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2004 6 September :: 10.10pm
I spent a lot of today in the place where a year ago I spent time with my boyfriend.
I just want to stop thinking about it. it's not as harsh as before, but i still miss the smell. at least i'm beyond any sort of crying.
I forgave a lot of things that I probably shouldn't have. Being late all the time, not calling, drinking, never letting me meet his friends, calling people spiks, for making me rethink my morals, for cheating on me. . .on and on.
But I won't forgive him for stealing my summer, for taking all of my good memories and tainting it with lies, for making a fool out of me.
that bastard. he came back and ruined everything again. i was going to be okay. he lied lied lied and manipulated me. he's always been good at that. now when i drive past fulton i want to go to his house and crawl into his bed because i know he's in europe. and then i'm so creeped out by thinkng that, that i want to take a nap.
and i don't want him to forget me. and i want to stop transfering my emotions to other people.
god.
at least i still have two things that he didn't destroy: my virginity and my pride.
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Rob
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2004 3 September :: 7.24pm
:: Mood: Pissed
:: Music: Know who I am
I am done, I don't care and I'm pissed as hell.
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Rob
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2004 2 September :: 7.54pm
:: Mood: What do you think?
:: Music: Iris-Goo Goo Dolls
I am so lost
I am barely here
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danibean
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2004 1 September :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: sleepy
*yawn*............
oh geez..since everyone else is doing it!!
here's my schedule kiddo's....
band-robuck
ja economics-busen
british literature-millard
spanish 3-crowley-worwick..whatever
creative writing-eilola (dropping 1st day for psyc. with mr. h)
independant study-robuck
woot...easy senior year :) :) :)
but...that's what you get if you take all the crappy stuff in the first 3 years! so take crappy required classes guys...get them out of the way so you can have fun your senior year!! woo!!!!!!
we took some senior pics yesterday at rockford dam and today at grand haven by the beach. oh i hope they turn out good. and fredrick meijer gardens sometime later this week. but wow....getting your picture taken is fun. i felt like a model!! haha...and people were looking at me...probably thinking i was a model...jk...but i thought that! hahaha...anyways, it was a goodtime had by all.
still not sure on evan's for sat - mon...he's a busy kid...and i hate that he has school this week. that's so dumb. guh...gay kearsley...oh well.
night night :)
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 1 September :: 5.10pm
So frustrated and can't stop eating.
and I hate talking to people online.
but i'm going to CC next week and it's going to be cool.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 31 August :: 10.30pm
they're so dumb.
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danibean
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2004 31 August :: 9.02pm
:: Mood: cute :)
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2004 28 August :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: silly
okay, for your reading pleasure, and to humor myself and you, i will now present you with funny things from saturday night instant messenger conversations:
danibean05: you know hottie justin from drum major camp?
sugarmouse0587: i guessss
danibean05: he broke up with his girlfrined yesterday
danibean05: let me be strong as i know he wants me and i want him
sugarmouse0587: ha hah
sugarmouse0587: EVAN BAILY
danibean05: bailey
danibean05: i think
danibean05: haha
sugarmouse0587: HE TUCKS HIS SHIRTS IN
sugarmouse0587: OLD CARS
sugarmouse0587: BLOND
sugarmouse0587: EHEM NO!!!!!
danibean05: hahahaha
danibean05: gosh i loveyou
sugarmouse0587: THE BIGGER GREEN TOMOATOE
danibean05: you are a bad speller
sugarmouse0587: YOU"RE GAY
sugarmouse0587: you only noticed because i'm using large fonts
sugarmouse0587: gay face
danibean05: i know
danibean05: hahaha
danibean05: tucks what shirt in?
danibean05: not all of them?
sugarmouse0587: all of them
sugarmouse0587: trust me
danibean05: NO
sugarmouse0587: dOTIT
danibean05: you know what...i love techno music!
FenderNFoamies11: like the dance beat or the synthesizer's sounds?
danibean05: the dance beat...it's so much fun
danibean05: my friend and i downloaded techno pink panther and lion king
FenderNFoamies11: you don't like hip-hop?
FenderNFoamies11: lol
FenderNFoamies11: that's funny
danibean05: yeah...hip hop is fun too
danibean05: at prom and all that ...but in my car...yeah...techno all the way
FenderNFoamies11: lol
danibean05: i am such a dork though!!
danibean05: haha
FenderNFoamies11: it's ok
FenderNFoamies11: embrace the stupidity
FenderNFoamies11: lol
danibean05: ahhhhh justin!!
danibean05: there isn't any stupidity to embrace!!!
FenderNFoamies11: your calling yourself you dork, therefore thinking what you doing is stupid
FenderNFoamies11: so embrace it
danibean05: embracing the stupidity
danibean05: if gummies were free, i would consume them at an alarming rate
FenderNFoamies11: ok?
danibean05: and, if my toes were any cuter, they would appear in a magizine
FenderNFoamies11: that was random
danibean05: yeah, but it's a true fact
danibean05: and you need to know these things so we can embrace the stupidity together
FenderNFoamies11: lol
FenderNFoamies11: ok
danibean05: it's fun, try it
FenderNFoamies11: like what?
danibean05: okay, justin, all you have to do is state one random fact
danibean05: just one
danibean05: only one
FenderNFoamies11: ok
FenderNFoamies11: (thinking)
FenderNFoamies11: here's a bit of advice if you ever need to ransom a small child for money
FenderNFoamies11: fat kids are harder to kidnap
FenderNFoamies11: lol
danibean05: wow
danibean05: that says nothing about you !
FenderNFoamies11: other than i think logically
danibean05: i disagree
FenderNFoamies11: lol
danibean05: i don't think you do
FenderNFoamies11: ok
FenderNFoamies11: i disagree to you disagreement
danibean05: you are a silly person, and silly people don't think logically!
Brotha J says:
yep me and shae
Dani Lynn says:
wow
Dani Lynn says:
hahaha
Brotha J says:
it was alot of fun
Brotha J says:
then we got kicked out of our seats.. that really ticked us off
Dani Lynn says:
oh my gosh
Dani Lynn says:
why?
Brotha J says:
well the guy said we had lawn seats ok.. but me and shae were like uhh no.. so we sat wherever we wanted
Dani Lynn says:
haha
Brotha J says:
and we wanted to sit as close to teh players as we could
Brotha J says:
so we could yell at them like we did last time
Dani Lynn says:
ahhhhhh
Dani Lynn says:
haha
Brotha J says:
but go figure.. some loser old guy came down and was like.. where are your tickets.. were like sorry we threw them away.. then hes like no one thows away their tickets.. I dont believe that for one second.. so he kicked us out.. goes to show.. it was someone elses seats we were sitting in
Dani Lynn says:
hahahaha
Brotha J says:
it was funny too
Brotha J says:
haha
Brotha J says:
then i won a ticket to a whitecaps game(free)
Dani Lynn says:
no one throws away their tickets!
Dani Lynn says:
hahaha
Brotha J says:
thats what he said.. and he was like 70 yrs old
Dani Lynn says:
wow
Dani Lynn says:
that's so funny
Herm says:
well you should try and go
Dani Lynn says:
well, okay ross huber
Dani Lynn says:
mabye i will
Herm says:
lol
Herm says:
thats what i thought
Herm says:
haha
Herm says:
the last song this year was really fast and had a lot of runs in it and we had this one clarinet which kept on squeaking, it was so annoying
Dani Lynn says:
ahhhhhh
Dani Lynn says:
clarinets suck!
Herm says:
i know
Herm says:
they are so overrated
Herm says:
cept beans
Dani Lynn says:
ahhh
Dani Lynn says:
i know
well, that's it...that's the fun
bye gumpy chambers! (for you beans)
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 28 August :: 3.03pm
I don't understand all these leering men.
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Rob
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2004 27 August :: 11.38pm
:: Music: 97.9
I hung with Molly Clare and it was really fun, we ate pizza and watched Clue, lol
Tomorrow is one day closer to school, ::rolls eyes:::
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2004 26 August :: 12.59am
:: Mood: confused
okay, bad....i miss you and it's been what, 3 days!! and now you tell me that you'll be in the area, but you only want to stop over for an hour. which i'm so pissed because i could drive and see you all damn day. my mom is letting me drive!!!!! this is not an opportunity you turn down boyfriend!! ugh....just get your shit together! in good news....i love you and you were super sweet tonight. at least we both know what a cut lip feels like...ouchies. haha...night :)
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Tbaby92588
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2004 24 August :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: Bloody Well Right [Supertramp]
Uh oh...
I have a crush on a red-haired boy.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 23 August :: 11.38pm
oh my goshhhhhhh.
hard core lesbian time.
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danibean
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2004 23 August :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: happy
ooooo la la...i'm in love with my boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tee hee hee~!!!!!!!!!
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Rob
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2004 23 August :: 5.09pm
:: Music: Ocean Avenue
I hate boxes...and hallways...and stairs
:::groans:::
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