A Penny For My Thoughts

:: 2004 23 December :: 5.09pm

The PhAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAntom of the OPERA...

:: 2004 20 December :: 12.01pm
:: Mood: Happy
:: Music: The First Noel

UPDATE!
Helloooooo everybody! I felt like updating because my last entry was sad. SOOO, I decided that this shall be my first real, more than one sentence update since who knows when. I survived finals! Yay! We lost our first league soccer last Wednesday, though. Sigh. But now it is BREAK, and it has already been awesome! Friday was Louise's lovely partay. After that I got a christmas tree with my family then went to my neighbors house becuase they had invited friends over to sing carols. So, becuase it is a VERY small world, not only is Miss Cano (who is geting married to a really nice, funny guy) and her whole family in this group of carolers, so is former MSS-er MELISSA PAOLI. The original Melissa. WOAH! So then they made me sing with her, which was slightly embarassing, but I think we did OK. After we sang, everybody else drank a lot of wine and Miss Cano's mom read my face... Very interesting... After THAT, Nicole, Louise, and I stayed up late and convinced Melissa that sperm and wenai had something to do with her computer (<3 you all!). Slept over at Louise's (duh). Then, had a 10:00 AM voice lesson the next morning. That was great. Paige totally thinks I should be an alto. She's like, "Melissa told me that there will be some spaces open for altos in MSS next year. Have you thought about presenting your alto voice to Mr. Shaull?" And I am like no, I am a soprano. Haha, sigh. Anyway, it was a fine lesson, so yeah. Then, later I went to the San Jose Rep and saw a one woman play called "Sugar Plum Fairy". It was funny, the woman was a little annoying. But! I was generally amused. It reminded me of Alison, because it was about the nutcracker! :) On Sunday, I went to church with Nicole! To stalk Patrick! But then he left, so we were sad! Nicole and Melissa and I basically talked through the whole service (hehe). We decided that I am God and Nicole is Jesus. Yesssss. Mr. Shaull thinks I should write a book and call it "Moldrid Goes to Church". He is a very weird man. I got to see Debbie, too. It is always so funny to see her and the weird one outside of school. So after that, my family and I went to San Francisco to shop! WHOOO! Then, we went to dinner and THEN, we went to a concert at Davies Symphony Hall (which is GORGEOUS at this time of the year). It was such a cool concert- the Albert McNeil Jubilee Singers. The first half of the program was mostly spirituals and they did this awesome African thing. I think that I ahould try and convince Mr. Shaull to let us do an African Mass. I think that would be so cool. Haha. Anyway, the second half was half gospel music and half BROADWAY music (like Ragtime, the Wiz, Lion King, Dreamgirls, Ain't Misbehavin', etc.) The ended with "Oh Happy Day". It was SOOOOO good. I had such a good time. Anyway, so now it is almost Christmas and I am just happy! I want to go see movies! Lol. I love you all!

:: 2004 16 December :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Amazing Grace

Rest in peace, Matthew Leo Heroux.

:: 2004 13 December :: 7.01pm
:: Music: Et misericordia

Today has redefined the meaning of bad day.

1 song | sing to me

:: 2004 8 December :: 8.32pm
:: Mood: HAPPY/STRESSED
:: Music: LALALA!

OMG!
HE KNOWS MY NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 songs | sing to me

:: 2004 10 November :: 1.36am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Disco

WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT POVE?!

:: 2004 3 November :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Magnificat

"The arc of history is long, but it bends toward justice." -Martin Luther King, Jr.

"Today, we'll take a breath. Tomorrow, we'll keep moving toward the America we know is possible." -www.moveonpac.org

3 songs | sing to me

KirbyDee

:: 2004 31 October :: 7.31pm
:: Mood: hyper and complete
:: Music: "The Way You Make Me Feel" -- M. Jackson

I don't know what I would do without it...
*I know I said I was done updating, but this is too good not to say!*
It being marching band. Somehow, everyone who's ever really commited to marching band will agree. People ask us why we put up with it, that we work too hard and for what? When was the last time someone got a full scholarship to a U.C. because they were a drum major? We do it because we love it, and if you did it you would understand. Competing, even watching, gives you this feeling you can only get from marching band and without it, I'd be nothing...

We had our Live Oak Competition in Salinas, the second one of the season. We did our guard song and across the floors, but Misty wanted to remind us why we're here because we love what we do. So she put on "The Way You Make Me Feel" and did this strut and we had to do the same, then on the way back we were told to do our own sexy walk so, since I was born to strut ;), I had them all hollering and shouting out cat-calls! So much fun, it scarred Katie! I love Katie!!! Anyway, so in we're in Class AAA and also there was Independence and Pasa Robles. Since Independence got sweepstakes, we got 1st!!! WOOT! We ALSO tied Independence for Best General Effect (in our class of course)!!! N-I-C-E!!! I missed Saratoga perform so I didn't get to see Risa perform, but she changed really quickly and found where we were sitting and I got to chat with her for like 30 mins to an hour, so awesome! Not to mention Katie and I decided I'm going to have like, twenty husbands when I grow up and that they are all going to be ex-drum liners ^^ We also had a very interesting shout-down as to whether tenor drums were better than snares, which they are!!! Actually, they're both awesome!!!!

Backing up to Friday, intersectional dinner with Low Brass and Drum Line at Neale's house, we ate pizza and watched Halloween 6 (since the week previous we watched Halloween, I was looking fly since it was HC weekend and I was decked out) and Drum Line. Tiff had Vlad teach her how to play drums and I, in my suttle way *not* flirted with Neale. Lol! Speaking of which, yesterday I'm changing into my uniform and I need someone to zip me and I'm standing with my back to gaurd and the second Carrie stands up to zip me I walk over to Neale and I'm like, "Neale, will you zip me please?" LMAO!!! Katie wouldn't let it go, I seriously had no idea Carrie was getting up to zip me!!! For the rest of the night my convos with Katie ended each topic with:
Me- Too bad I love that too! (replying to Katie saying she liked something)
Katie- I love how you walk past a bunch of girls to get Neale to zip up your uniform!

N-I-C-E Man, I love marching band! I thinking I might do Winter Perc(ussion), don't worry, still doing track no matter what!

OOO! So we come home and this adorable, older bordie collie is in our front yard and so, since I'm nice and all, get something around his collar and go through his five (I mean that literally) tags to find out his address and I took him home. But he got excited b/c he understood what I was doing and took off and I didn't want to yank on his collar so I ran with him, best feeling ever. If I had a big dog that needed excercise, I'd make time to run daily. Too bad I have a cat and love her death, wouldn't trade her for a dog and besides, I tried that excuse for a dog before and it didn't work ^^ heh

And I just carved my pumpkin, wow! So. Much. Fun. And yummmmmm! Pumpkin seeds.... YUMMMMMMMMMM

:: 2004 27 October :: 11.59pm
:: Music: take me out to the ball game!

THE CURSE IS BROKEN!

GO RED SOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 songs | sing to me

:: 2004 26 October :: 12.27am

Why can't life just be good... and you know, stay that way for a little while.

12 songs | sing to me

:: 2004 20 October :: 8.26pm
:: Music: Esurientes- Magnificat

Molly: the girl who's voice topples water bottles (<3 Sara)
Mr. Shaull has had me stay for Girls' Ensemble (since I now have fourth period "free") for the last two days. Oh he also had me sing that high note (by myself!) above everyone in Girls 21 this morning! Anyway, yesterday, I warmed up in front of everyone and then sang the Et misericordia (sp? Ha, you'd think I'd know) solo. I also helped the sopranos with their line and sang the solo above everyone. I did alright except for the fact that I am completely incapable of mixing or bringing like ANY color to my chest voice. Ha. Today, Danika and Lindsey were there too, so they sang before I did. I worked on the "high parts" of the same solo as Tuesday. It was great because he now totally thinks I can't handle low notes at all. ANYWAY, I had to hit that high A like a zillion times because he wanted me to break glass and... I wasn�t... We also concluded that my biggest need above everything was to take a chance. Sigh. Oh well. It is good for me to be doing this I guess... builds character. Haha, Kristen Bailey sang alone for a little bit also. Mr. Shaull did one of his exaggerated imitations of her faults (for her it was trapping her sound in her throat etc.) and he made this funky sound. So she is like �Is that what I sound like?� and he is like �Well, yeah.� And she�s like �Ewww.� HAHAHA. So funny. Aaaah freshmen. Anyway, we�ll see about singing. I�m alternating feeling good and not-so-good about my voice. Oh well, just got to keep on keeping on.

On a different note (HAHA, I made a pun!) GO RED SOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I am officially finished! Goodnight ladies and gentlemen!

KirbyDee

:: 2004 20 October :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: um... okay
:: Music: "How Far" Martina McBride

How far do I have to go?
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away

I tried to change, but I don't care anymore. I'm going to continue DBT and working on my impulsiveness but if you all don't want to see my change, so be it. This isn't about my ego, or being mature, it's about dealing with life. So I'm done with my woohu, I'll still come to see how Mel's doing but otherwise I'm done. Call me overdramatic if you want, I would ^^

"How far?" by Martina McBride
(watch the music video at http://www.cmt.com/artists/az/mcbride_martina/artist.jhtml?_requestid=357533 )

There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh, never come back

There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh, when's it gonna end

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
Yeah I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
How far
Ooohhhh

:: 2004 20 October :: 12.17am

GO RED SOX!!!!!!!

Oh man, I am sleepy. Good night world!

:: 2004 18 October :: 11.52pm

Oh, so many things...
DAMN THE EMOTIONS!

KirbyDee

:: 2004 18 October :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: lost

It's been a looong day...
Derek has a lot of hot asian friends, Adam being one of them, but damn! With the risk of sounding soooo uber racist, I'm generally not attracted to asian guys but D-A-M-N!

Lol, just had to say that ^^ But I want to know how I did on the chem test!! It can make or break my chem grade! I'm screwed in... everything lol

Okay, so unlike last year's Girl's Ensemble, in Chorale we had personal one-on-one meetings with Shaull to discuss our grades and what we thought we deserved. So I go out and I tell him how I feel my voice has a tendency to crack even in my middle range so he makes me sing. Gives me the sibling talk for the millionth time and then tells me I can be just as good, maybe a bigger contribution to the singing program, as Dare Bear. WOOT! Then he said I have a "big voice" and "big talent" I just need to apply them to when I sing second soprano in Girl's 21... heh... biznatch! ANYWAY! So then he said he's going to find me someone to study voice with, HAH! That's likely, just like he'll actually be there when he schedules after school singing sessions LMAO!

Went to DBT today... that was... interesting to say the least. So far, all I got out of it is the true meaning of antisocial and a good idea for a poem. If it works out then I'll use it for The Slam this year. The main theme is that I'm lost, unsure, in a state of cognitive confusion because I'm really just what everyone wants me to be and I've lost what I want. That my thoughts are really not mine, but someone else's and I don't know what mine are anymore. This is a product of taking the PSAT and putting linguistics as my future major instead of something pertaining to animals. The reason I was so entranced with Big Cat Diaries on Sunday was because it reminded me of what I dreamed of doing when I was little... *sigh*