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:: 2004 11 March :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: South Park/Alanis - Thank you...Bittersweet Symphony

We are living in a world of smoke.....
Let's start our own popular crowd!!! And let the dead ducky come to the rescue when we wreck humanity with smiles on our faces!!!!

I just sent our poem to Tiph :-p. She found it very amusing.

You are Captain Jack Sparrow. Everyones favorite
con artist, you know how to manipulate peaople
and use them to help your own cause. But all in
all, you are very pure-hearted and have good
intentions. Although you tend to be a bit of a
loner, others around you admire you greatly.
You are incredibly smart and have the best
attitude: be true to yourself, no matter what
others think.

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I finished The Da Vinci Code tonight. I encourage everyone to read it. I am willing to lend it out if you need it, it is that good...

Nick! When is your break and what does your math schedule thing look like?

I really hope I get my movie tommorrow...

I have had like 3 crushes come and go within 3 and a half weeks....I wanna KEEP a crush! DAMNIT.

Science assessment was very easy, but I did not finish. Mr. Logan told us to stay after, so me and Hessler were like 10 mintues late for gym. It rocked = ).

And....that is all. FIN.

Oh no it isn't! Stupid people took away my Nicks, MTV and MTV2, comedy central, and noggin. But now they are back! WOOOOOO!!!! ^_^

Now I am done.

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:: 2004 10 March :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: Pukish-weird
:: Music: Simple Plan -_-

People are dying, I think.
Well....I am sure that SOMEWHERE people are dying. Anyway.....in drama we are watching Westside Story, so all through math when I was trying to think I had "Mariaaa!!!!!!!" going through my head...good thing the math assessment was super easy. I beleive I got a 4. English we read and analyzed the..(bauh bauh bauh BAUH!) PROLOGUE...after all this crap, we STILL have not begun to read Romeo and Juliet..pissing me off slightly. Social studies boring..nothing happened. Choir we are singing a song about rain and I actually like it. In Science Annie, Kelsey P., and I had to do stupido lab of horsepower and then halfway through I got super sick and such..It sucked. In gym I chose basketball over volleyball again. I hate volleyball. However I still felt all sick and blah, so afterwards I felt worse. Got out at 2:40....busses did not seem to come...Luckily I got a ride home from Kaylene. I was told Kaylene and I both are on the cover of the yearbook..Nifty, eh?

BTW...Who has Holy Grail? Bring it to Kaylene's!!!!!!!!!!! You must you must you must! Then we watch that and Rocky Horror! (assuming I get it back from Graham)

....sleep is good...

:: 2004 10 March :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: Pukish-weird
:: Music: Simple Plan -_-

:: 2004 10 March :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: Pukish-weird
:: Music: Geico could save you..blahblahblah

:: 2004 10 March :: 12.39am
:: Mood: shitty
:: Music: "Shut Your Mouth" - Garbage

terrible day
I just finished my comments to Schylar... if she doesn't rage on me, then we won't be speaking for a few weeks...
So... English: we're supposed to make one of those *fact based* poems on Shakespeare (yeah, Shelli0 and Jessika, just like those damned things last year...) Bio: I don't remember at all... Math: McLean is acting like a freak again, meaning that basketball really is over and he doesn't have to stress out anymore... I found out I'm taking ITEDS in that class... oy... Lunch: did my homework again :(
History: We had the most annoying sub (Mr. Patton) ... he told us that he's been teaching in the system for 25 years, he's majored in Psych and Administration, and he's been subbing for quite some time too... Well, I don't give a crap how intelligent he is; we were working on WWI battles today, and the tard can't even pronounce Marne or Somme. And, he was like "I know all about the Dardanelles," but he kept saying Guadalupe instead of Gallipoli... I mean, Guadalupe isn't even an Arabian name... WTF?
Band: very boring day... I hate my band... grrr band, grrr... Spanish: reviewing for our unit test... oh joy... P.E.: badmitten, and ran a half mile... then, after school, Shawna decided she and I should practice together... joy... I'm going to bed, as I have absolutely not emotion at the moment... I cry for me.

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:: 2004 9 March :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Doug's First Movie

Meeehhh..
Water Goddess
You are the Goddess of Water. You are a very
loving, you show your emotions out in the open.
You are full of wisdom. Also dreamy... You
would rather be sleeping then awake. But are
still very happy. You are most inspiration to
the other Four Goddesses since without water
there wouldn't be life.
Other Water Goddesses: Aphrodite, Isis, Mariamne,
Mari, Tiamat, Yemaya, Ran, Kupala

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I stayed home today as well. I slept until 3ish and still want to sleep more. I have shitloads of homework and tommorrow we are taking a math assessment. Last night at the debate banquetm I got 3 things...one being a bison bill, another a forensics thing, and then a thing for having a high GPA. Gwen got the "I should've talked to senoirs more" award. I laughed. They did not have the slightest clue who she or Stacey Radonich was, so they both got those awards. At least they know who I am... I did feel bad for Josh, however. He went into the bathroom on the bus once and stayed for a long time and came out with a big ol' smile on his face, and you can guess the assumptions that were made. That is from Kirsty's point of view. But becase of that, the seniors gave him the "longest in bathroom award" and he turned colors....

Well I feel stupid. I am also very hungry. Damn us not having bread = (

Wanna know what makes me angry? WHen people think Love Song was written by 311 or Jack off Jill or someone else, I get angry. It was written by the motha-fucking CURE damnit!

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:: 2004 8 March :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: tired-ish
:: Music: Baroque piano

another weekend with me all gone
Pep band is over :( The tournament was fun, even if we took second (hey, that's a lot better than usual for the girls)... let's see... when I was at the hotel at around 11:30 PM, I said to myself, "Nick, you seem rather thirsty. Yes, yes I am very thirsty. Nick, you should get something to drink." And so I did... I got myself a cup of coffee. I hate coffee... plus, the fact that I haven't had any caffeine in a month or so... in about 15 minutes I was sitting on the hotel lobby floor with "glazed over eyes" and serious trembles. I turned to Halsey, "I think something is wrong with me..." Needless to say, I won't be having any more coffee soon...
On Saturday we went to Fairmont. Mmmm... a few of my admirable guys in only swimsuits... fun day, let me tell you... oh... except that I lost a watch. Oh, and Dacia can't get over the fact that despite her absolute optomistic outlook on life, I will still find a way to piss her off in my "pessimism" which she needs to learn is really cynicism.
On to today... English: gave my powerpoint on the Globe Theatre (really, nothing too special at all)... and, as I was walking down the hall after that class, I saw T.J., then I saw this mildly cute junior with shorts on, then I saw T.J. checking out the legs of said cute junior, and all I could think was, "Nick, maybe you were right about T.J."... yay? ... Biology wasn't too exciting today... we just talked about procedures for collecting data for our mice. Math: pointless... we've regressed to graphing linear equations... strange...
Lunch: ... can't really remember... except I was doing my homework for social studies... said social studies: we FINALLY got to WWI battles today... I can't believe it's been so long in this unit... CRAZY I tell you! Band: I'm really pissed right now, because we have our play tests due Friday, Blaze takes the music home every night (nice, except I need to practice for them too...), not to mention I'm playing crappy in class, AND try-outs for Symphonic Band are in 2 weeks, AND I get my bottom braces on next week... stress...
Science fiction double feature
Doctor X will build a creature
See Androids fighting Brad and Janet....
Spanish: had a sub who speaks German and French, but not Spanish... interesting...
Health: wow... our class felt really stupid today; Maki held us 30 seconds after the bell... yeah... that's a really middle school sort of thing to do... oy...
After school, Lucien was around for only about 10 minutes, and Alisa wasn't being the most talkative (at least in my direction)... Sergie was practically raping Jason in the corner, and Jason came out laugh/crying, all the while I was singing Sweet Transvestite to my Rocky Horror fanatics...
And I had piano today... 3 weeks to district music fest. .... I'm really hoping I'm ready. And, piano made me late for soccer... I felt like an old man on the field today...
Moving on to a different subject, I saw the bulliten print in the newspaper Sunday that alternative youth outreach is setting up in gf... unfortunately, they meet the same time as my soccer practice goes on Thursdays, not to mention I still haven't come out to my family yet, so getting to the meetings would certainly be a problem. Even so, I'm getting the info that I can, and maybe I'll show up... maybe...

chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 8 March :: 7.28pm

LOOK I'M UPDATING ONLY A DAY AFTER THIS TIME
I'M GONNA WRITE THIS WHOLE THING IN CAPS LOCK TO PISS A FEW PEOPLE OFF SO I APOLOGIZE NOW IN HOPES JESSICA WONT BEAT ME.
this weekend was pretty good. on saturday i did nothing until noonish and i got to eat lunch and it was really good. then i went to softball on a full stomache..not too smart. sarah and i were the first ones from our team there so we went over by the fence to look at the lacrosse people. one of them was on the grass cause he got hurt and about 5 minutes later they were loading him into an ambulence. i hope he is okay. so sarah pointed at this one guy she thought was ruben and he saw her pointing at him and looked at us funny. we walked away and later on we realized that he was actually asian...ruben is mexican. practice started and stuff and we did this batting practice/get the catcher to be able to throw out a runner at second thing. for the first 10 minutes or something sarah and i alternated running to second. after 10 minutes sarah got to go bat and i was still stuck there with this other preppy "afraid to break a nail" type of girl. when she ran she had her arms up near her face and kinda jogged over to the base. it was really pissing me off cause we were supposed to be trying to beat the throw. (i think i'm going to brag a few times in this entry. oh well) she got out every single time the throw was good. i only got out 3 times and that was towards the end of my time running cause i was tired. my legs still really hurt from that. then i got to bat and i hit a few of the balls. the coach nicknamed me "m&m" cause of my initials. i think that its a pretty weird nickname but he said he only gives nicknames to the girls he likes (as in cause of their ability). sarah doesnt have a nickname. i think its cause she barely tries. she thinks she can do everything but when there is a ground ball that you miss you are supposed to run after it and she just walks. we also got your uniforms which are white with 2 green stripes on the shoulders. were gonna get hats later that say "g unit" on them. stupid rap.
poops..i'll write later. bye

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:: 2004 7 March :: 11.32am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Christian stuff...at 9:20 in the morning...OY!

Oh the stuff I find...
I shall drown you in my tears;
Suffocate you in my hate;
I'll strangle you with my fears,
Don't try to change now, you're already too late.

Now the trust is gone,
For now I can see
Your ignorance, disbelief:
All strains of your conterfeit personality.

For these emotions are vindictive,
Scratching at the walls of my soul
Begging to be freed,
Their strength I no longer control.

My dove of compassion is dead;
Now completely I'm desensitized,
Never to feel again.
For the lies in your eyes...

I shall drown you in my tears.
The hate will pour like rain
To smother your stupid little world
So I will be free once again.

Yes. Tiphni Lynn and I wrote this last summer, I do believe. I think I have posted it here before, but I am not sure anyone ever read it....so here it is again. I gave Tiph my general ideas and a few basic lines and how I wanted it to be, and she pretty much put my thoughts on paper. Wooo Tiph! ...I should remind her of this.

The stupid fucking little girl did not get her desired amount of banana bread. So I have to make more. Just for her. *angry face insert*

OOOO!! I also had a dream! It was about a SUPER fucking hot dude that I met when Shelle and I were on Slime Time Live! I got prizes and to be on TV : ). Then when everyone was gone, Me and Shelle were sitting there and then we noticed this super hot guy sitting all alone. He was from Texas. When we went back to school, he was in my English class, so I guess he moved :-p. Our school quite resembled Butte's. Anyway. He was pretty much gay..he had like 5% straight in him. He also had a crush on Colton ^_^. Then the doggy came and woke me up to let her out. = (.

I update too much.

BTW..."You're Sweet. Sweet like an orange creame sugar bunny." Yup.

:: 2004 6 March :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: unproductive
:: Music: The Crow

This movie indeed rocks.
"Jesus Christ...stop me if you've heard this one...walks into a hotel, hands the innkeeper 3 nails and asks: 'Put me up for the night?'"

"Because we do not know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well, and yet everything happens only a certain number of times ... How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood ... that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps 4 or 5 times more. Perhaps not even. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps 20. And yet it all seems limitless.

"Death is always on the way, but the fact that you don't know when it will arrive seems to take away from the finiteness of life. It is that terrible precision that we hate so much. But because we don't know, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many more times will you remember as certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps 4 and 5 times more. Perhaps not even. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps 20. And yet it all seems limitless."

Bwaaahhhh I love this movie. It rocks in all its morbidness. I find it very funny. Do not ask why. Some parts are not meant to be funny, but oh well. *shrug*

Today I made banana bread. Other than that, I have watched a little tv and read like a hundred pages in the book I am reading. It is very very unproductive and I wish Roxanne would come save me. But, she probably won't.

My mom went to Passion of Christ today. She said she saw Mishelle, but did not say hi so as not to embarrass her in front of her friends :-p. BTW Shelle....what church do you go to?

Mother is the name of god in the hearts and eyes of young children. It seems as if I am not a young child anymore...I so thought I was, too. Aw well.

It may not be able to rain all of the time THERE, but I wish it WOULD rain sometimes HERE. I miss the rain = (.

Tidbit of sad info that I was unaware of: Brandon Lee died in the making of The Crow. One of the times he was shot, they were supposed to have a blank in the gun, however a real bullet was used. So he died. = (.

I think I am done now. I shall steal buh bai! ^_^.

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 6 March :: 12.54pm

hiya. i havent updated in while mainly because i'm really lazy and i've been buisy with stuff.
i'm gonna make this short. all this week some assholes from st. justins have been bothering me and louise mostly about likeing sean. i cant help likeing (sp?) and i just want them to shut up about it. so the one who was being the meanest to me apologized yesterday and then he was nice to me. its so weird how they can just change like that. yea so uh...enough about that.
so softball is going pretty good but the fuckin assistant coach pisses me off really bad. he was teaching me to do this weird throw thing and it really hurt. so after practice and on thursday and friday too my arm was hurting. of course my throwing arm is the same hand i write with and all that important stuff with so everything was irratitating it. i actually asked people at school to pull on my arm..i think they thought it was weird but it made it feel better. then jessica started pounding on my my back during l.a to help it. THANKS PAL! lol. ok sorry about that. well it doesnt hurt anymore so thats good.
I HAVE TO GO CLEAN MY ROOM. BYE

LoupGarou

:: 2004 5 March :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Here to Stay - Korn

The hurt inside is fading, this shit's gone way too far. All this time I've been waiting oh I cannot give anymore.
Long time no see! Er... Long time no write.

It was my grandma's birthday yesterday and she came up with a kind of cool idea. Since she didn't particularly want anything and she didn't have many things for her grandchildren to play with when they came over to her house, she decided that what she wanted for her birthday were things that we could play with when we came over to her house. Along with that she wanted a little kid party with a bunch of Tweety bird stuff and games like Simon Says, PIn the Tail on the Donkey, and Musical Chairs.
It was really cool!
My little cousin Anna hung out with me for a lot of the time. She's three years old and so cute! When I'd carry her around she put her head on my shoulder and everything. Then we'd dance to the music playing. She had fun with the games and was obsessed with wanting to open up the pinata.

Mema's gifts were a pogo stick, a flying saucer thing, a hovercraft-like thing that can go on both land and water, and some other stuff. The only thing was we didn't get home until 9:30 that night and I hadn't done any of my homework and had a history test the next day.

So I ended up staying up until midnight finishing my homework and studying. My how fun. -_-

People can be such idiots. I don't think I mentioned much about Sean. Well, we met him at a dance one time and he was really nice to us and everything so we ended up having crushes on him (we as in Marilyn, Louise, and I).

So anyway, now everyone at St. Justin's knows about it and there are these guy who used to be really nice to us online. But then they turned on us and started picking on us for liking Sean. They invited Louise into a chat just to make fun of her. It was really cruel what they were saying. Terrible. I hope they rot in Hell, those bastards. I hate them.

We planned to create another chat again to yell at them once more, but so far it isn't working. And It's almost 9 PM -_-. Plans ruined. SO sad.

They made me mad enough to start writing a poem. I haven't finished it yet so I won't post it, but hopefully it will be done soon.

This isn't very long, but I am running out of things to type because I'm too lazy to think of something. Bye!

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:: 2004 4 March :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Spare Me the Details" - The Offspring

one week without me...
Yeah.. I know I didn't update for a while...
Ever since I left for Missoula... Speaking of, mildly romantic moment... Mr. Kellogg had us climb the M (very long walk, I must say), and Drew and I were the first ones up, so we went to sit on the outcropping above the M... yeah, sitting, gazing out at the Missoula below us, sitting next to my sexy sax player... too bad he's not mine... too bad he's (probably) not gay.
When we got home (CMR won!!!!! ahah!!!!), I started to finish the poetry packet we had assigned, spent about 14 hours on poetry... so besides being hyped/poetic/tired, I felt all screwy inside. So, for the last week, I have been extremely moody, telling people off (which is not like me, too often at least...)...
Let's see... highlights... um, Monday/Tuesday was AA Band Festival (which we, being the little kids of the high school, do not play in).. however, 2 good concerts... At lunch one day, Paul and I were messing around, and then all the girls are like, "Aw, you and Paul would be so cute together!" not realizing that I'm indeed bisexual, and Paul is rather not... um... we've been watching "All Quiet on the Western Front" in history... Cislo is great for movies and such... We've played w/ the mice in Bio (yes, we now have mice, in conjunction w/ the psych 2 class, which will train the mice to run mazes... we take care of the mice, and will eventually distribute alcohol or caffeine to them... eh heh... hope I don't get attached...) ... oh, and Lucien tweaked my nipple a few times... I probably shouldn't have told them to not do that... it always makes them want to do it more... AND I told them I can't look people in the eye... OR stand to be in crowds... so now Lucien tries to stare me down while crowding my space and tweaking nipples (which, in a non-school setting I would not find so bad... but, considering the circumstances...) Anyways, the band goes to Butte tomorrow for girl's tourney... hope we win, but I don't see it happening (me of little faith). Love y'all lots (especially if you love me back... maybe...)