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2003 3 June :: 4.38 pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: cool last day of school mix
"I'm on to you jacob, you can't keep up that disguise forever"
- the last thing said to me during sophomore year.
Ok, im going to try to write one of those lame but really insightful/ emotional entries that sums up sophomore year in my own personal way. ha
Basically, everyone goes into highschool as freshman, not knowing what to expect. At least in sophomore year i had an idea about what was going to happen but i guess i was surprised.
Although torturous and sometimes downright embarrasing, this year has been one of the best years of my life.
I met a lot of really interesting people and made a lot of amazing friends :
(in no particular order)
Karin: math class budddie! haha obviously we have known eachother for awhile and im glad we became so close. We have a lot of things in common (especially liking people with the same names and our asian heritage...). Don't let stupid people get you down because you are smart and funny and pretty. anyways thanks. im trying not to get so sappy <333
Paige: Honestly i love you dude. our adventures are so fun and "r-a-n-d-o-m" . you are just so fun and nice. You dont have to worry so much because i think no matter what people are already impressed with the person you are. also thanks for being in my life
Amy: yeah you're awesome. I'm glad you came up to me and scared me the first day of chemistry. It's cool that im little you and we go through a lot of the same stuff. anyways. of course i think you are amazing.. even if you are a ninja. <333333 x 353253252.
plus anyone else i have met you are probably cool in some way
I have also learned so many of life's little lessons.. which makes this such a great year to look back on and cherish.
I learned that in life one has to take risks because no matter how much you want to stay "in your shell" if you put yourself out there and jump, even if things dont turn out the way you want them to at first, that experiance will make your life greater in the long run.
I learned not to worry ( to the point of changing the way you are ) about what people think or say about you because they are going to say it anyways. (karin ha)
I learned that sometimes you have to work to get what you want and that just because im smart it doesnt mean that everything comes so easy
I learned that every person is worth getting to know because everyone has something special to offer and that i shouldnt be so shy or picky. maybe
I learned to not wait to the last minute and to not rely on others to get things done(FAU .. oy)
I learned that happiness comes from within and that every moment of happiness counts in the long run, so we should try to make ourselves happy as much as possible. (because we can)
i learned that i should drink more water and eat less junk. ha
I learned that reading is more amazing then i had previously thought. thanks paige, karin and sabina
I learned that there is a possible connection between listening to sad music all the time and bouts of depression (ha sara)
Most importantly, i learned to ALWAYS be myself. trust me , it is heart breaking to know that you killed a friendship or potential relationship because you were acting like someone else. If someone doesnt like you at least they wont like the real you eh?
Wow i dont even know how to sum up this year. I look back at some points and think i made a complete fool out of myself ( which taught me the last and most important lesson). But then again, i look back on some old times and think "wow i have some fucking great friends and same amazing memories".. it's almost heartwarming eh?
happy things this year: awesome concerts ( warped tour!, Dashboard [2x], the startingline [2x], taking back sunday [2x], all those little local concerts that made me smile), one man moshing, reeses shirt guy at dashboard show, skanking, jamba juice, book club, dancing, my music, teen cabaret, staying up and talking, classic movies (casablanca), the park+ picnics, MY FRIENDS, my brother, AIM, newspaper, starbucks+ gloria jeans, woohu, the beach [ especially at night] , ADVENTURES!, car washing, my gnome, my clothes, my guitar, apple juice, Jason, flannel shirts, glasses, the beatles, third eye blind, getting lost in your rock and roll, hoodies, hemp, shells, l-e-v-i-n, red cross club, pajama pants, books [ sloppy firsts], great quotes, funny people, gifted, hamentashen, school car rides, long car rides + oldies, pictures, calculator notes, online diaries, teen idols ;), studying with friends, cool hair, ( ahhh i forgot to add keith [ his shirt over his head and he he hmm and his party, also being a gangsta is fun !) my life [ for the most part]
I'm out of gifted forever, which in a sense is kind of scary. Me out in the real world? I'll miss it a lot. Stacey and i made the class take a group picture. oh man.
I'm one year closer to being gone forever. I don't want to grow up. I want to stay young and have fun forever.
To conlude, I've said it a million times, but summer is going to be amazing i can feel it. Just one thing, i have until july 21st to make a goal/ dream happen. It kinda puts a damper on things no?
I want to say so much more but ill end with this "I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass" ~ Counting Crows
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