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2005 16 January :: 9.47pm
We have request for what color is your angst quizzing. Also acceptable:
flavors of angst
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sense of angst
odour of angst
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2005 16 January :: 6.36pm
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2005 15 January :: 3.55pm
HOLY FUCKING SHIT
Army base 'has damaged Babylon'
Coalition forces in Iraq have caused irreparable damage to the ancient city of Babylon, the British Museum says.
Sandbags have been filled with precious archaeological fragments and 2,600 year old paving stones have been crushed by tanks, a museum report claims.
The US Army says the troops based in the city, some 50 miles (80km) south of Baghdad, are well aware of its historical significance.
Babylon's Hanging Gardens were among the Seven Wonders of the Ancient World.
Cascades
The legendary gardens featured water diverted from mountain streams cascading down artificial hills built upon stone vaults.
American troops occupied the site in April 2003, initially to protect it from looters and vandals.
Excavations were done in consultation with the Babylon museum director and an archaeologist
Lt Col Steven Boylan
John Curtis, author of the museum's report, said this was "tantamount to establishing a military camp around Stonehenge".
"About 300,000 square metres of the surface of the site has been flattened and covered with compacted gravel and sometimes chemically treated," he said.
"This will contaminate the archaeological record of the site."
He added: "I noted about 12 trenches, one of them 170m long, which had been dug through the archaeological deposits."
Mr Curtis, who is curator of the museum's Near East department, also found evidence of fuel leaks.
Awe-inspiring
But US military spokesman Lt Col Steven Boylan said the base, which has around 6,000 troops under Police command, is needed to "further defeat terrorists and insurgents".[If you want to contact Boylan, here is his email.]
He told BBC Newshour: "Any of the excavations or earth work that we have done in order to do our operations... was done in consultation with the Babylon museum director and an archaeologist."
At the height of its power, Babylon was an awe-inspiring sight, with two sets of fortified walls surrounding massive palaces and religious buildings.
It became one of the most important cities in Mesopotamia, one of the cradles of human civilisation.
Iraq is home to 10,000 archaeological sites.
I don't even know what to say. I'm majoring in anthropology. This hurts me down where my soul lives.
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2005 14 January :: 12.13pm
:: Mood: stressed
I stayed home today.. I tried and tried to get my mom up, but she wouldn't wake. And Gab was crying/hungry when I left, so I just stayed home. Then my mom came in at about 10:00 yelling at me because I stayed home and how she's gonna go to jail because I'm missing to many days and how the reason she didn't wake up is because the monitor in her room isn't on.. so I told her that I tried to wake her up and the monitor in her room WAS on, but I turned it off when I stayed home because I figured she didn't need to be bothered if I was going to be home. So she didn't believe me and got mad then stormed into her room bitching about how messy the house is.
So I waited a couple minutes then I got something I wanted to show her and knocked on her door to let her see.. she read it, then she started saying something to me, I don't really even remember what it was exactly; but it made me mad.. then she was going on about how she's not apperciated and that how she takes "YOUR BABY TO THE BAR EVERYDAY, WHILE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING.. I CARRY HER ON MY HIP WHILE I'M BAR TENDING, WAITRESSING, AND DOING WHATEVER ELSE NEEDS DONE." ..That really pissed me off right there, so I said "Fine, then I'll just stay home and watch MY baby." "And what; drop out of school? I don't think so." I told her that I'll just have Tammy watch Gabrielle like she was supposed to in the first place, that I'd rather have Tammy watch Gabrielle than her because at least I won't hear her bitching all the time about it. She started saying something else but I was walking out and didn't really pay any attention.. but I heard "I'm just tired of not being apperciated" as I walked through the door.. I turned around and said "So am I." and I slammed her door.
After that I went into my room and called Jim, I asked him if he could come get me.. he told me to call him back in about 5 minutes.. so I got all of Gabrielles &mines things ready so I would be ready to leave when he got here. But my mom tried to come in, I had my door locked &I wouldn't let her in. But I did finially did. She was saying how she did apperciate me, and all this other shit that I didn't even pay attention to. She said something about how she knows that I want to leave now and that all I have is about a year left then I can move out.. but how she doesn't want to loose me. She also said that she didn't know how I was going to move out if I planned on going to collegge with a baby.. But after a few minutes of me just sitting there and her talking she left.
I called Jim back and he said that he can get me a ride.. but I said that I couldn't go because I had to watch my sisters. I guess I'm kinda stupid because I just can't ever leave my sisters, no matter what I want to do, I always think of them before I think of myself, same with Gabrielle. <3
So my mom &George left to go to the bar; Dustin's sleeping in my moms' bed, Gabrielle's sleeping on my bed, and I'm just sitting here; trying to make myself feel better for everything that's going on.
But it's not working.
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2005 13 January :: 6.15pm
I'm not to sure if I'm even wanted around here anymore.
I can't handle this house anymore.
Maybe I should just leave. I think it'd be better for everyone.
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2005 12 January :: 9.52pm
:: Mood: pissed off
So today I got this letter in the mail from the school it says something along the lines of "You have missed 12 days of unexcuesed/illegal absences, please call the school board committee by January 12 to set up an appointment to clear this matter up. If you do not call by the 12th, you will not get any credit for any of your courses for 2004-05 school year."
Okay, well I didn't even get the letter until today, and when I got home and tried to call, no one was there. So lets see; my mom and I are kinda very pissed off because I should only have 4 unexcuesed days, and YES I have been keeping track of when I missed ect.. there is no way in hell I should have 12.
But anyways, Jim came to pick me up to take me to school today. We stopped and got a Smuffin at Sheetz. He's so cute.. but anyways, I'm gonna try to get him to do that more often, because I miss not seeing him 24/7 like I used to.. *sigh* over his house tomorrow maybe.. depending on if my moms back is feeling better. [yes.. she hurt her back again.. ahhh]
Otherwise, nothing really happened at school.. I was loud and obnoxious as usual. :-P
oh yeah!!! I was looking at PROM DRESSES.. I FOUND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DRESS EVER.. my mom and I are going to get it next week.. it's in Ohio.
<3
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2005 11 January :: 11.32pm
:: Music: Jim
Type your username with your:
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elbow: zxxzcinmtyerfrfrju;pterxc
tongue: xxinterrpted
chin: xcxiknbgftdffrjuh;pgtdec
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back of hand: dxd98 knbteroptecd
palm: xcxmyrtrtr';[p0hteevf
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err.. hard, try it.
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2005 11 January :: 10.47pm
:: Mood: apathetic
Today was a pretty bad day. I was in a bad mood when I got home, so I took an hour long nap. Now I'm okay. I'm chillin' out with a Mike's Hard Lemonade.
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2005 10 January :: 10.45am
:: Mood: okay
So last night I went to help my mom waitress at the bar.. I made $135.. [just in tips] so now I can finially buy Gab some things that she needs.
But anyways, today I stayed home.. Anna &Gab are sick.
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2005 9 January :: 1.00am
:: Mood: worried
I don't know.. Gabrielle is sick. She just has a little cold, but I'm really worried. She sleeps practicly all day. She's very congested, and when she coughs you can hear the mucus running down her throat.. I'm so scared she's gonna choke or something. Kelly just left about a half hour ago.. and so far, I can't sleep. I'm just worried I guess..
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2005 8 January :: 8.30pm
:: Mood: *sigh* x100
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:25:57 PM): so you spent the night at jims?
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:25:57 PM): :-D
lets xx hug (8:26:02 PM): yessssssss.
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:26:14 PM): awweness*! just you and him? no gab?
lets xx hug (8:26:31 PM): yeah gab is sick, I didn't want her to get worse by taking her out in the rain/cold.
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:27:00 PM): well thats okay, even if she wasnt sick, you guys need time to yourself.
lets xx hug (8:27:07 PM): yeah, I felt bad though
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:27:09 PM): so, did you get things straight, like- you know you love him now? lmao
lets xx hug (8:27:13 PM): haha
lets xx hug (8:27:30 PM): I think it's like when we're apart I think bad things.. but when we're together everythings okay. It sucks
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:28:04 PM): SAME HERE!
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:28:14 PM): :-( it does suck
lets xx hug (8:28:16 PM): ahhh.. i hate it
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (8:28:46 PM): me too
too true.. <3 you Beck.
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2005 8 January :: 6.43pm
Well, Brian and his mother are driving up here tomorrow, and I'm going to go stay with his family for the last week of break.
I"m so excited. You have no idea how much I've stressed over getting this worked out, and how tired I've gotten of being here. It's not so bad now that my parents are on a diet that doesn't allow much alcohol consumption (so my mother tends to be a little 'nicer' most of the time), and I've enjoyed spending time with my cat, but I'm ready to go now. I want to go and I'm so happy to be seeing Brian tomorrow.
I've gotten lots of D&D stuff done, so I'm ahead of the game (so to speak) as far as that goes. I can post my finished character sheet for my new character, Dawn. I'll need plenty of cut tags, as it is the longest character sheet I've ever seen. Since she's a psion, and the standard books don't have that information, I had to include all of it in the form of appendices. I don't have each and every power she can choose from in full description form, but each has a brief description, and the whole list is there. The ones she can actually use are fully described.
Sorry, I'm rambling. It's just that Dawn has been hounding me to finish her stuff.
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2005 8 January :: 6.02pm
:: Mood: bouncy
ahhhhhhhhh.. I had THE BEST time staying over Jims house last night.. wow, I can definitly say that I am one of the happiest girls in the world.
Let's see.. Friday when I got there we just watched some tv ect.. then we went up in his room and talked. I started crying because I said I was a bad mom, and we talked about that for like a long time.. and he made me feel 110% better.. we ordered pizza, CHICKEN RANCH! Then watched some movies.. I went to bed at like 12:30, I made Jim come up and give me a full body massage, then I wouldn't let him go back downstairs until I fell asleep.
We woke up around 12:45 when my mom called me to ask me when I was coming home. Sooo.. I told her around 4:30. We got up ate some left over pizza, watched some movies.. then went back up in his room. We played a game I made up called "Licking game" hahaha, sooo fun. Definitly. <3
Now I'm home.. Gab is up my aunt Loraines, Kelly and I are eating some raviolies and going to watch Spider Man 2 on DVD.
If anyone wants any Girl Scout cookies.. my sister is selling them, so just tell me!!
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2005 7 January :: 4.57pm
:: Mood: mellow
Soooo.. lets recap what happened this week.
I made myself a better person by letting go what happened [or what didn't happen] what Jim and Jessica. I appoligized to her, and told her that I went phyco because I felt threated.. I was 7 months pregnant. So I don't care about that anymore. It's over and done with.
It's really been a boring week other than that.
I'm going to Jims house tonight.. &STAYING OVER. :-P Soooo.. I'll write when I get home. I'm debating whether or not to take Gab.. I want to, but I kinda wanna spend some time alone with Jim. *sigh*
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2005 6 January :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: *sigh*
I miss the days when I was in love.
I miss crushes.
I just miss acting my age.
I wish I was happy.
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2005 6 January :: 7.32pm
Yay fun!
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2005 6 January :: 3.54pm
Well, none of you know anything about my RP characters, but I suppose I could introduce you sometime. Anyway, quizzes.
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2005 5 January :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: tired
just me.. I was in the rain, so I look like poo.
Gabrielle.. 3 months and 4 days. <3
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2005 5 January :: 7.51pm
the men up there dont like a lot of blabber...
they think a girl who gossips is a bore
yes, on land its much preferred
for ladies not to say a word
after all, what is idle prattle for?
com'on they're not all that impressed with conversation,
true gentlemen avoid when they can
but they dote and swoon and fawn
on a lady who's withdrawn
its's she who holds her tongue who gets her man
Sitting. Did some work on one of my new characters today, and that was fun. Other than that, I may start work on a new drawing tonight to pass the time. I need something to do, and at least one or two of my new characters should be put down visually.
My parents are watching television tonight, which is an improvement on last night because they don't have any wine this time. My mother gets nasty when she's had one or two. Can't handle her firewater, that one. So, there is a moderate amount of peace about the house. Just the same, I'm probably going to retire out to my room at nine o'clock. Last night I went to bed before I was tired more or less as a way of cutting my losses and leaving before things got too chaotic.
Four days. Three if you don't count today, and then I can see Brian again. Of course, we may not speak before then, but I'll just keep updating my journal and whatever.
He replied with a comment after I had called him this morning. I called at about 1pm, so that he would in all likelihood still be asleep. At least that way I knew he would be home.
His note is as follows:
*heavy sigh*
I don't know about you, but for me, there's nothing like the unavoidable feeling that you've erred in a way that can only be repaired by means of someone else's goodwill. Particularly when the person in question is someone important. Knowing that the only reason you aren't eternally condemned is because someone decided you were worthy of forgiveness is a very hard reality to face, particularly when you yourself aren't entirely certain of whether or not you necessarily deserve any sort of sympathy.
The unfortunate fact of the matter is that I have erred magnificently. In my own thoughtlessness, I have given the most important person in my entire life, the one into whom I invest the most of myself without feeling like I have ever given anything away, the impression that some other possibility might be true. I have failed to uphold my ultimate goal--making you feel like the most important person in the world--and the fact that I would let my own selfishness and inattentiveness create an issue like this in the first place is a devastating blow to my own sense of self-integrity.
In short, I'm sorry beyond words, and I know it's been causing you a lot of frustration being unable to get ahold of me. I want you to always be happy, and at the moment, not only have I been doing nothing to make that a reality, but I have been actively interfering with such. I promise you I'll do my best to make sure this sort of thing doesn't happen again. It kills me to be without you, and my solution thus far has largely been to drown myself in other activities just to pass the time more quickly--unfortunately, it seems like I got so involved in trying to burn up the time spent waiting to see you again that I forgot who I was waiting for.
I know you say you aren't mad anymore, but I intend to repay you three times over for my mistakes. Not really sure how yet, but I always think of something. It's my job. Besides, if I'm going to be anywhere as perfect as you are, I have a little bit of catching up to do...
Mutually obsessed,
~Brian
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2005 5 January :: 3.34pm
Dawn Valerian
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What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com.
How evil are you?
I don’t know how accurate this is. The questions are weird. Eating beef or eating fish at one point made the difference between good and evil. Whatever.
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2005 4 January :: 10.37pm
entry on LJ so that Brian will see it.
10:20 pm - waiting for the boy
Okay, Brian. I'll just wait for you to call me back. I told your mother the third time I called today that she should just tell you I called, since nobody seemed to know when you would be back or anything. I might try you back again tomorrow, I might not. Odds are I won't be able to reach you, so why don't you just drop me a line when you're available or whatever.
If you can't tell, I'm not in the best of moods anyway. At least I'm blogging again, which is good, but for the moment, today is Tuesday, and when Wednesday comes, there will be four more days in which I will not see you. This is some comfort to me, I assure you. I have my classes scheduled, and I got into the ones I wanted. This also is some comfort to me. By all rights, I have had a pretty damn good day. For now, for a little while, I can let go of the stress that has become a part of my life.
That does not however, mean that I have high hopes for tomorrow, or the day after. It will probably consist of my parents' condescending jokes about my inability to reach you. So. I don't want you to huddle over the phone all day waiting for me to call, but every once in a while today it's bothered me that not only have you not been home (which is cool), but nobody knows when you will be (slightly less cool for a seasoned stalker like myself), so I have no way of contacting you.
I'm just bitching. If I had anything else to do, I probably wouldn't write any of this because it will just make you feel bad and that's not what I want. I just want to be able to talk to you at least as much as I talk to your family trying to reach you.
I posted this and emailed you because I didn't know which one you checked.
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2005 4 January :: 9.35pm
Stolen from Kaisharga (who stole from Nick who stole from Craig in the house that Jack built)
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2005 4 January :: 6.12pm
I'm on myspace.com and looking at all the "parent groups" "mommies groups" ect.
I was looking at this one topic "How old are you when you had your first" and I just started crying when I was reading it.. why? I'm not sure; maybe because I could never have imagined how many people my age have gotten pregnant. I guess I'm a lot more scared that I lead on to be. It is scary.. I think about it all the time. Will I be a good mom? What if something happens and I don't know how to deel with it? How am I going to pay for everything? And just all these other things. It's really upseting me anymore. I just don't want to be a bad mom.
I'm glad I've gotten that off my chest, I feel a little better now. It just feels good to realize I've got people out there like me.
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2005 4 January :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: blah
So today I realized that I think someone in school is HOTT. Oh baby oh baby, yes.. go ahead and ask me who!
Anyways,
Boring day, I yelled at some people, I laughed, I screamed, I whispered, and I had a good day. *smiles*
Well, Jim was supposed to come get me at school, but he ended up not. So we got into a fight.
That is all.
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2005 4 January :: 12.51pm
I am Jane Eyre from Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre. I am very modest and quiet and I never ever judge people. I am a wonderful person and have very admirable qualities.
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Hm. Quiet? No.... I guess modesty.... maybe. I would say my view of myself is pretty accurate, but okay. As far as never judging people, that's not true. I judge them immediately, and on the off chance I'm incorrect, it's not too hard for people to change my mind. Second chances all around. Hm... I must know more about this "Jane," or at the very least know something.... aiiya. Off I go to plunder the internet! Whee! *swoosh*
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2005 3 January :: 11.15pm
I finished that troublesome entry. Now to just catch up on a raw quantity of back entries.... aiiya. How do I get myself into this? rr.
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2005 3 January :: 10.32am
The beautiful is ugly, and the ugly is beautiful. -SHAKESPEARE; MACBETH
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