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2003 23 December :: 9.16pm
:: Music: nira's journal - what child is this
the chalice of virginity, once emptied, cannot be refilled.
today was quite exciting.
went to bed at like 3 30 am. i was talking with my mom.
i should send my dad an e card. yes yes i should.
but i really dont want to. o well i do that after updating.
i found out why my parents got divorced. he wasnt cheating on her like i though he was. they couldnt get along he was an asshole.
she told me how we almost moved out to south dakota with my uncle richard. it was odd because at first i thought i might have been an only child cause i was just a baby. then she told me she didt know she was pregnant with zack yet.
i told her when she and Floyd get married im going to call him dad. i asked her if she talked to him about it and she didnt. she just wants me to just like put it out there with him and such. he is so sweet, it is so amazing of him to just accept us like this. i mean it really is wonderful. he is so into zack, he is going to homeschool for the rest of this school year so zack will be able to enter school as a freshman next year.
wow am i ever going to miss him.
but i guess we will be able to get along better being apart, because we are horrible siblings living together. truely, we are awful.
i am so tired. my granmother woke us up at like 9 am. we had a lot of grocery shopping to do. then we went out for like, early supper and visited nonnie at my aunts house.
everyone read these books by gregory Maguire.
Wicked The life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West.
and
Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister.
*Ana
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2003 23 December :: 7.32pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: ahhhh......silence
Wow its been a while. I've never really ever kept up with journals. So....my life...yeah.
As a SENIOR *YAY* I was exempt from all of my exams and got ouf of school three days before everyone else...i love to rub it in my sisters face. Yeah so i really haven't been doing all that much.
OMG Lord of the Rings: Return of the King is the BEST movie! It was three and a half hours of Sheer delight, nail bitting, and some humor. I loved it! AHHH! The best! Not to mention the very talented and hot Orlando Bloom is in the movie! Its always a plus if there is someone there to drool over lol!
My cousin and aunt from Sweden just landed here in Fl 2 min ago. They are staying with us over break. Its gonna be so cool! I haven't seen my cousin in 2 years and this is his first time to the USA! We are going to have so much fun!! Im a little nervous though....what if he hates me? Im supposed to be living with them all next year since i need a place to stay while studying in Sweden. This is a good time to butter them up don't you think? hsdalfgjdslkajfkldjsaklfjdklsahguhsuioafkljhdasyfodaoifoidasyoifduasoi (nervousness) lol
Well...since they're comin' id best be leavin'. Laterz....................HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
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2003 22 December :: 7.08pm
:: Music: there is no music! AHHH
my mom comes in 3 and a half hours.
im going to go insane because all i have heard in the past 10 minutes it my little cousin talking to herself, and pretending she can read in spanish. and asking me math problems.
i wish i was as nice as everyone thought i was.
lol stirke that, i wonder if anyone thinks im nice anymore, and if they do, i wish i could be as nice as they think.
lol my grandmother has this present hidden for me right. she told me to go in my room while she put it in her closet. and today i was searching for wrapping paper and i went in there and saw the big bag with the gift in it. she was like scolding me but she smiled anyway. its funny though that shes trying to keep it a secret.
zack already told me what i was getting :D.
my family makes the horrible mistake of telling everone else what they got you for christmas.
hehehehe.
O MY GOD IF MY LITTLE COUSIN SLEEPS HERE TONIGHT I WILL SHOOT MYSELF.
she is such a brat. AHHHHHHH.
i just listened in on her phone with my uncle. its true little girls have thier daddys wrapped around thier finger.
lol she just asked me if my dad was dead yet. LMAO.
god kids say the darnest things
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2003 21 December :: 8.02pm
:: Music: video games
this is the most un christmas-y christmas ever.
i finished my gifts today. i made candels for my aunts. i hope they like them, cause im in trouble for getting wax everywhere.
my mom is comming tomorrow. i almost dont want her to come cause i know that zack is leaving.
im so gay. i keep saying i want to get out of my house, but whenever i get the chance to leave, i stay in. i could have gone to the movies today and slept at charlenes. im so retarded.
im tired too. and it is really early.
god this sucks.
i think i would almost rather be in school.
strike that school's retarded.
gah.
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2003 20 December :: 8.50pm
can you see me now?
staring at the computer screen makes my eyes burn.
i was on the phone with charlene and she called billy.
Charlene: Ana's here too.
me: hey
Billy: hey
that was the extent of our conversation.
it was basically quiet after that. it was awkward.
i feel awkward now.
no its not just me, everything awkward all of a sudden.
i dont like it when people look at me anymore.
i need to get the hell out of my house before i burn it down.
zack friend is over. they are so annoying.
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2003 19 December :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: :| solemn
:: Music: carol of the bells
my mom comes down on monday for christmas.
zack packed some of his stuff today for when he leaves.
its weird when you younger and you wish you were an only child and that whish basically comes true. its really scary that were not going to live together anymore.
im going to smell bleach for the next week because i cleaned my bathroom. it was dirty, it made me feel nasty just looking in it.
i am sick, my head felt like in was in a vice today.
haha the biology exam was hard, i guessed on every question. no lie. i think i knew about 10 questions from memory, out of 200. i finished it in like the first 45 minutes and then went to sleep, i think i pissed the teacher off cause she forced the school newspaper on me.
it was funny i had a good laugh inside my head.
oh what was great though was before the exam kim turns around and says to me: "i wish kristie was in this class"
i nearly peed.
i want to see new lord of the rings. i am sad for myself. i will con my mom into taking me to see it when she is here ;).
i have candels to make for christmas gifts, yikes.
eck, on the bus benecia stuck her finger up my nose. she scratched it with her nail, it hurt, and it was very odd.
wow, i am so glad we are on vacation. holy shit. it feels like it has been years since i have had a break.
i cant WAIT until this is finally over.
*Ana
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2003 19 December :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: happy
winter break!!
hey hey lala herrr
lol
winter break is finally here
time for christmas, joy, and cheer
families get together (for hanukkah to)
and share good times the whole night(s) thru
presents clothes and the cha-ching$$$
no one knows what christmas brings
so happy holidays from me to you!
and merry christmas and hanukkah too!
<3 LaLa
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2003 18 December :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: Mischevious
:: Music: The Starting Line
*drool*
holy shit. that kicks more ass than you could ever know. seriously.
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2003 18 December :: 7.42pm
:: Mood: :'(
youre my sweet dear
:(
i miss billy.
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2003 18 December :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Up & Go - The Starting Line
I think my bum fell off..
Holy shit. double holy shit with knobs. (haha ana)
I think my bum fell off. I have been sitting for the exams. My brain hurts. so does my head and.. anything pertaining to knowledge at all.
I haven't updated in a while.. lets see... i went shopping for presents for friends over the weekend. i have too many friends. im broke. on monday it was review for exams in most of my classes. i take that back. all of them were review. you can imagine all my fun. anyways.. on tuesday i passed out presents. alot of presents. too many to really count. my arm was really sore. i also had my business system exam. it was easy as.. pie. i like pie. i had lessons. way fun. not.
wednesday was... crap really. i had my drawing 1 exam and then algebra 2. it was windy and i was painting. thats all im going to say.
the math exam was retarded. i think i got a few wrong. *cough* more than a few... the oc was on. i loved it. wooo go tv for making my life better.
today was retarded to. i mean monkey-ass retarded. why? lets see.. could it have something to do with my biology exam? no. it couldnt possibly have to do with that.
i also had another art exam. (ceramics) i was amazed at its lameness. we had to watch dumb potter movies and list similarities and stuff. i almost died. and ana, whatever the whole thing with uh, the thing is, i dont think it matters that much. so butt monkey to anyone who is mean :)
moving on. since lisa is a senior so she is exempt from exams and doesnt have to go to school. well, she picked me up after school and i got to go to mom's office. i once again saw the wonderous whiteness. for two hours. i was pretty pissed. i finished my book though. i cant wait to get the third one.
uh... i got burger king because i was starving. they have good sourdough burger things. or whatever the hell they're called. i dont really know.
I love the starting line. chrissie got me the cd for christmas. i died of happiness when i opened it. :D
did you know its freezing outside? colder than.. well... im out of clever similies so you can pretend you know how cold it is so i can move on. thanks.
I now need to practice more flute for the band exam tomorrow. roar. i hate exams. and i get to babysit this weekend. on friday. but i think im goin bowlin on sunday. :D yay!
OH MY GIDDY AUNT!!
its almost christmas!!!!! holy shit!!!
im happy now. i cant wait for.. santa..;)
also..
You are spoon guy. You should have planned ahead
buddy, or packed a bigger lunch.
which rejected character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
*[grumble]
im hungry...
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2003 18 December :: 5.28pm
:: Music: what child is this
every thing feels like bull shit.
hey i got a 90 on my french exam how kick ass is that?
god i feel like shit, my nose has been running all day. And i have beed sneezing all day too.
tomorrow i have biology and english. those exams should be wayyy fun!
not.
erghrer i just want to sleep.
*Ana
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2003 17 December :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: sad
baby i'm lonely
though your right in front of me
you controlled me
that was the girl i used to be
gave up myself
but that's over now
tell me who should i be to make you love me?
tell me what does it mean to be alone?
cant you see me standing staring out from a distance,
hear my cry if you'd only listen
out of focus into me and you
why can't some one like me be with some one like you?
im am aware that all in love is fair
but that's no reason to make me feel this way
and it hurts me so much to deny it
but these feelings are out of control
do you know what it's like to want something so bad
and then having to let it go?
and it hurts me to know that this time in our lives
will so soon be in the past
and instead of pretending and playing it cool
never knowing what we could have had
you got me wonderin if i'm good enough, pretty enough, giving enough, special enough
he wants her she wants him to
broken message coming through
same story for different fools
she sees him
he stares right through
nasty rumors so untrue
theres nothing that they can do
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2003 17 December :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: accomplished
i feel accomplished!!! i finally got into woohu! yay! lol
today was ok... early dismissal was the best part. we got out at like 2 n we had to take the f cat crap math!! lmao
n then there was lilia, i "stole" her shirt. actually i had it first but she just thought it was really sexi n bought it the day after i wore it.
ne wayz. bailey came home with me today n we were ballin with my bro n josh (well i was) josh sux! lol
after that i went to mia's house n we hung out for awhile, that is, until she got a phone call from gabi <3 (and yes, he's a guy) and now i'm on the computer talkin to chris,heather, calli, kristi,mona, ethan, danielle, and a few friendz from ky
yep, awesome ppl!! lol
well i still got another entry so smell ya later u bunion!!
lol
luv lala
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2003 14 December :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: october project - after the fall
the loss of your innocence
my weekend.
friday:
went to school
went out to eat with my uncle
went to my aunts house.
saturday:
woke up
wrapped presents
made candels
went to chruch
went to charlene/shaunna's
slept for 2 hours 10-12
sunday:
i got charlene and she came over to shaunna's and we called hey b/f dennie. he was supposed to come get us and take us to billy's. he didnt pick up his phone and his truck is broken. so we started walking to billys at like 2:30am. it takes 2 hours to walk there. at like 3 or 3:30 this spainish looking guy picked us up and gave us a ride. he was really nice, charlene was asking all kinds of questions to make sure we were safe and shit. dont worry everyone, were not just dumb kids. so we are at billys and charlene knocks on the wrong window. his mother's and she gets so angry, but lets us in anyway. charlene left after like 2 minutes to see dennie and shaunna and i stayed at billy's. i had fun. i hope i can go and see him next saturday to. but i dont know. any way. his mom had to take us back to shaunna's at like 6 in the morning. she was asking us all these questions and shes like if you cant get a ride, just ask and i will come and get you. it was crazy. when we were leaving billy was like ma let this one sit in front and he was signaling to me, so i had to sit up front with her. it was so embarassing. i went to bet at like 7 and then i got up at noon when charlene told me that they got saddam.
hahaha i have to go to confession this week. what fun.
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2003 13 December :: 11.37pm
:: Mood: sick
hey hey this be lala. of course! uhhhhhh im so sick n sooo tired. at kayl's party lilia kristi kayla n i all got only 4 hours of sleep, im so delirious i'll like walk around and forget where i am. i went shoppin with mama today. got a wallet a ae shirt n ae blanket (they r all christmas presents) and i finished up all of mah friend's presents. dont get all offended if i didnt get u ne thing because i was only able to buy for like mah closest friends ya know??!?bailey came over tonite to spend the night but she was so sick that she had to go home, i think that was a smart choice because we both rn't feelin good n mah brother has a cold... SICK PEOPLE EVERYWHERE!!! ahhh that's right they are comin after u! lol
im talkin to mah hom! mia rite now, shez in a bit of a dilema. gotta help her out! i cant wait till christmas!!! santa!!! we go way back, he was mah pen pal back in ummmm 1445. we had some good times. ne wayz ima go to bed now because i am TIRED!! o yeah and if u all want to u can go to mah vball game on monday. itz $1 @ gulf n we play diplomat! sure to win!! (but keep ur fingers crossed ne wayz)
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2003 10 December :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Brand New.. Ana, im seriously burning you this cd
Aye, Avast!
haha. today was superfantastic great. totally spifforific. :D i was extremely joyful first and second period. In first period me, carolyn and carrie talked. well not carolyn.. she lost her voice. me and carrie were crackin on her lmao!! anyways.. carrie made these hats out of a dollar bill. since they looked like pirate hats, we decided to put happy faces on our fingers. Carrie ended up having Jack Sparrow on her finger, the bandana and all. it was really funny. i had will turner on mine. he had hair and a ridiculously huge smile. If anyone asked me a question, i would say 'Aye, Avast!' Carrie just said random quotes like 'no one. he's no one. a distant cousin of my aunt's nephew twice removed. lovely singing voice though. eunuch.' and 'and really bad eggs.. drink up me 'arties, yo ho'. it was extremely hilarious, but i was a bit drunk on happiness. we also put spanish moss in this one girl's purse who we really dislike. she's super tacky.. even ana hates her. hahaha. i dont think she found it though..
second period was quite funny. Me and ana tried to make more tiles. it was really funny because this huge ass piece of canvas was covering the whole back of the room. we had to go under the clay thing to make a slab. hahaha. fuun. anyways.. we were listening to beyonce (no, it wasnt our choice.. i wanted to throw the computer across the room) :D and there were some comments made and i said 'i'd rather be with my finger' (since, of course, it was totally rockin with it's hat) and *cough* she took it the wrong way. it was spifforific. :D :D :D
it was raining when we were walking from the center, so we left a minute early. me and carrie went the way carolyn usually goes and i kept saying aye, avast! to everything she said. it was funny because mark came out and i was like 'will tuuuurnerrrr' and looked at me like i was crazy. i really hope that kid dies someday. not like how im plotting keifers death. this is different. ill explain someday when i have more time. maybe a little later tonight.
third period was lame. blaaaaah. we got a new piece of music.
fourth period.. a christman miracle happened. i was in math, and was like ' whoa, this is majorly boring' and i had the worst thought in the world. i started thinking 'i wish i was in 5th period'
DO YOU KNOW WHAT FIFTH PERIOD IS?! ITS BIOLOGY! IM FUCKING CRAZY!!
but, it just so happens that fifth period wasn't that bad. no quiz :D i got to take lame notes.
at lunch, i found out that lindsay got Pirates of the Caribbean. I am going to go to her house when she is at soccer and steal it hahahaha. ;D just kidding.. i'll just head over to her place when i feel like drooling over an inanimate object (the tv dipshit). sixth period we had a sub ( YAY!!!!) and we worked on the dialogue thing again. i was laughing almost the whole time.. at lisa lmao. she didnt know what 'procrastinate' meant. holy shit she is the most hilarious person i know. and its not just her 'large' vocabulary usage either. its just the stuff that happens to come out of her mouth at exactly the right time to make it funny. :D
in seventh period i was talking to melissa again! :D we talked about.. i dunno, it was a complete variety of stuff actually.. about eli, guitars, some kid, and... other stuff. it was really funny though. we took a typing test. we were allowed one error and had to type over 35 words a minute. hahaha. i passed. neener neener neeeeneerrrrrr....
SECTIONALS!
sectionals were today. i thought they would be boring but they were so fucking hilarious. isnt that right kelly? yea, well... we were with mr. bennett today so that's half the reason right there. on the new song we got, kelly forgot to number the music (we were sharing a stand) and mr. bennett was like 'lets start at measure [insert random number here]' she numbered it really fast and when he said to start at measure 39, we didnt play because everyone was playing something different. the situation was ever so funny already and we were talking about it and i was so confused. i pointed like 'were supposed to start up here' and mr. bennett was like 'whats so interesting? are you guys watching the superbowl or something?' i laughed so hard. kelly numbered an eight measure rest as on measure. there were other incidents that i dont have time to explain, but believe me.. it was funny.
maybe only some form of band person could understand that, but i thought it was a real kneeslapper. :D
after that i had to go 5 million places with my mom and i got home at.. what? 5:30? who knows... but i got burger king, so that kicked.
bio awaits me
*Rina
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2003 10 December :: 5.01pm
:: Music: The Postal Service
i'd rather to be with my finger - house, 2nd period
oh double score.
today was GREAT.
someone must love me ALOT.
I didn't have to present my little Mayan essay in World History. :D. I hate presenting anything, it is so unbelieveably embarassing.
and on top of it my grandmother said i can sleep at Charlene's house saturday. i hope it is alright with her, because it was supposed to be friday but that is my unlce's last day.
Man i am so sleepy. I need some coffee.
I actually hate coffee, i have to put way to much sugar and shit in it to make it taste good, so i just don't bother.
oh score guess what everyone, i drove last night, in my uncle rental car. I only went 20 mph and I i kept going to the wrong side of the road but hey, my uncle said I did pretty well for my first time.
oh man, i have math homework to do. and i should read the chapter in bio cause i have no idea what i am learning.
Second period was unusually funny today. it rocked the hizzouse for sure. i think i just peed a little just thinking about it.
well im off.
*Ana
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2003 9 December :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Christman Carols hahaha
woohoo!
You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.
Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud
which happy bunny are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Your perfect for Jack; he likes you because you're adventurous,
down to earth, loyal, and above all,
fun! You Rock!
 Are You The Girl For Jack Sparrow?
brought to you by Quizilla
*grins*
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2003 9 December :: 7.30pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: linkin park numb
out of my mind
hey lala herrr...
vball was so tiring we played scrimage and then sum drillz. im worn! lol sorry that i havnt been updating much, havnt had much time.
mah mom piked me up from vball n i went and got my hair cut. trimmed pretty much but mah cutterz r shorter. yep u'll probably see me tho lol!! kayla u really shoulda done it!! (cough calli journal cough) lol we coulda screwedher life pretty badd! she deserves it furr callin me a whore.. EVIL! lol maybe one day i'll forgive her (not) i know that i may end up failing to but i know that u were just like me with sum1 dissapointed in u... mah favorite part. mmm mah hair smells good lmao!! u can smell it tomorro! lol
chris is a hard person to understand. he hates calli, but he lovez her soooo much. make up ur mind! oh kayla how do u make ur name with a line thru it??? ur gonna hav to tell me @ skool. o yeah n we need to learn how to make icons!! ima go try rite now!g2b hollA
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2003 9 December :: 6.31pm
:: Mood: giddy? nah.. just happier than usual
:: Music: I will play my game beneath the spin light - Brand New
*insert catchy phrase*
blah blah first period blah.
boring. i found out that the project that we're doing is due on thursday. im not even half way done. how lame is that? Turns out that i totally forgot that i had band pictures. i forgot my concert dress. lisa called home and mom dropped it off.
second period.. me and ana were left again. thats ok though. We didn't any farther anyways. Ana had her assessment today. ;D i heard ms. roeder say "that's an excellent piece. so is that" i screamed 'woo! go ana!' in my head. im not retarded enough to yell it to nobody in particular. wait.. nevermind. im leaving that statement alone.
third period was band pictures. The other day, mr. daniels was talkin to mr. bennett and he was like 'can this band get any better? i think it'll get worse' i was like 'thats horseshit. we dont listen because you're a dumbass' i personally think that we are falling into a downward spiral and we will gradually get respect for being the worst band.
whoa buddy! math was easy!! yea.. keifer had sugar... i think thats all i should say about that. seriously. hes not allowed to have sugar. i was about to smack him too. i swear to god he can be pretty damn annoying. of course, i did it with a smile on my face. he knows im plotting his death ;) no hard feelings, buddy :)
fifth period. i did not finish my homework- no big suprise. i haven't even looked at it since i came home. urrgh. i hate biology.
haha nola.. they're such fons! and sobs!! hahahaha. fun times. escahpay!
sixth period i turned in my journal. me, sabrina, lisa, and jackie are in a group to change 'the gift of the magi' into a dialogue-play thing. god.. i dont understand how ms greene can even come up with this crap. *sigh* in seventh period me and melissa talked more :D we should totally learn bass from tom and eli!!!!!!! ahhhh!! that would totally rock!! that thing would be huge for me though... ;D
hmm... i did a bunch of work. my head hurts now :( im not eating dinner though. im not hungry. which isnt that strange for me anymore.
and just for one moment id like to say:
EXAMS ARE UPON US! AHH! KILL ME NOW! I AM GOING TO DIE!
sorry. i had to let it out.
anyways.. i think im going to buy a little sketchbook thing for lyrics and stuff. i hate my big ass one.. its too.. big. blah.
i must leave you.
*Rina
... we are in the second day of christman. schedule your events accordingly.
and, if you ask me what im doing, i will most likely reply 'waiting for life to shower me with happiness and meaning' so to spare me this phrase, just.. dont ask. :)
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