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2004 17 October :: 9.49am
:: Mood: in need of coffee
:: Music: The Streets ` Dry your eyes mate
Good Morning..
yeah so I haven't written all weekend.. theres really not much to write about anyway cause I do the same fuckin thing every day.. I either go to school for 6 hours or work for 6 hours then I go get high with my buddies.. usually katie n meg :-)
joey was supposed to come see me friday but I guess not.. oh well.
but last night mommy n daddy went to a party so ryan came home for the night and I had emmy katie n meg over. we tried to get ryan high but hes too cool to smoke with little 15 year old girls.
so we had a good time.. 5 MONTHS EMILY oh my god =-O
yeah well I'm gonna go get ready for work now, peace :o)
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2004 16 October :: 11.17am
ok ya so my c team girls had comp this morning.. i had to wake up at 4 30 and i went to bed at fucking 2 ! ahhh.. anyways.. they did so good and i was so proud!! 3rd place babyyy! ya but instead of doing 4 places like always they only dis first and second so we didnt get a trophy :( thats sucks but ohh well..
-Nik
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2004 14 October :: 10.20pm
ya so i changed my journal again! lol i have no life..
yea so my birthday is in 6 days.. im excited! but i dont think i get to go get my permit becasue my dads gay.. he sed i have to wait a month becasue i got sdetention.. well fuck that shit!
ya so we had little child practice..
bill and dj want us to go to some hell's gates tomorrow.. but im madd scared of the dark.. its probobly gunna be me, manda, britt, keri, bill, nick, and dj.. but i dont really wanna go cuz im terified of the fucking dark! lmao! i guess im gunna have to get over it soon! ok thats all for now cuz im getting ready for bed!
-Nik
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2004 12 October :: 9.02am
:: Mood: baddd day
:: Music: stupid noisey freshman class
today is the worst day I've had all year :-)
yeah well today started off bad and just keeps getting worse. I'm in the computer lab right now with Lizzy. It's the first time I've talked to her in a long time..
Anyways, I hate when I find out my friends lie to me.. it's probly the worst thing they can do. And especially when they lie because they're trying to hide something that a friend wouldn't usually do in the first place.. Whatever, I don't have the patience right now to talk to you so when you read this I want you to know I give up and you can just have him ok....
I dont get you, you wanted me to move on & be happy and now you're contradicting that..??
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2004 11 October :: 3.28pm
:: Music: monica x for you i will
last night!
ok so last night was maddd fun! well lets see it was like 7 00 last night ans i was in my pj's watching a movie when when amanda called! ya so then i went to her house to sleep over..
we were bored...
so sinse we were bored we decided to call my brother ... who was out with bill.. so they came to pick us up at like 8 00 or 8 30...
then we drove all the way to malborough to bills restaraunt and noone was there so we "broke in" me and amanda made ice cream and bill made dj and my brother omlets and then we ate and talked!
after that we went to amanda's daddys house for a visit at like 9 45... and i saw the 2 week old kittens.. i waant the black one soooooooooooooooo bad! ok so anyways...
then we started to go home and bill decided to show us the best "makout spot"... so we drive 10 mins up the windyst dirt roaduntil we like reached a tower.. then we went to go climb the tower.. we ran like 30 feet up this path/road until we got to the tower.. then i looked around and was like why are there lights there.. amanda sed cuz theres a car.. so bill like freaks outr and was like WE HAVE TO GO!! so my brother goes i think its a cop...
so we sprint down to the car and bill like miksses the knob.. so he unlocks the doors but amanda wont open.. and by this time the car was like DIRECTLY behind us and amanda was freaking out and dj was trying to help her.. then we get into the car anhd the other car starts to back down the hill.. so we go to leave and then we see it like parked hidden away.. so bill being a psycho that he is.. he puts sierens on the radio and stops right next to the random freak ni the van... so dj rools down the window and me and amanda are like what if its an undercover cop or sometihng who got your plates.. so needless to say bill started FLYING down the dirt road.. we bottomed out like 4 times in his car too.. we al thought we were gunna shit our fucking pants! it was actually a pretty amazing and funny ass night!
ok then we went back to amandas.. tried to do out hw and then went to bed..
then we went to the mall this morning and tried on dresses and had lunch at johnny rockets!
thats all
-Nik
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2004 11 October :: 3.35pm
:: Music: Crossfade ` Cold
NeW LaYouT...
comment.
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2004 11 October :: 12.14pm
:: Music: Juvenile `Nolia clap
Last night when me and katie smoked I thought about alot of stuff...
and I decided I'm just gonna quit. I've said this like 394723 times but I know it's the only way to let go of my past.. and move on.. I just need to stop everything I've been doing since the Summer of '03.. and just move on.. it was fun while it lasted but alot of the memories I keep are just haunting my future.. and the only way to let go of them is to move onto something new.. and make new memories.
So good-bye to everything.. hopefully October 31st will be a nice final episode
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2004 10 October :: 8.16am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: kenny chesney x when the sun goes down
so ya... i talked to becca andwe're okay now.. im really excited for my party and ...and how much fun its hopefully gunna be..
well my little c team is going to competition onsaturday so im excited for them!...
ok so last night was their game and amanda was there.. so ya.. the mentally challaged kid got hurt who always sings with jay.. and so the ambulence came.. so of course our nosey-ness had to go investigate.. but wen amanda saw the ambulence she just broke down... it was horrible.. so we were both just sitting there crying randomly and no one knew why... and i love amanda sooo much and she needed to cry.. its not a bad thing.. like some people were like ohh why the fuck is she crying.. why are you guys crying ... but they dont understand what losing someone you loved that much was like... she just kept saying she misses gene.. and that she loves him so much.. i couldnt even handle watching her cry..
im kinda dreading the memorial service becasue if seeing one little ambulence can causer that.. im not gunna stop crying during the whole memorial service!
on a lighter note..
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 10 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya so i think i might have a CRUSH on someone.. but im not sure yet...
:)
-NikkiE
P.S. Gene i love you.. your forever in my heart!
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2004 9 October :: 6.29pm
:: Mood: not sure
:: Music: none
Havent updated in a while..
hmm yeah well I havent updated in a while.
I just got home from work, my feet hurt.
anyways tonight I get to hang out with my favoritest people ever :-) my babyboy got mad at me today cause I said something I shouldn't have said.. :-[ but were ok now I think so thats good
peace =)
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2004 7 October :: 5.20pm
ok ya so im mad at becca becasue lately everytime i try to talk to her she only wants to talke about andy or she has to go.. like she doesnt pay attention to her friends problems.. but only hers.. but whatever becasue we never tlked anymore anyways.. i wisht it went back to the way things were in 8th grade!
ya so i told becca this and she like blamed me :'( so i guess im done with that cuz i dont even nkow what to do.. its funny how i can cry over a person i havnt seen in at least the past month.. like.. i doubt she gunna come to my party.. even though she knows i still love her.. its just im going through some bad times lately and i need someone to talk to.. and i want it to be her.. but it wont be.. becasue she always goes away when i try to talk to her.. so i dont know what im gunna do.. im just realyl upset.. i dont want to lose her becasue i love her i have just been really upset and depressed lately.. like i've never felt that i actually wanted to doe.. or kill myself but i have been thinking that alot lately.. like more than yuo could imagine.. and i have tried so hard for the last 2 days especially to smile but i cant... i just cant fake it any more..
i really want to die rigfht now.. i hope this feeling will go away :'(
-Nik
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