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angel_bob

:: 2007 19 December :: 9.30pm

The kitties. I now totally understand those people who don't have children and baby their pets.


Here are my babies.
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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 19 December :: 9.34pm

i couldn't ask for more right now.
i am so content and i can't stop smiling.


this is so wonderful.
he is so wonderful.

1 broke me | I think im broken


angel_bob

:: 2007 19 December :: 1.56pm

Christmas stories
My mom would always tell us stories about how forgetful my grandmother would be sometimes. She'd give us the same gifts two years in a row or think she gave us a present that we never got.

One Christmas, she asked my uncle how he liked his new watch. His only response was "what watch?" She forgot to give it to him and found it in the upstairs closet.


Last year, my mom got my brother a cheese cutting board. He likes cheese and kitchen things. A few days after Christmas, we got a big chunk of cheese and Mom suggested Buddy use his new cheese board to cut it. He sort of just gave me and Mom blank looks and said "I didn't get anything like that."

Mom and I exchanged looks and I laughed at her, bringing up the story she always told about my grandma. We searched everywhere for that darn cheese board. I was there when she bought it, it was heavy enough that I remember putting it in the car.

She finally found it in her bedroom closet.

I think im broken


mudpiegrl

:: 2007 15 December :: 11.39pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: the refrigerator

::edit:: whenever i make plans period, they fall apart.

and then i'm disappointed...big surprise.

I think im broken


angel_bob

:: 2007 15 December :: 3.32pm

The best thing I've read in a long time. It gave me goosebumps.

This is what I want for Christmas. I can't decide which would be better, reading the book or listening to that wonderful radio voice reading it to me.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 13 December :: 9.51pm

WHEN TALKING TO OR ABOUT KYLE IT MUST BE DONE IN ALL CAPS.

THIS IS NOW LAW.

I am done with my exams. The cat is awesome. The Baron is jealous.

If any peeps wanna hang, holla.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 12 December :: 11.58pm

We are getting a new cat tomorrow. He gets fixed tomorrow and then I will be picking him up after work.

If he doesn't die. ha ha jk jk

His name is Nick (ha ha ha ha). This name will be changed (it is, ironically, Nick's turn to name the cat.)

I have talked to The Baron about this so he knows he's getting a younger brother and he needs to be nice to him.

These cats are like our children.

WARNING: CAT PRIVATE PARTS. I would censor it but we're all adults here.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 10 December :: 12.33pm

I totally cannot remember the password to my icon journal. Bummer. Not that it really matters but I have heard outcries and grumbles.

In other news, we may get another cat today. More on this developing story coming up during Newz at 11 here on WRHG.

I think im broken


mudpiegrl

:: 2007 9 December :: 12.52am

It has been forever since I've written in here.

For everyone else, too, I checked.

I just need to vent about boys, I guess. It's easier to have my mind on that than the fact that I'll probably fail all my classes.

Why is it when I am bold enough to make plans with guys I'm interested in, they blow up at me? And why do I keep falling for everyone?

First was Whit in the summer from Redmoon.
Then it was sort of Mark
Then sort of Charlie
and now Axel (Frank) for sure.

Couldn't tell you why. But it'd be nice to actually have something come out of it.

A relationship, maybe.

It's probably the thing I need most right now. Despite how close Faith and I are, I know she'll find someone more interesting to spend all her time with and then I'll be searching for someone to grasp onto, just like always.

I know why Frank is the new one. He's playful. I miss having someone to play with. We got in a snow fight on Wednesday and he's always teasing and it's fun. I miss that.

Maybe an update later. I'm super behind in EVERYTHING!

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 9 December :: 1.22am

someone please,
help me cure my writer's block.

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1010101

:: 2007 8 December :: 5.23am

Alright, so I typically hate short vague entries, but right now there is simply no way I can detail everything going through my head right now. Maybe I'll try in a bit here. Anyhow, at the moment, I am pissed, so if I say anything stupid, please forgive me. Anyhow, the sum of my thoughts seems to be: I hate this year so fucking much, and I want it to rot in hell. Now many people throw that phrase around loosely, but in this case I mean it to the full extent. Nothing has gone right, everything keeps going to shit, every light at the end of each long shitty tunnel turns out to be a fucking floodlight some asshole left running (oh, and it promptly turns off before I can make use of it), and everytime I feel like things can't get any more stressful, they plummet further into a bog of shit.

What am I stressed about, well, allow me to make an attempt to outline things:

1. I'm changing my major to psych, but I can't seem to get an appointment with my future advisor to discuss what classes I need to take and how to handle the transition.

2. I don't know where I'm living next year. I don't want to be in the dorms anymore. I'm sick of them, they cost as much as an apartment and you live in a poorly kept up closet. I found a possible roommate, but he doesn't want to move into an apartment.

3. I have finals next week

4. I may have failed my software design class. It won't count towards my major, but nonetheless it would be a horrible blight upon my GPA and really bad way to end the year.

5. I'm going to have to work at meijer when I get back home.

6.My love life is a mess (subpoints listed below, everyone grab your notepads)
-I like one girl, I believed that she liked me. She reveals this to me by kissing me before heading off to Japan for a study abroad trip. I decide to hold off on starting a relationship with her until she gets back. I figure if she still feels the same way, then we can date. I found out today from a friend of mine that she is apparently "going to put the moves on" her 'psuedo boyfriend'. Ugh I keep thinking I had to have misheard. Maybe I'm losing it or something. Maybe it's just a dumb fling. Anyhow the only other girl I have a crush on is:
-I like this other girl, she's had a boyfriend for 5 years and he seems kind of lame. Naturally I can't help but think "I could do a better job than him." Still, I think I may just be behaving dumb. They're obviously together for a reason, and I can't compete with it. I'm okay with that. However:
-if there is no possibility with either girl. I am back to square one. Screwed. I'm a 20 year old virgin who hasn't had a real girlfriend since Junior year of high school. Maybe I'm picky, maybe I'm unlucky. Either way, I feel so fucking lonely right now it's insane.
-there's another girl. She says she's loved me for 3 years. I just can't seem to return those feelings. I talked with her not too long ago because I had no one else to talk with. I just had one hell of a guilt trip laid on me. Um, did I mention that we've had sort of an off and on friends with benefits situation going for the last few years? Yeah, that complicates things further and adds to the stress more. Whee.

-not really my love life, but: I'm currently setting two of my friends up as a couple. They're extremely cute and I envy them horribly.

7. I'm trying to write my novel again. It was going well until now.

8. I have to read two novels by next friday for one of my exams.

9. Earlier this week I had a few panic attacks, and I think I may be having one now.

I basically...
...feel...
...shitty.

I'm shivering, though I'm not cold. I may have cried a bit, though that may just be my eyes watering from lack of sleep (I've been a bit of an insomniac lately). If I did cry, that's the only time I've cried in my adult life. The last time I cried before then was in elementary school.

So anyone have any thoughts? I think I may go sleep now.

If you read this all, thanks, and sorry about the annoyingly angsty entry.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 7 December :: 8.53pm

We're going to see The Golden Compass tonight. I'm very nervous about it and I don't know if I want to see it.

It's my favorite sci-fi book series and I just don't want it to be ruined.

Nick keeps saying that the book will stay the same but it won't. Now I'll forever see those actors when I read the books.

I am, however, excited for the second one. Real excited about how they portray both the knife and the seams in space/time.

End.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 1 December :: 2.44pm

I am published
Hi Rachel,

I am delighted to let you know that your submitted photo has been selected for inclusion in the newly released fourth edition of our Schmap Amsterdam Guide:

Rijksmuseum

Thanks so much for letting us include your photo - please enjoy the guide!

Best regards,

Emma Williams,
Managing Editor, Schmap Guides

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 29 November :: 11.22pm

dear woohu,

please describe me.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 24 November :: 8.48pm

Liveblogging November 2007
Katti is drunk. It is hilarious.

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