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2004 14 December :: 8.38am
Sometimes the simplest things can make your day better. I love days like that. No matter what anyone says about their self-esteem or what not, we all need some form of reassurance at times. Not too much. Because then it gets annoying. But you get what I mean. Even though I know it¡¦s not true, it still made Patrice¡¦s day. So yes. ƒº Smiles and such.
Yay for being vague. Tehe.
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2004 12 December :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: amused
I spent last night reading through everyone's old journal entries. It's kind of funny. We all say the same things.
We're miserable today. Today sucked. We're lonely. This person has no right to complain about how lonely they are because I have it worse. This person can't say they're having a bad day, mine's worse. I'm a bad person. Everyone hates me. No one needs me. What's the point of me being here?
We're all just lonely and miserable. I don't know. It's funny. I can't quite explain it. We're all lonely together. ::nods:: I guess. O.o
-Patrice
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2004 11 December :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Respect
Ok. I'm bored. So I'm going to go through random on my computer and tell you the first....20...songs it plays. Woo?
1. MMMBop
2. We Can Work It Out- Beatles
3. Now I'm Here- Queen
4. See Me, Feel Me- The Who
5. With You In Your Dreams- Hanson
6. The Real Me- The Who
7. Fly Me To The Moon- Frank Sinatra
8. You've Got A Friend- James Taylor
9. Hello Good Bye- Beatles
10. If I Only Had The Words(To Tell You)- Billy Joel
11. We Will Rock You- Queen
12. Come Together- Beatles
13. What The World Needs Now Is Love
14. Save Me- Queen
15. Ain't No Mountain
16. Imagine- John Lennon
17. Fat- Bottomed Girls- Queen
18. 100 Years- Five For Fighting
19. Hound Dog- Elvis
20. Respect- Aretha Franklin
Ok...I need to load more of my cd's onto the computer. Ok. I'll probably be back.
-Patrice
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2004 9 December :: 8.25am
:: Mood: Pooey
So yes. I'm here. At school. I should be home. And I could be at home. But my mom pulled the whole guilt thing when I asked to stay home today. So today better go by quickly. Just because I really don't feel like dealing with it.
You guys should all see In America. Good movie. I cried, but that's just me.
So yeah. Ryan called last night. And I wanted him to call. He calls everynight. But when he started to talk to me, I just died. I couldn't find anything to say to him. He was talking about being sick and his comic books and how much fun going to dinner was. I had a billion things I wanted to talk to him about. But he doesn't care. No one really does. Everytime I would try to tell him something, he would be distracted by something. So yeah. I gave up on talking to him. And eventually he left because he was tired and we weren't saying anything anyways. I'm fine listening to him go on about his day. I don't get bored with it. I don't know. It just feels like sometimes when I talk, he's not listening at all. Or he doesn't care. And it scares me right now that I'm freaking out about something like this. Because I know what's going to happen. He's going to get sick of my constant complaining about some event in my life. Whether it's family or friends or school. Then he'll get annoyed with my random bad moods. Then it'll be how I don't tell him when somethings bothering me. Then it'll be over. And this probably soudns so stupid to all of you reading this, but I don't care. I feel stupid right now. I don't know if I really am doing the right thing here. I really do like him. Alot. But am I doing the right thing by getting so close to him? I don't want to get uber close to someone only for them to realize how irrational I am and have them leave me. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I just walked away from this. But that's selfish of me. And I know that. I just don't want to get hurt, but by doing that I'd only hurt him. Which wouldn't be fair. I've realized that I have made myself so incredibly numb. To everything. Things that should affect me just make me shrug. It's not fair. I feel like I'm in a dream-state most of the time. That if I just close my eyes, that the world will go away. That I won't be there. That I wouldn't have to be a part of anyone's life. That I wouldn't run the risk of hurting more people. I just want to disappear. The thing is though, if I leave him, who will I have? Plus I'd miss him way too much. More then anyone knows. Even him. I don't want to be a burden on him or anyone else though. I don't know what to do.
He's not a jerk. This has nothing to do with him being a bad guy. It has to do with me.
My rant ends here. Or I'll piss people off. And that's bad
-Patrice
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2004 5 December :: 3.03pm
The two most common elements in the universe are hydrogen...and stupidity.
-Harlan Ellison
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2004 5 December :: 4.00am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: 90.1
1.) Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2.) (Eliminate the asterisks)
3.) See what color you are
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woo funness...
today i went to caribou with patrice...
my plan for today was
1) buy slippers for mum for xmas
2) go to caribou, get coffee, work on paper
3) babysit
but patrice called as i pulled into target and i picked her up from her three hour "break" and i got slippers and we spent an hour in caribou, then i babysat...the paper worked itself out of it...
we talked about a lot...im glad too...
i know im going to be in trouble for this one, but she has this connection that i miss having. i had/have it with jen, but its rare i talk to her. same with sandy. and patrice. but it felt good today just to spill, and listen to her spill. with everyone else, its either one or the other, or just laughs and games. i could talk to patrice forever though. so many late nights.
babysitting was soo fun. the girls were the next door neighbours of the first people i babysat since i moved here in seventh grade. they recommend me. yay. ive never babysat just one child. two is the lowest and its gone up to five, which isnt as much as jen...but still never just one. there were two girls, both very imaginative and active. three and five and a half ( i remember when you were "five and a quarter", it was so exciting; life gets boring when you get old). they were fun. the parents were surprised that i made them clean up. they said i might possibly be the best babysitter they've ever had.
ama go sleep now.
g'night.
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2004 29 November :: 9.13pm
:: Music: Love Will Keep Us Alive- The Eagles
So Mr. Mann talked about the difference between guys and girls today.
He said that girls have so many connections in their brains...they think of every possibility and every consequence to things...guys can only concentrate on one thing at a time. His impression of a guy's mind at work was "me watch tv. She talk to me, me look away from tv and listen. Tv still on. Me watch tv. Me get up and get chips now." it was so funny!
Then he gave the guys advice saying, if you take on thing away from this class, let this be it.
He said when a girl is talking and complaining about stuff like her mom or friends or something, all a guy should do is listen. He says every guys first response is to solve things for the girl like "well why dont you try talking to her?" but he said all a girl wants is someone to listen to them,they can solve things on their own. He said guys always look for an immediate solution to things but in this case, all they should say is "Hmm, I'm really sorry thats a tough situation." Or something along those lines. It was so funny... and amazingly pretty true.
Any guys out there....listen to that.
~Jackie
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2004 27 November :: 2.13am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Gabbie's watchign Mean Girls
Oh Wow.
You know what I realized today? I don't even know what it was that I realized, but something clicked in my mind.
Off topic...but do you think I overdramatize things to make them seem worse then they are?
-Patrice
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2004 16 November :: 8.23pm
Jackie,
Your life patterns have reached a new stability and you feel good about what you've done with your situation. This isn't the time to cry over what has been lost. What is done is in the past tense and cannot be changed. Instead of looking back, it's now time to use your current strength to allow yourself to live fully in the present without looking too far ahead.
Wow my horoscopes have been pretty good lately! :)
Adios
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2004 15 November :: 10.45pm
Jackie,
Although you may not feel like a rock of stability, there is a powerful peace in knowing that you can be free enough from tradition to embrace your future. It may seem as if you are walking a tightrope between the new and the old, but you make it look so easy that others will respect the path you've taken. Take a deep breath, don't look down and keep moving forward.
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2004 14 November :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: bored
so im going through my away messages...
Andrew Warhola was born into a blue-collar family in Pittsburgh. He grew up, moved away to New York, became a graphic artist, and pretty much gave birth to the Pop Art movement. He made a name for himself painting Campbell's soup cans. He might be best known as being the guy who predicted: "In the future everybody will be world-famous for 15 minutes."
Would you like to meet this hot guy? Click HERE.
There are so many, many bad things in the world, but for some weird visceral reason, cannibalism is considered just about the worst. Depending on your point of view, it rises above even such criminal abominations as pedophilia, Rape and Genocide, but in the final analysis, it's what's for dinner.
Then again, we live in a culture in which people would run vomiting to the bathroom if they saw what went into making their McDonald's hamburgers, in which a cow is brutally killed with blunt-force trauma, its innards are outered, and then the whole thing is ground up into a mealy paste, intestines, feces, bones and all.
For more on this fascinating topic, click HERE.
...his insistence of removing portions of patients' bowels that he thought aided in spreading disease (due to rotten food overstaying their welcome within a body) and an amusing procedure wherein yogurt was given to both ends of the digestive system simultaneously.
His Cornflake idea, one of several "health foods" he developed over time, was taken by his brother Will and formed the base of the Kellogg's cereal empire. Dr. Kellogg wanted nothing to do with this bastardization of his invention and naturally went bazoo when the Kellogg's company started sugar-coating the flakes. A lawsuit ensued and the two brothers never spoke again. For some reason, neither the Kellogg's Cereal Company or the historical keepers of the name of Dr. Kellogg like to mention this.
~for more info on this appetizing topic, click HERE.
Dr. Jack Kevorkian, the Suicide doctor, should be getting more attention from the mainstream media. Instead, he rots in a prison cell, his only crime was to end the suffering of those who wanted to die. Perhaps he should not have flaunted his methods by videotaping the process and distributing the result.
Think of love as air...it surrounds you, but unless it blows in your face, or destroys soemthing close to you, like your house, or your friend, or you head, You dont know its there...and despite all the evidence we can produce in our minds to prove it non-existent, it is there.
In 1914, veteran conman Henri Landru hatched his all-time greatest "get rich quick" scheme. He placed a singles ad in the Paris newspapers.
He planned to seduce a wealthy respondent, con her out of her fortune, and kill her. It worked like a charm, and proved to be extremely lucrative. Over five years, Landru received more than 300 inquiries from interested women, out of which he pursued ten.
All told, the enterprise necessitated the deaths of 10 women, a young boy, and two dogs. He used poison to kill them. Then he cut up the bodies with a handsaw, incinerated the pieces in his stove, and dumped the ashes in his garden.
Landru's story later became the basis for a number of films, including Charlie Chaplin's 1947 dark comedy Monsieur Verdoux.
Want more on this lovely "widower"? click HERE.
"There was a machine designed for shredding plastic," she told the group." Men were dropped into it, and we were made to watch. Sometimes they went in head first and died quickly. Sometimes they went in feet first and died screaming. It was horrible. I saw thirty people die like this. Their remains would be placed in plastic bags and we were told they would be used as fish food. On one occasion, I saw Quesay (a son of Saddam) personally supervise these murders."
For more on this wonderful way to die, click HERE.
There was a mother who had a little boy who was very loveable and she worshipped him above everything. It happened that he became ill and died and she could not be comforted and wept day and night. Soon afterwards wehn the child had been buried it appeared in the places where it had played; and if the mother wept it wept also and when the morning came it disappeared. However the mother would not stop crying it came one night in the little white shroud in which it had been laid in its grave and with its wreath of flowers round its head and stood on the bed at her feet and said "Mother do stop crying or I shall never fall asleep in my coffin for my shroud will not dry because of all thy tears" The mother wept no more. The next night the child came. "Look, my shroud is dry" He then slept peacefully in his grave.
its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing...its snowing... make a song and sing it when it snows...bounce around your house waking everyone up!
If you so must leave, %n, then i wish you chocolate-covered, candy-coated, cotton candy flavoured, bubblegummy sweet dreams!
dont cry, heres why:
~1 beautiful people dont cry
~2 its only for emotional show
~3 it wont make things better
~4 it might dehydrate you
~5 it only makes your cheeks wet anyway
"A hidden truth is more dangerous than a spoken lie." ~Frounfelter~
What makes the Walt Disney World theme park so interesting is not so much the park itself, with many extensions of the original plans of Disneyland and its incredible popularity as a destination spot, but all the amazing aspects of the Reedy Creek Improvement District, the government set up by Disney (which continues to this day) that was originally intended to govern EPCOT (the Experimental Prototype Community of Tomorrow) and give it the ability to live out Disney's dream of a perfect society.
Hm...continuing your deep thoughts, yes....
so...hello
~look outside....is it:
~snowing?
~raining?
~dark?
~light?
doesn't matter.
~the time is %t...
~kinda sux that time rules our lives, eh?
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2004 13 November :: 1.56am
:: Mood: thoughtless
| Outgoing (E) 72.22% Withdrawn (I) 27.78%
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Emotional (F) 52.63% Intellectual (T) 47.37%
Improvised (P) 57.89% Organized (J) 42.11%
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2004 12 November :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: bored
so not much is happening now...erm...yup
later
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2004 12 November :: 2.22am
Jackie,
Events are happening in your life that signal the changes you've been anticipating. This is a time of spiritual and emotional renewal. You know that the ending is as important as the new beginning, and now you must be prepared to let go of that which is holding you back. Don't worry. You're not going to lose in the long run. You simply have to make room for what the currents are now carrying toward you.
Oh man... I was so just thinking about that today! Wooo for horoscopes!
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2004 8 November :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Shrek II music in my head
sick, again
so now i want the soundtrack to shrek II.
im sick again.......how odd...ear infection i think. i think i can sense it and the doctors dont see it until its actually an infection. i wish they'd see it the first time.
i also wish the nurse at school would be nice and let me in just to check my ears. no. "you need a pass."
so my throat hurts and my ears and it hurts...
um all is well....im sooo excited to see the noo noo...he's coming on thanksgiving. i have to work tmro and wednesday.
i have a trig test tmro and have to pick my author for contemp fiction.
i think ill do E.L. Doctorow. he wrote ragtime which im supposed to read anyway. if not ill see if i can do gregory mcquire, but i think he's just a novelist. if i can do neither, ill pick one from the list. i have an idea because of stories we've read in class already.
::shrugs::
im liking the lazy week, although im slacking off more...oh, bad jorie. it's okie cuz once things start up again, ill do more homwork. :).
makes no sense eh?
now off to do forty five minutes of trig and read two more chapters of ragtime....
adios to all!!!
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