:: 2004 24 June :: 12.55 am
:: Mood: complacent

i dont know if the mood word realy works....but it sounds smooth with a bump [the p] and ends with a snap...like my day!

neil was sweet

i wasnt feeling well...and he got me water and i told him not to kiss me so he didnt get sick and he didnt and then wehn i was leaving he told me to go to sleep early and not stay out til like midnight so you can get better...:)

aww...

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:: 2004 21 June :: 3.20 pm
:: Music: "Lightning Crashes"~Live

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:: 2004 21 June :: 2.40 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: "Take My Picture"~Filter

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:: 2004 19 June :: 9.43 pm
:: Mood: amused

another update:

Roseprincess1826: just so you know, im not trying to steal neil from you, believe me, i would never want to hurt you like that! its just, im going away for the whole summer, and when i get back, hes going to be going away, so i dont know if ill get to see him again so i wanted to spend time with him. in my jounal i wasnt trying to mock you, im sry if you got that impression... i felt really bad for you.... i mean, u hadnt seen him in a while.... i am going to try my hardest to not be as flirty with him, if thats what you want... i really dont want to go away with you so upset with me like this, cause im not sure if ill have the best time at camp or not knowing that when i come home, ill have someone pist at me.... so please, could we try to start things all over again, try to make it all better?

Auto response from battlestarre: C H I C K E N ! ! !

Roseprincess1826: i wouldnt even want to go out with neil, hes more of the best friend type for me.... a big brother, my cousin... whatever you want to think of it as... hes just a lot of fun to be around, i have a good time when he's around... i dont know... i just dont want you to think that my goal in life is to take him away from you

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:: 2004 19 June :: 1.23 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: velvet revolver

an update:

Currently Watching
Everybody Loves Raymond - The Complete First Season
By Ray Romano
see related

nothings wrong with my ear! thats always a good thing for me! Im so glad that im leaving now! get away from all the shiz that is going on here! there are just too many people that are either pist at me or pissing me off. blair- i know i cant run and hide forever, but the whole summer is a long time for people to calm down! woo hoo only 3 days left till i get to go to my most favoritest place in the world, OSRUI!!

yeah, so today i went to the movies to see the terminal. that was a good movie, it was just sooo long!!! but still good. afterwards i went over to blairs for a bit with her, jen, shroom, and campy. there we ate frosting... yummy and waved at cars passing by.... then we were going to go to neils house to hang out... cept i wasnt invited, and it wasnt neil who said no... it was jorie.... o well, she can calm the freak down while im at camp! get the hell over whatever her problem is with me!

o well, i really have to go and get packing!! happiness and kisses to all (or at least most people).

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alright you want to know the issue...

you see, i havent been around to notice...which is half the issue...but the other half is that you seem to be obsessed with neil

and i honestly dont hate you or dislike you or anything of the sort...in fact...i expected you to come over...it was jen who said dont.

now i dont really care if you like neil or all that...believe me ive had this issue before...but this time its not neil im worried about.

it's you.

yea...i dont sugar-coat things.

like i said i dont dislike you...but it seems like you are trying to steal neil from me.

whether you are or not...it seems like it...

and that bothers me.

especially with you spending more time with him than me...

and reading your journal...it sounds like youre mocking my being upset that night at the park

i dont know...thats what i feel...whether you accept it or not...

just keep in mind...ive been going out with him for a year...stacey wanted him...jackie wanted him...goli seemed a threat...as did melanie at one time...and you see, you are the fifth...and most likely not the last.

i pray of you...please do not overdo your closeness with him.

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:: 2004 18 June :: 12.41 pm

so ive been playing around with the html

look what ive learned

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:: 2004 17 June :: 2.09 pm
:: Mood: surprised
:: Music: michelle branch

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:: 2004 15 June :: 2.20 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: ::shrugs:: radio?

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:: 2004 12 June :: 12.01 am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: a perfect circle

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:: 2004 31 May :: 3.33 pm

A(n) ____ come(s) up to you, what you do is..
book:	read it
Snake:	pet it
Aunt:	do i like her?
4 year-old boy:	ask if he has a mummy
92 year-young man:	ask if he has a mummy
32 pigs:	run with the piggies
Bush:	a bush? or the president...one id run in and the other from
mate:	friend? say hello.
ex girl/boyfriend:	say hello.
friend you have a crush on:	turn red im sure
talking mongoose:	lol yay! id try to talk it too
inanimate object:	depends what it is...
random survey:	do the survey

What you do.. brought to you by BZOINK!

justin timberlake or orlando bloom?
justin timberlake or brad pitt?:	brad pitt
brad pitt or tom cruise?:	brad pitt
tom cruise or george clooney:	george clooney
orlando bloom or heath ledger?:	heath ledger
orlando bloom or viggo mortensen?:	viggo!
ejiah wood or jake glyenhall?:	i guess elijah...whos jake?
justin timberlake or colin farell?:	colin farell
paul walker or vin diesel?:	paul walker
paul walker or tyrese?:	paul walker

Him or Him? (grlsz only) brought to you by BZOINK!

What color do you think of when thinking of love?:	red or pink (p[ink is puppy love)
What color is your favorite?:	orange (sometiems green)
What color best discribes you?:	um...a quiz said gold...orange or green?
What color best discribes your best friend?:	a dark green
What color best discribes your life at the moment?:	brown, mucky like
What color best discribes your life in the past?:	orange or yellow or any bright colour
What color is your mood at the moment?:	grayish
What color ice-cream do you like?:	brown! chocolate
What hair color do you have?:	strawberry blonde (real though)
What hair color do you wish you had?:	i like my colour
What color eyes do you have?:	greenish brown
What color eyes do you wish you had?:	i like my eyes
What color dog(if any) do you have?:	had: many colours...gray and black and tan and white..like sydney was
What color cat(if any) do you have?:	allergic
What color is your bedroom?:	lol many colours...green, blue, tan, magenta, red, blue-gray,super colour wall...

colors brought to you by BZOINK!

martini?

:: 2004 31 May :: 3.26 pm

The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:	no
Do you party a lot? How often?:	eh...not much
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:	no
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:	erm...only exemplifying my odd things
Do you skip classes? How often?:	nope...well once...but it was gym...
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:	nope
Do you steal?:	no
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:	no
Do you drool over celebrities?:	only brandon...
Do you watch a lot of TV?:	no...only "what not to wear"
Do you ever watch the News?:	every so often
Do you even care about world issues?:	eh...somewhat
Do you read books often?:	yea...super much in the summer
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:	yes, actually...
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:	no...at home...
Do you smoke cigarettes?:	no...eww
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:	naw...boring
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:	nope
Do you cuss a lot?:	fair amounts
Are you desperate to fit in?:	not relally.
Are you intelligent?:	i like to think i have some intellegence
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:	no lipstick at all
Black eyeliner?:	no makeup!
Black eyeshadow?:	fuck you.
Black trenchcoat?:	thats Q
Black boots?:	ooh i want some...
Black fishnets?:	nah...elisa has some
Black nail polish?:	i have some...i chew it off tho...
Cigarettes?:	eww
Heavy metal music?:	i used to, not so much now
Marilyn Manson?:	sometimes
Kittie?:	at one time...
Cradle of Filth?:	not really
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:	lol the opposite
Do you like to be seen as:	i dont know...
Are you an intellectual?:	um.
An atheist?:	not sure
Horrible home life?:	of course...who doesnt?...oh! neil.
Hopelessly depressed?:	no
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:	no
Self-mutilation?:	no
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:	no
Big black boots?:	i told you i want some
Mohawk?:	no
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:	no
Loud, confident and opinionated?:	well yea...
Wild hair colors?:	no
NOFX?:	no
Rancid?:	horrible
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:	no
A:	Z
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:	ACT:23...otherwise, average
Do you watch a lot of sports?:	no
Play a lot of sports?:	no
Talk a lot about sports?:	no
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:	no
Are you arrogant?:	everyone is sometiems
Are you a male or female whore?:	no
Are you homophobic?:	no
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:	no
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:	i dont know...dont think so
Boobs = yes?:	i have some?
Parties = yes?:	not drinking ones...
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:	no
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:	less than most
Have you ever been on a diet?:	lol junk food diets...
How much did you lose?:	lol...somehow i lost ten pounds on pizza and cookies
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:	no
Make yourself throw up?:	no
Make-up?:	no (yay patrice)
Low-cut tops?:	no
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:	B-C
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:	no
Giggle a lot?:	yea
What's the deal with boys?:	they're cool to hang out with..but the world should be rid of them as an opposite sex
Thongs?:	no
Pretty bras?:	annoying as fuck...
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:	lol they're hilarious...
Who's the weaker sex?:	girls strength wise, but enduring pain is guys
Are you a feminist?:	not really
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:	no
How often do you shave your legs?:	wehn i feel like it or going out
How about your armpits?:	when it gets too long
Are you emotional?:	very
Especially when on your period?:	oh wow yea
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:	originality
Independence or Companionship?:	independence
Stability or Freedom?:	freedom
Personal or Interpersonal?:	personal
Introvert or Extrovert?:	extrovert
Popularity or Isolation?:	i dont know...depends
Unique or Loved?:	i think you can have both
Understood or Individual?:	individual
You or Them?:	you (me?) lol...i dont think i understand

How Stereotypical You Are... brought to you by BZOINK!

martini?

:: 2004 31 May :: 2.45 pm

awww

martini?

:: 2004 31 May :: 1.26 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: green day (radio)

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:: 2004 23 May :: 4.25 pm

You Are a Boy Shorts Bikini! You're a sexy girl - but not the type that likes to let it all hang out. You are in to a little of everything at the beach - swimming, tanning, playing And when you're running around, you'll be sure your butt isn't falling out of your suit What Kind of Bikini Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are an Indifferent Ex You're not one of those girls who thinks about her exes - or even remembers them "Love 'em and Leave 'em" is your motto. And your break ups tend to be a clean break. It's a nice strategy to have, and guys appreciate your total lack of emotional baggage. But just a little reminder: it is okay to remember the good parts of your past, even with exes. What Kind of Ex Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are An Intro-Extrovert! Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along. Are You An Extrovert or Introvert? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend! You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree What Kind Of Girlfriend Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

i also got that i was barefoot, meaning natural and such for the shoes one

and i was a some coffee that means im a girly girl

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:: 2004 23 May :: 3.16 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: right now, pachabel

Guys Like That You're Sensitive And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships! What Do Guys Like About You? Take This Quiz :-)

You Are a Natural Beauty! You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit

You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe

For you style is looking like a million bucks…

And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe



What's Your Date Fashion Style?
Classy, Sassy, or Trashy? Take This Quiz :-)

Your Lip Gloss Flavor Is: Watermelon You tend to approach life as a fun game - being playful at every turn. You're a flirt with flair, and your the type most likely to surprise your date. But you're popularity doesn't stop with guys... you've got a great group of girlfriends too! You're fresh, aggressive, and more than a little sassy. The tangy taste of watermelon goes great on your lips. What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

You Are A Woman! Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife! Are You a Girl or Woman? Take This Quiz :-)

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:: 2004 23 May :: 2.48 pm
:: Mood: confused

yea...i dont even know what to write...im bored and neils a jerk and the sun is shining (the tank is clean...::gasp:: the tank is clean!)

yea...adios

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:: 2004 21 May :: 6.29 pm
:: Mood: i don't know
:: Music: chevelle

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:: 2004 21 May :: 1.44 am
:: Mood: working
:: Music: Slipknot-"Duality"

:: 2004 21 May :: 1.35 am
:: Mood: complacent

so i decided that i will be happy until they start chemically engineering strawberries and oranges...

our grandparents think we're missing out not being able to pick them in our backyards, but man, imagine what our kids'll miss having real strawberries...half the fun of eating strawberries is that you have to dig through the plastic straining box to find the perfect ones...no mold, no soft spots, big, bright red, fully ripe....super sweet...

but then they would be perfect every time...

and our kids would have to choose between the two huge sweet ones...but i think they'd lose some flavour too... yea adios...

martini?

:: 2004 20 May :: 7.23 pm
:: Mood: confused

"excuse me, but could you please help me find my way?"
so ive been thinking, which is not necessarily (that doesnt look right?) a good thing, because, as im sure you know, thoughts of mine are, well, over animalized. yes, animalized...because i dont over anylize...but rip and shred all thoughts, squish and stick until pryed. Although not necessarily (god damn it!) negative, still....bad.

im sure you remember the hul situation- and if you dont well...

i went out with hul-ay for three and a half months, but before we broke up (which was my doing), he began to break down. he, well, i guess, went nuts for a time. he refused to shower or brush his hair or teeth and didnt eat. he stopped being bouncy, fun hul for a whole two weeks. Everyone was worried about him. he just moped and wouldnt talk to anyone. so one day i went to talk to him...and i dont know if i did any good but what he told me is that he had given up. he was sick of trying to be aliveanimate, so i suppose he stopped trying to hide a sort of depression... and i dont know, it was depressing to me to see him like that- not only becasue i liked him and knew him as a happy person, but because i began to feel it was my fault.

so now, this is the issue:

Mr. Neil is beginning to not be happy neil. i have never known neil, in a year and a half, to be brought down for more than a day. and its happening to him. and i dont know what to do, because he doesnt seem to want to talk to me or be around me, and im sure no one else has noticed cuz i think he tries to be hyper to show off some. and yea...hes just not neil like at all and im worried...

so im wondering if you'll answer this question:

do i or have i depressed or upset any of you for more than an hour or so?

i know i have the ability (heh) tendancy to piss you off or upset you. but to the point where you lose all hope?

::sigh:: yea i dont know...this would be the sixth time that things have happened immediatly after or around the time that im hanging out with the person, either one day or in general time (weeks). yea...so...if you could, please...

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:: 2004 20 May :: 6.57 pm

so its been awhile since i wrote- i have a lot of hmwk right now so im supposed to be doing it but since its been forever since ive come onlyn, i figured id just say hello!

year's nearly over-cant wait

graduation's nearly here- can wait.

okie adios

eating strawberries in chocolate frosting

:)

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:: 2004 6 May :: 1.24 am

this one's about PMS...

its good too...and read the other one in the entry previous to this.

1 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 6 May :: 1.18 am

hey

my email sent me this

its interesting...

martini?

:: 2004 5 May :: 7.21 pm

So i noticed something while i was eating my toast today right after school.

1> the bread never has two bubbles exactly the same size, sort of like we dont have the same fingerprints, eye patterns, or voice waves.




2> if you cut the bread, splitting one bubble perfectly in half, the rest of the bubbles will never line up evenly, not to mention the fact that the bubble are not circles anyway.




3> every bubble has its own expansion, some moving into other bubbles, making one, others idling singley, but happily.



so what does this mean?



attempt to figure it out before scrolling down.






1> we can't expect to achieve the same things, no matter how hard we try. one person may be good at sports (perfect split) but suck at soemthing else (not so perfect). but there are different degrees of splits...




2> sort of the same, but one piece of bread will have more talent than the other side. sometimes, there isnt even a tad included in the other side that is in the one.






3> we all have our comfort zones, and its not just a space issue. its more of how we mingle, including how often we mingle...





yes...that is it.




mmm...peanut butter...mmm...cinnamon!

2 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 5 May :: 7.13 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

so im going to write three entries, because i really have a lot to say, one of which will be private because, yes i dont want you to read.

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:: 2004 30 April :: 4.11 pm

KING OF FRANCE
We'll give them present audience. Go, and bring them.

Exeunt Messenger and certain Lords

You see this chase is hotly follow'd, friends.

DAUPHIN
Turn head, and stop pursuit; for coward dogs
Most spend their mouths when what they seem to threaten
Runs far before them. Good my sovereign,
Take up the English short, and let them know
Of what a monarchy you are the head:
Self-love, my liege, is not so vile a sin
As self-neglecting.

~William Shakespeare
~King Henry V, Act 2. Scene IV

>For More...

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:: 2004 28 April :: 11.47 pm

im looking at columbia college magazine:

i found this article...patrice and jill, you'll like it...

Mad props
Melissa Alderton collects junk like nobody’s business

By Amy Jarvis


Photo By Donna M. Andrick

Propabilities is like a huge flea market where everything is for rent. There is an Austin Powers-style purple circular couch, gilded crosses, antique cash registers, sheriffs’ badges, books, safes, dishes, games, toys, bathtubs, paintings, picnic baskets, CDs, dolls, guns, clothes and rotary phones. There are even wedding dresses hanging from the rafters.

This is what’s known in the theater and film industries as a prop house. The owner, Melissa Alderton, 50, has been in business for 17 years, but clearly was collecting, hoarding, saving and stashing things for decades.

“I had a lot of stuff in the family,“ she says. “And when Field’s had their sales, well, I love to go shopping!“

The inspiration for Propabilities came when Alderton was working on a photo shoot for Marshall Field’s. “I was doing sets and needed stuff and there just wasn’t anyone doing this,“ she says.

So she filled that void. Since then, she has rented props to Michael Jordan, Oprah Winfrey and Joan Cusak. Her props have appeared on Chicago Hope, ER and Starting Over, as well as in Sleepless in Seattle, High Fidelity, The Babe, The Fugitive, Ali, Barbershop and Barbershop II.

But she’s always pleased to get them back. “I’m always happy to come to work,” she says. “I like being with my props.“

Propabilities is located at 1517 N. Elston Ave., just off the corner of North and Ashland Avenues.

link

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:: 2004 25 April :: 5.48 pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: silence

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:: 2004 24 April :: 1.31 am
:: Mood: calm

i just went back all the way to my first entry: 7 july...almost a year...

maybe ill just get a paperback copy cuz then i dont really need to print them cuz this is my life this year...last year was endless papers and memories and letters and drawings and this year i havent drawn much and everythings in my head and its the only thing i could put for this year...

from there, ill just write it on word and whatever...maybe ill get a money order...sound good?

cuz i really dont write in it much anymore


:: 2003 1 September :: 2.34 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: "colours of the wind"~Pocohontas
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HIyA!
am going to homecoming! erm...i dont know if im excited or nervous or scared or what...well let me explain~am excited just cuz i got flowers, well basically anyway. half of it is surprise...i had no idea he was going to ask so soon. its six weeks {as stacey so kindly just informed me ::bows to stacey::} until then, and i really hope we stay together until then. am sort of worried that jackie will be mad at me, or pretend shes not yet making it so blatently obvious she is. stacey has already said "i wish i was going to homecoming", which, it is also true that she will be asked sometime during the next six weeks::again, bows to staceys time lapse statement::. I want Q to ask trixy really bad; i think they would make a cute couple, although, trix, if you are reading this, i will nto tell him to. its his decision, ive already said i think you guys would be cute together, and i explained "our plan" and he laughed, in agreeance i suppose. ooo btw, jackie and benton and i got our zoo pics today! they are really funny! well anyway. Jackie is going to get asked by benton, because wender will give way to his power, although benton may hold off as an effect to wender. ::shrugs:: eh! itll work itself out. sandy...well...i think well get her someone...i think kyle and lisa are set, even though they arent doing too well, they are too attached to break up...spencer and jillian too...i dont think they are done yet. sandy, wender could take or benton...depending...chris broke up with jenny, so he'll have to find someone! ::gasp:: am helping fritz with creative ways to ask his girlfriend...but i cant think of any...she swims which he might be able to do soemthing with...o well...post any suggestions...::sigh:: yesterday i bought a four by four piece of wallboard. am drawing a load of disney characters on it...twill be loads of fun! and then i will paint them! woo! i think i will give it to jackie or jennifer...jennifer because of her new house but jackie because she loves disney. [HammeTrucci: i was just telling him how it was perfect that i asked you out today and i was going to ask you to homecoming
battlestarre: and what did he say
HammeTrucci: yeah said "beautiful"] well...gnight...

martini?

:: 2004 24 April :: 1.23 am
:: Mood: amused

hola! i got gerbils today!

three of them

one is raisinette...shes a grey one...

another is poppy...shes tan turning black

and jens is candy...shes gray too...

they're all female

and cute...

they're all scrawny and little its so cute!!!

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