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2004 30 July :: 1.25pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Big and Rich-Save a horse, ride a cowboy
UGHHH IM SICK OF THIS BULL SHIT!!
What in the world did I do this time?!?! grr...like this just doens't even make sense. You never approach me about anything. I mean maybe it has nothing to do with me, but I hate worrying when I KNOW I have nothing!! to worry about because i didn't do anything or say anything or ..ANYTHING! because i think your great, god why can't people just get rid of their fucking computers and talk to people like we use too??
Anyway, I woke up like at 11:30 today. It was so nice! I had the day off. Oh, thank you lord !!! it was nice. I went to bed earlie last night and slept in late today. *yawns* it was nice. Nice to know I was in my nice warm big bed all morning, while people at work were going through corn fields and haha I WASNT! lol ok, enough of that.
Save moeny for car, and clothes?? Or buy computer?!? hmm...*thinks hard* what's the better option? *sigh*
I'm ready to go back to school... I think.
Fuck this stupid bullshit, I didn't do anything!
My unlce Jim and Renea andPaige are here so I have to go to lunch with them.
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2004 29 July :: 6.49pm
You love em and leave them just like you loved me and left me. It's like you to do that sort of thing, over and over again. You're a cruel hearted man.You've even been talking to my friends about me, oh you bette believe I'm not going through that again. You're the kind of man a woman think she can change, but the only thing changing is my way of thinking,and I'm thinking that maybe someday. Somebody's gonna give you a lesson in lossing somebody and do to you what you've been doing. Somebody's going to give you a lesson in hurting somebody and leave you with your fire burning and no way to put it. Baby, there aint no doubt. You're a cruel hearted man. Somebody's going to give you a lesson in leaving somebody and give you back what you've been giving and I hope that I'm around. To watch them knock you down. You're a cruel hearted man.
Work was so much fun today with Jess. Lol *laughs* I suprisingly had fun. Even though I woke up late this morning and I literally looked like crap. Oh-well. Just working on a farm, and really...who there do I have to impress?? No one, at all.
I shouldn't have been up that late. Done what I did last night. Lol fun stuff, oh my gosh FUN!!! but not a good idea at all.
Now my sleeping schedule is all messed up, I didn't want to go to work, I was like so close to saying screw that and calling Ellen and telling her I couldn't come into work today, then I thought...I NEED MOENY!!! I HAVE TO GO!!! So I did. :) I'm glad I did too. Fun times. "STROKE IT" haha! I love you Jess!I'm glad everything's okay now.*smiles*
Me and Justin are going to see I robot tonight, should be fun. But riding with yet ANOTHER friend, makes me even more de-
pressed, because I won't be able to drive till at least JANUARY!!!! AHHH *SMACKS SELF* I FUCKING HATE THIS!!!!! Ugh *sigh* but I better just get use to it, there's nothing I can do about it, and plus, ride with my parents, or ride with friends?!?I choose friends.
*sigh*
I GET TO GO SHOPPING SAT AFTER WORK!!! yay!!!
I need to go shower, I smell like corn. *gags* I'm sick of the fucking farm. I'm sick of seeing fucking corn in my sleep. I'm sick of thinking that when I'm sitting down watching t.v. that the entertainment center is slowly moving like when I'm on the tractor, I'm sick of getting wet every fucking morning, I'm sick of fucking looking at corn for seven fucking hours, I'm sick of coming home and smelling like corn. grrrr oh well, makes big moeny!
My mom brought up a good point today...I hate the game I think almost all of you play, yet I can't help to want to keep the thing I want after Igetthem...*smackshead* ...really who cares? I don't...not now I don't. I'm done with that whole pretending to care deal. Done done done. That's the worst thing you can get thrown into...just try to avoid it because normally when you do, that's when the good ones come a long...or so I believe.
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2004 29 July :: 2.21am
Ahhh...that was the craziest thing I have ever done!!
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2004 28 July :: 3.54pm
The farm sucked today. It was hot and the field was too damn long. Lol but Dan the Man brought us to the bathroom, second time now. woo go us! I tell you one thing though, I WILL NOT LISTEN TO ANY MORE FUCKING BEATLES!NO MORE!!!!
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2004 27 July :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: the get up kids-i'll catch you
A Cinderalla Story
Last night Campbell wanted to hang out, so I called Katie to see if she wanted to come with us, and Katie Jo. Then Katie came and got me, and we didn't want to really go anywhere anymore. So we went around town, and rented Starsky and Hutch, then went and met Kevin and Langdon for ice cream. Then went back to her house, watched t.v., oh she got her pictures back from us at birthday bash and stuff. Ah I love em! Anyway, yeah we started to watch the movie and I fell asleep. So we went in her room and layed down, and beeped Dan for like a half an hour and talked to him haha. Anyway, then her stick lol made me laugh for a long time. Don't ask. Good times, we talked for a long time. I love Kate, she's such a better person than most of the people at our school, it's just sad she doens't realize what a great, caring, loving girl she really is.
Then ha , I woke up to get ready for work at her house, and ended up going back to bed till like 7:45 then got up grabbed poptarts and we left. It's just work, who gives a shit what you look like really.
So at work, me and Jess were on break and decided to ..umm...run as far away from the farm as we could possiably get. With a car or without, then Dan the scary Man, caught us, and drove us back to our crew in his truck. haha. What a nice...strange old man.
We jammed to N'sync all day. Lol good times. We've decided to wear N'sync tee shirts tomorrow to work. So you all can EAT IT! lol *laughs* inside joke. because you know that N'sync will always be cool!
*breaks into song* YOU MAY HATE ME BUT IT AINT NO LIE BABY, BYE BYE BYE!! okay, enough of that.
Me and Jess got out of work today and went back to her house after we stopped by Kate's, got cleaned up and were going to go to the American Idol's concert tonight at the Van Andel, but we decided not to.
We ended up going to see A Cinderalla Story. It was so cute. Even though it's just a movie, and it was very adoreable, it made me kinda..want to say oh fuck you, your life's perfect....oh and hmm..no one's life is really that perfect so..you can.. well..um kiss my ass, but im crazy, and yes, it is just a movie. A good one too.
We went through Get em and go, but no one would answer the speaker box. What kind of service is that? Does anyone know why ..like is their speaker box broken??
*laughs*
Then on the way home um, I went crazy, and stuck my body out the sunroof on 14 mile screaming and shouting and dancing. lol good times. *smiles*
*yawns* work sucked today. It was wet and I was freezing, and it was just a long day. Tomorrow will be better.
I must go listen to pappy play piano.
Jess
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2004 26 July :: 5.38pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Ashlee Simpson-Pieces of me
I'm head over heals this time around.
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2004 26 July :: 3.58pm
Today went by so fast. It was actually really fun. Aww I love my pappy! I'm so glad you're working now. You make the day fly. ;)
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2004 26 July :: 7.28am
oh no, spagettios'. I think Jess has an obsession with e-bay motors. *puts hands together and prays to find a sunfire* I need to get off and finish getting ready to work, damn you e-bay.
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2004 26 July :: 7.17am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Maroon Five-She will be loved
Hey, can you believe that
I'm actually excited to go to work today. I don't know why, it could be because Jess starts today. Or the fact that I don't have to worry about Jeff anymore. That could be it too, lol who knows.
So I found the perfect car on e-bay. A red two door sunfire. In Indiana for 800 bucks. Yes, it needed some repairs but my dad can do that. So I finally!!! got my parents to let me bid on it, and four hours later, I got outbid by 600 dollars. Yeah, poor Jess doesn't have 600 extra dollars. Grrrr.. I want a sunfire *cries*
So last night I realized that it's not *that* important. I just need to be ok with it, and eventually, it'll come to me, instead of out and about looking for something you can't just willingly find.
I need to go do my hair. *grr* have a good day ya'll!
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2004 25 July :: 11.00pm
*sigh* I have a massive head ache. No thanks to anyone in my household.
ughh I feel bad
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2004 25 July :: 4.51pm
Work was good today. I was on Jeff's crew. Can't say I was too thrilled, but me and Jeff are...tight lol now. So I'm really happy. He's a good kid. I feel bad for giving him a lot of
shit now. I got attacked with tassels by all the guys on our crew, which umm is everyone besides Adie and Katie. Matt espically, BOTH matt's. Anyone who throws tassels should die....just kidding :)
Yeah so I have to go to dinner with the family tonight *sigh* It shall..suck.
Erika where are you?!? I miss you.
I've decided Mike is a good choice. For what you ask? I'm not really sure.
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2004 24 July :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Slow Motion
Oh my gosh I had so much fun tonight! Mike got a hold of me at like 8 and asked what I was up to and we decided to go to Justin's after all. I wasn't going to go because I have to work tomorrow morning, but he came and got me and we went over there. Lol I had so much fun. Lol then the Katie's came. Good times. I got to catch up with Devon, the second I got there she ran up gave me a hug, and started balling...literally. It was the cutest thing I have ever seen. I love her sooooo much! I'm going to go insane w/out her. :( She's coming back senior year though. Yeah, I love mike, he's such a sweetheart. He's sooo sweet. For some reason I really disliked Ian a lot this year, but he was so much fun tonight I luv em! Then me being the party pooper I am, had to go home even though I was having a blast, and I love Justin for being such a sweetie too. So Mike brought me home, ahh I really think he's such a great kid. You girls should be crazy about him. Anyway, so yeah now I'm home, and I kind of want to go hang out with the Katie's but I KNOW I shouldn't, even though Kate's right down the road from the farm. *sigh* should I go, or shouldn't I??? grrr, I want too!
Ahh fuck it
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2004 24 July :: 4.35pm
you are *SO* fucking selfish it's unreal!!!
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2004 24 July :: 4.07pm
What a nice way to treat your best friend. *sigh* I don't care anymore because you only care about how you feel.
I was such a bitch this morning at work. It was nice though I got to bitch at people I don't like *evil grin* and tell them to stop missing their fucking tassels! Which is alwyas nice when you don't have to do the work and you just boss people around. I can't wait to start next year off at the farm as a crew leader.
Anyway, I wasn't going to go to work today because my neck and hands are so burnt that I coudln't move them, but I figured hey, why not go and make extra moeny for it being Sat. and just bitch and yell like all the crew leaders do. So I did.
I have to work tomorrow though. A sunday. Grrt that makes me mad, but I need the moeny to buy a car, because unlike every other stupid person, my parents aren't going to buy me a fucking car, so I have too.
Oh and they hired all these immigrant workers today to get things going faster. I'm pissed! I was raging. That means work will be done sooner, and we get less pay. Stupid immigrants take all of our moeny. Sorry if that sounds mean to you, but I don't care. They don't need to be taking all of our damn jobs. Plus, I hear about it all the time from my dad, so after awhile I tend to agree.grr *shakes fist*
So I got my paycheck today, for three days. Not too shabby. Too bad I didn't get to keep any of that moeny. It all went to my dad. He's buying my car off e-bay, and getting it for me and doing the labor when I get it if there are problems with it. yay! But that's not all I'm paying him for. I had to pay him for fixing all the other junk I bought that was broken. but that's another story.
I'm really pissed, I was looking for to sleeping in tomorrow, and now I can't. *sigh* stupid farm!
How's this for guy crazy, he shows up at my house, someone I actually don't think is that bad of a guy, and tell him to leave me the fuck alone. not those exact words, but enough to give him the hint I'm busy, I don't want to be with anyone, I don't have time to play the games guys play with girls, that sounded bad. What I meant to say is guys think there so awsome b/c of girls pretty much, and I'm not really to thrilled about any guy, no matter how damn hot you are. Or how pretty of eyes you have. I just...can't make myself care.
What is about guys that make them so stupid that they don't understand that some days, we are just total and complete bitches, and it's not something we can control. It's called fucking hormones. When you have your period and cramps for a damn week every month, if your luckier than me and it isn't screwed up, then you'd understand. It's nothing we have control over. Our day can be going great, it coul dbe the best day ever, and we can be bitches for no reason once so ever. So the best thing is to not show up at my house, then pick the dumbest fucking movie you could pick to watch, and then be a total ass and flirt up the wazoo when I just get home from work and just want to take a shower. I mean GOOD LORD! GET A FUCKING CLUE!!! I don't mean to be a bitch today, but I just am. And you know what , get over. Girls ARE bitches, and you guys ARE assholes, with their priorities all fucked up. So it makes sense to try to ignore most of you as much as possiable. If you don't like it, TOOOOOOOOO
FUCKING BAD!!!!
I need to go take a shower. I smell like corn. *gags* Then I'm going to the movies with my GIRL FRIENDS! b/c there isn't a guy in the entire world I would want to be around right now, and not want to kill you!
Just a tad bit of advice to any of you guys with girlfriends, if she's being bitchy. It's not because she hates you, but because it happens. So don't ag her on and try to figure out what's wrong, just leave her the hell alone and you'd be much more safe.
*screams* grrr you make me sooo angry sometimes.
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2004 23 July :: 8.24pm
I'm so fucking stupid! I wish I would have put more sun screen on. I'm so damn burnt. And it kills soooooo bad! Espically my neck, I can't even turn my head b/c it hurts so bad. *cries* I hate being a red head, hate it, hate it, hate it.
I get my paycheck tomorrow! woo it makes the job all worth it.
I hate this right now.
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2004 23 July :: 6.25am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Tim McGraw-Live like you were dying
I'm so fucking sun burnt I couldn't even sleep last night. My shoulders kill. URGH. Now I need to go take a shower and get ready for work, but the shower's going to fucking hurt.
Somebody shoot me, take me outof my misery.
I tell you I'm ok, and I really just want to get away from everyone, and just be alone..cry, scream, let it all out. I just don't have time to do that.
Bah
I hate this stupid shit.
Off to work I go.
Jess
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2004 22 July :: 10.34pm
I went and got my Grandpa ice cream. It's the first time since he's been around that he's actually acted like himself. My Aunt Jackie and Unlce Jim are staying over. I just hate pretending like ..I don't know. I just hate this period. It's not fair, to him or to anyone. kdjfalkfjlakjfd *sigh*
I just need to hold it together. For everyone's sake, including my own.
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2004 22 July :: 5.03pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Switchfoot-On Fire
Work actually was really fun this morning. I got to sit up on top and tell people when they missed tassels lol it was sooo nice! I can't wait to be a crew leader next year! :) woo fun stuff, I won't have to do anything. but sit back, get a tan, and boss ppl around :)
So yeah then we went to lunch, and then after lunch it got really hot and I'm scorched. I look like a friecken lobster. So yeah, it was really hot, and we were sweaty, and it just wans't fun then. But yeah. Oh well.
I'm going to take a long nap. I'm tiered.
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2004 22 July :: 6.24am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Switchfoot-On fire
*sigh* I hate getting up for work. I hate it. I literally have to get up an hour before I'm supose to get up just to make sure I actually *do* get up, and have time to take a shower and get ready. Sad, huh? Ughh I don't want to go to work today, it's going to be a long day, and it's supose to hit 90.*cries* I'm already sun burnt from yesterday. Grr Oh well, my job just fucking sucks and I better get use to it already.
I'm getting really tiered of this. I try so hard, and not because I'm obligated too, b/c that's what we do, we listen to eachother. You know, what we've always done. So it really irrates me , and I just want to grab you and shake you when you start talking crazy and acting like it'll be bad if I hear what you have to say. I get upset more than being more happy. You vent to me when you need to, well how about the next time you call and need me or the next time we want to do something, i just don't answer, and my reasoning is because I think it'll just make you in a worse mood? Well then I think you'd understand how I feel. What makes me NOT happy, is that. I need to vent to you. I mean come on, what's up in that little head of yours lately?
You need to stop worrying so much. You're way too negative about everything.
Ugh yeah so fuck me, today's going to be miserable. The field we are working on, like half the field is like corn way down low to the ground so we have to sit in our baskets and it's so fucking hard to get the tassels! Damnit I just want to fucking scream when we do that section. I hope we don't have to do that field today *prays* please please please!
Emily has tennis camp, so we coudln't work things out. I'm still going to see her though. I'm leaving August 16 to the 21st, then I come back and work the rest of the week up at Hiltop. Fun stuff.
I need to go jump in the shower now or do somethin with my hair. Looks like a rat crawled up in there and died. lol *shakes head* I hate getting up this earlie, I'm so fucking cranky.
Leave me something nice that will make me smile
Jess
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2004 21 July :: 9.45pm
Me and Devon talked for a really long time tonight. I can't even begin to describe how nice it was. I've missed those conversations *so* increadiably much, I even almost started crying talking to her. She is going to a different school next year, where she stays in a dorm. I'm actually considering..checking the place out. Like completely serious. To get away, and be on my own, and meet new people, learn more about God, I think I'd really like it. You get to come home for one week a month. Then Friday's and Sat's are free, and you can go home. I'd be able to have friends visit me whenever I want. So I'm going to talk more to Devon about it, and I already mentioned it to my mom , and she said it might be good for me if that's what I want. It all depends though on certain things.
I love Devon, and it's nice to have things back to normal.
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2004 21 July :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Our Lady Peace-Somwhere
when is enough actually enough?
Ugh I just cannot stand being at home anymore. Nothing's the same. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. !!!! I'm sad when I have to see you like that, I'm angry that it happened now, that now everyone's being effected. I know, there's nothing anyone can do about timing. "Things happen for a reason" and I do believe that, for the most part. BUT just ughh! It's everywhere I go, and it's always there, no matter when I'm not home, I still have to think about it, and I'm just thinking this has only been a few days how am I going to be able to handle however long we have? *sigh* I don't want these next few weeks, months to be last impressions and memory's that I keep forever. Which is EXACTLLY why I hate being home. No one understands that. *sigh*
I don't know how to help you. All I can tell you is you mean so much to me right now where I'm at. You hold me up high, and I love you.
Does anyone else agree there's a big, very LARGE difference between loving someone, and being IN love with someone? That makes sense right? Thought so.
My dad found a really cheap, good sunfire :) yay. But um yeah, forget that. Because I won't even be done with Driver's training when I turn 16 so why even think about it when it doesn't matter?who cares right
If I don't get out soon, besides work..I'm going to just go crazy. ughh akjdfkaj
I ran outside like 15 minutes ago in the pouring rain and just spun around like a dumb little 6 year old. It was nice. You should all try spinning in the rain, it relives stress. Sure does.
I'm going to go watch Will and Grace that will cheer me up.
Jess
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2004 21 July :: 12.33pm
I have corn rash. Bah it iches like crazy *itches arm* gross huh?
Work was a lot better than I thought it'd be.
Now I'm just ticked, you jerk. I'm not letting myself care for your game again. I'm done.
DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!! GOT It? IM DONE!
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2004 21 July :: 7.03am
:: Mood: bitchy
i HaTe My FlIpPiN jOb!!
Stupid me, stupid me, stupid me.*smacks head* I wake up this morning and I think I'm running late, I need to be gone by 7:40 and it's like 7:50 and I'm like I need to leave, then my mom informs me that I'm an hour ahead of myself and it's only 6:50. So instead of sleeping I get up earlie. I'm exhausted. Last night Dan called when I was sleeping and my mom woke me up so I could talk to him, why I don't know, I told her to not wake up me but she likes Dan. I talked to him for like two hours. I'm so dumb, I knew I would be tiered in the morning if I did which means today I'm going to be bitchy. I don't want to go to work *sigh* I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I would rather walk dogs and pick up their shit, or lift things all day, or sweep and clean bathrooms , I would rather do almost ANYTHING else than work on the farm. *screams "JESS BETTER START SOON"* *sigh*
You will not bring me down. You are the furthest thing from that. You're the only thing that guarentee's me happiness. All the time. You're the only person who knows me well enough to give me advice, you know everything about me, and every memory you remember becuase you were there. You mean so much more than you know, and you should always know you can turn to me. You do know that. You don't have to worry about complaining to me, because I do the exact same thing.We listen to everything the other one has to say. I love you to death, and will always be here, you know that. I'd do anything for you if I knew it'd make you happy, because I know you'd do the same. Exactlly why I love you, because you're the only person who knows me inside and out, and loves me for who I am.You've always been there. Espically when I couldn't be there for myself. You're my best friend, and without you I could never possiably be who I am. Ever.
She's moving. Going to a boarding school. *sigh* Why in the world would she WANT to do that. It was her choice. Is Cedar really that bad? We discussed this months ago and you said you could never do that to your friends. You'd miss them way too much. What happened to that? Yeah, maybe I SHOULD be happy for you if this is what you really want, what you really think will make you happy, but to be perfectly honest...I'm not. It makes me angry and sad, and aggravated all at the same time. And what, just leave without saying goodbye to people. Not say anything at all to certain people? People who love and care about you no matter what the situation is. How rude! Like honestly...how can you not even tell me? Maybe you were going to that one time, but you should have because you clearly didn't. Finding out from him was so much worse. I just cannot believe that you're going to move, switch schools, both maybe and you can't tell me, I mean what is that?!? ughh!!! I swear I think that I have things figured out, starting back to be normal, and then something stupid like this comes a long and I just get so mad. It's YOUR choice and you're choicing to leave. WHY?? You have so many people who love and care about you, why leave? where you might not even like it. Then to think if you don't maybe you'll come back and things will be the same...because they won't. I just don't understand. I'm like typing a million words a minute because I just don't know what the hell to say. Like jjdfkladjfkajsdfkajdfl;kjdslkfjalkdf I cannot believe this.
Grandparents are officially moving in. *sigh* I do not want to remember my Grandpa that way. I just don't. It kills me.
I think today I'm going to fucking throw myself in front of the tractor just so I don't have to work the rest of the week. Here Jeff run me over, c'mon I know you want to, you fuckface.
I need to go to work now. *cries* I miss you Erika!
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2004 20 July :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: SUN BURNT
:: Music: Kenny Chesney-She thinks my tractor's sexy
My Grandpa was officialy diagnosed with cancer yesterday. He got his tests back, and it's in both of his lungs, and spreading. He starts kemo in a week or two. My dad's crushed and most likely either my grandparents are moving in with us (these are the ones that live next door...the one's I lived with while building our house, the one's who have been there my whole life) or my dad is going to stay with them, come home every now and then. I just ..ah..am somehwere else lately.
I woke up this morning to get up for work and did not want to get out of bed. I have never been so tiered in my life. So I got up and took a shower and left for work. Today was soooo long. And we only worked till noon, which kinda pisses me off cos I want more moeny and I was told we'd be working till 3 the past two days and we haven't. Then tomorrow we aren't either. oh well.
Yeah it was really hot, and lol me and Adrianan omg, lol I love her! She's so funny. We had fun. And I'm like deadly afraid of snakes and one crossed my row and I was like omg I'm and like went so fast to finish my row.
There's so much drama at the farm though. Like everyone was bitching at Annie and Katie today. They were mad b/c no was digging out the roags, just chopping them. People were bitching about how hot it was, and how this job sucks so much, we should just get on the bus and not work, this isn't fair, it's so wet. Honeslty...what the hell do you expect working on a farm lol? Rainbow's and sunshines sitting under an umbrealla? yeah, that's not how it works and theres nothing more irratating than working w/ ppl who bitch all day. Good thing I bring head phones.
There's this one kid, Blake..grr I cannot stand him. He bitches about the dumbest stuff, every other word is fuck this, and fuck that, and he hates linds which I really don't know how he even knows her, but that realy ticks me off, bc linds is my friend, and he says all this crap. Yeah, he bugs me.
I can't wait for my pappy to work w/ me :)
The highlight of work today was spraying Adie with water when she got off the bus and on the bus. lol she knew it was coming.
So yeah I went tanning and saw Jenna :) I love you !! I tryed chasing you down, but mom was in the car..so I couldn't really...catch up to you.
Then I got home and babysat for two hours, and now I'm going to jump in the shower and hopefully go see I robot. :) yay go me.
I miss you Erika and Becky! I hope you're having fun *muah*
Jess
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2004 19 July :: 12.13am
:: Mood: happy
I am so happy. Tonight was so good. Dan called me and I was so happy to talk to him. Then me and Andy talked and I miss him so much. Like tonight when we talked, and with Jess too, he actually seemed like my old best friend again. Not someone who bugged me. It's funny how a conversation here and there makes me realize how much I miss and love the kid.
Tomorrow will be hot, and not fun at work. :(
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2004 18 July :: 4.52pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Big and Rich-Save a horse, Ride a Cowboy
I've been so exhausted and drained lately. I really hate my job. Like it couldn't be any more boring.
I got hired at the farm. My crew is me, Danielle, Denee, Tim, Amy, Lisa, Stacey, Dustin, and some strange girl I don't know. It's fun with the Millering's and Tim's singing, but I miss my pappy, and erika, and Adriain. I'll get to work with her next week whent he Millering's are gone. Still...I miss Jess. It's just not the same, we can't whip each other w/ tassels. lol
OH OH, I CANT believe he works there. Oh my gosh. My heart sank when I saw him. I just don't want to feel bad around you. Aww...that's sad. Eh..we'll find the words. I'm not worried.
So yeah, I have to work 7 hours a day in the sun, and I hate how you get soaked in the morning. I hate that. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I got to go home earlie Sat. I was so pissed b/c I get payed a dollar extra. 8.50 and we only worked till noon. Grr..*shakes fist in air at Ellen* oh-well I got to go home.
I got my perfume. *yummy* smells good.
Me and my mom went to Sarah's wedding shower today. Lol it was so much fun. Lol good times. Fun games, and funny presents.
Then me and Sarah looked through all these pictures with Katti, Nick, Ashley, and Eric when we were little and our parents at Long Lake, and camping. It was so cute. (the pictures) I miss the Crandles. :( Her wedding's next week, and I have a pretty dress to wear. woot woot.
Shannon, I do love you. I miss you too!
I bought a tanning package. *smiles* I need to be tan. I hate this "you have read hair so god is deciding to make you have to be as pale as a ghost" bah. No fair. Thank God for tanning booths.
I'm going to go take a nap then we're going to the movies.
Jess
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2004 17 July :: 12.47am
ughh are you serious, you're asking this??
well..I don't know what to say..
I love you means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else.It means that I dont expect perfection from you, just as you dont expect it from me.It means that I will love you & stand by you even thru the worst times it means loving you when your in a bad mood or to tired to do the things I want to do.It means loving you when your down,not just when your fun to be with. 'I love you' means that I know your deepest secrets & dont judge you. It means I care enough to fight for what we have!
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2004 17 July :: 12.41am
:: Mood: bitchy
Grr don't do this to me.
Ok, first of all don't tell me we are going to hang out and I'll call you tomorrow when you do not do that. I hate waiting for you because I think I'm going to get to spend time with you, and then plans don't work out at least call me. Then I wait up late late late just to fucking talk to you b/c that's when we get to talk...and then you don't. Now I'm going to be fucking exhausted at work tomorrow, and I already know tomorrow's going to suck ass. I mean it's supose to fucking rain, rainy days suck, and I won't be working with Jess, Erika, Danielle, Denee, I'm hoping that Adrie is working tomorrow otherwise I'm going to be bitchy. I know I'm going to be bitchy, and yet I'm still awake and I have to get up at 6:30. Ugh I'm so so STUPID sometimes. I couldn't possiably think of something as stupid as staying up late right before my first day of work there tomorrow. *smacks self* grrr kjfajdf
Ok, enough. I'm going to bed.
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2004 16 July :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Maroon 5-She will be loved
who got hired, me baby!
JESS CALL ME AS SOON AS YOU READ THIS!
Today Kate came over. I really haven't seen her in a long time.
Ellen called today and I have a new job. woo! go me. I have to work tomorrow from 8-3. It's going to be a long day, espically if I don't get to work with Jess. :( And I know I won't get to be working with Erika because she'll be gone. :( I miss you!
Tomorrow I think after work my mom and I are going to see the notebook and get this perfume from American Eagle I want. Shannom might come with us, hopefully if we go. So that'll be fun.
Hmm...what is that all about? I really think people who call other people out for no good reason. You made her feel like shit for no reason, because you were upset. I hope you know you were out of line, I love you..but you really couldn't have said anything worse.
I should get to bed, I have to get up earlie.Good night all.
Jess
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2004 16 July :: 1.39pm
:: Music: Maroon 5-She will be loved
~*~week~*~
This week has been so much fun. I haven't even been home longer than 30 minutes without leaving again.
Monday me and Jess drove to the movies, baked cookies at 3 in the morning, stayed up till 5. lol. Tuesday night we lol went crazy and had so much fun, lol I haven't had that much fun with her in a long time, like two weeks or so lol.
Wensday me , Brianna, and a guy I perfer to keep remained nameless for now came over and then we went to the mall. It was fun. I bought this adoreable winter coat b/c it was so cheap. Ah...it's so cute. I can't wait for it to be cold to wear it lol. Then I bought this really cute brown, not to mention HUGE purse, oh my gosh, I love it. It's huge. lol. Bigger than any of my other purses. Linds would be proud. THen I bought another green purse, it's cute. I can finally fit the world in my purse. :) yay. Just the way I like it. I bought a meatching wallet, and I found the best perfume that Jess loves. ;) right pappy?
Then we saw Anchorman. Wasn't that good. It was actually really stupid. There were some funny parts, but it wasn't that funny.
So were on our way to Dan's and "this guy" were with gets cut off by some moron, this huge nasty lady and her husband/ boyfriend whatever. Then they tap their breaks just to be assholes. So our driver who remains annonymous passes on the left side then cuts them off. Other cars are honking and we were getting the finger. Our drivers honking and giving the finger back and I'm lik just oh my gosh, I'm shaking and pissed and really scared. So we finally turn on a different road and it's a hilly road and there's no passing, "legally". So this car also happen to be turning on the same road going the same direction. So our driver slows down just to piss them off, going like 15 in like a 55 and they still won't pass us. So he slows down to like 5 and then just stops, then pulls over to let them pass. Instead they pull along side of our car, and get out, probably to beat the crap out of us. So he throws it in reverse and then they get back in their car and we start going. We're behind them, and their going pretty fast. I'm thinking the whole "thing" is over and we're good. Then all of a sudden they slam on their breaks and we smashed right into the back of their car. They both get out slam the doors and start walking towards us, me and Briann are scared out of our minds. Our "driver" is like yelling, swearing, then he puts it in reverse and fly's past their car, almost hitting them and they start chasing us for at least 10 minutes, and we were turning down every road just to lose them. Then we fianlly did, and he pulls to the side of the road to look at how messed up his hood is, gets in the car, and has the balls to say "That was hilarous!" ARE YOU KIDDING ME? You are an idiot, I cannot believe you'd be that stupid. Then say that after you almost get us fucking killed. Yeah, I will never ride with you, or speak to you again. You stupid stupid STUPID moron. grr I hate dumb drivers. I HATE them.
So he dropped us off at Dan's and all our friends from Sparta were there and a few friends from Cedar, and some people I din't know lol. And it was so much fun! I love Sarah. She has got to be honestly the sweetest person I have *ever* met. She's so sweet. I love her. So we just had a lot of fun. I saw some people I haven't in a while. Then Ryan took us to get Tyler and Megan then we went back to Dan's for a while. Then Chad, me, Brianna, Tyler, and Megan all hung out at Brianna's with Mrs. Longsteet, I love that lady! lol she's the funnest lady. lol good times.
Then me, Megan and Brianna were up like forever and we lay down and are tlaking on the floor and it's like 3:30 and we're like we want cheese cake. Lol So we get up and are looking for chance cos we spent all of out moeny at the mall and we decided we'd take all their parents beer bottels and return them and use that moeny. So we fill my purse with beer bottles and I drove us to Great Day, yes GREAT DAY, not family fare. Grr. anyway lol we look like raging alcholics. My purse if filled w/ bottles that were falling out. Their in our hoodie pckets, and to top it off we're carrying bottles in our hands into the stare. Being the smart girls we are lol. So we end up being like 50 cents short, lol and all we wanted was cheese cake, but this nice old man gave us moeny. He was so nice. I love nice people like that. Then I drove back, and we ate cheesecake, and it was totally worth all that work lol.
Yeah we finally fell asleep around 6. I had so much fun! It was great.
Then I get home and what do I know, he's gay. Yup, the most beautiful guy I have ever seen, is gay. Why is it all guys are assholes who are rude, or .nm just not nice, and the ones that aren't..are gay. :(
Yeah, you are a complete moron. You're going to pay for that. Stupid ass.
I get home and I call Jess, and her mom says she's missing :( I was worried about my pappy. I was afraid that the guy hiding in the woods got you, or you were in a car accident so I got off the phone with Dan just to hear from you, and I didn't. Till today, but you're okay :) heh I love you Jess.
Me and Dan are going to a whitecaps game tonight. I really am going to be so mad if it rains. Like furious.
I need to go shower and get ready. <3 Jess
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