And with our broken smiles we walk away

And with our broken smiles we walk away

:: 2004 19 April :: 10.12pm
:: Mood: scared

My mother was horror striken when I asked if it would be okay to wear flip-flops to prom. She looked as if I had told her I was going to renounce subject pronouns forever.

I don't want to spend money on shoe-oos.

It's all so banal.

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Rob

:: 2004 19 April :: 9.46pm
:: Music: Here Is gone

I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late

You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me

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Rob

:: 2004 19 April :: 9.45pm
:: Music: Here Is Gone

Its raining inside my head

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 18 April :: 10.56pm
:: Music: dc-a6r

So, it's like one of the ultimate things.

i feel a sin coming on!

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 17 April :: 2.26pm

and as i submerge myself in a world of adult books, i realize that i don't want to go back there. the reasons are many and probably valid.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 16 April :: 10.28pm

boy oh boy and girl oh girl.....our new house is cool. i might not get the big bedroom right away but i will someday and it's freaking awesome.

and there are other things to be excited about too. lots of things.

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danibean

:: 2004 15 April :: 9.31pm
:: Mood: happy

Hey guys. Anyone who lives in the Cedar area and is my friend, I'm having a bon fire tomorrow night at 8:30. Call me if you need directions. You have my number.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 14 April :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: devious
:: Music: jewel-this way

I guess it's going to happen. And it's exciting.

Its raining inside my head

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 12 April :: 10.09pm

and your disconcern is comforting.

thanks for making me forget my head.

Its raining inside my head

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 April :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: Spppllleeeenddddiiiiidddd
:: Music: didn't leave but the baby

you and me and the devil makes three...

It was disgustingly fun...and dangerous, but well worth it...

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

GREAT

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 April :: 10.25am
:: Music: in the highways-peasall sisters

So, we're home and it's cold here. I could sleep with one blanket at our hotel as opposed to five here and still being cold.

and the funny thing is the temperature is about the same.

Its raining inside my head

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 April :: 10.13am

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"The man, she recalls, whisked through the small..."

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:
the white fold table

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
some of the news, but i wasn't really watching....probably the weather, which sucks

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
8:24

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:13....oh my god, i was serious....how is it 10:13? i woke up before 8:24. i'm so dumb.

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
o brother where art thou soundtrack

7: When did you last step outside?:
last night...shit. my sunglasses are in mom's car and she's gone.

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
i came here first

9: What are you wearing?:
my aspen sweatshirt and my greenfield sweatshirt and my running pants and my sheriff necklace

10: Did you dream last night?:
it wasn't good...

11: When did you last laugh?:
last night? i don't know. wait like 10 minutes ago

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
there's a picture of me and a-ron we're like 6 and 3 and we've got a nautical theme going and also a certificate of american medical record assciation

13: Seen anything weird lately?: my cousin grace and that hairy man at the hot spring

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
it's pretty good

15: What is the last film you saw?:
o brother where art thou

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
a really big house and a trip around the world for me and mom on a private jet and lots of clothes...the expensive kind

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
i sucked my thumb until i was 11

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
i don't know....i'd make gay marriages legal

19: Do you like to dance?:
sometimes, i look like a spaz though

20: George Bush:
i don't like him, but i'm sure his jobs sucks so i feel sort of sorry, but then he worked really hard to get that sucky job, so it's his fault

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
alice or barb or samantha or ruth

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
ben or moish or bruce or robin

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
i probably will

Its raining inside my head

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 3 April :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: way sore

at least i can say that i've snowboarded in a cool place, even if i can't say i'm very good at it.

whatever, i'm not persistant, and i'm okay with that.

and my mom has a big big kidney stone. she's in the hospital but she's okay.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 31 March :: 6.41pm
:: Mood: excerted <---------
:: Music: switch the foot

Ha ha. Leaving tomorrow for Ann Arbor and then fun time spring break in Aspen (where the beer flows like wine, by the way).

and what else?

everything is okay, that's what. well, it's so close to being okay that it might as well be.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 30 March :: 9.38pm
:: Music: switchfooooootttt-the beautiful letdown.

Freakin a. That's what I want most in the world at this moment. Probably.

And I know it's a little less than a year away, but I want to now, cause it's a long time to wait and I know I'll probably chicken out or be a head case about it and feel all bad.

alas, a promise is a stupid promise. what a dumb rule.

Its raining inside my head