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2004 24 March :: 6.51pm
:: Music: roseanne theme
shes is so enchanting.
when will this end?
why do i have to be an insane teenager.
please please tell me.
something went wrong, i wont lie to you.
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2004 23 March :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: Pissed!
ARRRG!!
Ok....i hate my stupid dad! I dont know what his problem is! He is being an asshole for NO reason. I just got home, walked in my room and there was a huge pile of stuff in the middle of the floor. This used to be under my bed and on my desk and he decided to take everything and put it in the middle of my room....did i mention he turned over the trash can as well?? WHAT THE FUCK IS HIS DAMN PROBLEM?????? For the past week hes been such a fucking jerk to me! I have no idea what i did to deserve this! He said something about me not respecting him but i dont see how i dont respect him....and he expects me to be all happy and nice to him when he is being a fucking idiot?? YEAH RIGHT!! OMG I HATE HIM!! AHHHHHH!!!!
On a more happy note....today was not that bad. I had fun talking to sam, chris, and julie so all is good...oh i forgot bradLY ha ha ha what a dork.
Julie is going to X-fest with me...YAY! I couldn't go unless someone went with me so im all happy now! :)
Josh and Tony might hang out with us after prom......i really want him to go...Josh more than Tony. Had a real long talk with Josh the other day....it was great...i really like talking to him....alot. But at the same time i hate it b/c i just end up liking him....more....
Why is that? Does he have to be so.....great?? oh man oh man oh man. i can't help it and i'll shut up now :)
.....im suffering from snog withdrawl.....kissing deprivation....ever had that? Where u just need to kiss someone b/c u've been deprived for a while and u just...yeah ok so im a loser what else is new? I wonder if Josh will cure me? I doubt he would even if there was going to be nothing attached to it. oh well so goes life for the single. This blows! alright....im bored now and i think im going to leave and buy the tickets......
Later!
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2004 23 March :: 2.52pm
:: Mood: blah.
:: Music: basketcase - green day
forever wandering the winding trail of imagination
i. hate. school.
i was looking at my chicken sandwich today. and i realized how everything is the same. every day. i have the same teachers, the same seats, see the same people, have the same conversations, have the same lunch. even have the same amount of boring, monotonous crap.
i came back to the same place. where everything is like a routine. i walk to my classes the same way ive always done. i get to my classes at the same time. i feel the same feeling of dread.
why cant just one thing change? just the slightest, tiniest little change. maybe i'd look forward to school then.
but sydney wrote me a note. so my day is 3215698793 times more improved.
more essays to do.
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2004 22 March :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: happy//tired
:: Music: wish you were there - incubus
seasons? what are those?
today i was raking out in terri's backyard.
livin in florida, ya dont really rake a lot haha
so while rakin i started thinking...
man wouldnt it be even better if this was the kinda raking of leaves where after you rake up a big pile, ya fling the rake to the ground, and dive in to the pool of golden, scarlet, and orange leaves
sigh
we dont have that
i wanna go up north
experience what a season exactly is
the beauty of autumn
the cold, snow of winter (i would probaly only like the snow for like 2 weeks...i get cold when its 70 out haha)
the miracle of spring, watchin the snow melt
and then summer
down here in florida
its always hot
with a few days of it bein in chilly
chilly, i'm sure if northerners came down in like january and saw us all huddled up against the 40 degree weather, they would laugh
40 is probably a paradise compared to their negative to 30 weather
and the only other season we have is tourist season
andie*
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2004 21 March :: 7.06pm
andrew not liking me= understandable
andrew ignoring me instead of just breaking up with me= that bastard
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2004 21 March :: 6.19pm
twinkle twinkle little star.. screw the world and everyone in it..
hey hey everyone.. including calli who [[somehow]] got my journal address and reads it. lol.
im in sarasota right now. FUN. my bro and dad are settin up a bball hoop 4 my cuz b/c itz his b-day tomorro, 11. kayla.. if u still need a place to dvertise your icons an address for that is
www.textads.biz
oh yeah and i found a whole bunch more iconz for ya.. i searched blurty and got like 15... that proves how much i love you lmfao..
um lets see,, i went with bailey and her family to a deserted island.. got burned like a b_tch..
i talked to my bro's gf britney.. shes really nice.. thought i would let everyone kno that!! lol..
im talkin 2 robert about b*****.. lol um, daniella [[mark's gf]], jenn [[mark's ex]] liz, eric, and matt.. all my homies lol.
good news::
i can go out for track and feild.. so bring it on.. b/c now that i got my appendix removed.. im lighter=faster. lol.. yeah right..
okey dokey.. ima go eat..
-x0
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2004 21 March :: 12.01am
:: Mood: ;]
ill be little miss s, in my mini dress, livin it up to die
today was quite fun. one of my mothers close friends, Donna ( i call her grandma) moved out to brimmerton? i dont know if thats it or if thats exactly how it is spelled.
but it was fun because we were just talking and being around people i know from when i was younger make me happy. she has the most beautiful house. it is georgous. oh man. and my mother says she wants the house that her and floyd are going to build to be laid out somewhat like that. i was in awe because that would kick a momentous amount of ass.
it is so beautiful out here. i swear. we had to take a ferry to where donna lives. and we crossed puget sound. and i got to see mount rainer, which is a treat because seattle is usually cloudy so on normal days you dont see the mountain because of the clouds. and you can tell when you are looking at mt rainer because its so big it looks fake, like someone paibted it on a back drop.
yesterday we went to the UW campus again, and i finally got my passport crap done!!!! so now all that has to be done is the thing has to be sent to me. the only thing that could go wrong now, is what my dad has done to screw himself up come back to me, causing to not get my passport. which i hope doesnt happen, at all. or i will die.
the building that are the UW campus are wonderful. that campus is beautiful. i dont think i will end up going there for college though. i didnt get that twinge when i was standing there looking at it. like oooh i know this is where i will attend college.
i love the way everything is when you experience something for the forst time. you should see me in the car. we have gone down this road like 12 times since i have been here, and im still looking all around when we travel on it.
geeeze. OH MAN!!
last night i rode in a cab for theveryfirsttime!!!!!
can you believe that? the driver was great. he was like oh ive never had a virgin cab rider! not that im sayin youre a virgin, like i said none of that howard stern stuff. he was funny as hell i swear.
and last night we ate that the neatest resturant. it italian, called buca di beppo.
they have pictures and nic-nacs and little thing everywhere. its soo cool.
im gunna go. its past you bedtime anyway
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2004 20 March :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: lost prophets
there seem a strange stillness to everything, as the evening wears into night
ok.
i wrote a poem that i really like, so i thought id put it up here.
"garden"
you can find me in a dark and fragrant garden,
where roses grow wild and lavendar sings
where all you can hear is the soft wind
but can feel the humming of another time
i walk upon this beaten path
where flowers wind their way at my feet
and i can feel you with me
like the stars' light
with every sigh of branches and all the bluebells' rings
you are here with me
the breeze whispers your name
like the kiss of a falling leaf
and as i lay into the midnight sky
like the silent breath of fog
i can taste your presence
with all my being i walk in you
my feet grazing the dew covered grass
and my footprints forever imprinting your heart.
alright. lets move on to some more interesting things...
im going to lissa's house today. (;
i still have a bunch of homework to finish though. so when i get back to school i will be majorly screwed. ha. ha.
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2004 18 March :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: mucho better than yesterday
:: Music: satan is my motor - cake
blah of my brain
well it has been quite a while since i have let my brain do the typin for this journal...
have you ever really looked at your casa?
dont look at the wall color, the style of the floor, or the the art that adorns the walls.
have you ever wondered who lived there before?
me, well i have moved about 10 times in 10 years and this is the first time i am thinking about that?
that scratch on the wall..was is maybe the handlebars of a bike accidentally hitting the wall as the parents snuck in a bike on christmas eve to surprise their young child who just started riding without training wheels?
or was it a young woman's ring scraping against the wall as she hurried out of the house, mascara tears running down her cheeks, and a suitcase full of clothes in her hand after a fight with her fiancee?
you never know these things
i could pick out things forever and make up stories about them all day
its all imagination, dear watson
as you grow older, dont let yours slip away
sure...work, responsiblities, and school are being shoved down your throat like nasty medicine without the spoonful of sugar
but hold on to that Gateway to Wherever that resides in your mind, where only you hold the key
andie*
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2004 18 March :: 7.49pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: a mix....Fuel
ok so what was my last entry about?
eh whatever.
Yesterday i got in a car accident. Rear ended a minvan...but not really my fault but whatever. The damage isn't that bad, it can be fixed. Got a ticket for reckless driving...stupid cop...should have been careless but nooooo hes a dick head. dumb po po! I'll live and so will my parents. They weren't all mad or anything which is cool beans for me! :) I think its awsome b/c their philosophy is shit happens and they are just glad im ok so yay.
Josh is a nice guy...i think im begining to forgive him for being an asshole. I mean u can't hold a grudge for ever just b/c a guy can't see past one of ur flaws, right? I'd really like to hang out with him and his bro again. I think he is so great and funny and stuff but i dont know why he said what he said. I thought he was a little more mature than that. He expects me to be more mature.....i mean he thinks i am, but im just lost. Does this mean he respects me more or what? I can't figure this guy out. Im trying but to no avail. I really like talking to him though b/c hes not some dumb jock type guy who has nothing interesting to say. Hes a smart guy and yeah. I can talk to him and its great....i dont have to be someone im not or stop and explain what " schizophrenic paranoia" is. Not that i sit around and talk about that particular topic but hey its a point im trying to get across. I just want to know what his deal is....he is indecisive and clueless. I mean we rarely talk anymore...just now and then but whatever. Despite everything that has happend, i still wanna hang with him b/c # 1....im stupid....and #2 i think hes cooler than beans...but and idiot who is cooler than beans. I think he just needs to figure himself out. i hope he reads this and hopefully will understand where i am comming from and still talks to me......
ok... so anyway, back to the other topic....I just can't talk to some ppl b/c their vocab isn't on the same level as mine and i feel like i have to act less smart around them. Ok i know that sounds really horrible but think about it.I always tend to be the logical/reasonable one in the group. one of my friends, who is a year older than me(almost 19) writes me notes in school and can't spell half of the things right. I mean come on ppl! Not to be mean or anything but i swear my IQ drops a few points when i hang with her for a long period of time. I swear i should be brunette and most of my friends should be blonde...i just got screwed over with the whole being Swedish and having blonde hair. I think its a sick joke.....oh well....
g2g later....care to leave a comment by poking the monkey??
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2004 17 March :: 10.36pm
:: Music: the penis song
today was soo cool.
but lets start with yesterday.
when we went to wyoming, my uncle was sick, so he pased it on to me in my weakened state of traveling.
so i was in the car with my mom yesterday going to broadway. and she goes are you ok honey, and i went mmmmm, and shes like what was that and im like i think im going to barf. so she pulls into some convinence store/gas station and i just open the door and vomit on the pavement. i was really dainty and girly about it too my mom said. i wiped my mouth all nice and then puked some more. it was lovely. i had the phoe noodles the night before. and when they came up it looked like i had tapeworms. yum yum.
so we went to the shops on broadway and i got my brother the cd he wanted for his birthday. and we went and ate a little and i was feeling like shite so we just came home and watched some movies in zacks room.
i feel asleep at like 10 because i had a migrane and took tylolnol pm.
and todayyy
i woke up and showered and we went down to the seattle art muesum.
it was sooo cool and i loved it.
floyd is so cute hes irish so this is his day, he had this green irish shirt on, and in honor of this day we are having a boiled dinner made with guinness. it will be good yum :).
carina thanks for that cd again with the penis song. i just played it for floyd and zack. their reaction was greeeat. i loved it.
seattle is awesome. you people have no idea. seriously.
im gunna go supper is nearly done.
bye bye
me
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2004 17 March :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: crappy//sunburned
:: Music: a movie script ending - death cab for cutie
pardon me while i burst into flames
i cant think straight.
im sick of feeling like this.
i've been wandering around with oatmeal in my noggin.
i've been jumbling up my words.
putting my shoes on the wrong feet.
what is my matter?
that is the $20,000 dollar question.
i want this feeling to go away.
soon.
*andie
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2004 17 March :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Suite from 'Restless'
feel the sun like daggers of flame
ok. changed the layout. you like?
hmm.. interesting day today. me and lisa were going to go to the beach. because, i got a new swimsuit and we wanted to look less vampire-ish and tan ourselves. well, we got in an accident. yea, it sucks. there was a minivan in front of us that stopped short and we didnt have very much time to brake. screeeeeech.. pow. it was a fender-bender. i just got a little freaked. and had some whiplash.
we pulled over to the side with the lady. she was british. another 10 minutes. screeeech pow. a crash in the same place. of all the damned luck. woo. man, that spot is cursed. they had more of a fender bender though.
anyways, we were stuck with an $80 fine for wreckless driving. dont ask me why. that cop was an ass.
more biology fun.
happy st. pat's everyone. go out to your local pub and drink. :)
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2004 17 March :: 9.01pm
HapPy sT PaTrIckS dAy!!!!
hey hey guyz, im at my neighbors right now.. very fun, there's a whole bunch of ppl.
i was talkin to calli and she didnt kno chris was moving.. hey now i finally hav some thing to brag about.. lol
anywayz my spring break so far..
friday:: mia and i went to the bowling alley thinking that malike would be there on time of course we were wrong.. so we ended up going to the movies and seeing him. he told us that he went to the bowling alley and we werent therr.. lol.
well i dont hav time for ne more!!!! love ya!!!
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2004 16 March :: 6.04pm
:: Mood: tired and angry
:: Music: Sic Transit Gloria - Brand New
kiss the rain through a blanket of pastels
biology should be a sin in itself.
the very mention of the word should be enough to drive a human insane and wish for better things to come.
or, ms freis shall internally combust and then be sent to live in the eternal flames.
let me suffer and die in silence.
well. i saw secret window twice this weekend. but its ok because that is one freaking awesome movie. i also saw starsky and hutch haha. johnny and owen are the shit (;
i shall be confined to my room for the rest of break to continue my endless work of that-which-shall-not-be-named. (refer to top paragraph)
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2004 16 March :: 2.24pm
:: Music: 10 thousand maniacs
oh hell yes.
this is ana reporting LIVE from the one and only seattle washington.
i am locked in my mothers room because her dog is insane for me. i am on my period. thats why.
i feel like shit but i dont care because i am here with my family. which is nice.
im gunna go get ready now.
update more soon.
sign: jesus died for you sinners!
floyd: well everone get out there and sin some more!! make it worthwhile.
sorry for that but it was truely hilarious.
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2004 15 March :: 2.59am
:: Mood: _TiReD_
right now im at mias in marks room with lacey, mia, mark, markus, and yours truly.. cuddling... very intimatly lol.. j/p
today i went to the beach with bailey. shopped at ft myers beach and found mom the cutest bathing suit.. of course, when she finally finds a cute one she doesnt want to keep it. lol. w/e.
umm.. friday mia and i went bowling.. [[well tryed to at least]] no one met us there so we ended up going to the movies. met up with a few ppl. FUN
saturday bailey, spencer, mr. underwater cell phone, and me went to sanctuary [[the skate park]] we met up with chris. who wouldnt skate until like the last 15 minutes we were there. he told me that he would "grind" [[horny bastard]] lol j/p. if i ollied off a three foot high thingy.. i didnt, he didnt. instead he went to the box thing or something. i feel really bad b/c we were supposed to stay there til like 5:3o but instead we left at like 3:i5...
ne wayz chris went to his mom's house up in ft. lauderdale. and he wont be back until saturday. "sunday we'll do something".. we'll see.
any wayz i g2g... love yall
LaLa
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2004 14 March :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: happy//hungry//still a lil sad
:: Music: sweet home alabama - lynyrd skynyrd
yeehaw back for the boonies
just got back from port charlotte
hoorah for the boonies
i am so gonna live in the boonies when i am older
and have a farm
and definetly have some atvs
so we went out there
we=terri, jr, rach, ry, amanda, jeff, kayden, jarret, matt, his friend, ray, and myself
they had a fire pit going
jeff lost like half his eyelash and arm hair starting the fire
kids-charcol fluid is a hazard to your health
so then terri goes and breaks out the tent
she had never set it up before
no instructions of course
so we start puttin bars together
i had a whole half of it together
then the males came in
took my pieces together
screwed it up
we finally got it up
45 mins later
and my way was right all along :P
7 of us it took us to put that tent up
then night fell
fire was lit
grill was fired up
we were all sittin around the fire
in numerous beach chairs
i had a lounge beach chair
and i sat parallel to everyone else
just lookin at the stars
it was absoultely b-e-a-utiful out there
i would gladly trade in the tube at my casa
for the clear, wonderous sky of stars i saw
so i was lookin in the woods
listenin to they guys out there
searchin for firewood
and i saw a FIREFLY
i was so happy
i love those little critters
i remember catchin them up in new york
a couple years ago at our family reunion
so rachael and i went on the prowl
with a flashlight tryin to catch some
matt gave us a powerade bottle to put them in
our firefly hunting was fruitless
too hard out there with all the shrubs
so we were ready to go to sleep
so terri, rach, and i went into the tent
and they (the others outside) were givin us a hard time for goin to bed so early
before we went to sleep ray came up to the tent with a firefly in his hands
i was so happy
we put it in the powerade bottle
nature's nightlight
rachael bein the 10 year old boss sheis,hollerin at the people outside the tent who were cussin
and jeff came to the tent window said terri was the queen, rachael was the queen b, and i was the princess :)
went to sleep
woke up
middle of the night
it was freakin freezin out
well not really
bein as we are in florida
but anywho i was freezing
so i tried goin back to sleep
no luck
jr was in the tent
he snores like a lumberjack
so i couldnt go to sleep
then i started hearin these funky noises outside the tent
but then finally i fell back asleep
those loonies all were up at 6:30
well except for terri and i
they were givin us a hard time about that
jeez they dont give ya a break
so finally we get up and terri steps out of the tent and goes
"the queen is awake"
honestly she is a crack up
fire was goin
yum yum doughnut holes for brekkie
started gettin on the atvs
wooha
strapped on a helmet
safety first
and i was off
went to the trail on the other side of the road
i coulda stayed out there forever
it was so peaceful
went around a couple times
went back to camp
gave someone else a try
jr flipped his atv
he is ok
but quite funny to watch
he looked like a cartoon careenin off that atv
amanda says how i should be wearin sneakers instead of my usual sandals
i shrug it off
rach is on the atv we were takin turns on it
she was on it forever!
she would come where i was sittin
slow down say hello
then say buhbye and sped off
so i had had enough
i got some ice and chucked it at her
aww cousinly love
success!
hit her in the chest
then fell in her lap
we all laughed as she screamed
so she got off it
now she had ice in her hand
she was tryin to put it down my shirt
so we were fightin
then matts friend hopped on the atv we were fightin over
heeeeey!
he got off
i got on
ha ha rachael
went to the trails again
was there for like a half hour
started seein things
coulda sworn i saw a cross between the thing yelling from edward munch's painting and jack from the nightmare before christmas
i would go down this straight way
goin so fast
i loved feelin the danger
started headin back
now out there they have briars
if you dont know what they are you are lucky
they are basically weeds with knife-like thorns
well i was drivin back
grass and shrubs on both sides
briars snagged my foot
stole my shoe
i had to go back and get my shoe back
couldnt get the atv started again
sat out there in the middle of nowhere
thinking how to get that darn thing started
finally got it started
went back to camp
toe was all cut up
darn briars!
didnt ride again all day
after a while we started packin up
i was helpin jr take down that tent that took forever to put up
so he got all the stakes up
all the bars were already put away
and we went to pull the material part up
there was a stake still in the ground infront of me
so i went to go pull it out
a SCORPION was right by my hand
i dont love those critters
some came over and looked at it
then squished it
bleh
now we are home
i smell like camping
toe hurts
but i went campin for the first time
and had an awesome weekend
andie*
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2004 13 March :: 3.40pm
:: Mood: bummed//happy..dont ask
:: Music: if it makes you happy - sheryl crow
sadness ferociously eats upon my once happy soul
going out to the boonies today
gon do a little camping
gon do a litte 4 wheeling
woooo ha
bad news
happy balloon inside popped
along with my hopes
belting out "if it makes you happy" cause belting makes me feel bettter
i'm in that mood where all i wanna do
is lie in bed all day
listenin to sad music
and eating/drinking soup
sigh
dont ask
cant
wont
explain
sigh
andie*
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2004 12 March :: 3.12pm
:: Mood: sad//disappointed
:: Music: sick sad little world - incubus
madrid train bombing
what a wonderous world we live in...
you cant even get on a train or be at a trainstation without being blown the smithereens!
what in the world is going on?
the bombings in madrid happened 911 days after the terror attacks in the United States
so in 911 days are we all goin to have to stay in our houses just in fear of our lives being ended by some pansy terrorists?!?!
my deepest sympathies go out to all the victims and their families
and i dont think anyone should just brush this attack off just cause it is on the other side of the world
because i know well all know how they feel
they feel the same day we all felt on september 11th
andie*
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