A Collection of Thoughts

:: 2004 10 April :: 4.13pm
:: Mood: floaty

just got back from thrifting with danison and brittiany...it was nifty.

the long line at Goodwill was just too much for dani...she had to rebel. wooo i kiss you danison!

tonight is the show i do believe that should be fun. kisses

runningaway

:: 2004 10 April :: 12.19pm
:: Mood: good.
:: Music: the vines-winning days.

nope.
i havent updated in awhile.

wednesday i took the family to see mr. cypress. my grandpa didnt really like it, imagine that. but my mom and grandma loved it. as did i.

thursday was no school for me. i spent some quality time w/ my grandma.

yesterday was okay. i took my grandparents to the airport. :( then i stayed home and watched cheaper by the dozen w/ my mom 'cause she was sad.

i saw bear in a big blue car driving down the road! haha.

today i party w/ L and E and hopefully adam. it shall be fun.

tomorrow i get up and go to the sunrise service on the beach.

then i chill w/ ernie and lenny again. ill have to see whats up.

i finally got the new vines cd. it makes my life complete.

that is all.
xoxo.

:: 2004 8 April :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: tired

so uhm, turns out having two journals..well three actually...is quite difficult. i mean...phew.

movies tonight with bear and lennile...interesting to say the least...refer to live journal.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/grayhopes/

add me to your friends or i beat you down...kisses

3 laughs | humor me

:: 2004 8 April :: 2.28pm
:: Mood: tan
:: Music: reel big fish-suckers

so today was amazing as of yet. my mother picked me up after 2nd and we went to the beach. oh my i am now human looking, i actually have a teensy amount of non whiteness. indeed.

tonight. lenny? call me? thanx buddy

2 laughs | humor me

:: 2004 7 April :: 2.53pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: dashboard

'your taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon yours and i starve for you'
yeah, not a very eventful day. my bear came into liberry and stayed for a long time. it made me smile mucho lot, like this :0). oh boy it was lil ashlie bday today CLE got her flowers yay. we should adopt her as our lil buddy....hmmm something to think about.

on a different note. i feel all, lusty. sometimes not have a boyfriend is amazing because you get to crush anyone without feeling guilty...well, almost anyone :/.

'out of the corner of your eye
wont be the only way your looking
at me then'

3 laughs | humor me

:: 2004 6 April :: 4.15pm
:: Mood: alone
:: Music: she will be loved-maroon 5

dani i love you because of my amazing cd that as of right now, ive listened to twice already.

....if honesty is the best policy, why do i continue to keep secrets?

i kiss bear and lenny and charlie and lil ashlie

6 laughs | humor me

:: 2004 6 April :: 9.16am
:: Mood: unimportant

damn emo mood
i can't seem to do anything right and i know ive said this millions of times before, but it still rings true. im sorry for not keeping my mouth shut and knowing when to just let things be...

it hurts me to know that i will never mean as much as i want to to someone. the only thing to do is to stay apathatic, every things okay...simply because it has to be.

some of my friends are truly amazing. bear and lenny ecspecially. i love you two more then anything in the whole wide world of me, kisses. and charlie i kiss you as well.

*i didnt know it could mean that much to me*

:: 2004 5 April :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: TBS-cute without the e

because its your moon, and because its your song, and because im falling....thats why i can't seem to stop thinking about you.

runningaway

:: 2004 5 April :: 8.04pm
:: Mood: worried.
:: Music: nirvana-nevermind.

Erniphobia was here.
i love lenny for coming to get me this morning and ernie for coming along for the ride. it was an early morning adventure.

today was pretty uneventful. i slept alot so thats cool.

im so taking my grandma to see mr. cypress. its so great.

i cant wait until this weekend. im pretty sure my mom forgot me being grounded. woot.

...its not quite something, but yet not quite nothing. do i leave it as not even something or let it become nothing?...

all my love.
xoxo.

10 laughs | humor me

:: 2004 5 April :: 3.02pm
:: Mood: emo
:: Music: taking back sunday

'everything i learned about breaking hearts i learned from you..'
today was happy day i suppose.

bear came to visit us in the liberry, it made me smile.

somethings seem that they will never be the same, the just can't get back to how they were. people change and move on but that doesnt mean it hurts any less...

'september never stays this cold where i come from and you know im not one for compalining but i love the way you roll excuses off the tip of your tongue as i slowly fall apart'

runningaway

:: 2004 4 April :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: okay.
:: Music: phantom of the opera.

ta da.
so, i couldnt go to the show on friday. that was a lil bit frustrating but its okay too. i dont get to see my family very often.

yesterday was exciting let me tell you. i drove two hours to see alligators. i got to ride a boat though and that was neat. this town was so small that their post office was the size of a very small tool shed. im not even kidding. haha.
my grandma had the best time. she counted every alligator we saw. i think it was around 25....i dont know. i was kind of reading during some of it. shhhh...dont tell.

im baking a cake right now. its for my grandma's birthday. we have a party.

i hope to see all of you loverlies tomorrow. i miss you.

all my love.
xoxo.

7 laughs | humor me

:: 2004 3 April :: 5.27pm
:: Mood: SOUTHERN BAPTIST
:: Music: oh happy day- southern baptist edition(by lenny)

so what if we order both chinese and pizza? PLAYA WHAT
yay, my dearest lenny is over right now...sitting on my floor doing homework...loser. HEYYYY

so yeah...this morning was relaxing i went to the library and finished my book. i then walked all along the beach and just thought about things...i dont know if i resolved anything i was confused about but i think my priorities are a lot more...stable.

'i let myself fall into a lie
i let my wall come down
i let myself smile and feel alive
i let my walls come down
no matter how i tryi dont know why
you push so far away
you wrapped your hands
tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain'

kind of new update:
so i just got home, 9:47, from the bell tower. i hung out with bear, rachel, and seamus...and lennile, of course.
ran into andrew as well, such a great time.

my day was fantastic. thank you all.

:: 2004 2 April :: 10.37pm
:: Mood: dreamy
:: Music: dashboard

so forget my last entry, i did hang out with nick tonight.

he called me around 6 and said he could hang out so i met him at barnes and noble around 8. we hung out and talked, and the essential part..coffee. its neat, i love that kid :)

i hope everyone had a spamtastic night.

sweeet dreams
-emily_

:: 2004 2 April :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: the wind

'the outline that i trace around the on that i call mine..'
okay, so it seems i am doing nothing tonight. thats fine i guess, everything happens for a reason..

...i hate seeing people crushed and hurt by those who should always be there. no one deserves the pain that they get, above all you. theres so much that people go through that if everyone understood a little bit more wouldn't happen. life is too amazing to spend being ignorant of peoples problems and feelings.

all i want is to see you smile.