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2004 2 January :: 2.15pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: Link80 - Killing Katie
I woke up today and decided to be optimistic. I swore to myself that this would be the year of A.J.
Two-thousand three was a horrible year for me. Everything that could have gone wrong did, and everything that could have made me depressed and feel like shit did too. So by my logic, 2004 should be just the opposite. I'm going to be graduating, and going off to college pretty soon. Just the nature of those two events should offset two-thousand three's shit-ness. I really can't wait to start college. Maybe I can make some real friends there. But back to what I was saying; to make 2004 better, I need to abide by these things I resolve to do.... that I thought of doing after New Years.....
1. Eat healthier. Pizza and french fried no longer count as lunch.
2. Go to the gym atleast three times a week. Marching band is over, so I have no excuses for not going.
3. Be nice to everyone. Especially the people I hate.
4. Talk more.
5. Play my horn atleast an hour a day. More preferrably.
6. Get a car.
7. Get a license.
8. Clean my room atleast once a week.
9. Invite people over to chill.
10. Throw a madd party.
...and I'm done.
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2003 31 December :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Chick Corea
Another sad new years..
I dont have anyoen to chil with tonite. It's cool though. I'm getting used to being lonely, and not having any real friends. I spent all of last week in New Jersey. I wish I was still back there. I felt wanted there. I had an awesome time at a TCNJ party. Bent beyond belief. Fun shit. I came back on Sunday. Had nothing to do. I've done nothing but play Vice City. Awesome Christmas present. I'm rambling. This post is pretty worthless. Like me. Well I'm out.
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2003 28 December :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: anything with hot bass ... mmm
*sigh* i don't know why i waste my time . honestly .
in other news , best new friends ever . party people , on the floor . haha . how can every day be the best party ever ?! it just is .
in other news , most amazing system ever . even if you've heard systems before . baller ? i know , i know .
spend new years eve the way you'll be spending the new year ... at the biggest party ever . mmm ! hialeah gardens , you know what's up .
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Beagle147
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2003 26 December :: 2.31pm
:: Mood: anxious
Ok, I'll update again. Holidays were fine. Thanks everyone for asking. I got a camera lens (shocker) and some other stuff. A necklace that I had admired at the mall surprisingly made its way under my tree. It's not like a diamond or anything, it's silver, but I like it. I'll show you all at school. Remind me. I got a lot of warm clothes too for when I go to Pitt. Will gave me a fiber optic dolphin lamp. It's cool. That's about it. All in all, christmas was rather disappointing. Don't get me wrong. It's got nothing to do at all with the presents. I didn't want anything that I didn't get; mostly because I wanted about 2 things. Well, I didn't get a car, but you know... Can't set my hopes too high. But this year I have just totally lost my enthusiasm for Christmas in general. I'm just like ehh, it was here, now it's over. We didn't decorate the house at all, not even putting ornaments on the tree, only lights. I just don't know what's wrong with me, I love Christmas. But I'm thinking that maybe it's because I have so much to look forward to right now that are better than christmas. I'm looking forward more to going to PA than I normally am for Christmas, and before last week I was looking forward to break more than I normally am for Christmas. So maybe it's not that I've lost my enthusiasm for Christmas, but it is diminished by other things going on? Dunno. I've just been pondering it. I've been doing everything I can to get myself in the Christmas spirit. Listening to Christmas music and stuff. Maybe it's because there weren't gifts to look forward to since the only thing I really wanted I went out and bought for myself. But it's not just the gifts. It's always just Christmas in general. Just seems to not be there.
But I'm sure that it will be tomorrow. Tomorrow will be great. My family up there has a real tree. And a fireplace. And..snow. Hopefully. I'll see snow while I'm there I'm sure, because if all else fails we'll drive 45 minutes to the nearest ski resort. Plus, at Wildwood Highlands they create their own snow if there isn't any real snow because they run snow tubing. Wildwood Highlands, by the way, is Pittsburgh's answer to Boomers. But there's a big hill outside where you can go snow tubing in the winter. Good stuff. So perhaps that's it. Maybe the lack of "Real Christmas" as far as I see it for the past 11 years has drained my enthusiasm for it. That's what I'm going to tell myself.
Aside from that, Christmas was pretty enjoyable. Granparents came for dinner. Yep. As promised, I'll give you a picture from the dogs and their matching Christmas tee-shirts, and then I believe I will bid you farewell until I return from Pittsburgh. I may be able to write a woohu entry while I'm up there, but their computer is currently down. I will have my cell phone, don't hesitate to call. I have no roaming charges. See you on the flip side!

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2003 25 December :: 12.49am
Merry Christmas
light up my day.
light up my eyes.
light up my life.
so i hope sometimes you think about me. i know i think about you. i want these days to be great. i wish i knew how to heal time.
and make mistakes only of glory. but whats said is said. and whats done is done.
so now i'll be on my way.
this is a new day.
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Beagle147
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2003 22 December :: 9.52pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: "It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas"
YAY! Look at my new woohu icon! It's my baby! Well, not actually my baby like Amy's baby, but just as good...perhaps better. That's right. I said it. Dogs are better than babies.
My poor Sasha had to go to the vet today because she's been limping. She has hip dysplasia and has had bilateral Femoral Head Ostectomy, which, well, you probably don't want to know what that is. If you want to know, the veterinarian in me will gladly explain it to you. o.~ Anyway, it makes it so her hips can't dislocate anymore, but sometimes I think it just gets swollen and bothers her. So we took her to the vet for an anti-inflammatory shot and she got some medicine, as well as some leftover medicine just incase it acts up again. So she has five days of medicine to get her better now, and five days in reserve. Must remember where I put the bottle. So anyway, she was very brave and everyone loves Sasha at the vet. Molly works there, and I have been there so often lately between annual checkups, Hershey's initial checkup thing and now this, Molly was like Lauren, what are you doing to your dogs?? Haha, I swear, it's not me! So we took the two of them to Petsmart this evening to reward her for being so good at the vet. She's better at getting shots than I am. But I felt so bad for her. Dr. Boss had to like rotate her hip to see what's wrong and she just shot him this look like hey, HEY!! HEY! STOP! But she still licked him anyway. She never gets mad at the vets. She got compliments there too from people in the lobby. They said she's pretty and soft and one lady said she has pretty eyes. Hehe, it's like complementing my kid.. But at petsmart later we got Sasha a new toy and got the two of them matching Christmas shirts that say "A Little Bit Naughty But A Whole Lot Nice". So cute. I'll take a bunch of pictures of the two of them matching later and post them up here. This will have to hold you over till then.
The Dynamic Duo....At Play!


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2003 21 December :: 4.44pm
My Dad let me open a "present" because It needs some preparation, and he got me two club level tickets to the Panthers v. Flyers game on friday January 2nd! And a $25 gift certificate to Bru's room!! Amazing! Now I expect you all to battle to the death for my extra ticket...or we could do this King Lear style...who loves me more?
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2003 20 December :: 2.36pm
by monday I'll have new tires, too bad they'll be pieces of crap. This means I'll have to cancel the super nintendo get together because Ill be "on call" all day.
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2003 20 December :: 11.43am
:: Mood: None
:: Music: Da da dee dee daaa.
Ok, ok! I'll update!
Let's see...what's been going on... a lot actually.
Last week, or what I think was last week, my cat ran away. I was surprisingly upset. The cat is actually good now that we have multiple dogs. Every addition we make to the pet population in our house, the cooler the cat gets. She likes to sit in bed with me while I'm reading. She used to hate me. I don't know what happened. Now she hates everyone but me. She doesn't even really like my mom anymore as much. Oh great. Now I have a cat. So anyway, my mom left the window open, I think thursday night, and the cat popped out the screen and ran out. I was really pissed because my mom knows that the cat pops out screens, and she still left the window open wide enough for her to fit through. But I was even more pissed off friday morning before school when I had her cornered in a neighbor's yard, and my mom let the dogs out back. And of course, they barked. So I didn't get the cat back until three days after she left, when I got the idea to leave the garage door open a little bit, mostly so she could have somewhere to sleep. I went to the store with will and left the garage door open, and tried to close it except a little when we got back, but it was being gay and wouldn't just stop where I wanted it to, so I closed it. About 2 hours later I went into the garage to get something and there was the cat! So I picked her up and put her inside. She was so dirty. I went the next day and bought her a collar with a tag. I wasn't so nervous when she was gone that she was going to get hit by a car as much as I thought someone else might have brought her into their house. So now she has a little red collar that reflects just like the dogs' do. And a gold tag with her name and our phone number. Now if anyone finds her, they'll know she's someone's cat and they won't keep her. It's so weird that every time the cat leaves I like her more. I guess it's one of those things that you don't know what you got till it's gone. It's just that I've had her since first grade, and it would suck for her to just be gone like that. As it turns out though, the collar looks really cute on her. Pic to come later.
Let's see...what else happened.. We went carolling last friday at Bethesda. (We being french club) There was this little boy there who was 9 years old, he came out into like the lobby place all hooked up to an iv and in his pjs, and he's like "I just wanted to say thank you for the toys." AWWWW!! Omg, everyone there just melted. He was the cutest little boy ever, and we felt so bad that he was in the hospital. There were all these little babies there too. So sad..
Three weeks after getting Hershey, she's finally waking up. That dog has slept more in these three weeks than I have since school started. She's nuts. But now she's opening up a little, even playing with sasha. It's fun to watch, because Sasha has a good 20 pound advantage. My mom's all paranoid though because they're growling. She thinks they're fighting. So I tell her Mom, you would know if they were fighting because Sasha would walk back in the room with a limp beagle in her mouth. Seriously though people...who do you think would win a fight? A beagle or a pit bull/rottweiler/retriever? Honestly...she could take out a beagle in three minutes if she wanted. Which is why we're glad she doesn't want to. She wouldn't hurt anything. Well, actually, I take that back. When will messes with me, she stands right there and barks and growls until he lets go. She hasn't bit him though, because it's such a conflict of interest. She knows will is in our family, and that my parents would be upset if he died, but I'm telling you, if anyone ever messed with me, they'd regret it. She backs me up whenever. Some people she just doesn't like too. When some people come to the door like to fix our air conditioner or something she'll just sit next to my dad and growl until they leave. But I guess she doesn't see them as an immediate threat...I have no doubt that if she thought any of us were in danger she'd....respond. There's the difference right there between all those small teacup whatever dogs and real dogs, whoops, I mean big dogs.
We put up our tree yesterday. I hate fake trees.
I got registered for my PBCC class. Finally. I had to go take the CPT (College Placement Test) before they would let me register. What a joke. I got like a perfect score on it...because I'm literate. PBCC people... They told Jonide when she took it that her scores were so good that she should be in honors community college! Whoo! Forget UPenn! I'm going to honors PBCC! *Rolls eyes*
Let's see...what other small academic accomplishments have there been.. OH! History. I got my first A in hall's class ever! Rock! On wednesday, he also found out for the first time that I'm related to will. It was so weird. He was asking about who in the class had siblings that he had also taught, and he went around the room and sorta skipped me, and kristen told me to raise my hand higher. He looked at me for a minute, and he looked so confused. "Sister?" "No...Will." "OHH!! Will! The golfer, right?" "Yea." "How is he?" "OK" "What school did he end up going to?" "He goes to UF." "He still golf?" "Yep." Weirdest thing ever. Every single one of my teachers that had will have figured it out. Whatever.. Anyway, yes, I got a 90 on my dbq and he wrote "One of your best efforts!" under the grade. But don't worry, this small accomplishment is not enough to actually make me like history. Yuck. I got a B on the chem exam. Pretty good. I only needed a D, but I was still happy because it gave me more hope for the AP exam. That's the only grade that I know though. Chem was B B B across the board. Not too bad.
Finally got PSAT scores back. Damn. I am exactly where I did not want to be. I am the exact score that was the cut off from last year. Stupid college board. It's still good though. 1380 predicted SAT scores. I'll need to raise that a tad, but it's good. It was funny because underneath the scores they give you ways to improve your score in that section, and for writing they're like "...We have nothing to say. Keep it up, and, uh, continue to challenge yourself in this area by taking honors and AP classes." Yea, they're a little late. But it was funny that they had nothing to say but still had to write something. Haha, I laughed at them. Speaking of college board...must remember to register for SATs. Someone remind me cuz the deadline is the 22nd.
I got an email yesterday. It made me happy. (before you ask, I get emails every day, it's because of the person who sent it)
People, talk to me about your schedules for Monday/Tuesday. We'll see if we can actually get this thing up and running.
My brain is so fucked up. Thanks for listening to the rambling amanda.
o.0
Here's the cat with her new collar.

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2003 20 December :: 12.15am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Lagwagon
She was standing there, looking like her world had just been crushed.
She was cute. The cutest sad girl I've ever seen.
I enjoyed your company.
You enjoyed mine.
I walked away from you.
She was sitting behind us.
I had never went up to a girl I did not know and introduced myself.
I made that my plan.
She was sad.
You were singing happily.
Your shirt was cute.
Her shirt said "peace".
You love to fight.
I am passive.
I sat down next to her, with two feet between us.
I looked at her.
She looked back.
I smiled.
She smiled.
I am very shy.
I could tell that she was too.
I exchanged glances with her.
She exchanged glances with me.
You were starting to get lonely by yourself.
I worked up enough nerve to go talk to her.
She was waiting for me to say something.
I was just about to say "hi", what I had done with my eyes and smiles I could now imitate with my lips.
You sat down between me and her.
You were smiling like I wanted her to.
I could have brightened her day.
I could have gotten over my fear.
You put your head on my shoulder.
She knew something was up.
She walked away more distraught than before.
Her world was now even more crushed.
She was now infront of us.
She couldn't see what we were doing.
She didn't want to see.
Her heart was broken even more.
You kissed me.
I kissed you back.
I felt guilty.
I made your night.
I was your perfect guy.
I wanted to be her perfect guy.
I made you happy.
You were the wrong person.
I could have been her world.
She could have been mine.
She was gone.
She was no longer in my sight.
She did not want to be.
You ruined it.
I could have been happy.
She could have been happy.
I looked happy.
You were happy.
But I was empty inside.
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2003 19 December :: 12.43pm
what can i say. nothing to talk about today
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2003 15 December :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: jennifer lopez ft. ll cool j - all i have
hahaha ohhh man . what a day and it's only 12:26 p.m. I GOT A C IN CALCULUS . fuck yea , man . and after my music technology grade gets put in , i'll have a 4.2 GPA . mmmmmmm hot ? you know it . and yea ... you never know what the future will bring , only what the past has given you . <3
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2003 14 December :: 7.41pm
Sometimes I'm just sick of it.
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2003 11 December :: 10.16pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: CS&N - Suite: Judy Blue Eyes
You guys rock! Well...no not you, but everyone else!
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2003 9 December :: 8.01pm
All I want for christmas is a Skyline GT-R. i only need like one dollar...from 90,000 people.
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