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2006 9 February :: 7.39pm
Every line makes me cry, 'cause every word was a lie.
There I go again, reading old journal entries.
I don't suggest doing that.
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2006 6 February :: 10.57pm
Am I sleeping with my eyes wide?
Am I alone?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
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I really didn't go to class today. Test too. I missed it. I didn't write my paper for Survey but we can miss one so that's okay. Tomorrow I have class then work. Hopefully I only have to do prep so I don't have to work too late. Wednesday I have to get up early and go to class. Then breakfast with my Char. Then mommy's birthday. This is going to be one carazy week. We shall see.
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2006 6 February :: 10.24pm
i am an insane face.
this weekend either showed me that i am normal or that i need some counciling.
what the fuck.
seriously.
next weekend i should just play scrabble for a couple hours and then have some pudding.
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2006 6 February :: 9.18pm
THE PLAY.
What an awesome night.
The show went great. I am so proud of everyone. You guys are all amazing, seriously. For the amount of time we had to do this and all the stress we all went through.. I just can't believe we pulled it together. But, we did and I am so happy.
Yeah, I messed up a line. I was completely beating myself up over it. But, ya know what? For having a two page monolgoue and only messing up one line, I should be thankful. And when a few other people sort've messed up like I did, I didn't care and it didn't stick out in my mind. It was just normal and ok, so that helped me a lot. Some people said they noticed, but I picked it up so fast that it didn't matter. Others completely didn't notice, so whatever.
After the show a lady came up to me and told me that my scene made her cry and it was one of her favorites. That made me so happy.
Thanks for all the other compliments as well. Whoever showed up to support me/us: thanks. [Thank you Matt and Jake for coming. It's good to see some old friends]
One more night. I hope I don't mess up that line again, haha.
Oh, and H apologized and said that he was very proud of me. So, that helped.
I am good now. And not to sound full of myself in any way, but I am proud of myself, because from the start I didn't think I could do this. I didn't think I could memorize more than a line. I didn't think I could get up in front of all those people being only a few feet away.
But, I did.
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2006 6 February :: 4.35pm
:: Music: Copeland
Quiet now, your voice seems miles away. Yet somehow I hear your song resound, A little bit softer each day,
And from my tired heart, a little bit farther away
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It's got me wishing for the past and hating myself. I love you, now stop it. It's going to be just fine.
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"I’ll sing along
The whole day through
Just do your best to hear me
It’s all you can do
You have my attention
Like you’ve had all the while
Since that first day when you made my heart smile
With loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
You have my attention
Like a shout through an empty sanctuary
Speak but a whisper"
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2006 5 February :: 6.05pm
:: Music: Cliff Ritchey
Arbitrary!
Something that struck me as interesting was when my group leader from Spring Hill came up to me and told me she was impressed with how well I knew myself. She said that it was awesome, because most girls have no idea and can't answer those kind of questions that fast. And I am going in the right direction. It made me realize how much I really do think and how much I pick myself apart. I was asked what the three things I would change about myself were. I said unmotivation, being too dependent on other people, and how I am always mad about something/can't relax. Another question was what my biggest fear was and I said making the wrong choices. We were also asked what truth was. When you think about that, it's actually extremely hard to answer. I think there's only one kind of truth and those are solid facts. But, the truth we live by isn't always true, because solid truth is lost. People choose their own truths (even though logic is ruled out). Everything is turned into something else. I don't know, it's hard to explain. We talked about other things as well, but I won't bother boring you any longer.
I know none of this matters to you. She just made me see something in myself. I know exactly who I am and that's comforting, because no one else does and I didn't think I knew either.
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2006 5 February :: 3.40pm
:: Music: Cliff Ritchey
Get dressed.
Spring Hill was awesome. I actually had a lot of fun. I'm glad I went now, because I wasn't excited about it for a long time.
The band, Cliff Ritchey, was amazing. I don't really care for Christian music, but they were really good. And the lead singer (Cliff) is honestly the cutest man I have ever seen in my life. I'm pretty much in love with him, haha. I think I liked him so much, because he looked a lot like young Bob Dylan and his voice even resembled him somewhat. And the guitarist was the hottest Asian I have ever laid eyes on.
Wow. I am such a girl, lol.
Anyway, I'm happy I decided to go. I think I'll go again, but I'd rather go in the summer if I do. I'm not exactly a winter person.
Well, tomorrow night is the first night of our play. Wish us luck.
Time to shower, eat, and sleep.
Edit>> Oh my God. I was just reading Cliff's journal from his website and he talks about Bob Dylan all of the time. Man, I am good. I wish he wasn't married now though, because he's the closest I could ever get to a young Bob Dylan. Hahaha. Awe man...that's pure dissapointment right there.
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2006 2 February :: 11.06pm
so . . . we finally got internet.
this is crazy.
and for my next stunt i will be flying to the moon.
booo yah!!!!!!!!!
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2006 2 February :: 9.57pm
:: Music: J.C. - Sunday Mornin' Comin' Down
So, we finally got the internet back..like it really matters. Anyway, I got a new job. Nothing special but it's work. I'm assistant manager at a place called "Back in Time" at the mall here. I enjoy working there, plus they sell tons of stuff that I like. Lots of Elvis and Marilyn and things of that nature.
Other than that, all I do is sit around. I am yet to have any friends so far. I sit alone every night doing absolutely nothing. I wake up at like 2:30pm everyday because there is absolutely no reason for me to bother getting up early. I honestly have no life right now, and I'm lonely as fuck. At least Stacy got what she hoped for.. I guess I just dont care, there isn't much that gives me hope now days. Whatever.
I was talking to Chad today and I guess him and I might go to New Orleans for six months to work. Coming home for a week every 3 weeks. I would be making $1200/wk but that's working 11 hours a day 7 days a week. If it happens, i'll go, if not, oh well.
Other than all the terrible shit, I do like Knoxville, a lot. And a couple people from work want to take me out on my birthday, rather than me sitting at home alone like usual. It'll be nice to get out for once.
Well, there isn't much else to say. Other than, goodbye.
Brad
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2006 2 February :: 12.15pm
Let's go now, into the darkness of your thoughts.
Asleep with one eye open so i can see you breathing, I follow your chest.
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2006 1 February :: 6.22pm
It's a crazy world.
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2006 1 February :: 3.12pm
ADVANCED DRAMA PLAY
Feb. 6-7th (That's NEXT Monday and Tuesday, bitches)
$5
Starts at S E V E N ! PM.
Be there or be killed with a square.
[Pass this on, everyone]
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2006 31 January :: 10.02pm
Ugh. I don't even care! Pfft.
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2006 31 January :: 5.40pm
:: Music: Damien Rice
I hate MySpace. It sucks.
And so does Xanga.
I don't want to get into why, because if I start this entry could end up being entirely too long.
I love Woohu, because Woohu doesn't suck.
That's all.
Edit>> I can't wait for Swirl now. It's just the girls, and as much as I like having a date, it's usually more fun just hanging out with a buncha crazy girls. And oh my God, the dress I am borrowing is gorgeous. I tried it on and now I am really happy. I love it. It's the first dress I've actually felt pretty in. Like, ever. Oh, I am so excited! :)
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2006 31 January :: 11.02am
i hate physics.
i don't care that x-x0=v0t+axt^2
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
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2006 30 January :: 4.08pm
:: Music: Aiden- See You In Hell...
Got up at 6. Went to class. Went to Meijer to get some food. Slept. Grandma called from the Greenville Hospital. Grandpa's in there. Someone hit them. BAD. Grandpa's hurt. All because of some stupid person who probably shouldn't have been driving in the first place. He's got 4 broken ribs and they're keeping him overnight. Grandma's shaken up and bruised. The Tahoe is TOTALED. I'm glad it wasn't worse though. But I'm really upset. Grandma was so happy to pay off the truck, too. Now they have nothing and they're hurt. I love my grandparents so much that makes me so upset. :-(
I'm making Char birthday dinner tonight. Stuffed shells and black forest cake. Happy Birthday.
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2006 29 January :: 10.25pm
Yesterday was a blast!
Char and I went to Townsend Park and it was really pretty out. WE went to eat at The Melting Pot. FONDUE! hahaha. Then we went to look at houses in East GR. Then we went back home and hung out. I got tickets to Arenacross for Char's b-day :-) It was soooooo fun and our seats were really really good. About 3 rows up from the tarp. haha. So we could see everything. The best part was when the 7/8 year-olds raced. It was so adorable. Char and I are convinced we need dirt bikes now! oh yeah!
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2006 29 January :: 10.20pm
You can only say yes or no.
You are not allowed to explain anything.
1. Taken a picture naked? yes
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Kissed a member of the same sex? yes
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? Yes
8. Stole money from a friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of the house? No
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? yes
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? no
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? Yes
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? yes
40. Pole danced? No
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? no
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sang in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? yes
58. Sat on a roof top? no
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? No
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Been to a bar? Yes
71. Anyone offer you a drink? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Been to a late night movie? yes
76. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes
77. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES ;-)
82. Thrown strange objects? no
83. Felt like killing someone? no
84. Felt like running away? Yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
89. Made a parent cry? no
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Had/Have a dog? Yes
95. Own(ed) an instrument? yes
96. Been in a band? No
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
98. Broken a CD? yes
99. Shot a gun? yes
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? no
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2006 28 January :: 12.01pm
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco- Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks
Prescribed pills to offset the shakes...to offset the pills you know you should take...um...take it a day at a time...
AhhHHHH
Yesterday I was stranded at Best Buy so I walked to Char's. AHHH!
I bought The Office! YAYYYYY
and I bought The Notebook.
Tonight's going to be fun!!!!
Birthday surprise for Charlie-yo. <3<3
~
Fix a vice with a vice
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2006 27 January :: 7.01pm
Stacy: Oh my God, my forehead itches like a bitch.
Josh: Oh Christ, my balls itch.
We seriously both said that at the same exact time.
It was fucking scary.
[Hahahahahaahaha]
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2006 27 January :: 1.41pm
:: Music: Elliott Smith
No school for me today, biotches.
I had an eye appointment at 10am, so I figured why even go.
I got new glasses, because my other ones broke in half! I was sad, but the new ones are basically the same exact style. The only difference is they're brown on the outside instead of black, and some sort of greenish/yellow color on the inside instead of red. I like them better than my older ones.
I am still not a glasses person. Ick.
My grandma bought me a $6 chocolate covered strawberry from Godiva. I thought it was quite ridiculous, but she insisted. And I'll tell you what...it was the best damn chocolate covered strawberry I've ever had. And the only. Mmmm.
Anyway, I am bored off my feet. I hope someone wants to hang out tonight. And by hang out I don't mean go back to school and waste money on a lame basketball game.
Edit>> Oh, and new layouts for all three journals!! Exciting, eh?
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2006 27 January :: 12.40pm
we are trying to get internet at my house finally. . .
but it's not going very well. we got some virus on our computer and randy was supposed to fix it but he was a no show last night.
perhaps i wasn't meant to have internet anyway.
it's like some sort of curse on my head for all of those murders i helped becca with. like seriously, i knew when she showed up at my door with a couple giant garbage bags, a pair of shovels, a flashlight, and a chainsaw that i should have simply said i was in the middle of dinner.
but no, i HAD to go along with her demonic plan.
now i'll never have the internet and i'll probably fail physics because of it. my crazy professor, he loves to point out the fact that i am at a disadvantage because of my stone-age life style.
so while i continue living in a cave, will someone please come and shine some light on me. unless you are rebecca with a couple candles at hand along with directions to the nearest grave yard. . .
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2006 26 January :: 11.37pm
haha
you make me sick!
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2006 26 January :: 9.20pm
Hahaha.
Ahh, fuck you! You're grounded!
What for?
Because you don't think that the garbage disposal sounds like chewbaca taking a shit! That's why. Now go to your room!
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2006 26 January :: 2.01pm
So I finally got around to seeing the Notebook. Wow. I haven't cried so much during a movie before. It's just so sad. :-(
I have class today but I'm sick. I must be dying or something. I've been in a really really good mood and I enjoy being at home. I'm not annoyed with my puppies, they're actually pretty fun :-) And I am making dinner tonight. I just enjoy taking it slow right now and taking everything in. Like I said...I must be dying.
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2006 25 January :: 4.52pm
I'm really happy with life right now. Everything is great. For once it just feels like things are balanced.
I'm proud of what I've accomplished too. I can't believe (it seems) like my first year is almost done. It just feels like it's going fast. It's a good feeling though, I'd like to get out as soon as I can. But I really like it. I've paid off my own car. $5000. That felt good. I've got a great job and am gaining more and more experience. I made the Dean's list. I like being home and relaxing and actually have time for that. I'm with the man I love and we've got a great future ahead of us. I have great friends. I love my classes. I'm just overall very satisfied.
I went to Spectrum today and learned a lot. I guess there's a job opening, but it's third shift. I may take it...who knows. It'd definitely be an experience. But until my classes are over I'd only get 4 hours of sleep w/both my jobs and classes. That wouldn't be so great.
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2006 24 January :: 11.04am
winter is too long.
and cold.
it's so wierd you wouldn't think that all this snow would make it cold outside. . .
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2006 24 January :: 6.42am
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday
Tagged! haHaHA. So funny. Not, bitch.
I am so sick of this "tagging" bullshit.
Stop for Christs sake!
It's not like when someone leaves a lame ass comment about how you got "tagged" there is some uncontrollable force making you leave this comment in about ten thousand other journals, because the fucking comment says you must.
Guess what? You don't have to do anything a comment tells you to do, ever! Even if it says you'll die if you don't pass it on, you won't. I mean you may die, but not because you didn't send some bullshit to ten thousand other people. Unless someone is pointing a gun to your head, threatening to set your house ablaze, or killing your puppy you're perfectly fine not passing it on.
Ugghhh.
/end rant
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2006 23 January :: 4.26pm
"Irony"
So, after school we're bringing Erika home and we're having this conversation about how it's stupid when people mess around while they're driving and blah, blah. etc. So we drop her off then Dustin decides to try and "miss the pot holes" (in other words, fuck around). So, while missing these pot holes we go straight into the dtich, after swirving for a little bit. And it's not like we just went into the ditch. We full on ended up completely facing the opposite direction from when we started. If there would have been a tree [which there was like 10 feet away] I'd pry be hurt right now or dead (D E D).
You know Dustin...he has to do everything with style, lol.
So, yeah.. I'm home now and not really looking forward to any more rides with my good ole bro. Just playing.. *shifts eyes*
Thanks for the help, Joey.
Other than sitting in a snow bank for an hour my day was good.
My crush on Mr.Young is clearly not a crush anymore. It's true love, baby.
And Mr.Hazel still can't stay on task.
Sweet.
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2006 22 January :: 7.23pm
:: Music: Tom Petty
Can I have your tonsils?
This weekend was really good, beside getting made fun of for sounding like a little boy who just hit puberty. Ah well, I'll be a good sport and admit that it was funny.
Saturday night Lisa picked me up and we headed down to Skelles, excuse me, "The Euclid" *rolls eyes* and Devin was there, luckily. I think he was really happy and surprised to see us 'cause we didn't plan on hanging out. Anyway, Dani met us there, then we all headed to Big Nasty's house. Have I mentioned that I fucking love Big Nasty before? Well just in case I haven't.. I LOVE BIG NASTY. All right, anyway.. we hung out there for a while then went to Jimi's and Torrell's house to chill. After that we just drove around until like 4am then crashed at Lisa's for the night. After sleeping in until around 1pm we decided to head down town again. We as in Lisa, Devin, and I. Dani headed home early to sleep for the day. Yeah, so today was a lot of fun too. Overall the weekend was just awesome. I love my friends. I really do. [Ashley: I can't wait until you can join us again. We miss you!]
He is just so great. I'm so comfortable around him. I could see us becoming great friends and him being an important part of my life. He really cares about me. And I can't wait for him to see that I care as well.
Spring Hill is pretty soon. I guess I'm excited, but not really.
The [Advanced Drama] play is soon as well. I'm so nervous about it, yet very excited at the same time. Please go. It's going to be awesome if we get our shit together. And for once I have more than one line. I have two damn pages all to myself.
Anyway, I have tons of things to say, but you've heard it all before and it's all over thought bullshit that I don't need to ramble on about. So yeah, tomorrow starts a new semester. Yay.
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