Emology

Emology

:: 2005 14 August :: 9.45 am
:: Mood: hungry

7...

A week...

I am pretty damn hungry right now. I finished packing about four boxes last night. I hid all my video games in one of them. Pretty sneaky, huh? The reason I had to hide them was because my mom doesn't want me taking video games to college. She won't even let me take the games I bought myself, so I'm taking them anyway. Yeah...

"The best for you!"

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:: 2005 13 August :: 8.17 pm

8...

Got cardboard boxes today!...yeah... I'm packing up all my shit right now. Kind of sad really. Had a good time today with my one and only. Started out boring, but that got better. See you tomorrow!

"Oh! Si! Si! New York! The 'bang! bang!', uh! Shut up you stupid bitch! Si! Si! New York!"

:: 2005 13 August :: 7.18 am

8...

Yep, mom's a whorebag...I'll be leaving soon...and I don't ever want to have to deal with that woman again. Can you beleive her biggest fear is that I'll never return? She treats me kind of funny to try and "stop" that from happening. Yeah...it's already Saturday...

"I'm going to hire a wino..."

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:: 2005 12 August :: 8.58 am

9...

All right! Nine months! Today should be a great day. I love her so much...I cried about leaving last night. It wasn't so much that I'm sad to leave, but I'm just so happy right now I don't want to leave this all behind, you know? Ahhh... well, hope all of you have a great day!

"All I want to do is crawl up into a ball and sleep, but if I do that, I'll just be that much closer to leaving when I wake up."

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:: 2005 11 August :: 7.33 am

10...

Hay caramba estoy consado! Hopefully she can come to work with me today. I also found out I have 5 other room-mates, not three. Frickin A! Oh this is going to be hell... I guess that is why they call it 'hell and gone'.

"Romance of the three kingdoms"

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:: 2005 10 August :: 10.07 am

11...

"I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!"

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:: 2005 7 August :: 11.25 am

Well, just sitting around... waiting for the laundry to be dry so I can fold them all up even though I only own two of the items...I wish she was dead...

:: 2005 6 August :: 7.06 pm

Wow. 17 more days. I should probably start packing up my stuff soon... I don't want to leave...I'm visiting every chance I get...just have to make it one year... I hope nothing changes...*sigh*... 21st...

"Thou shaldst eat to live, not live to eat"(Socrates)

:: 2005 3 August :: 10.38 am

See if you can answer these.

1.She is the love of my life
2. She is a whorebag
3. He is who I admire
4. She acts emo
5. She acts "emo"
6. He persues Lu Bu
7. She is my 3rd mother
8. He is my real dad
8. He is my favorite martial artist
9. My favorite color
10.My Eye color
11. My nationality
12. My birthplace
13. Where I'm going to college(both if you know both)
14. My middle name
15. Where I work
16. Favorite band
17. My weapon of choice
18. Favorite food
19. Favorite animal
20. Favorite mythological animal

Good luck!

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:: 2005 31 July :: 11.28 pm

Boy, I sure am sick of her. I only have three weeks left, but it looks like she is going to try and ruin it as much as possible. I don't know, I guess I'm just used to her because she has been like this my whole life due to the drugs and alcohol. I always thought she was a bitch, but I put up with it because I'm strong and don't want to bitch to anybody about any of my problems, so I can help them with theirs instead. I just can't believe how within this last year her schemes and truths have unfolded and the world doesn't like her at all. I didn't believe bad it was until I saw it effecting others instead of just me. I wish it she didn't have the power to effect the rest of the world. She is at the bottom of this world, and its too bad for her because she won't ever the chance to say she's sorry, not that the world would forgive her. *sigh

She really upsets my one and only. I don't like seeing her so angry and upset because of my problems. I do believe Amelia will keep me in check to never forgive my mom, because we all know I'm pretty forgiving and want to help everyone eventually. I just have to survive twenty more days, which is kind of sad cause I shouldn't be happy to leave. I'm actually at the same time torn up about it all on the inside. What really sucks is I haven't had a lot of alone hang out time with my loved one. That makes me really sad. It's like somebody doesn't want me to say goodbye. If that somebody is God, he is playing a pretty fricked up game.

Anyway, we went to the fireworks festival with Brittany. It was a lot of fun and we were even right below the fireworks. That made me very happy cause Amelia was excited and gleeful. Like a little girl. I know our kids will have lots of fun, because their parents will be kids at heart. Thank you for going to the show with me Amelia. I'm glad we could finally go together. Love you, and...I love you.

"I will challange even the gods someday..."

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:: 2005 29 July :: 5.17 pm
:: Mood: pissed off

I think this weekend will be my last fun time here. Today was so fucking boring. Just sat around all day. My mom brought up conversation about me leaving...didn't make me feel very good. She says we're going to leave on the 21st, and also wants me to keep my schedule closed during the 20th, so I can have one last "family time". My mom says I'd better not plan on hanging out with anyone that day cause I probably won't be able to. God, you know, I'm just so close to the end and at the same time I want to give up. Good news is I can go to Porcupine Bay with their family and the fireworks show, but the time I spend with her really isn't "precious" anymore. I'm not saying that in a mean way, it's just that with only twenty more days here, anything that happens now won't really mean too much cause I already feel like I'm gone. *sigh* It's just so close you know... the last eighteen years of my life sped by, why wouldn't the next few weeks do the same.
...hmm...I'm only really sad because I am leaving the people I have come to care for deeply. I wish I would have found them a lot sooner...

" I feel like Tera is ripping me apart from the inside even though I'm not dead yet.Have I really completed my mission so quickly that I have to leave it all behind now?"

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:: 2005 28 July :: 10.17 pm

*sigh* I've realized that I only really have about twenty more days here. sad...
I'm kind of tired of the two hour hang out days too, I just wish I could stop time... but unfortunately I'm not that powerful. I also kinda feel bad about blowing up at Lauren,... don't really know what to say about that except I'm tired of the drama... can't really believe some people hate my guts because I try to make them take responsibility... although I guess not a lot of people willingly do.
...just kind of want to crawl into a fetal position and have everything stop moving so fast.

"I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it"

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:: 2005 27 July :: 10.02 pm

I feel kind of sad and lonely for some reason...maybe I'm just tired...and hungry. *sigh*... I have to go to work early tomorrow and work all day... suck...

Today was a pretty fun day. The Island was a very good movie. Makai Kingdom is awesome too.

Maybe I'm sad because I didn't have any real us time... or because my fracking wrist hurts like a beotch...*sigh*.

"I'm a freaking Overlord!"

:: 2005 26 July :: 9.16 pm

Right, well then. Update... Uh.. today was an ok day. It wasn't very productive and I spent most of it lazying around. It was fun. Also went to get a smoothie! It was very good. I enjoyed walking around. My mom thanked me for not giving her any attitude this weekend... I was thinking that all I did was give off the attitude that I didn't want to be there with them. Oh well, at least she isn't really on my ass about anything. I forgot to call Jason.... Ah well, I'll do it tomorrow. Goodnight.

:: 2005 26 July :: 8.46 am

No matter how much you may claim you hate them,... tickle-fests are the best!

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