:: 2005 29 July :: 11.44 pm

My family went to the circus today, the whole family amanda and pj included. it was pretty nice.
the circus itself was pretty lame but we saw a baby on a leash, so that will lead to the question of the day which is what do you think about children on leashes?????
I will throw my opinion in later.
everything else is good though.
im mad pmsy.
like really bitchy, but i know that it is just that time so im over it.
i was thinking and talking about pj and the military because he wants to join but wont because of me, and that sucks, like i totally dont own him so it mad me sad. and later on when we get married and like have kids i dont want him to regret not doing it and resent me because im the reason that he didnt, thats just way too much of a burden for any woman to carry.
so i was like just join the damn military for christs sake, blah blah blah.
but all that is really just pms like i said. i dont want him to join the air force and i dont think hes wasting his time i just worry a lot about our future and if rushing into such a serious relationship so young is smart.
but these are risks you take. because you love somebody, i love him more than anything. its really intimidating to know how much power he has over me actually, but that is neither here nor there.
that was pretty much my day though. well i went to greenville walmart and bought some blanks to burn all the cds that belong to other people in my house so that i have them when i leave. all the britney spears and system of a downs and all that good stuff that my brother and sister have. and nickelback from my mom, which i keep forgetting to get. well shoot 24 days ive got left now. im so terrified. but refreshed. life is going to work with me. apparently the key to being happy has something to do with being yourself and not caring anymore about how that self is seen through other peoples eyes.
its cool

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:: 2005 28 July :: 12.15 pm

*sigh
its a tiring day, not really i got up at 10 or so, that is good its earlier than noon like normal.
im really trying to get my shit together. get my room sorted and ready for move out day. ive packed up the clothes that i wont wear between now and then.
sad. three boxes of clothes, and there are still many in my closet
my walls are almost bare, ive taken down most of the posters. and such.
there are about 5 things left. four flowers presses that i made when i first moved in. im leaving them. a collage that i made, symbolizing being out of place and alone. im not taking that because i think it will bring bad karma to college. my lizzy sign that my grandpa made for me. im not sure about that one. i might stick it in my trunk in case i decide to have it at school. and the drawing of my fantasy bedroom. im leaving that as well. because mandy is moving into this room when i leave. so it will something nice for her to have, to look at, night, a little reminder. and my picture of the softball team. im taking that but waiting until the last minute to take it down. im afraid that something will happen to it i think. i miss the team already.
im leaving the barbies and the dolls up where they are. mostly because i dont have anything to do with them. they are just there.
i am doing laundry too. washing all of my new extra long sheets and my comforter pluss new towels and such. moving out is teh suck but im like mad excited about it too. ahh self conflict.
blast you. well loves then.

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:: 2005 27 July :: 10.29 pm

A- Almost- Bowling for soup
B- Break down here- Julie Roberts
C-Cute without the E- Taking Back Sunday
D-Down for the Count- Bowling for Soup
E- Everywhere- Tim McGraw
F- Freshman- Verve Pipe
G- Good Riddance- Green Day
H- Heres To You- Rascal Flatts
I- I lost it- Kenny Chesney
J- Just to Hear you Say that you Love me- Faith Hill
K- Kiss me- Six Pence None the richer
L- Life Happened- Tammy Cochran
M- Monkey Wrench- The Foo Fighters
N- New York State of Mind- Billy Joel
O- Only the Good Die Young- Billy Joel
P-Palmdale- Afroman
Q- Quicksand- Lit
R-Rainy Days and Mondays- The Carpenters
S- Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground
T- This Kiss- Faith Hill
U- up-shania twain
V- vindicated- Dashboard confessional
W- What I Got- Sublime
X-Xs and Os- Trisha Yearwood
Y-You say it Best- Alison Krauss
Z-Zero- The Donnas

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:: 2005 27 July :: 9.29 pm

*missing*
one boyfriend.
if you see him tell him that i am waiting for him right now..


in other news. im mad effing tired. it was a long day at work. l o n g
but i had two people request that i go cashier in their department.
and the csm, who is my immediate supervisor said "man liz i wish i could send one of these cashiers home and you could stay until close"
yeah fuck yeah. you know what that means, that i am good at my job. and that people like me. i was on layaway for awhile and i did good. then i went to lawn and garden for about 3 minutes until latoya, who is my csm, realized that they had a cashier it was just that the guy back there wanted me to do it instead.
im a kick ass employee, its a lot easier to work hard when you get paid well and get respected. REMEMBER THAT BILL KORB
... you will never have that satisfactory feeling where you work right now. im sorry to say.
outside of that, my room is trashed and i am tired. but sex and the city comes on in about a half an hour. so im going to clean up a little and wait for pj. who i love and am sorry that i was moderately bitchy to earlier on the phone, the phone woke me up fyi.
so that would be the explainer. but that would be about all for tonight.

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:: 2005 26 July :: 11.59 pm

god i hate it when i cant sleep cuz i havent talked to you. it ruins my night...
BOG DAMN YOU AND YOUR EVIL GRIP OF LOVE>
god dam i love you so much its eating my soul.
nibbling on it and dipping it in spicy buffalo sauce.
do you hear me.

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:: 2005 26 July :: 11.15 pm

so i got out of work about a half and hour early and home from work about an hour early
so pj isnt on yet. and as much as i would like to wait for him, i have to work at 7. so i gotta get to bed pretty quick.
well sorry i missed you pj. i love you a whole bunch.

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:: 2005 26 July :: 12.22 am

blah, somehow i got lost on my way home from work. that was stupid,
but work was okay.
annie and leo worked so it was pretty good actually.
besides that, i talked to my asst manager and asked about getting those days off at the end of august, and she was such a cunt about it.
she was all like "lots of people asked for the end of august off and so if you want the time then you need to talk to someone and have them take your shift"
yeah cuz im sure that you need me. you schedule like 18 cashiers a night, and all we do on the weeknights is stand around anyway.
baahh
so im going to above her and find satisfaction. nasty bitch.,
it makes me so mad. but whatever, im not working during fucking orientation. school is so way more important than some half assed job.
i mean i like the job but come on, school.

anyway my ass is tired.
actually all of me. but you know. whatever.

either way. work kinda sucks these days, but in better news i didnt have to ask anyone for identification today. good deal.


day successful
pj i love you more than anything in the entire world.
you dont even know

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:: 2005 25 July :: 1.42 pm

well today blah,
pj and i went to IHOP and to see war of the worlds, which kicked all sorts of ass. you dont even know. but thats about all thats going on. 29 days until move out. excitement.

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:: 2005 24 July :: 8.22 pm

for any clarification on my last post. read this one that i found on my friends list....


Im never shopping at walmart ever again. Those commie bastards have pissed me off for the last time. I went to buy a can of spraypaint today for my mom. and the bitch at the register asked me for ID . I said what the hell do you need to see id for.. apparantly you have to be 18 to buy spray paint at walmart now. So i told her to fuck off and said i was going to meijer




yeah i find that offensive, because i work at wal-mart, not that walmart is commies but because he basically called me a bitch. and all that girl was doing was her job. just like i do every day. i dont sell age restricteds without i.d. either because the fines are huge and i need and like my job. that doesn't make me a bitch.

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:: 2005 24 July :: 6.04 pm

My god.
i guess its just one of those days huh.
it really really pissed me off what i just read.
do you even understand how much it angered me. i dont think you do.
i hate having to refuse people stuff and having to ask for i.d. but its my job. its the rules. and when people get pissed off. oh my fucking god. how ridiculous. im sure its really hard to flip open you wallet and show someone i.d.

the question may be why do some things need to be carded for.

lets see oh thats right because of dumbass teenagers using everyday products to get high, yeah its stupid but people use spraypaint and glue and varnish and I have to card every person who comes through my line trying to buy it. I don't like it but its what I do and It doesn't make me a bitch.
jesus christ that pisses me off.

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:: 2005 24 July :: 12.49 pm

i slept until just now. 12 45, not that late to sleep i probably would have slept longer, but my mom and sister were in the next room and i woke up just in time to hear,
"I thought lizzy was spending the day with us?"
"She thinks that sleeping all day IS spending the day with"

yeah screw you, its not like ive been up working every single effing day this week, yeah i only work second shift but that doesnt make me any less tired at the end of the week. Its my one god damned day off so give me a break if i want to be a lazy ass for a little while. ill try not to you know earn a living next time. in fact i will quit my job so that i can be at home with you at all times, out in the living room, only when i get up what happens, "Hey we're leaving we'll be back in a few hours."

"where you going"
"Away we'll be back in a few hours"
"well maybe ill go too"
"were just going to the laundry mat"
"oh"

yeah like i want to spend hours at the laundry mat.
i didnt even bother to ask what they are doing there. i dont care.
i need to clean my room anyway,
ive accumulated about 15 pop cans in here. and a myriad of dishes.
lets not even talk about dirty clothes.
ehh.

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:: 2005 23 July :: 10.48 am

well shoot i should throw a proper update into the mix but im not really feeling that today. anyway talking to my cousin from germany, he is coming in a couple of weeks, and waiting for matty so i can leave. matty matty where are you????

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:: 2005 22 July :: 12.24 am

update time,
im feeling better.
guess what
IM GOING TO SEE BOWLING FOR SOUP
gotta go to bed though
gotta take the sister to the farm
btw DANI LAUER I LOVE YOU BUNCHES
you make my day.
and i miss you too

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:: 2005 21 July :: 2.28 pm

"Love is ecstasy and agony, freedom and imprisonment, longing and lonliness. It's what keeps us together when life tears us apart. So when you find that perfect man, hold on tight.. and then call me so I can run over there and see what he looks like and laugh because he doesn't exist you sad perky little optimistic suckers."

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:: 2005 21 July :: 12.52 pm

slowly breaking down for no reason.


just let me be for like five seconds.

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