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2005 11 February :: 3.48pm
:: Music: swing swing- all america rejects
Crazy
Alright last night I had two dreams that hit me hard.
The first goes like this...
All of a sudden I'm back in the 80's except I'm about the age I am now. It's like I went back in time to fix something. Something I did wrong with a relationship that ruined everything. I realized I was getting a second chance. I began walking around and I saw this very beautiful crimson silk and creme dress and I knew that was my wedding dress. But something I did stopped me from not getting married. I didn't tell who I was with how much I cared about him and how much he meant to me. I knew that's what i had to do. So I'm waiting for the phone to ring then, it does and i know it's him. I hesitate but I pick up and I just say that I love you. But it wasn't him. It was his number but it was a guy calling for rachel.All I wanted to do was tell him I loved him. I should have done it when I had the chance. I lost my chance. I didn't know what to do, how to go back. I knew nothing.
Then my second dream went like this... (I don't remember much)
I was pregnant and my parents knew. They were okay with it but I knew that they thought I was a whore. I was trying to get to this building and it was raining and I was watching it from the car and then I got out to go to the building but people kept going in front of me. That's all I remember.
Time Travel
To dream about time travel, indicates your wish to escape from your present reality. You want to go back into the past or jump forward to the future to a period where your hopes are realized. This type also represents your romantic nature or your desire to romanticize everything.
Rain
To dream that you get wet from the rain, signifies that you will soon be cleansed from your troubles and problems. Rain also symbolizes fertility and renewal.
To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace.
To dream that you are watching the rain from a window, indicates that spiritual ideas and insights are being brought to you awareness. It may also symbolize fortune and love.
To hear the tapping of the rain on the roof, denotes spiritual ideas and blessings coming to mind. It may also suggests that you will receive much joy from your home life.
Pregnant
To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal
I wonder what's going on with me??
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2005 9 February :: 9.21pm
Cry your eyes out, it won't do a thing
why does everything have to be complicated. Nothing can ever be black and white.
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dazed
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2004 28 December :: 11.05pm
I'm scared that things will get complicated with everything.
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2004 29 November :: 8.05pm
:: Music: innocent ~ our lady peace
Hold on.
I figured out why I feel alone. I have none of my friends to talk to. Miranda has been too busy to talk to me and Jessica is always working. And rachel and I .. well. we have nothing to talk about anymore, besides... she has tara. I was just laying on my floor and thinking about all of this. I used to have friends. Now they are gone. Why? I don't know.. but it is probably from something I did. I hate all the things that people have to go through in life. All the stupid childish mistakes that have been made by myself and others. Younger people have been bothering me lately. THey don't realize that there is life beyond high school. I realize that.. but I havn't brought myself to deal with it yet. At least I don't think I have. I don't know. I'm just talking out of my behind. I think I'm thinking about life outside of high school too much. I just want to block college and money and living arrangements out of my mind.
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2004 15 November :: 3.45pm
Alright, I hear that rachel is mad at me, Which wouldn't suprise me. Jason made a comment about it last night. I don't know what did... Justin won't talk to me now. Or well.. he just doesn't want to talk to me. I don't know why either. So, those are the shitty things and the good outnubers that I hope.
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dazed
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2004 10 November :: 7.16pm
I've been crying since four, does anyone care? nope.
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dazed
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2004 31 October :: 1.05am
ugh, now I feel like shit. Can't please everyone.
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dazed
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2004 1 August :: 7.59pm
It feels like I have nothing, that I am nothing. The only thing in my life that I am beginning to enjoy is babysitting and that is because it takes up empty time that I would be sitting at home reading or even worse, just laying in my room thinking. Right now I hate my life and everything it. I really don't have friends. I have no one. I just want someone to love me as much as I love them and I am beginning to fear that that is impossible. I pray that it isn't. But each day I get pulled closer and closer to completely believing it. Right now, I want someone to call and tell me that he cares about me more than anything. Is that a lot to ask for from someone? I guess sadly that that is all I have to say. I'll go back to reading A Communist Manifesto. Books are my best friends right now.
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2004 25 June :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: You'll think of me ~ Keith Urban
Ozes
Alright, A lot has been going on. My mamere died Sunday and it feels like I died long ago. I have nothing it feels like. I don't have friends anymore either. I rarely see bryan and I talk to him maybe once a day for an hour at most. I have one year of school left then I am out on my own. I have no clue what I want to do with my life. I wish things were easier. Not that my life is horrible. I just.. don't like the way it's turning out. *sigh*
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justyn
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2004 13 June :: 8.54pm
i keep thinking about this one girl, i can't get her off my mind what too do, what too do.
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2004 5 June :: 12.09am
:: Mood: fucking confused
:: Music: 3 Doors Down ~ When I'm gone
Tonight, I fell asleep at the wheel
Alright, first off. I feel like.. no one cares. I ask rachel to hang out and she never seems to want to. Whatever, she can hang out with her other friends rather then me. I guess I shouldn't care or something. Next is that whenever I call Bryan. it feels like.. I shouldn't like, he doesn't want to talk to me. Yet when he calls me it feels like he is totally in love with me. What the hell.
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2004 5 June :: 12.09am
:: Mood: fucking confused
:: Music: 3 Doors Down ~ When I'm gone
Tonight, I fell asleep at the wheel
Alright, first off. I feel like.. no one cares. I ask rachel to hang out and she never seems to want to. Whatever, she can hang out with her other friends rather then me. I guess I shouldn't care or something. Next is that whenever I call Bryan. it feels like.. I shouldn't like, he doesn't want to talk to me. Yet when he calls me it feels like he is totally in love with me. What the hell.
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2004 1 June :: 3.27pm
Well, A lot has happened since I last wrote in here. I don't even remember it. Haha, must not have been to important. Things are going well. Very well. Hmm.. I have nothing else to say.
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dazed
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2004 15 May :: 9.55pm
And again, I've been stood up.
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justyn
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2004 15 May :: 8.05pm
i feel like i've got so much to say but i just can't get it out.
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