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Beagle147

:: 2004 29 August :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: lethargic

Alright, I know I promised to do this on Friday, but better late than never, right?

Friday was the best day that I have had in a long time. I had no homework due that day, so not only did that mean getting to bed much earlier, but none of that "I didn't do my homework and it's due in 15 minutes" stress. So the day was pretty smooth, until 7th period when the student aid delivered passes for me and Lauren Garroway to the IBO. We left at 2:25 and got there to find an oh-so-familiar setting of a circle of chairs with a few people there. Then I put two and two together. Ms. Kelly came in and offered us donuts and bagels and said "I think you all know by now why you are here." There were a few jokes, "To give us donuts!" But then she said "I want you all to go home tonight and change your resume to include National Merit Semi-Finalist. YAY!!!! Oh man, all that hard work actually paid off for once. We went through the paperwork and all that good stuff. The point is that there's a slim chance now that I will not make finalist, so that's a huge scholarship for me. XD

Friday night was the senior dinner for band. I know a lot of people were not enthusiastic about showing up to a teacher's house, but it was so much fun. After dinner we talked about middle school stuff, and Anderson told us all about how he wet his pants every year through sixth grade. It was hilarious! Then the topic switched to middle school fights, and Anderson told us about how some kid started a fight with his brother, and he was about to "bust out his chain," to which Gabe said "This coming from the kid that wet his pants in sixth grade.." Then we talked a lot about some of the other kids in our class. After/during dessert we got a huge game of that cup thing going, and that was really fun. Then we went into the kitchen and made Anderson step, and then we discovered the background of the Eddy thing and how he didn't know his real name until like third grade. It was good for a few laughs. On our way out, Ms. Crocco gave Amanda 4 baguettes, and we ended up throwing most of them into people's cars and running away. It was just a fun evening. It's refreshing to just get out and have fun with my friends.

Yesterday me, angie, and kristen went to the Marlins game against the rockies. It was hat day, so we had some adventures trying to grift enough visors for all of us, since Rolly took forever getting there. It was a 6:05 start, we got there at 4:20, and we missed the first two innings. We were waiting outside for SO long. But we played this bean bag game and angie won a hat, so even though they were all gone by the time we got in there, we got enough for all of us to have one. So now I have a nice Marlins visor. We also saw Mr and Mrs Lerner before the game. Yeah.. But all in all it's been a pretty good weekend, which is a nice change. I lost this letter from the Youth Orchestra saying that I did 17 CAS hours from fourth on flagler, and I was freaking about that for a while, until finally my mom remembered that I gave it to her to hold onto. Relieved that I found the letter, but pissed that she had it the whole time. But I'm still really excited about National Merit. That's a huge deal for me, I'm so proud of myself. Anyway, yeah.. That's about it. My uncle's in town this weekend, so we went out to dinner tonight. I met my new aunt-ish sort of today. They got married like a month ago in St Martin, his third marriage, her second. So there you have it. The over-under on this marriage is three years. Lemme know if there are any takers.

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sendmemoney

:: 2004 26 August :: 8.48pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: family guy

susanis a winner (8:40:17 PM): oh man
susanis a winner (8:40:20 PM): if you think you love me now
susanis a winner (8:40:25 PM): just wait until sunday rolls around .
--------- (8:40:30 PM): rolls!
--------- (8:40:32 PM): on sunday!
susanis a winner (8:40:33 PM): no no no
--------- (8:40:36 PM): woo!
susanis a winner (8:40:39 PM): that has nothing to do with this
susanis a winner (8:40:40 PM): hahaha

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tboblp

:: 2004 24 August :: 11.16pm

DORM PICS!
Me post-shower at desk...


Will and Alyssa...


Will, Alyssa and Pat...


Me, straight chillin...

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Beagle147

:: 2004 23 August :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Jurrasic 5

Well, it's the third-ish week of school, and I'm pretty much in the groove. And when I say "the groove," I mean I honestly and truly resent my alarm clock each and every day. But school is not that bad this year. Calc was a HUGE disappointment, because I was really really looking forward to having Mr. Will, but it came down to either getting a really good calc instruction and no ib music instruction, or a decent calc instruction and the full ib music instruction. I'll get over not having Mr Will. And it gives me lots more time to play with my etchasketch pen. English seems ok.. a lot of work, but english usually is. French is French. We've doubled our books, but it doesnt appear to be all too difficult. I'm pretty sure I'm running for french club president. Wish me better luck than last year. Let's see...what other classes are there.. ToK hasnt changed. It's just there. Chem is really good. I like organic soo much better than inorganic. Although, get back to me about that in 5 weeks. History I REALLY like this year. I know a lot of the stuff we're talking about, and there isn't quite as much reading. Plus, the material is much less ...mandatory than AP. You only have to know certain things, so the pace is much more relaxed. Think think... I think that's all, right? Tok, French, English, Chem, Band, Calc, History. Yeah, that's all of them. I heard on the news that they're talking about switching starting times second semester. That's fine with me, I'll have a no class first hour, so I'd go in at 10. Yay me. I think that's about it. More later maybe. I have to do something for NHS then do my english. Peace out.

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losttt

:: 2004 18 August :: 12.08am

fuckin summers bout to end fuckity fuck feck. asfugbkhj

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tboblp

:: 2004 17 August :: 8.27pm

Well this is my last night to be had in South Florida, and I'm spending it on Atlantic Ave. I'm gonna miss the fact that the beach is so close but I'm sure I'll find plenty of things in Orlando to take its place. Now I'm off to go listen to some good music, and maybe some poetry...who knows.

Goodbye South Florida, it's been fun.

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tboblp

:: 2004 16 August :: 4.19pm
:: Music: The Doors - When the Music's Over

My life is now sitting in a few boxes in my livning room. It felt kind bad going through the stuff I was gonna bring because as I said no to certain things I felt as if the inanimate objects were getting their feelings hurt of something. So I burnt everything I'm not taking. I have two more nights here, and then it's over...or beginning. hello, I love you.

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tboblp

:: 2004 13 August :: 2.24am

August 13, 2004....check

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tboblp

:: 2004 12 August :: 2.09pm

Is it illegal to posses prescription glasses without a prescription?

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sendmemoney

:: 2004 8 August :: 5.37pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: counting crows ft. vanessa carlton - big yellow taxi

it's like a silent retaliation . an answer to the questions you're yelling at me ... only you'll never hear it , just like you never hear my responses , whether they're said calmly or furiously or frustrated or beautiful and silent . so take this , plus the two from last night , and ignore them because you'll never understand . and forget that i sat and smiled even though you didn't call me down when the guests of honor arrived , and forget that i have barely left the house . notice , instead , that i'm watching television . ask me why the sudden change , although it's neither sudden nor a huge change ; if anything , a return to what used to be . describe to me my value in the fewest amount of words possible . encourage my artistic side . shoot down with filthy words my latest journals or visions of the future . dirty the purest thing i have with your selfish , inconsiderate , rude , unnecessary comments ... i can take it . just leave me the two things i have because it's all i need , and next time you see me comfortable on the couch , be sure to take into account everything i said today , if you ever do take the time to listen .

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sendmemoney

:: 2004 8 August :: 4.31am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: norah jones - don't know why

when you called today , it made me so happy . you're all i see ... everything around you is a blur . you're all i can focus on .

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Beagle147

:: 2004 7 August :: 5.43pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: "In This Diary" -The Ataris

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives


Well, that's it. Band camp is over forever. Oddly enough, it didnt hit me until yesterday that I will never do this again, and oddly, I think I shall miss it a bit. I know band camp is one of the more excruciating experiences of high school, but there is nothing else like it. There's nothing that can form bonds like band camp. When you learn, eat, sometimes sleep, and hang out with the same people more than your own family for a week, strong bonds usually form. If asked to name my closest friends, atleast 3/4 of them would be bandos. It's just how it is. A lot of ex-bandos came back this week. It kinda makes me sad, because I know that I will not stay in touch with many of them. I mean, I just dont have the time and energy to keep up with everyone when I do not see them everyday. It's part of what makes me want to go to uf. IB is so unique in that you meet amazing people and form incredible friendships. That's why I do it. Screw college credits, I could take AP classes at Olympic. But there is not another high school where you could meet people like the people at atlantic. And band just adds to it. No matter how many times you hear it in senior speeches, you have to know that we really are one giant family. I know I could go to a bando with just about anything and they would try to help me out. It's just how it is. Most of the people in band genuinely do care, and that is hard to come by. For all the hours and energy that I have put into band, it's worth it. And it's odd that I say that now, as I still have the wear and tear from band camp, but I don't think I've felt this way after any of the other band camps. I'm pretty optimistic for this year. Although, I did say that last year. But technically we don't have two band directors this year; Ms Crocco is the chorus teacher. So it looks...ok. Other than the fact that the six "Problem Children" (Me, Gabe, Anderson, Adam, Kristen H, and Amalia) are stuck in 6th hour symphonic band. I have a feeling that will work out too. And even if it doesnt, I'm in pretty high spirits about it. This year is stacking up to be my best yet. I dont know why. It's just...it's nice to be a senior. I really didn't think that it was going to be any different, but it really is. Senior priveleges are nice. I have a parking spot, and a good locker. We're having a senior dinner at Ms Crocco's house at the end of August. It's just...it's nice to feel important. We're recognized as the top of the school, and it's nice to feel on the top. I think that, much as I will be happy to move on to the next chapter in my life next year, I will be a little sad to leave ATL behind. And when I say ATL, I do not mean atlantic, I mean the whole thing. It makes sense in my head. It's not the classes or the school. It's all the memories, all the experiences. I'm getting all nostalgic and I don't know why. I guess I'm just bored and have nothing else to write. There will be a different journal on LJ, if you care to read it.

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Beagle147

:: 2004 1 August :: 1.48am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: "Everyday" -Dave Matthews Band

Wow.
I just got home from the best concert ever.

And no, it was not Warped tour. *rolls eyes*

Dave Matthews Band! XD I have been waiting for this concert since April, and it totally lived up to and exceeded my expectations. Our seats were awesome and the show was amazing. I'll do a play by play.

First was some opening act. I dont care who he was. He started about 7:15, and the concert was supposed to start at 8. The point is, as his last song, he brought Dave out and the two of them sang The Maker. That act finished about 7:45, and Dave, Carter, Leroi, Stefan, and Boyd took the stage at about 8:30, but damn was it worth the wait. They played 15 songs, including a 2 song encore, and it was about 2 and a half hours. I wish they were making this show a CD, because I would buy it in a heartbeat. They played almost all of my favorite songs, which is hard to do in just 2 and a half hours. I could recognize and identify almost all of the songs, but there were two or three that I couldn't get. So I will run through the playlist as they did it tonight. I'll put little smiley faces next to some of my favorites. Just cause I can.

-Too Much
-Satelite : )
-What Would You Say ^.^
-Seek Up XD
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-When the World Ends
-Bartender =D
-Rhyme and Reason
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-Ants Marching =D
-Cry Freedom
-Everyday
Now, I must mention that Everyday is not my favorite song, but this was the most awesome concert experience I have ever had. While Boyd was jamming out on his violin solo he started to play #36 right in the middle (Parentheticals to Tylerbob for the correction), and the entire amphitheater clapped along, and then proceeded to sing the "Honey, honey, come and dance with me" part. After Boyd's part when Dave came in and is supposed to, at that point, sing the part the audience was singing, he let us continue to sing his part, and kind of sang backup vocals to us. It was so cool. So after this song, they wrapped up their show with a "Thank you very very much. I hope you all had an enjoyable evening. (Trademark Dave inaudible sound)" So they left and were gone for their usual short while before they usually come out with a 2 song encore. In past concerts that I have seen/heard/been to though, the audience cheers, or sometimes chants, to get them to come back on. Instead of that, we started singing #36 again. For about 5 minutes, you could hear nothing but thousands of people clapping and singing "Honey, honey, come and dance with me." Writing about it just does not do it justice. It's like that scene in Almost Famous where the entire band starts singing Tiny Dancer on the bus. It was just such a cool moment. So about 20 minutes after having left, Dave and the band came back for their 2 song encore. I had been saying that I wanted Warehouse in the encore, but they started with One Sweet World. I figured at that point that they may not do Warehouse because they tend to do a fast song then a slow song and alternate like that. But sure enough, the last song of the night was Warehouse. And then in the middle of Warehouse when the band was jamming, Dave randomly started to sing "Louie Louie". It was awesome. What a great end for the show. Props to DMB. On our way out, I wanted to buy a t-shirt, and kinda felt bad because those lines can get long and I was holding everyone else up, but I went on the side of the line to look at the shirts so I could see which one I wanted before I got up there, and I kinda just moved over instead of going in line. It was mean, but it worked well, and I got out of there with a shirt in like 5 minutes. Go me. So then we drove to Leah's and I grabbed my car and came home, and here I am. I wanted to write down the highlights before I forgot them all. I'm probably going to regret this tomorrow at band camp, but I do not care.

Best concert ever.

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Beagle147

:: 2004 30 July :: 6.09pm
:: Mood: aggravated

I am currently having a long discussion with eun joo about schedules. Apparently, Lerner has screwed with the band schedules. Now symphonic band is sixth hour and wind ensemble is fifth hour. This means that I am pretty much screwed. I have calc fifth hour, so we are now trying to figure out how to do this. Perry says that last year there were three calc classes, mr will and mr power each taught one 5th hour, and mr will taught another one 7th hour. I am hoping that that is the case this year. That way, I could switch band to fifth hour and calc to seventh. Then I could either switch my history to first hour and take euro, switching my tok class to sixth hour, or, according to eun joo, there is a sixth hour history of the americas. We'd have to see. Because ideally, I'd want my no class second semester to be in the afternoon so I could leave early. Hmm.. This is so frustrating, I hate the IBO. Well anyway, I'll post some tentative (and hopeful) schedules below, and you tell me what you think.

Current Schedule
1 -- ToK -- Zappolo
2 -- French IV -- Youngman
3 -- English IV -- Timberlake
4 -- Chemistry III -- Dalsass
5 -- Calculus IB -- Will
6 -- Symphonic Band -- Lerner
7 -- History of the Americas -- Ierace

Possibility #1
1 -- ToK
2 -- French
3 -- English
4 -- Chemistry
5 -- Band
6 -- History of the Americas
7 -- Calc

This would probably work out the best in terms of taking the classes I want. However, I am still on the fence about what history to take.

Possibility #2
1 -- Euro
2 -- French
3 -- English
4 -- Chem
5 -- Band
6 -- ToK
7 -- Calc

This would work out in terms of giving me that afternoon no class I want, as well as putting me in wind ensemble. Hmm...we'll have to see. Or I could just take psych. Kidding! ..Sort of... It sure would make my life a hell of a lot easier.. But I cant because I am a band officer, and I'm not going to do three years of marching band and then quit. Quitting is for quitters. So I guess I will have to talk to lerner on sunday and talk to kelly sometime next week and see what I can work out. *sigh*

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Beagle147

:: 2004 30 July :: 1.25am
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: "Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy" - Big & Rich

Yesterday I got back from Pittsburgh. I had a really good time. Played a lot of Parcheesi and Texas Hold Em and Uno. Let's see....tons of shopping. We went garage sale-ing too. And it was actually kinda cold, which is odd for July, I guess. Sunday I took everyone to the Pirates (that's baseball for all you living in a sports cave) game, and PNC Park (where the Pirates play) is beautiful! And the Pirates won. It was a great time. And I had a Primanti Bros sandwich, which is apparently a Pittsburgh trademark. They put french fries in the sandwich. Later that day we went to a Fountains of Wayne concert at Hartwood Acres. They were alright, but their opening act sucked. We still had a really good time though. I spent a majority of the time walking around with Karen looking for her friend. I saw Marissa Burdett there. That was very strange. You guys have no idea what I'm talking about, but I don't care. She's 14 now...I didn't even recognize her. She doesnt really remember me, but I would not exactly expect her to. Tuesday night my Aunt Pam held a band parents meeting at their house. Mrs. Burdett was there because Justin is a trumpet player. She wanted to see me, so I made a short appearance in the living room and was introduced by my aunt before the rest of us went out for ice cream. Shortly after we got back, the meeting ended, and Mrs. Burdett came to talk to me a little. It's a weird feeling, hard to describe. It was extremely nice to talk to her again. I tried to find her and her husband at the concert, because I knew they were there, but there were hundreds of people there. It's just weird. Sometimes I feel like I have two lives, because everything in Pittsburgh is the same. No one moves. No one is forgotten. Nothing changes. It's like a time capsule from when I was four, except the children have grown. It's honestly sometimes painful to go back. I was very close to asking my aunt to drive me over to cashley court to see my old house, but I could not bring myself to do it. But it was nice to catch up with Mrs Burdett. She asked me what I was planning on doing after high school, and I told her I was still shooting for veterinary medicine and she was not surprised in the least. She just kinda went oh yes, that's you. That's always been you, since you were three years old. It was nice to have someone so familiar. That family is like the only people outside of my family who have known me for so long that I actually have talked to. It's cool. I still have not seen justin for like 10 years though; he was at Penn State this week. I'm also applying to Penn State I think. I was sort of on the fence about it, but I think I have decided. I only have 4 other schools that I'm applying to, and it will be nice to have one more acceptance letter. That sounds a lot worse than how I meant it, but you know pretty much if you can get into a school or not. I can probably get some money from them too. We'll have to see. My mom says Penn State is a lot like UF except they get a lot of snow. Mrs Burdett told me that Justin was not even considering it until he went up this week for like a computer thing. Now she says he loves it. We'll have to see how the cards play out, but it will atleast be good to keep my options open. Anyway...back to my trip. Saturday was the family reunion, and that was one of my favorite parts of my visit. Not many people came, but we all had a good time. I cannot say that I had ever really had a real conversation with my cousin (sort of) Paul, but he's a cool guy. He's just 8 years older than me, exactly...I found out last weekend that he and I share a birthday, so there has not been much over the years that we have had in common, but now I have grown up, and he has not. He, myself, and Karen went into the kitchen and had about an hour discussion mostly about Harry Potter, as well as spiderman and passion of the christ. It was nice to have a good discussion about Harry Potter, since not many of my friends have read it or are as big fans as I. And others who are....we just dont really talk about it that much. *shrug* But it was really a fun conversation. I'm writing this down now, so that I can get it recorded down as my own idea. I came up, during this conversation, that the reason that Petunia is such a bitch is that she was either rejected or expelled or something of the sort from Hogwarts. We were discussing the origin of the howler to petunia, I forget exactly what it said, it’s been a long time since I’ve read the book. But we sort of came to the consensus that the howler was from dumbledore. But then Paul brought up the point of petunia caring for and protecting harry. Why does she care? She does not seem to care that her sister and brother in law are dead. What connection does she have to harry that she did not share with lily? It’s an interesting query. So I guessed that she has some sort of bribe or something maybe? But I seriously think that she had her shot at magic and screwed it up somehow, which is why she was so infuriated and jealous at her parents’ pride when her sister got her letter. Or maybe she just comes from a magical family, which would explain why her parents even knew enough about hogwarts to be proud, and is a reject since she has no magical abilities? Who knows... Yeah. So anyway... I’m trying to think of other highlights of the trip. We watched a lot of movies. Bennie and Joon, Spiderman 2, Bowling for Columbine (sorry Gary!), Forest Gump, and I think that was it. We never got around to seeing Rounders. We spent a good deal of time watching family guy, though, which is just great. I think we watched When You Wish Upon a Weinstein like 12 times. Hilarious, but soooo politically incorrect. Let’s see....what else...I can’t really think of anything else to write about. It was just generally fun to hang out up there. Hopefully sometime soon they can come down, since they havent been down here since 1994. We’ll see.

I can’t believe that this summer is almost over. Like normally it’s the usual “oh, the summer was too short, I still dont want to go back to school, blah blah blah” but seriously, this was NOT two months!! I am like in denial here or something. I refuse to believe that band came is next week. That’s just rediculous. It’s a cocoustic travesty!! (dont ask) I have one more summer thing left, which is the Dave Matthews concert Saturday, which I am TOTALLY psyched for, but the next day I have to go to band camp. I mean seriously...what the hell. I am going through all the stages of back to school denial though. I ignored its impendingness at first, now I’m just pissed about it.

Oh, and while I am thinking about it, my mom greeted me at the airport with some interesting news. Palm Beach County has passed a new thingy for high schools. The first and third Wednesday of every month, we go in at 10:30. How bout dem apples..

The schedule came today in the mail. It's incorrect, again, because of band. Band, in four years, has never been right on the first draft of my schedule. I have changed my schedule atleast once, probably atleast twice every year. I know it was twice or more the last two years, but freshman year is kinda fuzzy. So anyway, here's the schedule, as it sits now.

Tok -- Zappolo
French IV -- Youngman
English IV -- Timberlake
Chemistry III -- Dalsass
Calculus -- Will
Band -- Lerner
History of the Americas -- Ierace

Honestly, I kinda like a lot of the schedule as it sits. I like having band sixth hour, even though it doesn't exist, because then I could just leave school straight from there since I'm gonna be parking in the band lot. But oh well. I guess it's not really that big. I want to try to move ToK to sixth or seventh hour so that when I have my no class second semester it can just go right into the afternoon without really affecting my schedule. I could have a no class in the morning, but I'd honestly rather leave at 1:00 every other day rather than get there at 8:30 every day. Dont ask me why. I know it's an hour more sleep every morning, but...yeah, I dunno, it'd be nice to leave early instead. So anyway, that's how it stacks up. I would be asking everyone how their schedules match up, but it doesnt really matter since this will not be the schedule I follow on the 11th. Eh, C'est la vie.

Will is still in Europe. He finished up his classes in Avignon, and is now just touring Europe. Today I think he is in Florence, but tomorrow he leaves for Milan. Then he’ll jump around between Italy, France, Spain, and Switzerland before coming home August 9. I know I’ll retract this 2 hours after he gets home, but I kind of can’t wait for him to get back. Our relationship has improved a lot since we dont see each other 9 months out of the year. I recommend to every brother/sister relationship to kick one of them out of the house. It works out rather nicely.

Ok, folks, that’s all for now. I’ll probably post sometime this weekend letting you know how the concert and band meeting go, and then it’s off to senior year. This year better go as fast as they tell me it does. I am so psyched to get out of here. I can’t wait till college decisions come in, which doesnt happen until like april, but still. And I also know for the most part where I will and wont get in, and I havent even started my applications yet. I still also have to finish up the school work. Oops. Oh well, just blame it on senioritis. This is an extremely long post, better end it now. Over and out.

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