Wow. Its been like a month. God im bored. Alot has been going on though. Yeah i dunno where i left off in my past entry and im too lazy to look. Oh well.
I have befriended another crazy person...ha ha ha skippy is a laugh thats for sure. Sam thought he liked her but turns out he doesn't andnow she thinks he likes me but who in their right mind would like me? I mean honestly...no one wants me.. i will be alone for the rest of my life...seriously. To quote a brilliant person "I am Very ugly and i need to go to an ugly home." I mean who can say it better than that. Low self esteem is a wonderfull thing don't you think. Ha ha on the brightside yeah there is no brightside...wow im a loser.
Oh.. so i have this thing for Adam right....yeah. Uh we had one of those stupid fire drills and afterwards, we went back to class and did what ever we wanted. Most of the ppl had things to do like play scrabble...talk with their friends....i have no friends in German class... i mean i honestly sit and stare at the wall ninty percent of the time...so anyway, Adam didn't go hang with his buds...he started imitating me with the whole staring thing and suddenly decided he was going to read. Oh what fun. i didn't want to seem boring so i had to find a way to keep busy. Staring blankly at a wall isn't exactly an attractive quality...i mean ( wow i say I mean alot ha ha) would you crush on a person who just sat and stared at the wall?? no, didn't think so. To keep busy, i wrote a note to Julie...then like half way through the note i just lost it completly and started examining the complexity of the tip of my pencil, (looking rather hot if i do say so myself) just as someone happend to look up at me and he was most likely thinking, "Good Lord this one is a looney". WHAT HAPPENED???? who stares at their pencil?????what is wrong with me??

i have issues.


yeah um...eh.



i like too many guys...Logan is a hottie thats a no brainer...sam calls him tight buns now because i told her that i saw him is his baseball uniform and was just blown away by the sheer hotness of him in tight pants. ha ha...im gonna die if her reads this!! He better not ignore me if he does....why is it that guys get weird if there is the slightest hint that you like them??? I mean they don't have to like you back and can still be the same kind of friend they were before you told him how you really felt. I think that is so immature!! God get a grip guys...we will eventually get over you! Its not like we are going to try and get it on with you while changing classes, in class, in public, or anyother time for that matter. I mean most people respect that you don't feel the same way.


i need a hug.



Yes that was from a past experience...can't you tell??

Then there is Chris...if he reads this.. dear god....ha ha so...yeah um sam thinks he likes me and keeps asking me if i like him and would ever think of him in a romantic sorta way and well thats the funny thing you see....if we went out like with someother friends or if something happend in the moment or you know, lets just say i wouldn't object. But that makes me ask my self yet again, why anyone in their right mind would like me? Ok so i have a sense of humor and im a nice person...good personality...i just think im ugly...and well i feel like a tub of lard. In reality im not massive, huge, or obese or anything...just could stand to loose a few pounds but i feel like a god damn whale. it really pisses me off too. i hate myself im just a hideous piece of lard who no one will ever date. i am so sick of being the friend i have been the "friend" for WWWWAAYYYYYY to long.


ok now that i've let out all that pent up rage...i think i'll be ok...untill next time...god how lame is that??

POKE THE MONKEY!!!

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings