice to find that out* because (heres the good part) every other guy that i get involved with is just using me. thats great... OH and because he is the ONLY guy that is right for me. well i consider myself screwed then, because im feeling pretty great about my life right now. its good to know that you think differently. heres an idea... leave me alone!

brandi and i just made ice cream sundays. we probably have about 2 spoon fulls of ice cream under hotfudge, whip cream, bananas and cherrys. lol. we had fun making them. for some odd reason... we got quite a kick out of getting the cherrys out of the jar..... giggles. its late. we�re stupid. what can i say.

yadiffy04

:: 2004 3 April :: 4.41pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: none

Here is a survey for your veiwing pleasure.

-You-
Name?: Stephen
Nickname(s)?: Stevo,Yadiffy,minnie Meinke
Astrology Sign?: capricorn
Female/Male?: Male
Height?: 5'9
Hair color?: red w/ bleached tips
Eye color?: brown
School?: Terra Cotta MS
Age?: 13
-Do You..-
Drink?: no
Smoke Cigarettes?: no
Smoke Marijuana?: no
Use other illegal drugs?: no
Go to concerts?: yes
Like your music loud?: yes
Stay out in the rain?: yes
-Your Favorites-
Movie(s)?: Matrix
Band(s)?: Outcast, Maroon5, Hoobastank
Color?: black and red
Scent?: Mountain Rush
Article of clothing?: Lost-t shirts
Food(s)?: chinease(sp?)
Thing to do?: talk on the phone
Instrument?: oboe
Animal?: snake
Thing to sleep in?: boxers
Actor & Actress?: Johnny Depp, Keira Knightley
-Your Significant other-
Name?: Aubrey
Nickname?: Sakura,Kado,Barbie
Astrology sign?: Pisces
Age?: 14
Hair color?: blond
Height?: 5'2
Eye Color?: hazel
School?: Terra Cotta MS
-Do they..-:
Like loud music?: yes
Stay outside in the rain?: no
Get along with their parents?: no
Drink?: sometimes lol
Smoke cigarettes?: no
Smoke marijuana?: no
Use other illegal drugs?: no
Go to concerts?: yes
-Their Favorites-
Movie(s)?: Pirates....anything with Orlando Bloom
Band(s)?: Tooooo MANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thing to do?: Talk to Stephen, Internet,Read, Music
Sport?: Volleyball
Color?: yellow
Song(s)?: To MANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Animal?: moose
Instrument?: clarinet, gutar, and OBOE!!!!!!!!!!
Actor & Actress?: Orlando Bloom, Keira Knightley, Julia Stiles
Food?: ice cream
Scent?: Morgan and David

//You nd Your Significant Other brought to you by BZOINK!

l8r
Yadiffy

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yadiffy04

:: 2004 3 April :: 11.30am
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Bombs Over Baghdad-Outcast

Hey!!!!!

Whazzup??? Anyways.....I dicided to start this thing up again. Im srry its been a long long time sence I updated. 1st is that I have no comp on the weakdays and 2nd is that I have been to busy. So I dicided wtf I might as well start this thing up again.

Last night, me, Morgan, and Aubrey 3-wayed each other...It was halarious(sp??) Morgan went and broke his snare drum head on the drum set.

Sssssooooo.......not much has gone onwith me during the journal break. Hopefully Ill be able to update more often.

l8r
Yadiffy

P.S. Sakura......break the "rule".
P.P.S. COMMENTS PLEASE!!!!!!!

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:: 2004 3 April :: 10.21am

im at becky and ryans house. i love them. *hugs* last night we were running around outside.. *they live WAY out in the country* and it was so fun! their neibors have peacocks!!! and that just struck me as amazing.. te he. (and no brandi, they are NOT blue turkeys!) so yeah, we played a bunch of childhood games last night.. aka: hide and seek in the dark, red rover red rover. ha ha.. it was great. then we watched how to deal. its nice to be with people that you can just relax and be yourself with. life is getting better. it really it is.

*score* we're going to see the easter bunny today.... my little sister, i swear.

well i spose i should get going... we're gonna head back to my house in a few minutes here.

stacy- i had this dream last night... *remembers....smiles... giggles* it was great... te he he he. call me sometime in the next days or so...

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:: 2004 1 April :: 8.24am

so its been a couple days.... im suffereing from lack of woohu.

the other day i was talking to my mom.. and my sister comes in saying "the kitty got a mouse" and we looked at her to tell her to be quiet and right there IN her hands, was none other then *gasps* a mouse. it was all half dead and twitching... *shudders* it was scary.

i got my report card. 3.945
oh yesh..... go me.

spring back will consist of nothing.. and its going to be "AWESOME" meh heh.... sometimes you just cant refrain from making fun of people.

oh yeah.. i had lunch yesterday. yup.

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:: 2004 30 March :: 2.07pm

*laughs*

its just so darn pathetic. i find it funny when people who have meteoker lives try and make it dramatic just to call attention to themselves.

*eeeeks* so hott, so so so so hott.

its nice to feel that way again. to actually see someone and have that feeling in your stomach jump, or try and tell your friends that "oh my gosh" he looked at me.. but you cant stop smiling and giggling, or when you can feel your face turn red when he walks by. i havent had that for awhile.. and even though i know it would never happen, im ok with that. because im content with just being in the giddy stage................

:: 2004 29 March :: 3.41pm

now im all confused. i think im going to prom, i think he thinks im going with him, but i dont know for sure. and now im confused as to how i could be going with someone and not even know myself that im going. hmmm.. i dont know.

i love otis....... he is my wonderfull little man.. and i shall love him forever. *admires

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:: 2004 28 March :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: coughing and feeling blah

sitting at home, really tired.. i did a lot more than i expected to do today.

my aunt loraine called around 9:20 to see if i wanted to go with her and my gram to a little fashion show in the mall, and at first i really didn't want to go, but i got up and got ready. we left at 10:45, went to exchange a couple things, went to wal*mart, fashion bug [i got a pair of lounging pants, and 2 long sleeved shirts] then we headed off to the little show. we left around 3, then went to sams club to get big lipton tea bags for my uncle, and some chicken for dinner. we all came home, unloaded our bags and my aunt made some of her gooood spaghitti [sp?] and the chicken we bought.. then we all just lounged around and talked. i went out and sat on the porch for a little while, then everyone came out- it was such a nice day today. i guess jim is supposed to come over sometime tonight.. pssh, he pisses me off so bad. i called him around 7:00 and told him that my aunt and i could come pick him up later because she had to take dia home and he lives right down the street from her.. but nooooo- he had to wait til his mom came home. wtf? he has more excuses than people do assholes.

:: 2004 28 March :: 4.35pm

im at brandi's. Matt's party last night was fun. that was the best orgy i've ever had. te he. *winks

so you know the purse i might have "mentioned" before in my journal? With the funny little man? Well i got it today, and i named him Otis. i love Otis. Otis rocks my socks. but in other news....

so im gonna learn bass i suppose, and then im going join me a band schee. and then we're gonna play at battle of the bands schee. and im gonna stop saying schee.. cuz its gay. annnnywhore. really though. it should be fun. fun people they are. (the schutters)

brandi and i went for a walk. it was "exhilerating."

ok, im gone.

:: 2004 27 March :: 3.57pm
:: Mood: bored

i didn't go to school friday.. first of all we all slept in, and i was coughing/had a fever- so my mom just told me to stay home. i got up around 8:00, then got dressed dropped nichole & i's algebra project off at school, then went to the bar. it's almost done being decorated.. the BAR part is awesome, all decorated and everything, but they're still working on the pool room/dining room part. it's coming together great. can't wait to get pictures of it, i'll post them on here. [that'll probably be around the 14th/15th of april.. thats when the "Grand Opening" is!]

jim stayed last night. for the first time in about a week! grrr. he went home again today. him & his mom are switching rooms for some reason. i don't know- stupid if you ask me. but whatever.

well, it's time to go.

xx.jena

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Aaron

:: 2004 27 March :: 3.16pm
:: Mood: uneasy
:: Music: UNcle chuck playing with his new Amp.

I feel sort of weird, being on the journals for the first time in months. I've been reading wild at heart by John Eldredge and I can't explain how helpful it's been... My favorite part so far is when he was relating life to a part of a war book he had read. The quote reads.
Soldier-"Lueitenant, they're shooting at us!"
Lueitenant-"Well start shooting back!"
Hello? That's what happens in war, you get shot at, and this is how it relates to life. S-H-O-O-T B-A-C-K.

Yip. That says it all. That is the stratigy. The wounds hurt, and there is no shame in that. It's not your fault they hurt. let them hurt, accnoledge the hurt, and then fight the wound, NOT THE PAIN! the pain is not the enemy, the wound causing it is! oh, they want me in the other room. cya.
~Paul