HeAD RusH

:: 2003 22 July :: 10.17am

Cross from LJ.
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | Brand New - Jude Law and the semester abroad ]

so easily are your eyes deceived...

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Saw Pirates of the Carribean tonight (ARRRGHHHH!!) with my lovey, Jizzeniffer and Lauren. Johnny Depp = ultimate hotness :0)

tonight was sad. After the movie, Gregory and I just sat in his car and talked. Our little talk ended with me crying and him holding me :0/ exactly one month from today he won't be here with me and i'll be reduced to lots of phone time and once a month visits ::sigh:: Its funny when you've seen someone for over 50days straight, you always end up with this crazy emotional attachment. rah.

i don't want him to go :0(

oh. and not to confuse anymore but all the "tonights" up there were in actuality last night (7/21) and today is... today. :0)

4 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 19 July :: 10.01pm

i meant to post this yesterday but i got lazy :0P

alsooooo guess who sooo got their Radiohead tickets :MEEEEE!!:
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have no fear, i'm still alive.

I've actually been doing stuff hence the not doing the online 24/7 thing :0P

i haven't worked since Monday so that has been really nice. Dinner w/the Rosensweigs rocked my world <3 muchas gracias to la familia Rosensweig <3

Ben & I got our warped tour tickets.

Dinner with Greg and his aunt and uncle tonight was nice.

thats all. buenos noches.

Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 19 July :: 4.34am

runawayBRAINFIREsupernovaOVERDRIVE6thgearSHATTERSTORMagnosticLIGHTSPEEDselfservingMALIGNANTradioactiveATOMIC loveboy.

3 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 17 July :: 9.52am

dah. i'm fucked

its a one way PROcess. you cant turn glass back into sand. and if you found a way to. the sand would never be the same.

Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 16 July :: 10.53am

oh my. sweet. palliate.

falling
down
to the
sea.

i would break the fall if it was your want.

but for this jagged rock i cannot.

for it is where you choose to be.

:: 2003 12 July :: 11.23pm

she wants to know what it feels like. he wants to know how to fly. he wants to feel that fire. he wants for her to speak her soul. she wants to stare at him unwavering. he wants her to feel happiness.

Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 8 July :: 11.57pm

on jaded wings we fly. everythings awry. we build our castles inbetween tides. but some memories they wont subside.

i'm not the repairman for your life. you must do that yourself. my dreams project the realizations of my subconcious. a datum for my being. you were gorgeous tonight.

:: 2003 8 July :: 2.24am

love has become such a tangible thing...

:: 2003 6 July :: 11.35am

last night was a crippler. one that punched me in the gut a thousand times. "whatareyoudoingjackass." wheres the point in clouding truth. be open where you stand. blow out the inside. maybe you will. maybe you cant. maybe i cant hear.

i am that orange light hanging on the pole that is you.

whenthesunsets

:: 2003 6 July :: 2.55am

just a fool to believe i have anything you need

5 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

whenthesunsets

:: 2003 6 July :: 2.32am

craZy glue
you wanna hear something crazy

im scared of feeling the rest of my life..

..then how i feel when im with you.

(This is where it started.)

:: 2003 5 July :: 4.53pm

who wants to be beautiful when beautiful's just a lie?

3 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

11 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 2 July :: 11.24am
:: Mood: excellent :0)
:: Music: Pass me the football...

The best days of my life <3
First off.

Last night + Wellington Girls + crappy movie at the drive in rocked my world(+Gregory too heh) DON'T go see the Hulk, its awful.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

TONIGHT!!!!!
ABBY D's SURPRISE 80's themed party!!!!!
I don't remember the last time that I had that much fun with everyone. Pics tell all!!!
GOO SEEE!DAMN HTML!!!, my links not working :0(
Man. I was all 80s dressed and running through the Boynton mall. Scavenger Hunts rock.
Thank you to everyone <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBY D!!!!!
<3<3

PS. I didn't do Gregs makeup, that was alllll him :0P

hmmm "last night" would be 2 nights ago... woohu wasn't up last night so i'm just copying and pasting my livejournal entry.

GOOOOO SEEE PICS!!!!! they really rock
rockrockrock.

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Today was amazing. Gregory came over early this morning, made me pancakes and we laid in eachothers arms forever :0P 5hrs later hes gone :0( and i am indeed beary sad. :0(:0(:0(

oh. by the way, Ben Garb is No Parking's new drummer. Weird. heh.

THE LINK!! well url anyways...
http://public.fotki.com/plainmornings/abbys_pizzzartaaay/

:: 2003 30 June :: 1.32am

stream of conscious
Stream of conscious...
chosen sweetly i fell. i fell out of your world. Drugs consumed many, not me. It wasn't the drugs as much as you lying. What made you think I wouldn't understand, wouldn't want to help. You told me that it was a plea for help, you wanted me to notice, to care but you did the one thing i asked you not to do. I read your words, your heart poured out onto this screen and it sends sharp pangs through my heart because I cared. This is probably the one thing that could tear me away from the perfection I have now found. How can I be so happy yet still feel obligation. Maybe I still care... I shouldn't. Conflicts of the heart yet I know what I'm doing is right. I have waited so long for this and to lose it for something that has not worked numerous times? If we were meant to be together then it would have worked. Maybe not the first time, the second, the third?? If we were meant to be together "forever" then forever would not have been terminated so soon. Maybe it was love, I really don't know. You walked out that morning, told me that when you'd said it you meant it and for how long I was screaming that inside. It broke my heart. Out of anger I acted and you walked away. I am not saying that you walked out on it because I pushed you away myself but understand, it wasn't just me. Amazing. I can be on top of the world and your words, just your words can bring me down. I must care, I guess I try too hard not to. I read what you wrote for her it was always so much more beautiful then what you'd write for me. You say that it was just lust, a fatal attraction for her and that I was "home", I was what was familiar to you but she was the prize. I don't doubt that you really did love me or anything but you never showed me. Whereas you gave her the world, you felt 100% for me yet only gave me half. You said that you would never say it if you knew I wouldn't say it back. You never knew how I really felt for you, maybe I was a fool for waiting. Maybe i'm smart. Two people obsessed with getting hurt and this is what you get. I have learned from this. I will give 100% from now on, my heart on my sleeve I will get the 100% that I deserve.
I always knew I could do better.
Why am I even thinking of this, its over, i'm happy, I don't need to do this.
Goodnight.

Disclosure: If you're reading this and have to question if this is for/about you then you're wrong and its not. If it was then you'd know. Thats all.