.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 17 March :: 2.34pm
uggggggggggggh.
do you love me?
|
jennapie
|
::
2006 16 March :: 10.32pm
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [X] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [X] who i had just met
25. [ ] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [ ] at a show. (what kind of show?)
32. [ ] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert. .. well kind of
34. [ ] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [ ] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [ ] under water
45. [x] while driving
46. [X] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [ ] goodbye forever
50. [ ] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [X] in an elevator
54. [ ] an ex
55. [X] last night.
56. [X] Just today.
1 love me |
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 16 March :: 2.19pm
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [ ] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [ ] who i had just met
25. [x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [x] at a show. (what kind of show?)
32. [x] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert. .. well kind of
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [x] under water
45. [x] while driving
46. [ ] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [ ] goodbye forever
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [X] in an elevator
54. [ ] an ex
55. [ ] last night.
56. [ ] Just today.
wellll good.
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 16 March :: 2.18pm
aw poor you!!
cry me a fricken river!
2 love me |
do you love me?
|
brokenmentality
|
::
2006 16 March :: 12.12pm
nevermind... im not going.
you are UNbelievable.
do you love me?
|
|
brokenmentality
|
::
2006 16 March :: 8.56am
aww.. we went to the circus last night. it was really cool. i havent been to the circus since i was like 7, and every time it comes to town we always miss it. :) smiles..... what a wonderful night.
tonight's a rampage game. to bad im going by myself.... ahh well.
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 15 March :: 11.07pm
Have you ever felt like everything you've worked for your entire life was for nothing? Have you? It's really disapointing.
I had a lot more to say, but Roman just called me and suddenly, it's like I can't complain anymore.
And to YOU: the one i talk about ALL the time I swear. because your HORRIBLE UNAPPRECIATION just burns my soul everytime i hear about it: You think you've got it so bad it just kills me. I wish just ONCE you could be like us. You could be like me. You could know what it's like. UGALSDGJ God I can't even say what I want to. You bug me so much. Someday you'll see. And who SAYS I can't feel that way or say those things or do those things? YOU? is it WRONG and unethical and impractical and impossible because your DUMBASS says it is?!?!? Is that what you want me to believe. Gosh you amaze me in the worst way possible. I dont know how I can even "stand" you. Oh, but sigh... I only wish I could be as GREAT as you.
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 15 March :: 1.42pm
It's so fricken easy to say yeah I'm gonna be so great and everything's going to be so great and I'm going to graduate college and become this great thing and earn this great money and blah blah blah but now I realize nothing is ever going to happen.
great.
2 love me |
do you love me?
|
|
brokenmentality
|
::
2006 15 March :: 9.21am
im going on a date tonight, where... im not sure. its a suprise. i was just told to get dressed up and to be ready by six. i love how that "feeling" never dies with us. how happy i am when i see you, how proud i am to call you mine, how you simply make me smile even when you're not around. we're going on 16 months now. and im just as giddy and excited to spend time with you as i was when we first started dating. and im not going to be all cheezy and melodramatic and say that you complete me, because you dont. and nobody should feel that way about somebody else. but we complement eachother so perfectly.
1 love me |
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 14 March :: 9.25pm
Thank you, God.
Roman got a car. It has honestly been since like July that he hasn't had a car. Do you know how hard that has been for us?
He got a 2003 Taurus only 40 thousand miles on it!! I am so excited it looks so nice and new and pretty and yay I'm so excited.
YAY! We never imagined he would get this good of a deal or this nice of a car. I'm so happy.
Finally one thing good has happened.!
i'm gonna be jealous he has a better car than I do now lol@!!! Pimpin in his sweet ride!
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 14 March :: 3.08pm
I don't even know what this means, and don't ask me to explain in depth what a "slowdown" even is. But I just like this and it's making me want to cry.
I must look just like a fool
Here in the middle of the road
Standin' there in your rearview
Gettin' soaked to the bone
This land as flat as it is mean
A man can see for a hundred miles
So I'm still prayin' I might see
The glow of the brake light
But your wheels just turn, down the road ahead
If it hurts at all, you ain't showed it yet
I keep lookin' for the slightest sign
That you might miss, what you left behind
I know there's nothin' stoppin you now
But I'd settle for a slowdown
I held on longer than I should
Believin' you might change your mind
And those bright lights of Hollywood
Would fade in time
But your wheels just turn, down the road ahead
If it hurts at all, you ain't showed it yet
You're just a tiny dot, on that horizon line
Come on tap those brakes, baby just one time
I know there's nothin' stoppin' you now
I'm not asking you to turn back around
I'd settle for a slowdown
Come on just slowdown
I'd settle for a slowdown
I guess you wouldn't understand....
do you love me?
|
Tails
|
::
2006 14 March :: 3.11pm
risk...tonight. eurasia is mine. ruby you die tonight my friend. your blood...she shall spill.
5 love me |
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 14 March :: 2.53pm
I'm just too far, from where you are, I wanna come home.
UGGHGHHGGHg
i dont even know what i'm doing anymore. my grades are getting so bad and this college class i'm taking is/was a ridiculous idea and i have another test today and i dont feel like going because i know im' going to fail it. there's no doubt so why even waste my time i wish i could just drop out of it.
there's no point especially because im not even going to college. just cosmetology school but then again i could always go college later in life so i dont want to fuck everything up but it will be anyway because i'm going to fail all the tests. i passed the last one but that was only because i duno... it was just better.
and yeah i guess the only good thing going on is roman is probably finally getting a car. this rowe city auto place in jackson has all their cars 40 thou and less miles and all 2000 or newer. how good is that? i know i feel like there must be a catch but we've both each called them twice and verified that that is really true and everything and he is actually there right now so hopefully everything works out.
please...
and i am just sick of pretty much everything. i want an apartment and i want to be done with school and my counter disapeered on my woohu page so now i lost track of how many days are left and it's upsetting me.
I wanna go home but oh wait I already am.
Yeah does that make any sense.
Hey would anyone do me a big favor and just comment to me and say something even just hi but not anything mean.
I want to cry and i have no drive.
my 6-8 page essay is due in 6 days and ta-daa i haven't even started it at all.
in fact, my works cited isn't even turned in. i just want to leave school. i wish i could and still graduate. but.
yeah. congratulations: a loser. So how do you like me now?
And seriously, how would you fill in these blanks? It's ridiculous... Just seriously even TRY
Always keep ________ your ________ on your phaser.
That doesn't even gramatically make any sense. Fuck!
4 love me |
do you love me?
|
|
.j.e.s.s.
|
::
2006 13 March :: 7.37pm
soooooooooooooo.
yeah.
3 love me |
do you love me?
|
|
Tails
|
::
2006 13 March :: 5.23pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: dashboard confessional - again i go unnoticed
the end of the storm
So at the end of a storm when everything is dead and cold and wet...but it looks like the world might just be ending or just being born for the first time. thats when things start to get in your head. you think and think until it festers inside you and burns away till it slips out in the wrong form. but you try so hard to use that energy to change someone. to help give them the guidance they seek. i tried to help someone begin the deconstruction process to a better and more them, them. a real you a perfect image of what you want yourself to be. NOT ANYTHING ANYONE ELSE WANTS! but it was too much for him so he ran from it...who gives up on wanting to change themselves when someone is trying to give them the beggings to questions they must ask to begin their work? you cant change someone. you can affect them enough for them to want to change themselves. and i was doing that. even if he questioned himself once thats enough for me and i did what i set out to do. but being told it means nothing and living fake is fun...thats what makes me think about the end of a storm when it all seems like it was worth nothing...but its always worth far more than we can begin to imagine. so i did as much as i could. and i didnt push. he asked i answered his questions. everyone should deconstruct themselves. i did the end of tenth grade. you all know how much cooler and nicer and happier i was at the begging of junior year right? thats when i became the whetzel everyone seems to have fallen in love with. deconstruction did this for me. as it should for everyone. and deconstruction is different from self destruction please know that. if anyone ever wants to begin deconstruction you know where to fine me hehe. but always remember. never stop asking questions and never stop talking ever. no matter what. and dont ever lie to yourself. never. remeber this always. outy my loves.
do you love me?
|
|