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2004 25 March :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Beatles
What would you think if I sang out of tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key
~Woo! Random Lyrics! (Well not so random, I'm listening to the song..)
So next week, in theory, won't be as bad as I thought it before. Jill and I made some plans that all you people going out of town should be dead jealous of. :-D hehehe...
I don't know, you're right, I don't have to be busy all the time, and I won't. I think I'm just gonna have a relaxing break. Hopefully. So dude, we're gonna go fishing. I haven't fished..since forever. It'll be fun.
And dudes! No rehearsal tomorrow! Yasamin's party is then though. So I'm going there, yay.
So, today was weird. I overall liked today though. And tomorrow sounsd good from my point of view. No tests, no work. Algebra we're getting back tests then free time...movie n lit...garbage movie in chem(another one lol) and I don't know for history. Hopefully something good.
Hmm, my throats dry. I think I'll drink a lil something, then shower, then who knows? i always say sleep, then I come online. Cuz I'm an idiot like that. Oh well. Power to the idiots.
To end.. a little bit'o beatles
::clears throat::
She loves you..yeah yeah yeah, she loves you.. yeah yeah yeah, with a love like that, you know you should be glad.
Peace, Love, and Rice Cakes,
Patio
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2004 24 March :: 10.08pm
:: Music: soundscapes
my four biggest worries for the end of the year/next year:
~losing boyfriend
~losing half of friends/all of friends
~failing/ having to take classes again
~moving away
any of the above topics are saddening, in fact, if i start talking about them, ill cry...
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2004 24 March :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: Not happy
:: Music: Hanson
Dudes, I am hating this week. It should end But it shouldn't. Cuz then it'll bring spring break. And most of my friends are going out of town. Except for Jill. Maybe. I'm not sure. And I'll be stuck in the house all week with my dad and brother. This break is gonna suck. I don't want it to start.
I want to write something happy here. Hmm..so here goes. Happiness...umm...I'm listening to Hanson. And...umm..no rehearsal friday. But that's kinda sucky too, another night with my dad and brother. Oh well. Might as well get used to it.
:-)
Gym sucked today. Jill wasn't here, so no partner. And those girls I was playing against pissed me off soo much. Gr. But on the bright side, it was 15 to 5 the first time..and second game it was 15 to 12..and I was by myself, so I lost well. It was a good lose.
I'm thinkign about changing the background. Snow's over. I think I'll do that before my paper. Woo procrastination!
So..i'm hansoning and bored. So random hanson lyrics time. I know you're all excited :-) We'll make it a game..guess the Hanson song!
1)Good-bye four leaf clovers
Hello gone awry
Don't cry the fight ain't over
Unless you let it pass you by
2)Suddenly the sky is falling
Could it be it's too late for me
If I never said I'm sorry, then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong
Then I hear my spirit calling
Wondering if she's longing for me
And then I know that I can't live without her
3)We're all on the ground crying out
Would somebody save me please
I won't sit around just thinking about
The troubles that tomorrow brings
Yeah
4) Isn't it weird? Isn't it strange? How we're just two strangers on this runaway train. We're both trying to find, a place in teh sun, we lived int eh shadow, doesnt everyone? Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes?
Isn't it hard standing in the rain?
You're on the verge of going crazy and you heart's in pain
No one can hear, but you're screaming so loud. You feel like you're all alone in a faceless crowd.
You don't stand out..and you dont fit in.
5) Mmmmmmbop..dup da doo wop...turn it up a doo wap...da dooo
The last one's the hardest ;-) And if you don't get four, I'll eat you. Lol. Ok..bye folks.
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2004 23 March :: 11.56pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: the invisible kind
Late start tomorrow
Concert was tonight. it was too long. Kinda boring. The end was funny though. Jill screams out "OMG! ITS HUL!" Haha. I'm surpised they didn't hear it onstage.
So i had another healthy dinner. Yummy burger king. I seriously feel like vomiting. I can't tell you the amount of greasy-restuarant food I've eaten in the past 2 months. I feel like I shouldn't eat for a year. Bleeech.
But I will. Foods good. It's too good. It sucks in that way. You need it to live but it kills you quicker..if that makes sense.
Ok...time for crap hour.
Crappish thing 1- Sisters and mom gone for a week, left with brother and dad during spring break. :-( Crappy.
Crappish thing 2- I'm getting a ride from spencer all week to school. He's going to breakfast. Jackie and Jill aren't. I'll have no one to talk to.
Crappish Thing 3- term paper moved to thursday. Sounds good at first, but blah. because instead of tonight sucking, I get to put off the stress until tomorrow. Oh yay.
Good thing! Found my journal...turns out I wrote in it last night before bed. It was laying on my floor. Phew.
Crap thing 4- People are awesome. People suck. People confuse me. All people. You all suck, but you're awesome. You all confuse me. lol.
Hm. Ok. I could list more, but you don't care and I'm exhausted. So yay to procrastination. Yay to sleep too. Wooo.
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2004 23 March :: 8.59pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: silencio
its all okie now...
hola all...thank you to jill for calling me and letting me know my little issue with mr neil. i talked to him...we walked...and watched the sunset over the lake, listening to the geese talk to each other. i told him that i expect him to know better, especially since we've been through this before, in which case i could also talk to goli, but i cant really in this episode. i told him if expects me to respect his wishes in not commenting about his mismatching or bad smell at odd moments (if you dont know, dont assume...you can ask...if you care), i also expect him to respect the fact that i get jealous and that it makes me nervous...
what's worse: he knew he was doing it! it was funny cuz he says i was walking with my hand on her shoulder today after class (jill sayd neck but eh) and later on says i wasnt even near her today...i was like uh huh...it was kinda hard to have your hand on her shoulder if you werent close to her. he's talked to chris about it before...i've talked to trix and jill about it before...my parents have noticed. its bad when i notice...worse when my girl friends notice...but when the guys notice as well...thats awful, 'specially since they're pretty flirty too. even more to my disappointment, he had talked to chris about it recently, and apparently only noticed in the last week...
...but he seemed to understand where i was coming from and decided to talk to her and stop the madness...and my jealousy...a girlfriend should not be jealous of other girls flirting wtih her boyfriend. okie...history paper...thanks again guys
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2004 22 March :: 9.57pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:-P
So, I'm supposed to be term papering. But I'm not. I'm just so tired. I don't know, not tired I need to sleep exhausted...just worn out..if that makes any sense at all. Which it probably doesn't. ::shrugs:: Oh well. Spring break is almost here. Term papers almost done. Chem quiz Wednesday..history on thursday...algebra thursday..then I'm done for a week. Well, ACT....:-P Gahr. Crap on a stick. Why am I a junior? I wish I wasn't.
So the sky was really pretty tonight. The moon was a sliver(can't think of the name..) but u could still be the part of the moon that wasn't yellow..it was greyish...it was awesome.
And the stars are out too. And their contrast with the color of the sky is pretty. I like looking at the stars at night. (When else can u look at stars? Idiot me..)
But yeah, in wisconsin this summer, I laid outside by myself after 2:30 in the morning for about an hour and a half. All the lights were off at the camp place and no lights were on around the lake and first I laid in the middle of the green grass area and stared, and it was so cool, cuz it was a big open space surronded by a forest. So it was a circle of sky surronded by the trees, I liked it.
Then I moved to the dock and looked at their reflection and counted the shooting stars, you see about 2 dozen a night up there.
I wish I could take pictures of the night skies. Sometimes it can be so pretty, well any sky for that matter. Mostly night though.
Ok, I'm insane, I know. Time to get to work. No distracting me. ::glares::
-Patrice
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2004 22 March :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: exanimate
Today's Horoscope
Taurus(April 20 - May 20)
You have temporarily lost the ability to control your own fantasy life. Your thoughts now have a life of their own and they are not doing what they are supposed to do. Instead of following the strong chains of logic, your mind is now sailing purposefully into the fog -- with the intention of getting lost. After you've completely lost your bearings, you'll begin to be able to rediscover a new direction based upon newly forming goals.
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2004 18 March :: 6.51pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: wonderwall
Today's Horoscope
You like to know what is real, but reality is a bit of a slippery slope now. Although you may not be clear about your place in the outer world or about how others may judge you, you are pretty sure that something feels good and this is enough for you to pursue it. The problem is your senses and your imagination are being stimulated beyond normal and it makes it difficult to maintain good judgment. If things end up disappointing, remember that this is reality's way of telling you the truth.
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2004 18 March :: 12.49am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Silence
Blah
So I finally finished. After 4 failed attempts...yes...my criticism on the bell jar is COMPLETE!!! Yes, you heard me correctly. No longer must I slave away in front of this screen. Oh no. Not until this weekend when I write my two term papers that is. But until then. Wooo! Nothing can stand in my way.
Oh..btw..remind me to fill in the equations tomorrow on my lab..thanks...you.
Doom di doom.So I missed my interview today. Totally on accident I swear, my mom forgot and wouldn'tpick up her phone...so I just went to rehearsal. and I called my dad later and somehow it's been twisted around that I forgot so it's my fault that I won't have a job this summer. ::nods:: Makes perfect sense.
I can't wait until we no longer have to eat out. My family is so embarressing. All they do is fight. I've come tot he point where I just sit there and watch them. It's something out of one of those crazy movies. Grr families. it's annoying. The only time people pay attention to me in family situations is when my dad is calling me a "damn liberal" and saying how I'm a "teenager and one day you'll see the light and you'll be truely happy.." Shit like that. i don't know. Or when I'm being accused of being anorexic. Cuz I order a kids size...that makes me anorexic. :;rolls eyes:: Stupid stupid stupid stupid.
This week has been weird. Nothing has hapened yet its been crazy. I don't get it, do you? Noope? i thought so.
Ok..off to bed then I think. Then school..wooo...bowling though! The best class of the day. I get my math test and chem test back though. I think i did half good on my math test ::knock on wood::But whenever I thinkt hat, I made stupid mistakes. Oh well. My grade can't get lower. I have a 65.7 in that class..and it's funny, cuz on my last test I got a 65...so it did nthing to my grade. Thank god. Whew.
Ok..dudes...no more writing...Bed time..geez..stop distracting me. Good night!!
~Patty Ice Melt (Ghetto ES name..lol...remember melissa? I was thinking out the class after we talked about it, so yeah...good times..)
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2004 14 March :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: stressed
BLAH!
So being sick sucks. I want it to stop. Blaaah. My mom might not let me go to school tomorrow. Which would be bad. Dudes, i don't wanna asm anymore. I don't think I can do it honestly. asms have to be organized and on task and always thinking ahead, I'm more of a tell me what to do and ill be creative and think of a way to do it type person. But I guess it's too late now. because..yeah, If I miss school tomorrow, then I'll miss one rehearsal. bad patrice. Then Wednesday, I have a job interview...which I don't want to go to, but I know I have to. and it's at 4:15, so I have to miss rehearsal then too. I'm such an idiot. Why'd I schedule it then? Cuz I'm an idiot. That's why.
Ok then. So here is my plan...go to school tomorrow..for atleast long enough that I can go to rehearsal...so maybe come in late. I'll talk to my mom about that. Then I'll tell Kristen at rehearsal that I have to miss Wednesday and that I'm terribly sorry, but there's no way around it. Then I'll go be interviewed...tell them I can only work Saturdays and Sundays during the school year. Then go home or back to rehearsal if there's time.
Gahhrrr, things should stop right now. Schools just grr...and I have this damn term paper and an hour to do it before my sister comes home and it needs to be practically complete...which makes no sense why I'm writing in here.
Cuz I'm about to go crazy that's why. I still have to do laundry tonight and my head hurts and my throat hurts and I'm sore all over from all this coughing and I'm tired and I have a test tomorrow to make up that I have to do good on and to do so, I'll have to miss orchestra. But I have to do it. And I lost my ID, cuz I'm an idiot.
I just wanna fall asleep and not wake up for 3 or 4 months. I don't wanna deal with any of this right now. Right now I just want to sleep in everyday and when I wake up, just veg out and watch tv and maybe at 4ish, call someone and go somewhere until curfewish...then go to bed...then repeat...so basically summer. But there's a whole semester. And I want it to be done with but at teh same time I don't I just want time to stop. Is that possible? it should be.
I have a bassoon lesson tomorrow too. I don't want to go to that either. Can I just not go to school, but go to rehearsal? I know..I know...4 periods. Blah blah blah. I'll just go to school all day. It'll be crappy, but I'll live. I always do.
Woo..that was more complaining then I've done in forever. Sorry, it felt good though.
Yeah....bye...
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2004 11 March :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Iris
Families are grrrriing
So what I've discovered today. I spent all my day at home alone studying and watching movies. I know...not too exciting, but I was happier then I've been in a long time. Then at 2:30 my family gets home. From that point on...boooom...its all downhill. So my conclusion is that life would be ok...if people...especially family...would be nonexistant.
Ok...so today was cool other then family. I woke up at 8ish..cuz I was coughing too much.
I was having these crazy dreams, mostly about the cast list,which is weird, that I thought were real and a few times i got up to be a part of the dream, then i would wake up and realize it was 3am. Weird things happened in my dreams dudes...lol.
Anywho...then I watched The Waltons and Little House On The Prarie(sp) then I fille dout my ACT thing...woo...its done.
Then I watched Lion King and studied for algebra and history and then I watched Now and Then and studied for history and Moulin Rouge and studied for history...then the Pianist...while studying for history. If I do bad on that test...ill die. lol
I still have chem and crap to do. But I can do that in the morning.Time for cough medicane..wooo...Blah...grossness.
Anywho...it's weird. I find I have more to write about when I'm alla lone doing close to nothing. Lol. It's Cwazy.
My parents said they dont want me going to school tomorrow. But I want to. So fake not sick time...funness. I'm glad I took today off though...my biorythm's been telling me to go hide in a corner all week, so it worked. Hehe.
Did I mention that I HATE my brother?! ok...now that thats outta the way...
Okay... I'm gonna go shower I think. See you people tomorrow hopefully.
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2004 11 March :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: sharon osbourne
::squee::
i am overwhelmed with joy
Gir Pillowcase...you have no heart if you dont think this is cute
Mister Spooky!!!
so...easter's coming...
if you wonder what my icon is...here you go.
I want like everything on this page...even the air freshener!
gasp!...its me
eep! its soo funny!...dont get it....you loser.
ahhh piggy and gir!
okie i think im done.
so i was thinking about something for neil for 1 april cuz its our ten month...
once when we were out for dinner and i made him a heart of the pink sugar packs and
...since i'll be in arizona,
ill frame the pink heart with "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." in the middle...
yup...thats all for today...adios
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2004 10 March :: 11.15pm
:: Mood: sick
No schoool for Trixie Poof
So, I'm not going to school tomorrow. It's a "mental health" day/I'm way behind and need a day to catch up on all this shit day. Too crappy to stay up and study, so I'm gonna study and register for ACTs all day tomorrow. It'll be fun. Two tests to make up...woooo! Well, I know if i go to school, there is no way in hell that I would pass those. So this is better. Is the cast list up yet?? I hope you people who are friends made it. If not, I'll...um...kill the person who got what part you wanted ::nods:: How does that sound? Ok..ok...not KILL maybe just kick severly. lol. Ok...off to bed. I might call some of you tomorrow who i have classes with...doom di doom. Ok night.
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2004 9 March :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: inucbus
thing
want some entertainment?
E-Shrooms
yea.....its a party.....
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2004 9 March :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Audioslave
Blaah
I think I'm getting sick. My head hurts, my throat hurts, and I just feel totally blah. I think I'm gonna finish reading the play, shower, then sleep. Because I don't want to do anything right now.
I need something right now. Like sleep. I don't know why. i felt fine all day.
Good luck at callbacks those of you who made it. You'll do good ::nods:: Cuz I said so. :-)
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