Megan's Journal

:: 2004 7 December :: 6.33am

Welcome to your cstv morning announcements for december 7th, 2004.

*licks lips*

:: 2004 6 December :: 7.05pm
:: Music: The Postal Service - Such Great Heights

I will be moving soon. Maybe sooner than I think. I hope the house is around here.

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:: 2004 6 December :: 5.54pm

So Today is December 6th of 2004, wow, where did this year go, that is crazy, anyways I think i wanna do a party for New Years, either that or someone invite me to there's would be better i wouldnt have the sisters to watch, In others *hints to STACY* we should hang out lol, anyways So yeah i made a poem it kinda sucks but whatever here it is,
Many are Lost Many are found
What if i tripped and fell on the ground
Someone help me please
I feel as if i have become deceased
Where have they all gone
Shall we ever get along?
My life is goin down this hill
I feel my body, it shivers with a chill
Someone take my hand
I'm exploring this new wonderland
I need to be hugged
Someone please i need to be loved
So many of you dont know me anymore
you all walk past me Im totally ignored
Just accept me
This is how i want to be
And this is how I WILL be
Face it your all just Jealous of me

haha yeah you know your jealous of me cmon just fess up!! lol jk anywhore yeah i'm done.

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:: 2004 5 December :: 8.58pm

So i sit here and talk randomly about my nothings. Anywho so yeah i look at my xanga yesterday and see a comment from Autumn silvers who thinks Im *So stuck up* I'm thinkin, Ok and how is this? Umm OK whatever she can think what she wants but I dont think i'm stuck up lol i'm just tryin to be myself SORRY! but yeah anyways so this weekend was totally awesome, I had Katie over saturday and we had an awesome time we talked a lot about everything from my mom to boys and friends so yeah it was kool but thats all i have for now and OH did anyone notice the change of woohu? wow. that is crazy idk if i like it but ill get used to it haha byes

:: 2004 5 December :: 6.48pm

You folks better be ready for the show of a life time. Me, Stacy and Jordan (the re)Porter are going to blow your minds.

Watch out.

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:: 2004 4 December :: 11.11pm

One hour nine minutes.

fourty-seven point seven miles.

i don't know. it doesn't look good.

From Kalamazoo: one hour and nine minutes.

Still doesn't look good.

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:: 2004 2 December :: 10.49pm
:: Music: death cab for cutie.

So no pelvis? I'm kind of pissed in a relieved way. whatever.

dandruff not going away. mom not buying me dandruff shampoos.

tomorrow=darkroom fun time and less school.

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:: 2004 2 December :: 3.30pm

I don't think I want to be the on air talent anymore. Everyone bitches too much.

How am I expected to memorize a whole page of things in 5 minutes?? I watched the announcements today, and the girl did the same thing I did. Looked up a few times during it, and looked down for the rest.

Our class is just a bunch of bitches...

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:: 2004 30 November :: 3.00pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle - Imagine

Hello, I'm Ron Wheaton?
Stacy and I are the on air talent starting monday. Don't miss the announcements, bitches. We are going to rock out.

Too bad that 'Spamantha' is the director.
She wants us to sit in bean bags, how fucking gay is that? She's already trying to control everything, and we haven't done shit yet. She should just sit on her ass and let us do it the way we want.

Read more..

Yeah, what the fuck is that shit about? Ron Weasley...what a gay ass name.

:: 2004 29 November :: 7.19pm
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie

I like this new layout

I feel good. Really good. Like I could catch fire and I wouldn't burn.

Maybe I should test that out...

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:: 2004 25 November :: 10.48am

Cell phone found. Still works

I hate Thanksgiving. . .and all holidays in fact.

I'm thankful for the people who put up with me.

:: 2004 25 November :: 3.06am

Okay. So maybe I might have run over my cell phone. It's okay. And I had to work tonight and it sucks outside. Or blows. . .whatever. Maybe I almost hit a tree. Whatever.

I didn't get to see Jake, but that's not because he's a jerk. It's because I had to work. See?

It's taken me twelve hours to feel better, but I've done it. I should call someone and tell them.

I stomped around and got yelled at. I tried to sleep several times. I watched the Sunday Night Sex Show and Drawn Together. I watched Romie and Michelle's freaking High School Reunion. Eh. . .sort of. I tried reading and music and orangers. But what finally work was me taking pictures of myself naked. Well they're only head shots, but still.

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:: 2004 24 November :: 10.41pm
:: Music: death cab for cutie-expo 86

oh no. i'm so stupid and sorry and mean and should be locked up.
desperate and nervous and i'm going to be abandoned. i'm pretty sure about that.

i can't believe myself.

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:: 2004 24 November :: 6.16pm

You Are the Individualist

4

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

:: 2004 24 November :: 4.03pm

You spend all day sleeping and waiting only to be fucked over by the weather and work.

It's not fair that I cry easily now. And I can fucking whine if I whine. My dad gets to drive to detroit. I get to make pizzas.

I hate being empathetic.

:: 2004 24 November :: 2.52pm

I hate snow.

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:: 2004 22 November :: 7.47pm

You Are a Liberal for Life

You've got a bleeding heart - and you're proud of it.

For you, liberal means being compassionate, pro-government, and anti-business.

You believe in equality for every person, and you consider yourself universally empathetic.

Helping others is not just political for you ... it's very personal too.

What political persuasion are you?

:: 2004 22 November :: 7.35pm

grcc=downgrade

jess=okay

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:: 2004 21 November :: 1.54pm

So this weekend was realllly Shitty, Friday felt like it went on forever, went to school, then got home my dads gf was there which was kool, but we went to my grandmas and it was a really sad day, Lady, my grandmas boxer, had to be put to sleep. She had cancer really bad throughout her throat and was having a really hard time breathing, so my grandma decided what was best to put her outta her misery, my dad and i and my sister took her up to the vets office, and we said our last good byes :'( and they put the needle in her, i couldnt stand there and watch them do that to her, but after it was done i went in and cried to myself, and thought of all the good times i had with herm, my dad used to act like he was attackin me and she would go and run after my dad and start biting his hand, not hard but hard enough to make him stop, she was such an awesome dog, so we got her buried and are gonna make a cross for her, but then later that night autumn and amanda came over and got me and i thought they were stayin the night at my house and they were like no, and i was like oh i'm goin to your house?? there like no your stayin at your house, and i was like ok that was pointless i could be helpin my grandma with her grief right now and you all come and take me home for no good fuckin reason? that is great, really it is. So yeah i was home alone all night friday night cuz my friends are...Grr yeah anyways, so my dad felt really bad leavin me at my house alone when he was at his gfs...so saturday he took me to the resturaunt Kelly's and said he was really sorry, which in any case it wasnt his fault...so then sat night i was gonna have autum over and her mom and dad said no, so i was stuck home AGAIN doin nothin only this time i had my sister rach, and now i'm sittin here on this sunday afternoon typin this long ass boring entry that no one is gonna comment or even read...so i will talk to you laters...

:: 2004 21 November :: 1.14pm

A Perfect Circle - eMOTIVe
Showered, clean.
Unfed, hungry.
Working, dishes.
Listening, music.

Good day, last night was.

:: 2004 21 November :: 1.58am
:: Mood: jubilant
:: Music: death cab for cutie-passenger seat.

It's really the best feeling I've ever ever ever ever ever had. Probably. At least in the top seven.

Everything I want. But for real.

I want to turn on all the lights and yell and dance.

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:: 2004 19 November :: 11.26pm
:: Music: death cab for cutie-the sound of settling

Let's focus here:

Things are good.

I've decided that satisfied is not a place you want to be. It's only a thing to be constantly striving for. If you get there wouldn't you be bored? Without the indecision and the heartbreak and and and the uncertainty and the changes and the simple things and the tragic. . .and everything you love and hate you'd just be stuck.

:: 2004 19 November :: 11.16pm

I need a life, a real one, somebody give it to me, plz

:: 2004 19 November :: 5.43pm

Well hello. How is everyone doin?
I hate this weather. I don't like rainy days.
I wasted a car today, while an old man was inside it. It was pretty funny...you should have been there.

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