Megan's Journal

:: 2004 12 May :: 10.12pm
:: Music: shaggy-it wasn't me

the opposite of mustard is....ketchup?

i'm not sure, but i do know that they both inhabit the world of gross.

and it's very sad that i'm not more popular with all my wit and such. i guess i'm just a hidden treasure.

and i'm too small to give blood my mom says. whatever. i show her freaking little. i'm almost 5'3".

and i've been reading some of my journal from this year and i guess we've been on the verge of break up all year. so i guess i shouldn't anymore worry because it's obviously me just being nerotic.

:: 2004 12 May :: 9.49pm

It's funny.

The hypothetical thing that I brought up and made you angry is happening and I didn't even actually do anything.

Neat.

:: 2004 11 May :: 9.46pm

Stupid momsy. You play the guilt card well.

:: 2004 10 May :: 8.57pm

Furthermore, my mom is so digusted with my decision to spare my feelings that she couldn't bear to look at my cowardly face anymore.

and i don't want to take a shower. it seems like it's too much effort right now as i'm so distressed with my exploits in the world of idiots.

i'm so much better than this.

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:: 2004 10 May :: 8.52pm

this is an ambiguous journal entry.

:: 2004 9 May :: 10.31pm

i really messed up.

stupid.

i need my jab and her lbj.

:: 2004 8 May :: 11.24pm

Act your age: to be or not to be...17
Born on what day of the week: monday 12:22
Chore you hate: mopping
Dad's name: bruce
Essentail make-up item: mascara, as of last week.
Favorite actors/actresses: adam sandler, jack black, ewan mcgregor
Gold or sliver: silver
Hometown: cedar springgggs
Instruments you play: clarinet and tuba
Job title: pizzaist
Kids: CHILDREN!
Living arrangements: momma romma
Mom's name: suzie
Number of socks you own: 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
Overnight hospital stays: the days after my joyus birth probably, while the citizens were our proclaiming the event
Phobia: naked people or public speaking
Quote you like: "Having kids made me wish I had stayed a virgin" Actually, it's the only funny one I can think of right now
Religious affiliation: trying to talk myself out of it daily
Siblings: a-ron d is the only one for me
Time you woke up today: 10 ish and then i saw the lovely face of jab. but then i smelled her and...it was rank
Unusual habits: i like to read magazines starting from the last page and then getting to the begining
Vicious thing you've done: i broke one of my toys because my mom wouldn't let me spend the night at amy's
Worst habit: sulking and being a brat and telling the same story over and over and probably spending too much money
X-rays you've had: they didn't want to take one cause i was having my period
Your favorite season: summer
Zodiac sign: a to the q to the u to the a to the r to the i to the a to the n

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:: 2004 8 May :: 10.42pm
:: Music: joss stone-dirty man

that's it. i really have to not do that thing.

:: 2004 7 May :: 9.29pm

Masturbation is like a gateway drug for sex. You do it at first and everything's great, thats all you need, once or twice a week. Then it gets more. And more. Then its two times a day! Whoo. Then you're tired, and its not even enough, so you start having dirty thoughts. And then its on to blowjobs, and thats good for awhile. But eventually...you need the sex. The full out, wild party night humping till mornin sex.

its a fuckin gateway drug...

:: 2004 5 May :: 9.30pm

It's just a complicated emotion. Being lonely and tired at the same time.

mon dieu.

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wildthing

:: 2004 5 May :: 5.37pm

damn its been a reallllllllllly long time since i have updated well alot has happened but i dont feel like typin to you guys so i hope you have had a good life so far....byes

:: 2004 5 May :: 4.27pm

IT'S ONLY A RASH DON'T BE ALARMED

I am feeling useless and also I would like to wear a bag over my face.

Le'ts focus though
-MEAP was not bad, also I got to miss band.
Today I was a good writer.

-And English didn't suck compared to it's usual degree of crap

-Okay, and when you expect Spanish to be dumb because you know it's cinco de mayo and you know you're making posters...but instead someone brings in a lot of candy and you sit there making fun of the french and also completing the most informing cinco de mayo poster EVER, you feel better about your eyebrows for a few seconds.

-And when you've had a good time in espanol and it's bosco stick wednesday you can count on a good time at lunch, which incidently was pleasing to me.

-Entonces, Mr. Gallery was not cool today. In reality he is not cool at all. He's just sarcastic with the odd funny thing here and there, and is NOT Mr. Norkus. But somehow through our misery we found a way to muddle through and make disgusting jokes and make irrelevent comments and meaningless noises and pretend to be cool. It was hard, but we overcame adversity, AND we didn't have to watch that movie...euhg.

-subs in sixth hour are cool because then I don't have to stay in my seat and I learned how to do all of my algebra. Almost. And Miranda and Jon and Devon are way cute.

And after school I spent a few melencholy hours, but now after talking on the phone a little bit and learning that i'm going to see my favorite cousins tomorrow i feel much much better.

Coming soon to a Sarar near you!:

Dual enrollment
cookies of the peanut butter variety
finishing my history assignment
a shower
prom photos
a new cd
popey's chicken! it's the shiznit!

hurray for me.

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:: 2004 4 May :: 3.40pm

Dear past, present and wannabe,
I don't want any of you at this moment.

Being alone would be nice.

:: 2004 4 May :: 1.29pm

Yup, i'm in school, in the computer lab. in the library. supposed to be doing my english essay, but....i'll save that for later.

bye bye kiddies. (teacher just walked in)

:: 2004 2 May :: 5.03pm
:: Music: snow patrol - spitting games

Sex can wait so masturbate. Or have oral sex with someone. Just as long as there is no penis to vagina penetration.

:: 2004 1 May :: 4.44pm

Damn this is a shitty day...
its rainy and sort of humidy out. i hate that weather so much. i can't stand the way jeans feel then they are almost sticking to your leg with partial sweat and little tiny drops of rain. sucks ass.

:: 2004 1 May :: 1.33am
:: Mood: tired

i could do it for you, but i couldn't bring myself to do it to you.

and that means something.

Janice_2001

:: 2004 30 April :: 4.48pm

Starting next week is solo try outs in Choir and I plan to try out for all of them. I love singing. Anyway, Chris and I arent' together aint' that nothing new. I am FINALLY with someone new and I think I love him, wow. His name is Manny and he lives by my friend Jenny and I don't know what I would do without him. He is my world and he makes me feel really good. All I know, if he goes away I won't be able to see him for 3 to 6 months and that would suck. Well, someone comment me. I am gonna have a bon fire soon. Well, if someone cares comment.

Janice

:: 2004 30 April :: 3.39pm

me=hot

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:: 2004 30 April :: 2.14pm
:: Music: breaking benjamin

Pain/hurt/ouch
Alright. I was hungry, about 10 minutes, ago, and decided to make a frozen pretzel, because they're good. so, you have to get them wet first right, so the salt will stick to them, you know that. anyway, i noticed the sink was like, half-way full of mucky water, so i reach my hand in so i can drain it, and its really hot water and it burnt my hand! now its all red, really red, and sort of tingly. anyway, i reach for the plug, and a knife STABS into my hand, and i go to pull away and it cuts me, not a bad cut, but a cut, and the water burns the cut. pain. then i get the thing unplugged and water my pretzel, then salt it, and stick it in the micro-wave. well, someone already had two minutes preset into the microwave, and i pressed the one minute button, so it went for three minutes. and its only supposed to be in there for one. so i take it out and its really hot and it burns my hand, and i drop it. well, the trash can is right under the microwave, and it falls right into it. so, there goes my pretzel.

my cat just had a kitten. one kitten. and its under my mothers bed, and we have to check on it periodically to see if its alright, cuz its so small. and right after i get done with the pretzel falling in the trash, i hear it meowing like crazy, so i run into my moms bedroom and accidentily stub my pinky toe on the way. now, the cat is between the wall, and my moms bed, just about 3 inches of space, so i reach my hand down to grab it, not seeing the broken power outlet, and my arm must have grazed it because it sent a shock through my whole body, and i twisted my back and it hurts really bad while trying to pull away from the broken outlet and jump off the bed, and when i did, i ran into the wall, and bounced back on the bed, and then a spring popped through the mattress, and jabbed me in the back! which hurt like hell. so now, here i am, trying to stay away from pain, typing this.

gosh darn pretzel...

stupid ass cat...

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:: 2004 29 April :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: exciteddddddddd

I'm not sure how I feel about LBJ. I mean he's way crappy, but still, he's LBJ.

seriously....how can i possibly make up my mind about the man?

because his name was LBJ...

lotsablowjorbs....snickersnicker, or "getting the johnson treatment"

i guess he's just one big sex joke and that makes him loveable. or more loveable than something that isn't loveable. whatever.

lbj

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:: 2004 28 April :: 10.16pm

. . . and we sit and we marvel at the other. . . and i believe it's one of the nicest feelings I've ever had.

:: 2004 27 April :: 8.52pm

Just floating along a cloud of vauge niceness.

How am I even supposed to get through a day tomorrow when I'm so excited about other things?

but in other news....I finished the Great Gaysby. bllllecccchhhhhkkkk. Worst Book EVER. No emotion, no erotica, no happiness at all. Just a bunch of crazy characters that are supposed to represent the badness of consumer culture of the 1920's while F. Gay Fitzgerld was the same freaking way. What makes that a classic? It's supremly rotten. The only good part was where Gatsby and Daisy made out. But even that was below the good reading material line.

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:: 2004 24 April :: 11.27pm

+ LAST PERSON WHO...
`Slept in your bed: emily slept in my trundle and griffin is sleeping there right now
`Made you cry: caleb
`You shared a drink with: roman, kind of...sometimes i have sips of his pop at lunch....or wait maybe it was jab
`You went to the movies with: i can't recall
`You went to the mall with: renee? well i'm going with jab tomorrow
`Yelled at you: robuck, actually i'm not sure if he was yelling at me or not
`Sent you a comment on Xanga: what zee hell?
`Said they were going to kill you: probably jab or becca

+ HAVE YOU EVER
`Said "I love you" and meant it? i tell griffin everyday
`Gotten in a fight: yes
`Been to New York? yes, twice
`Been to Florida? Yes, three times
`Been to California? no
`Been to Hawaii? No, but my parents have
`Been to Mexico? no
`Been to China? No
`Been to Canada ? yes
`Danced naked? no
`Wish you were the opposite sex? sometimes when i'm mad at my sweater puppies or having my period
`Had an imaginary friend? yes, it was a green dog with glasses and there was sam who lived in a hole at hilltop
`Red or Blue? red
`Spring or Fall? Spring
`Santa or Rudolph? santa
`Math or English?eww
`What are you going to do after you finish this survey? wash my face
`What was the last food you ate? strawberries
`High school or college? i hate high school
`Are you bored?no
`How many buddies are on? 10
`Last movie you saw? kill bill two
`Last noise you heard? space heater
`Last time you went out of the state: two weeks ago
`Things you like in a guy: there are lots of things
`Do you have a crush on someone? yes
`Do they know? i tell them everyday
`What's his/her name? everyone
`What do you think of ouija boards? marie
`What book are you reading now? gap creek
`What's on your mouse pad? supreme gayness
`Favorite board game? 13 dead end drive
`Favorite magazine? maxim
`Worst feeling in the world? there are lots
`What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? this isn't working
`How many rings before you answer? at least two.
`Future daughter's name: Rebessicarly
`Future son's name? Lyndon B. Johnson
`Chocolate or vanilla? gay
`Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes, boom the frog
`If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? professional sit arounder that gets paid to do whatever she wants
`Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righto
`Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? Yes.
`What's under your bed? bed
`Favorite sport to watch? hockey
`Hair Color: aburn
`Eye Color: the same colar as a brownie
`Height Currently: 5�2 practically 5'3
`Glasses/contacts: contracts
`Current Age: 17
`Siblings: one brother
`Siblings age: 14
`Location: office
`Any Piercings: Yes
`Best Friends? oh lots and lots
`Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Boyfriend, girlfriends, fiances, wives
`Hobbies: oh yuck.
`Are You Timely Or Always Late: timely
`Do You Have A Job: Yes
`Do You Like Being Around People: sometiems

+ STUFF
`Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
`Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: der
`Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: crazy person?
`Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: no
`Are You Lonely Right Now: no
`Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: no, i'm afraid that i will and then not be esp. satisfied
`Do You Want To Get Married:yes
`Do You Want Kids: yes

+ FAVORITE
`Room In house: my room
`Type of music: umm....i'm into the grunge latin polka thing right now
`Song: no regrets by molly
`Memory: lots and lots...it probably has something to do with making out or laughing
`Day Of The Week: saturday
`Color: green
`Perfume Or Cologne: um, that sparkle gel musk that jarma gave me
`Flower: eh
`Month: June or July or August.
`Season: Summmmmmmmmmmmmmmer!
`Location for dates: i don't really go on dates

+IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU
`Cried: no
`Bought Something: food
`Gotten Sick: no
`Sang: yes
`Said I Love You: yes
`Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: yes
`Met Someone New: someone new checked me out and i met someone new
`Moved On: ...? didn't need to
`Talked To Someone: der
`Had A Serious Talk: that was more like four days ago
`Missed Someone: yes
`Hugged Someone: yes
`Kissed Someone: yes
`Fought With Your Parents: no
`Dreamed About Someone: yes
`Had a lot of sleep: not
`Wanted This Survey To Be Over: yes