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2005 26 March :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: The 21st - Blue October
reach, reach for the girl..
pouring rain, doughnut morning
it's raining, and all you can think of is Her.
a box of doughnuts runs across your mind,
it's chasing hotel key cards, and firey bathing suits.
your mind returns to the moment of the first.
you can almost hear snoring in the next bed...
your thoughts wander down empty hallways,
listening to the sound of Her voice.
all these memories seared into your brain forever.
two months without Her looms ahead,
if only you could rewind,
and pause life on the morning of pouring rain and doughnuts
(c) hols 2005
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2005 25 March :: 11.06pm
"I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff---I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all."
I want to be the catcher in the rye, too.
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2005 25 March :: 10.57pm
Goddam money. It always ends up making you blue as hell.
I finished The Catcher in the Rye. It took me less than a day.
I really love that book. I'm going to read it again tonight before I go to bed.
I love Holden. I want to marry him and take care of him.
I love you all.
"Don't tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody"
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2005 25 March :: 3.55pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Mess With Your Mind by Everyday Sunday
It's grand that after a book like A Farewell to Arms, we're reading The Catcher in the Rye. It makes me like AP Lit a little bit. Except I know we're not going to talk about this book half as much as we talked about Hemingway's.
You'd like it. It's not phony at all.
It's hilarious.
The book is so awesome. It's not anything you have to struggle with either.
You should see how Holden talks about people! It's awesome.
I love Holden Caulfield. Boy! He's grand.
I love you all.
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2005 24 March :: 2.16pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Ghost of a Good Thing - Dashboard Confessional
it's getting away from you again, while you're chasing ghosts..
i found my old icon.
::grin::
so, my journal is back to looking as it did for so very long.
except that i changed the title and the text for the comments.
because tis much too late to have a happy childhood.
yeah.
spring break has been quite lonely.
but it rained today.
and justin will be back tomorrow.
just two and a half more hours until my spring break is over.
yeah..They're taking tomorrow off.
ugh.
but ive got a computer in my room.
so i've decided i'll get on tomorrow morning when i wake up.
haven't dont much this break.
didn't even get my photography archive up on antishift (sorry heather).
well..i think i'll get on the other computer (we got a new one) and see if napster is working.
blehhh.
<3
-holly-
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2005 23 March :: 10.54pm
:: Mood: meh
My goal for the rest of the year (all 1 and a half months of it) is to get kicked out of Mr. Watson's AP Lit class.
I'm really beginning to despise both the man and the class.
Plus, I've never been in trouble for anything at school.
I might as well aim high.
I love you all.
P.S. I'm in one of those moods where I'm really tempted to delete everything in this journal and rip up every word I've written.
P.P.S. And slice up my arm but that's not going to happen.
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2005 17 March :: 10.11pm
I love you all, you know that right?
You all are totally awesome.
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2005 16 March :: 7.03pm
I love this man. (I'm on a Smiths/Morrissey stint)
In October 2004, Morrissey released a politically charged statement urging American voters to vote against George W. Bush for President. Morrissey's statement was: "With all my heart I urge people to vote against George Bush. Jon Stewart would be ideal, but John Kerry is the logical and sane move. It does not need to be said yet again, but Bush has single-handedly turned the United States into the most neurotic and terror-obsessed country on the planet. For non-Americans, the United States is suddenly not a very nice place to visit because US immigration officers — under the rules of Bush — now conduct themselves with all the charm and unanswerable indignation of Hitler's SS. Please bring sanity and intelligence back to the United States. Don't forget to vote. Vote for John Kerry and get rid of George Bush!"
Don't read this part.
Read more..
I love you all.
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2005 16 March :: 6.19pm
I went to my first official play practice today.
I have three or four more scenes that I'm going to be in but I already have a line and a stage movement that places me right in front of everything. Oh, and I have a line with a bunch of the other faires too.
I'm Fairy 13. 13 is one of my lucky numbers, too.
This week is taking way too long to end.
I love you all.
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2005 15 March :: 8.33pm
I had my Blockbuster interview today. They pushed it back to 5 because the managers had some meeting or somesuch.
It was short. Really short.
I made the worst mistake ever too because I was nervous. I sat down without being asked or told to. Bleh.
I'll know by Monday if I made the first cut.
Thanks for the well-wishes, everybody.
I love you all.
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2005 14 March :: 9.49pm
I have an interview at Blockbuster tomorrow at 4.
I'm scared to death and really nervous.
It's my first interview ever.
Wish me luck.
I need this job so I can pay for half of my tuition.
And so I can have Nick's cat.
Bleh. I'm scared.
I love you all.
P.S. I laugh.
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2005 14 March :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: We Have Forgotten - Sixpence None The Richer
it's creepy and it works
Take this quiz
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2005 13 March :: 9.13pm
Joel is so amazing, he totally rocks my world to the fucking max.<3
Life is messed up way lots right now.
But it was all good until like this morning.
I havent updated in forever. Mostly things have been good, a few bad things though.
Umm fdkljfkjfg;lfgkj;fjl;drtiroptuiwerjfd,z.
I dont know what else to write............I think I will go to bed now.
<3
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2005 12 March :: 1.30pm
:: Mood: calm
I got a part as a fairy
Last night, I went over to Ben's to hang out with him and Nick. Jackie called Nick's cell around 11 and asked if we wanted to rent a movie and watch it at her house. I was a little tired, Ben said he was going to fall asleep but we all went over anyway.
It was snowing a lot. You could not see the road. We got to Jackie's then went out again to Blockbuster and rented Invader Zim.
Nick and Ben fell asleep fast. I was supposed to be home at 1:30 but Jackie's mom called and said it was snowing very heavily outside and you couldn't see the road. She told Jackie that she didn't want anyone driving home and we were all staying over.
I watched Invader Zim until 3ish. Nick was out pretty quickly (he had to work this morning) and Ben fell asleep pretty fast too. I slept on Jackie's pull out couch bed thing in her basement.
Nick woke me up before he left for work.
I woke up and got up at 11. Jackie dropped me off at home a bit after that.
I tried out for the school play (Midsummer Night's Dream) on Thursday. I made callbacks and they said they'd call if I got a part. They called yesterday while I was gone. I apparently got some fairy part. I'm a little disappointed but a lot relieved because I won't have a whole bunch of lines. I'm excited for the fairy costume and fairy makeup. Yay!
I don't see how I got the part of a graceful fairy with my dorky hobo dance and this song Kelly and I made up about a cat:
There was a cat
(There was a cat)
And he died
(And he died)
But he smelled fish
(But he smelled fish)
And he woke up
(And he woke up)
There was a cat
And he died
But he smelled fish
And he woke up!
Nine months for Nick and me today. I was going to try to get people together to go bowling. Nick's wanted to go bowling for a long time.
I love you all.
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2005 7 March :: 6.33pm
I love my mommy and her Lexapro
I'm not one to take drugs and I tell myself that no matter how I feel, there's no way I'm going to pop a Motrin for a gosh darn headache.
My momma. My mom has this thing (I have it too but I'm brushing it off as teenage jazz until I'm 22) where she gets depressed two weeks or so right around when she gets her period. But my momma had this miraculous thing called surgery and she don't get no Fred no more. She is now in that state that all women dream about: menopause.
But she still gets depressed. I know I've talked about this before. It's not like slit-my-wrists angst depression. She just doesn't want to go anywhere and doesn't want to do anything.
This is the momma I grew up with. I got used to that momma.
But now! My momma is on these pill things called anti-depressants. They make my momma not sad! My momma wants to do things! I love this momma!
So drugs are good. Especially when they make your mother even cooler than she was. Which, frankly, is darn near impossible since my mom was pretty awesome to begin with.
I heart anti-depressants.
I love you all.
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