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2 Left their memory | Do you remember?

:: 2000 23 February :: 3.23pm
:: Mood: its a good beach day. wish i was at there. yea. be
:: Music: LBDA

wow. i acomplished nothing this weekend..... other than skipping school on friday to finish my pass or fail research paper that was due by 3. in skipping i missed three tests. fuck yea!

so yea, i "ditched" sara for a truck on friday night. yea, well i made $20. take that.hehe. saturday was worthless. did nothing, and didnt even get to go see the adastra show. grr. so i wound up going to ruby tuesdays for my dads bday. the food there sucks. today was worthless too. i was supposto help my dad put up the gutters this morning, but i slept. went to work, god, they're gonna fire me soo soon. haha.

in other A.J. news, i just realized today that i havent done my taxes for the last 3 years. so the government owes me over $250 in returns. take that fica! score! im debating what to do with the money. i need a new guitar. my electric is a piece of shit. or maybe i should save up some more and buy a nice stack amp. whatever. ill figure it out. wow this post is soo worthless

one last thing:
cheddar cheese > all other cheeses

A.J.

14 Left their memory | Do you remember?

:: 2003 22 February :: 10.52pm

So yeah. my hair is 14" shorter and pure sexiness haha... actually my mom says I have to wait and see what everyone says but I really don't care, I love it!

The show was great! ADASTRA won the battle of the bands!!!! take that Fallen from the sky haha nooo Adastra played soooo good tonight though, great great show followed by Dennys @ Linton & Federal.. good times cept 4 the damn bitches there. Got to see the twins <3 and everyone else. good times. oh yeah, Ben looked really hot in his atire tonight :0P ahh everyone looked really hot tonight :0P im me for pics if you want them

goodnight<3

ORFwasHERE

:: 2000 20 February :: 11.27pm
:: Mood: close to breaking down

"one night i walked into my parent's bedroom and they saw me naked"
thats a good quote. haha.

so the real business.....well...

i have a research paper due by 3 o'clock tomorrow, and if its not in before then, I fail 2nd semester of english 3 honors and have to repeat the class. As of right now, i barely have any of it started.
In first period tomorrow, I have a bio test on ch 23, and i have some knowlege of the material, but not much. I have a trig test in 4th period, and i barely know the material, and I didn't do the homeworks that go along with it. I also have a presentation in spanish tomorrow where i have to memorize 7 sentences i make up on some picture (I don't have the brain power to memorize anything right now). we're also somehow fitting in a quiz on some past participle bullshit that i barely know anything about. It's about 11:30 pm right now. I have to be to school at 7:30am tomorrow. most likely i'm just not even going to bother trying to go to sleep tonite. i have too much to do.

i am close to breaking down again

coffee has become my god
i hate coffee

for some reason i'm not being negative about this at all. thats fucking scary.
I found some lyrics that fit how i feel, so here it goes:

"Lock Down"

no matter how i try and try
the dirt lands on my head
the push and shove of daily life
the stupid things i've said
have left me wishing that i was dead and gone
a silent party in my name a way to right the wrong

now i'm sick and i'm tired
you fuck with me and i'll fuck with you
and i'm pissed so pissed off
nothing you say can make me stop
time is short like my fuse
bet against me a you will lose
no, i wont give up
only place i have to go is up

morning came the feelings gone
there's nothing in my head
push the covers to the floor
i stumble out of bed
whishing i was somewhere far away
a silent partner in a crime affects me everyday

now i'm sick and i'm tired
you fuck with me and i'll fuck with you
and i'm pissed so pissed off
nothing you say can make me stop
time is short like my fuse
bet against me a you will lose
no, i wont give up
only place i have to go is up

[bass solo]

i want to go
so far away come again live to fight another day
i want to go
so far away come again live to fight another day
lock down

-A.J.

17 Left their memory | Do you remember?

:: 2003 19 February :: 7.39pm

APRIL 21st TAKING BACK SUNDAY, FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES, RECOVER, COUNT THE STARS!!!!!!!!!

whos sooooo there!

Also, COHEED AND CAMBRIA IS COMING!!! as well as THE ATARIS and THE JULIANA THEORY and BRIGHT EYES and CURSIVE!!!!

ohhh and MUSTARD PLUG on March 1st!!!! <- THE KNOW HOW will be there tooooooo!

i forgot. The Juliana Theory canceled for the show tonight :0( (Feb 20th) so Sara B & I sold our tickets... o well... i'll see them when they come w/the Ataris in April :0P

:: 2000 19 February :: 1.57am
:: Mood: cold

i can't explain it. it's just like this unbelieveable feeling that my life is complete shit. everything i do or look at that involves me just proves my point. maybe i'm just dumb.

i found a semi cure (maybe even just a mental placebo) to try and fix it, but i can't even get that cuz this keeps me from it. wow, that made no sense. don't care

besides life's shitosity, here's my quote of the day....well its actually more of a conversation, but its still good.

(the scene: I found this awesome saxophone mic and preamp deal on ebay, and i was asking for money to buy it)

mom: You could work on Saturdays, ya know.
me: yea, i could work for nasa too.......
..i'd be the best damn janitor.

ok, well it doesnt seem funny anymore now that i typed it, but it was when i said it.

limp bizkit <3 your mom

5 Left their memory | Do you remember?

:: 2000 18 February :: 12.19am
:: Mood: crap
:: Music: pure anus (haha, new sublime bootleg from 1991 i found on some site)

so this is my weekend update
I don't know why, but all of the sudden, I feel soo shitty.

So friday, v day, shitty as usual. I can't actually remember when I've had a worthwile v day, but Im used to it. Feb. is never my month. Wound up hanging out with Sharif. We didn't acomplish any of what we wanted to do, but still had fun. Sausage. lol. So I loafed around all saturday, then went to the show. I had no idea what to expect, but it turns out Adastra is really good, although they need better equiptment, or atleast more time to set it up properly. I had fun seeing ppl that I never see, Whitney! sara drew matt ben chris etc., and some people who could give a fuck, but whatever. I was thinking like before I went like 'shit, I dont wanna have to deal with this Mike dude.' Turns out hes a good guy. Brian was there. He prob. still wants to kick my ass; oh well. It wouldnt make a difference whether he wanted to beat the shit out of me or become a friend. I could care less. We hadto leave early cuz sharif hadto be home at a certain time. Wish I coulda stayed with everybody. I've met dennys John before, hes an awesome dude.

I'm a lazy fuck, and I was all running around on saturday, and sunday my leg muscles were all sore as hell. It wasnt any better today either. Damn my (fuck, i cant think of the word. whatever). Went to work, and then to swc library for an hour till they closed. Today it was all FAU library. Still didn't get any work done on my research paper, but I've got more sources now. Felt like such an idiot when i got lost in that place. Im soo stupid.

I feel soo lonely right now. Shitty and worthless too. Maybe school will make it better....oh yea, I forgot. I hate school. Stupid Boca kids and their fucking school.

Speaking of my worthles school, I have to mention my idea. There's a lot of worthless posers at River, like the kids with the "New Found Glory, live in your town" shirts, or the omg, I love Falling From the Sky, or the liberty spikes, or the faggots with the mohawks. well anyways, I developed a plan to assist these kids. It is outlined in these steps:
1) they all visit Noah's advice site and get help
2) I get stickers printed that say "i'm a punk rock stereotype"
3) I walk up to these individuals
4) I place a sticker on them
5) they wear their "i'm a punk rock stereotype" sticker with pride.

I'm finished

worthless as ever,
A.J.

:: 2000 16 February :: 12.59am

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15 Left their memory | Do you remember?

:: 2003 16 February :: 12.29am

so yeah. Tonight was ... fun? lol

Nicole picked me up and we were going to kiss to sell tickets but everyone there had already bought from the Fallen from the sky kids & Pipe Clay Rut. Umm it was fun seeing loads of people, some i haven't seen in a bazillion years ie: twins, Myra & Elsa <3, Nicole, Amy etc. I also met 3 people who i've been talking online with or know from woohu, Zac (justanotherkid), Haley (HaleySidelsucks), and Selma (who i apparently used to know.)The show was okay... Pipe Clay Rut was umm well they had a really hot guitarist and I talked to Sara's Mike & got loads of pics for her... then Angels without wings who were AWESOME!!! Really aspiring hardcore band w/ a SUPER hot singer (who looks like Elijah Wood!) Then Fallen from the sky.. eh. Then Adastra. It definately wasn't their best show... i'll leave it at that but the only pseudo pit of the night was during their set so it was okay.

By the end, Nicole and Sharif were making out and it was kind of weird. Ironic considering the whole entire Chris situation... whatever.

Brian Egan is a really cute kid, really. Wish he'd believe it cuz I bet he'd be a lot happier if he could think positively.

Dennys: Ben, Drew, Whits , Sara B. & I. We had the most kick ass waiter named Jon. We gave him a 35% tip lol

Thats it.

ehh. i really missed Chris tonight...should i have?

:: 2002 15 February :: 2.34am

wow soo random
orfwashere: makin babies whut whut! holla
WeRockTheCasbah: holla to my bitches
orfwashere: gotta dip, blip shiggy shrimp
orfwashere: catch ya on the flip side, havein a fun ride, drop a dime and fly
WeRockTheCasbah: check you later you patato tater
orfwashere: lol
orfwashere: holla!
WeRockTheCasbah: ill kick you in the skididel if you playin with me shizzle

Do you remember?

:: 2000 14 February :: 9.39pm

lies.
thats what you're all about
you hide them on the inside
its all so clear
i see why
he does what he does
you play them all off, like its all cool
i see through that.
you cover it up so well
how could i ever buy it?
you're damn good
you just continue to spoonfeed to me
your loads of bullshit
but no, i'll never bring it up at all
i just have to suffer through your
lies.

Do you remember?

:: 2003 14 February :: 6.15am

HAPPPPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TROY!!!!!!!

<3<3

and a happy valentines day to everyone else i suppose.

4 Left their memory | Do you remember?

:: 2003 13 February :: 9.25pm

first of all, everyone that has commented, called, whatever.. i just want you to know that you're great and it all made me feel a lot better. Thank you :0)

so a second chance.

maybe i'm dumb, maybe i'm not... can't really tell now but i hope it works out okay...

So to make myself feel better I am devoting myself to Brighton this Valentines... (i assure you it'll be better then last year :0P)

i send my best to all the little lovies out there, have a great night and for everyone that doesn't have someone then go out anyways with some friends and just have fun. Damn commercialized holidays :0P

PS. I am less white now :0P

ORFwasHERE

:: 2000 12 February :: 10.56pm
:: Mood: hungery
:: Music: skunks

POPTARTS

i don't exactly like pop-tarts, but they make decent breakfast food. i usually go get a pack of 2 poptarts from the vending machines at school after 2nd period, for like $.75 so today i went to go get one, and it gave me 2 packs instead of 1, which was hella mad cool. so in my second period class, i ate 4 poptarts (god, im sucha food whore). so neways, on the news today, it said today was poptart's 40th anniversary. wow, thats fucked up coincidence.