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2003 19 April :: 12.19pm
Pink Floyd is fuckin dope. so is halo. so is existing right now. thats all i have to say.
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2003 15 April :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: bad religion-inner logic
but there really wasnt much point, and I gave up the idea out of laziness.
everything in life is made out to be a competition. today i decided. i shouldnt have to. i dont want to. im gonna let loose. and dance some more. tomorrows a whole new story.
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2003 14 April :: 9.16pm
mirror<_______>rorrim
time<_______>emit
does not<_______> ton seod
exist<_______>tsixe
look at your clock. and think of what those numerals mean. digits by which we base our lives around. a false constant. just like all the other fictional apparatus we add into the mix. "Time" as we know it is a measurement of something that is infinite. whet en oxymoronic perception.
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2003 10 April :: 9.55pm
shankfucious top 5 movie picks:
1. The Legend of Douchebagger Vance
2. Jeympity Jones and The Temple of Do-Me.
3. Douche-mosis Jones
4. Jeympageddon starring Bruce Flinkis.
5. Planet of The Jeympes.
I should be doing my homework. Instead i fill this time by creating fictional movies or thinking of them based on our fictional discourse. Atrophy of the mind. Or perhaps expansion. or maybe. there is no such thing. as either. and we are all fucking insane. living by invisible constants in a fictional realm.
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2003 8 April :: 12.00am
shank: where the fuck do you think we are.
girl: on errrth duh. in florida.
shank: no you dumb fuck. in both a dimensional and mental state. where are we.
girl: umm dimension.you mean like the twilight zone?
how people turn into these automatons. intriguing. just thinking of the entropy of human nature. and how standing on this earthen floor i still dont feel like i am anywhere.
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2003 7 April :: 9.54pm
reverrrbb. selur eht etirw-re. my friend billy pilgrim said to ignore the negative. word to you billy.
dew yew realize that around the world peeple are shewting one another? because of stewpid negative fucks who cant get along. fucking queers man.
shankfucious say: throw out external influences. and listen to yourselves more often.
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2003 5 April :: 8.41am
killing somoene is never realized in your mind until you can no longer see them. and once you have realized you killed someone. you develop a hunger for recessitating them. and just as killing them was once your goal, fixing your foul deed now is. only their insides have decomposed into a disfiguration far beyond recessitation. so we dig a grave to bury the past. dress in black and perhaps say a few words. and soon after forget what once was.
i should be working out. but the phone never rang. ive lost credence in friends. doesnt matter.
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2003 31 March :: 9.17pm
nostalgic fever. longing for old escapades on endless nights. for the days when the sunrise bore hope. days before i became addicted to painkillers. before machines started turning human. times when i enjoyed looking into the night sky. times when you guys made up stepdad quest and i thought you were so gay. when i swiffed fuckin pebbles. when we whined and giggled like little girls playing silent hill 2. when we watched golfballs and blocked all the roads. when i fell in the shower. when the demon light would make us run. when you got caught in my closet. when we toilet papered the baseball field and mummified you. when we put shampoo bottles everywhere. (sorry) when we smoked black and milds and bitched about life. when hong kong fooey got us into some dumb ass movie. when we beat up the ashtray but only you got caught. when we played halo until 5 in the morning. when we bought douches because we have lost our minds.
haha. ill never forget it all.
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2003 26 March :: 10.51pm
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direction is relative. what is one man's left is another man's right. what is percieved as ones downfall is in anothers eyes their uprising. keep in mind that what you see is merely one interpretation of the whole. however, inspite of this, one usually takes to the belief that their was is the only way to see things. we get so arrogant in our views. closing minds and boarding up the entrances once an opinion has been formed. sdrawkcab eb yam siht uoy oT. Only because that is the way you have been taught to percieve things. so hows about you try. break the mold. dna yfed niotpecrep.
consider this paradigm. do you see the following as evil or as live? it all depends on your perception. after all. life is how you make it. break through it all.
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2003 25 March :: 10.24pm
when you live. you leave nothing but broken hearts.
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2003 24 March :: 11.19pm
time runs through our veins. (it starts and stops and starts and stops again)
thinking corrupts life. im sorry i dont care anymore. but you arent worth it. (this isnt about you). our lives are trench warfare. venturing out now and then to engage in a fight. but in the end we always return to the trenches. afraid of exposure to the outside world. afraid of being hit by anything. the funny thing is. these words will fall on a blank mind. idontknowwhyiwritethese. just a dead letter marked return to sender.
and with my head submerged, everything fell silent. i shuddered because i thought you had left my mind. but i'd never allow that.
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2003 22 March :: 5.46pm
here's something to think about. (blank space)
getthe picture? no one does. it all just a series of repeating cycles. on your death bed you will see what i have long before. it does not matter however. traversing the untimely walls of this world amounts to nothing anyhoo. i'm losing my grip as i trip on anomilies. i'm sick of painting in black and white. i had a crazy dream this afternoon. and i guarentee it is the result of things to come if the course remains unwavering. this trip has taught me something. and that is if someday i have a kid of my own, he will believe in some religion. he will be the typical societal product, rooted in his beliefs and on a set course, so when he dies he can die feeling he has lived for a purpose. yes. he will have a "good" life. he will be my contrast. he will be my purpose. something "good" that i have accomplished. humans are nice beings. and i no longer know what i am talking about. adieu.
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2003 20 March :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: jimmy eat world
I've just intercepted an untuned station
If you've fooled others, then considered yourself fooled as well. Human nature has become too smart to let instinct come in the way. But I see still some cant hold strong. The temptation and urge takes control.
To take control, you must first find control. Other wise consider yourself a mess.
You have now become your own victim.
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2003 19 March :: 9.22am
sooo i was supposed to be off an hour and a half ago..... hmm thanks to parents fighting eh? well... off to New College today then FSU tomorrow then UF where i'm meeting up w/Greg Pischko & hes showing me around and making me pancakes <3 then down to Orlando and UCF then i come home. fun.
ohhhhh and to those who didn't know, gues who sooooo finally got their license :0P most know by now considering i've been driving EVERYWHERE including Drewski's movie party : Donnie Darko = own. It was sooo much fun & before that I drove up to Boynton where i hung out w/Brian<3 and Abby D. & Miss.Abby made us some wonderful fooood :0) goodtimes.
now for my Brian rant :0P (oh come on.. like you didn't expect it heh)
well suckers... 2 weeks today & guess whos still NOT broken up <3 you are sooo amazing.. it only gets better from here eh?
ohh and i'm soooo NEVER touching you again :0P <3 u.
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2003 18 March :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: fucking gay
damn this sucks. denver and the area where i am supposed to be got anywhere between 3-8 ft of snow today. worst snow theve ever gotten in one day. and it all had to happen the day i go there. dah. so now im stuck in st louis. we try to leave here tomorrow at 930 but even by then the airport may still be closed. most likely i wont even get to breckenridge til thursday or friday, and friday is the earliest ill be able to ski most likely. fucking worthless. hey guys thanks for calling me like you said you would. it was cool hanging out. fuck this shit goddamn dahh. how fin. <3. do a dance for me.
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