<b>...stars dont always shine forever...<b>

:: 2004 2 February :: 3.27pm
:: Music: Led Zeppelin- The Lemon Song

hmmm
i had no idea that it was ground hogs day, today until 6th hour.

5 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 1 February :: 8.42pm

Untitled-
2-1-04

Standing under the moonlight
Just gazing into your eyes
Was like a dream come true
Being in your arms
Underneath the stars
Has never felt better
A thousand words
Were said that night
In just one sweet look
That swept me off my feet
Made my eyes well up with tears
And put a smile on my face

:: 2004 1 February :: 8.28pm

Driving 84...
12-4-03

Driving 84 on a cold snowy night
Speeding out of here because me and my boy got in a fight
Slam on my brakes because I almost hit a deer
Almost shit myself because of the fear

Kidnapped my sister along on the ride
All my secrets I confide
Start singin' songs together
Because we'll be sisters forever

So back to the problem with the boy
His ex bitch, he just can't deploy
Back and forth he's in limbo
Why pick her, she's the bimbo

So here I am, balling my eyes out
When all I wanna do is SHOUT!
He's breakin my heart, can't he see
Will she ever just leave us be

Driving 84 on a cold snowy night
Driving back with him in sight
Im gonna put an end to this confusion
And we'll try to form a conclusion

He'll forget her and stay with me
We'll be together happily
We're driving 84 on a cold snowy night
He's taking me to a place to be out of sight

He'll buy me a ring and a single rose
Got on one knee so he could propose
Once again, Im driving 84 on a cold snowy night
I think everything is gonna be alright

Walk down the aisle and stand in white
Holding back these tears I have to fight
I can tell we're happy now
From all the words from his vow

Driving 84 on a cold snowy night
Now I know everything will be alright

:: 2004 31 January :: 12.35pm
:: Music: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs- Maps

im going to swirl. because all my friends are gonna be there. im going alone (by choice) and i am not dancing. i get to listen to shitty music and see all the whores in our school..dress even more slutty than usual. so yes, i am going and i am not excited. at all.

9 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 29 January :: 6.16pm

The little things
1-29-04

Its the little things
That help me realize
The feelings that grow
Deep inside of me
When I get scared
Run away from something
Or cry for no reason
Its the little things
That get me through it
Those litting things
Come from your heart
They're the things you do
Without intending to

Its not finished.. but yeah..

:: 2004 29 January :: 6.05pm
:: Music: Tool

hang yourself, shoot yourself in the head, set yourself on fire..i dont care what you do to kill yourself..just do it.
well..today was the first day, in a long time i have gotten seriously pissed off. it takes a lot to make me mad but somehow the assholes in cedar manage to pull it off.

first..i hate inconsiderate assholes. why is making fun of someone so funny? because it makes you look funny and makes other people laugh? fuck you. find a new hobby asshole. yes, its ok to make fun of one of your friends, like in a joking way. but just to make someone else feel like shit. not ok.

i thought we were all past that. yes, i am immature..but not in that way.

grow the fuck up and while your doing that..die.

also..if you're gonna be my "friend" try to stick up for me and not say im stupid when im argueing with a complete dumbass.

rant is over...now go die. now. seriously. go.

13 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 25 January :: 6.59am
:: Music: Brand New

uhh..
it is so easy to type. but when its going on 7 and you havent slept at all..it is extremely difficult..

yeah..it took me about 5 minutes to type that correctly. seriously.

:: 2004 24 January :: 10.01pm
:: Music: The Used

this weekend kicked my ass.
yeah. so we went to the mall (lisa and i) and we picked up these hot guys. it was funny shit..we never got their number..damnit. stupid ass. fuck. shit. im done..anyways..the kid fell down trying to get us. hah.

now im at lisas. with mishy here as well. *looks around* I saw a guy dancing in a pizza suit today. yeah..im done.

13 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 23 January :: 5.03pm

all i would like to say is the edition of Hawk Talk today was one of the stupidest things i have ever seen. the whole "clique" thing. yeah..that pissed me off. a lot. so whoever wrote that..go to hell.

13 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 18 January :: 8.05pm

i kinda copied kates idea with the quotes thing..i found it interesting..
some random quotes and short conversations that were said throughout the year (some are very recent)

Read more..

11 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 17 January :: 5.57pm

just so you know..
if you are going to chat with me on msn..heres some hints.

if i am..
away-im really not away..im just talking to a lot of people and i dont want to talk to you. so go away.
busy-i dont like you or i am playing a game and should not be bothered for any reason.
out to lunch-im being a dumbass and saying im out to lunch when im really not..just to make myself laugh.
on the phone- i tricked you. because i have shitty dial-up so i cant be on the phone. ha.
be right back-i am actually not at the computer.
online-i am extremely desperate and i need someone to talk to me.

and i am done.

5 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 13 January :: 9.06pm

Never realized for a moment
How beautiful it is
Outside that tiny little box
That ordinary people see
But never actually leave
So many restrictions
And feelings just waiting
To tear me apart
If I go near the edges
So I sit in the center
With my head
Tight to my knees
Fear has taken over
And filled my head
With frightening illusions
Of what the outside world
Could very well be like
Voices start talking to me
Cant tell where they're coming from
Pulling at my hair
And screaming in fright
I stand up and make a run for it
Finally leaving the tiny little box
Realizing they were just lines
Taped on the floor of the asylum
As I'm looking around
People in white jumpsuits
Are walking towards me
Pinning me on the ground
Pulling the restraints tighter
I scream as loud as I can
But they dont let up
So I try even harder
To wiggle my way out
But they just wont let go
So I just lay there
As they move me to the bed
I look around for an escape
Only to see a man with a needle
I try to fight him off
With the little strength I have left
As he injects the sedative
Childhood thoughts start flooding my mind
Running short of air, I close my eyes
Suddenly I realize what he had given me
My heart beat, gradually decreasing
With every breath I fight to take

Theres more, but it has a twist.. so if you want to read it.. let me know...

4 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 13 January :: 3.22pm

Awakening from a bad dream
I feel the burning in my heart
Dont want to believe it
But the dream has come true
You've left me all alone
Without a single goodbye
A thousand tears have been shed
Several months gone by
I guess this is what I get
For loving you, for loving at all
Still lay awake at night
Asking myself why you left
And my heart starts beating
Flashbacks of your sweet kisses
Start flooding my mind
Breaking out into a cold sweat
Falling to my knees
As I scream your name
The beating of my heart
Suddenly slows to nothing

...I need a different ending.. Any suggestions, or idea's?

2 *ride*s | *ride my star*

:: 2004 13 January :: 3.12pm
:: Music: The Beatles-Let it Be

today sucked. a lot. yeah.

im not gonna update for awhile or be online much anymore...it only causes fights for me..so i guess practicing on guitar and focusing on exams will take up any spare time.

4 *ride*s | *ride my star*