:: 2003 29 April :: 8.09 pm

WEll here i am again.
I had the shittiest day.
Have you ever said something then felt like a total idiot later. well me being the person with her foot totally jammed into her mouth I do it all the time. but I really did it this time. I was blatant and to the point as always in letting someone know I like him. And guess what. He has a girlfriend Oh yeah and thank you all my friends who let me know. huh huh josie, linz, jimi. Thanks guys I appreciate. Now don't think I am blaming it all on you but c'mon you could of let know. I mean I barely know the guy Im just infatuated but really. So that is why my dad was soo shitty. Oh but I got my license. Good for me. And on another note. Thank you Gunny for making this site. In the last few weeks it has become apparent that know one listens to a word I say. So I am gald to have this outlet. here. In fact I was talking to what I considered a good friend today and then when she interupted me to talk to someone else It hit me. I am alone in the world. And to think I thought people cared. THere you go again liz allowing yourself emotion. Well Fuck it . and fuck you. I am sick of it all.
OH and bipolar is hereditary. what the fuck did I do with that razor.

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:: 2003 27 April :: 4.55 pm

Guess what I like somebody, I dont know him but I like him a lot
but he used to go out with a friend of mine and I think she would be really angry. Shit this sucks a nut

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:: 2003 14 April :: 7.51 pm
:: Music: Weezer

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:: 2003 3 April :: 6.31 pm
:: Music: Gorillaz,,, Dracula

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:: 2003 12 March :: 7.17 pm

i am here in my home
my leg hurting like crap. i hate catching i want to play first but i am fortunate to be on the team as that goes. but anyway. mr miller reaad my poem in front of the other classes. so yeah that is awesome. so i went to the wings game it rocked. for those of you who dont like hockey then you suck and the wings won 7-2 it was an awesome. awesome game. anyway.

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:: 2003 28 February :: 7.52 pm
:: Music: brokenheartsville

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:: 2003 28 February :: 7.52 pm
:: Music: brokenheartsville

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:: 2003 27 February :: 8.20 pm

wow i just hit a button on accident and the screen popped to aol. weird geezo what was i going to say. oh yeah besides celine dion, faith hill, you know limp bizkit that sort of thing. limp bizkit is rage music. i wrote a kicking poem in english today about softball. it rocked even mr miller said it was good he had no critiques which is totally odd for him. i think i totally messed up my death penalty paper though. whatever. Im passing that is what matters i guess. oh here is something there are some people no names of course plyaing a joke on a person who isa good friend of mine and the peole playing the joke are also my friends and I dont know if i should tell the person or not. and also the person who confirmed this to me( you know who you are) I probably wont tell but geez. i feel so bad. the catch here is that the person who will be hurt is someone who i really like. you know like, like. i dont think i love him but i do as a friend and I am starting to feel more. but i dont think i can tell him. i know it is all confusing but it makes sense in my head. and this guy oh my we are friends but i dont think he wants more than that and yeah. i cant tell him he has a girlfriend kinda. ohhh man. if only life were easy

of my bro got a new nirvana cd better go and take a listen
and bam margera kicks ass and is the sexiest man alive.

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:: 2003 23 February :: 8.16 pm

Wow here I am again. spilling my pyschological problems to the whole world. I am so depressed all the time. I don't know what is wrong with me Im like god am I like my mother. I love her but I don't want to be anything like her. ut I feel I am I look like her. got my physical inadequecies from her. and now her wonderful depression. I just want this hell I live in to be over. I know Joslyn you say appearance isnt everything but well my struggle with my weight and my nasty teeth are all causing me to have a frigging breakdown. I went to church and I felt no better even though people say hat church heals all. I dont feel it Im not even sure If I believe in god anymore. If there is a god why does my life suck so bad. Who really wants to be here anyway. and I always thought that familys were supposed to support you. well whenever I talk about my mom Deidra sas something in this bitchy tone that just makes me feel like shit. Like I dont even know how ot explain it. I dont even want to be around her when she is like that. you know. I just wish high school were over and I was by myself or with another family completely. my mom is so poor and my dad is so not and so my mom feels like shit because he is doing so much better than her and my dad is pissed cuz my mom dosent pay child support. divorced families suck ass. I will kill myself before I will put my children through the shit my parents put me through. and the thing is I dont think they realize that they are doing it. but for now I will go cry myself to sleep and hope that tomorrow is a better day.

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:: 2003 19 February :: 6.33 pm

1)Single or Taken:Single
2)Sex: Female
3)Birthday: February 15
4)Sign: Aquarius
5)Siblings: 4
(6)Hair color: Brown
7)Eye color: blue
8)Shoe size: 10
9)Heigth: 5'11"

*~RELATIONSHIPS~*
1)Who are your best friends?: Liz, Josie, Sarah yeah
2)Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: never
3)If yes, what is their name?
4)Did you send this to your crush? nope
5)Did your crush send this to you? no

*~FASHION STUFF~*
1)Where is your favorite place to shop? Pac Sun
2)Any tatoos or piercings? just the ears

*~THE EXTRA STUFF~*
1)Do you do drugs?: No
2)What kind of shampoo do you use? Um depends on my mood
3)What are you most scared of? losing my mom
4)What are you listening to right now? celine dion, martina mcbride
5)What car do you wish to have?: anything that runs
6)Who is the last person that called you: Deidra
7)Where do you want to get married? vegas
8) How many messenger buddies do you have? umm...77
9)If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
i'd be skinny AND pretty

*~FAVORITES~*
1)Color: pink
2)Boys name: Andy
3)Girls name: Tristan
4)Subjects in school: Spanish and English
5)Animals: dogs and cats
6)Sports to play: softball
*~HAVE YOU EVER~*
1)Given any one a bath?:yes..

2)Bungee jumped? no, but want to.

3)Broken the law?: yes

4)Made yourself throwup??: yes tonight after dinner

5)Gone skinny dipping? no
6)Ever been in love?: not even
7)Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? : nope

*~FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND~*
1)Red: rocket boy
2)Moo: Cow
3)Socks: chili peppers

*~WHAT'S WORSE~*
1)Barfing on your date or your date barfing on you?: date on youy
2)A lie that draws a smile or a truth that draws a tear? truth

*~FINAL QUESTIONS~*
1)Do you like filling these out? what else would i do to occupy my shallow mind
2)How many people are you sending this to? couldn't tell ya
3)Who will send it back first?: ???
5)What is the last film you saw at the cinema? Jackass
6)Favorite cartoon character: Lor from the Weekenders
7)Favorite words: blumpkin, and dink
8)What do you have for breakfast in the morning? coffee and a Special K bar
9)Who would you hate being locked in a room with?: No time to make the list
10) Who would you LOVE being locked up in a room with? probably Jay or Joe because as long as they aren't making fun of me they make me laugh. (I love you guys)

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:: 2003 15 February :: 9.04 am

Its my birthday. woohu. Im 16 finally I dont know why this is a big number but it is. 2 years until 18. five years until 21. yes I suppose another year of this hanus life finished. anyway about swirl it was alright. nothing spectacular spectacular about it. but as we all know i didnt have a date so maybe that would ahve improved it a bit. anyway i think i should go download some music because I want to. im thinking saliva.

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:: 2003 9 February :: 6.04 pm

hye everyone. how are all of you. i am just peachy. catch that sarcasm by the way. this is the thing. i for reasons beyond my comprehension and in a terrible mood all the time . i think I ahve depression i mean bipolar is hereditary my mom and my sister ahve it it makes sense. i just find myself saying why are you here liz you serve no purpose go on. swallow the whole bottle of this convenient drug. (whatever drug is in my hand at the time) i dont know why. life sucks and that sums it up. but on a brigther note now tat I let the cat out of the bag. my birthday is next week. i am having a party at my house at 3 oclock on sat the 15th. so please come everyone. come see me for directions i really wish that you all could be there. knowing my luck 3 people will show up. but as it is there is nothing big i just thought everyone could hang out eat pizza drink coke. that sorta thing. you dont have to stay long just drop in. i know how desperate it really sounds but there are so many of my friends who i dont see anymore or i do see and im just uncomfortable around them and can't seem to talk to. so please come if you are one of those people or even if your not. anyway. i should go contemplate death some more. it is a time filler oh and for those of you who know my struggle with weight the five pounds i worked my ass off to lose came back since i slacked off last week. back to the treadmill i go.

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:: 2003 3 February :: 11.49 am
:: Mood: bouncy

hehehe im in BST right now I finished my work early, so I am doofing around. thought I would let yall now what is happnin with me. that is my written loosiana accent by the way. but anyway as it goes. I can'decide if I want to go to swirl or not. I planned on asking this one guy but I cant seem to bring myself to do it. because I know if he says no he will be a real jerk about it. now why would I want to go out with a guy like that . id like to know too ut hey what can you do about things like life is.

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:: 2003 28 January :: 11.52 am

hey everyone im in BST class
I finished my calendar it is pretty cool if I do say so myself. a slight correion here though my little get together is going ot be on the 14 so if you have valentines plans cancel them alright good. so that is about it for me. i dont really know what else to write. considerign that I updated last night.

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:: 2003 27 January :: 7.23 pm
:: Music: Good Charlotte

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