Unknown Alice.

:: 2016 16 December :: 3.03pm

as a teenager i was the pizza face d'jour

:: 2016 13 December :: 10.18pm

kinda disappointed in myself that only one person got a hand made gift this year!

just bought a bunch of things on the interwebs..

having the hardest time figuring out what to get him. i found this great t shirt. want to get him some band or guitar stuff.. but worried it won't do.

maybe ill make a pick jar.

:: 2016 13 December :: 2.08pm

you'll pretend that i can see you
and i'll pretend that you're the one

because that's what we want.

but no one ever can really see you. it's not your face they see in the mirror.

:: 2016 11 December :: 9.50am

Dreams remind me how much I hate you. How you've spoiled little things for me.

:: 2016 10 December :: 4.52pm

Everything about you is fake

:: 2016 9 December :: 8.55am

:: 2016 8 December :: 11.56pm

i made the cutest "ugly sweater" for work tomorrow.

im so jazzed to wear it i could pop!

i also made lemon bars. they turned out alright.

:: 2016 8 December :: 6.20pm

It takes people time to learn what's right and wrong, to learn how to be a better person. For some, it takes longer than it does for others. That's what life is. It's a journey. It's you, being put in tons of different types of situations so you can grow and improve and change.

I'm resolving to accept this process. For most of my life I've heald a grudge. A grudge against this person or that person. A grudge against those who I perceived to have slighted me. A grudge against my past, my future, the whole world - the world that wronged me. I am ready to shake that grudge off. I am ready to let go of that deamon, hate, that has been eating me alive for all this time. I don't want to be angry anymore. I want to be happy. I don't want to harbor so much resentment, mostly for people who don't even think of me. I want to embrace the love I feel every day from those who show it. I want to hold onto the good in the world. I may not be the smartest person or the most beautiful person or the richest person or the best mannered person, but I am a great person. I am a good person. And I definitely have the best family in all the world. I have the best support system I could ever have - with a family willing to help me in any way possible every day and wonderful friends that warm me with their company and smiles and hugs everytime I see them. That is love. I know the truth in that love. I feel excited for the prospect of improving. I feel ready to accept this new, interesting challenge and greet it with a heart full of love. I welcome all the joy and laughter, singing and dancing, friendliness and opportunities this new outlook on life will have.

Quickly as a child I learned to be humble and gracious when accepting my achievements. It has taken me a very long time to feel as though I've accomplished anything. But I have. I have a great living space that I can afford by means of a very cool job at a world-impacting company. I have all the world resting at my feet and I cannot wait to see where it will take me :) i treasure this realization very deeply and hope it carries me to a realm of personal understanding and acceptance.

:: 2016 6 December :: 9.23am

winter sucks la la laaaaa

:: 2016 30 November :: 9.29pm

I'm an adult. And I can blow $1500 on a lappy if I want to.

Fuck yo' couch.

:: 2016 30 November :: 12.15pm

dear jamie, there are some things i'd like to set in pen. i would have used a pencil but lead's just not permanent.

:: 2016 26 November :: 1.33pm

How are you supposed to meet new friends and enjoy new things when all you like to do is sit at home and binge watch Netflix and play old school video games?

:: 2016 22 November :: 6.06pm

it's kinda funny my favorite pipe is a lefty.

i was listening to let's go crazy today. it made me wonder what if this is heaven? and where ever we came from before was much worse? we just don't know the difference.

tried to bleach some chunks into my hair, but the developer i used wasn't a strong enough level, so it barely did anything. ill redo it in a few days, but i'm upset i damaged it for what is virtually nothing.

all i know is that this four day weekend will taste even better than my bacon dinner. so so so ready to not be at work for a while. it seems like i never get enough time away.

:: 2016 19 November :: 4.18am

fuck u