Because of you..

:: 2006 20 January :: 9.26pm

i am in a really bad mood right now...

i have to go to lazer skate in like 5 minutes and work the entire night at all nighter and for what? ... to earn about 50 fucking bucks.

i swear i should just become a prostitute i'd make so much more money. seriously i can't even believe myself that i'm staying up an entire night working for only 50 or 60 dollars.

and then.. tomorrow , i have to babysit. can you believe it. right

and then Sunday to top it all off......................... the day i'm supposed to see roman ONCE A FRICKEN WEEK

we're not even seeing each other this week

oh but next week

well next week

we wont see each other either

and probably not the fucking week after that until he gets his first paycheck at his new job down there

god i'm gonna fucking cry i know i'm trying to be freaking strong or WHATEVER but hey it's not working when i dont see him for more than a fucking week.

So yeah i guess what i'm saying is i HATE lack of money and i HATE not seeing roman so dont take seeing your loved one for granted okay.

ughasdlgkjasdl;gkjsdgl;kasjdgl;jasdgl;jl; jwhat a fucking shitty day.

:: 2006 20 January :: 1.09am

I can't believe how fast I'm falling. It's the most amazing feeling I've ever had.

6 love me | do you love me?

:: 2006 19 January :: 9.57pm

I wish I knew what to say.

bigwilly

:: 2006 19 January :: 3.54pm

I heard today that france has the highest bandwidth capacity as for fiber... fuckers

5 love me | do you love me?

:: 2006 19 January :: 10.25am

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people can't, or arn't allowed to think for themselves. I only know a few people where this really shines through, and it's people that I truly feel sorry for. I'm so annoyed by them, I just wanna throw them into some bushes or something and make them realize what a huge mistake they are making in their lives. But since I can't do that, I'll just continue to pity them.

:: 2006 18 January :: 6.54pm

so i figured out what i hate so incredibly much

and i would never do that to any of you so i really hope karma comes back to you to get you what you deserve.

ughghghghg

:: 2006 17 January :: 10.14pm

lol hahaha omg. jess i have something to tell you. omg............. rarr.

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:: 2006 17 January :: 8.12pm

I had thhhheeee best day. Well, actually, I've been having the best dayssssssss ever. Who knew that I could be this happy? I sure didn't, but I guess I've proved myself wrong. It's a great feeling. I won't complain. Jake Mellema, you are doing this to me!

brad

:: 2006 17 January :: 4.57pm
:: Mood: Painful

Well, my back isn't getting any better, if anything, it's getting worse. I might have to get a skin graph and some surgery done. we're suing the insurance company and the city of fort myers.. I had a meeting this morning with a lady from the insurance company and we talked about what happened and everything. I wish we could just get this all over with. This incident might just make me rich though. Last night I was really, really fucked up, i had to take these pills and i was puking and i couldnt even walk. I woke up this morning not able to walk or move really. I hope to god I get better soon.

On another note, I guess we're moving to Tennessee in a week or so. I don't really want to but that's what we're doing anyways. Yesterday we just got brand new 4-wheelers and im getting one once we move.

I guess that's about it for now. later.

Brad

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:: 2006 17 January :: 12.27pm

the way my brain is working......
......Jake................Jake...................Jake........
..........Jake................hehe..............Jake....................Jake.................Jake...........................Jakie.......
..................................tehe...........................Sparky.....................
.........Jake.......and it keeps going and going and going and going.................................................

brokenmentality

:: 2006 17 January :: 11.40am

damn ice. im greatful school was canceled... but if it would have been snowing i would have checked the weather BEFORE i got ready (well ready as in washed my face and brushed my teeth.... but STILL awake enough to be angry about getting up) this is ridiculous. middle of winter and it rains. psh.

i was watching the news this morning....

"a chocolate new orleans?" are you kidding me! why is it that racism starts at the top of the chain?! pathetic.

:: 2006 16 January :: 9.10pm

okay, is this odd?

"It's no exaggeration to say that the pain and desperation of cluster headaches have actually led to suicides."

...orrrrr what? lol. i'm dumb sorry.

:: 2006 16 January :: 3.04pm

Jake Mellema is my man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2006 16 January :: 11.20am

oh my gawd. lol....

i love you and i dont care who knows it :0)
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jeez louise. i'm in love with you.

(Jess you know i'll really really miss you. But) I can't wait for everything to start.
Love,
Jess

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 15 January :: 10.20pm

i LOVE every other saturday...... they're always perfect. ALWAYS, and yesterday was no exception. i say everyother saturday because i dont work every other saturday and keegan never works saturdays.. so we get to be together all day long.

we're both semi broke right now.. so for most the day we just lounged around his house. i got teh 8th season of friends, his mom made one of my favorite dinners (tatertot caserole) and it was just nice to be home all day. then we met stacy, dani, dustin, devin, and brandi downtown and saw that pink floyd laser show at the planetarium (sp). which was most deffinately an acid trip... lol. i dont think you get the full effect if you're not stoned.... which heaven knows we werent... laughs* but it was pretty cool. WAY to much stimulation for the eyes though. ouuuch. after that me and keegan went to oasis which was wonderful. we got there around 12 and had the greek room reserved which i've been wanting to see since prom last year. it was amazing. (keegan popped his OTHER shoulder out of joint a few days ago.. so its been pretty sore.. hense us going to oasis and me having an "excuse" to get a new bathing suit.... giggles) but yeah... it was awesome. i thought it was an indoor room, but we walked in and theres murals all over the walls and a fire place and statues.... but no ceiling. it was just beautiful. the perfect end to the perfect night. then we went home and fell asleep and got up this morning to go to a new church. we're looking for a church. we went to Sparta babtist this morning... which was nice, but we wanna try a bunch of different ones.. so if you have an suggestions... comment. we're looking for a contemporary service with contemp. music. and we're not looking to become involved with a youth group... just sundays.

everything just feels so right. not only are we going on 14 strong months.. but we're still so incredibly happy. never have we almost "broke up", because we're mature enough to handle our arguments. i've never felt this way before. EVER. i thought i did once... i though THAT was love... and i couldnt have been more wrong. now, i find myself falling in love with my best friend... and although its a process that may take anywhere from a month to a couple years to fully develop... im looking so forward to that moment that i've been dreaming of my whole life.. where i can look that ONE person in the eyes express that age old 3 letter phrase that people have been saying since the dawn of time.

we're so on track with eachother. and i think its awesome that we're growing spiritually together.

*smiles* i admire you!