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yeah- didnt get to go out last night. but im gonna try to go out tonight. hopefully i'll find someone.

so last night i watched shrek. i love that movie. lol. i fell asleep towards the end though. then my family decided to leave their mess for me to clean up..12:30- not supposed to be cleaning. heh. then carlos called, we talked for a bit but then he got tired and had to go. and i couldnt fall asleep because i missed my "window". so i just laid in my bed for about an hour and stared at the ceiling.

havent done much today..woke up around 9:45..ate some apple jacks..watched some tv..cleaned my room. now im bored. so im gonna ask again---any one wanna go out today/tonight??!! call me up!

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im gonna start from AP exams..which sucked major butt. where was the point in me studying for 16515613 freaking hours? and me going absolutely crazy?? yeah- just alittle bit pissed. but i am glad theyre done!! whoo! yesterday was good..didnt do much in spanish. math=me putting on makeup. got a C on my test. i dont think i can possibly do good in that class. eh whatever. chemistry=no kenyon! SCORE! but we had busy work which sucked. but "we beat you" says delirious. holy crap me and amara seriously were out there. just completely lost it. lunch was fun..talked, ate, the usual. then art history was pretty mush a free period. discussed our project. kaila gave me my idea. thanks chiquita!! then we just talked and such. fun fun. until my foot got crushed. but its all good. lol. bus ride.. me and amy got hit on by joe. not fun-he's on crack..whoa. went home..then went to kailas and we went to veterans n met up with carlos..i had lotsa fun!! then amara met us there and we all went back to kailas. amara left right after though and then we watched some tv. carlos n me left liked 30 mins. after. took me home. couldnt get out of the car. lmao! but i wanna know why im the one always getting hurt or the one that has the 'weird' stuff happen?? haha..strange occurance..guess so. but we always have a good time, so i'll live. then i talked to ashley for a while. nice. but then i had to go bc i was falling asleep on the phone and it was only 11! then today i got up and laid out got a tan. go me! lol..im still white though. now i wanna try n call some ppl so i can go outttt!! any takers??

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this is what i want. i want a day, or maybe that's too much to ask for. i want a half day where i can just sit and not have to worry about a thing. i don't want any stress. i don't want to have any problems with my friends or family. i want to be able to sit and when i start to think- i wont have any negative things flooding my mind. i don't want to think- oh yeah, i'm fighting with my dad/mom or brother/sister. shit there's crap going on with this friend and i hope i can talk it out with some other person. i hope they didn't take what i said the wrong way, i hope they don't get mad at ME for having MY feelings hurt. i hope this person doesn't spread crap about me around the school. i hope my grades will go up. i hope this person is telling me the truth. i really hope this person makes it through it. i hope my family is doing alright. and every other fucking thing that's not going right. honestly, i can't remember the last time i was truely happy. i know it hasn't been for awhile now. it's just been a constant thing of mood swings. and i'm sorry if i've been bitchy or just 'boring' so to speak. i just haven't been myself. i'm sorry. i can't think anymore, i'm just trying to fill you in as much as i can do while being comfortable with it.

I HAVE SO MANY MOSQUITO BITES!!

heres my day:
~spanish-copied math homework, did classwork, took a notebook quiz (got one wrong)
~math-gotta improve my grade!!
~chemistry- boring
~lunch- ashley cracks me up, bought amara lunch-finally got to pay her back!
~art history- yelled at stecker, tripped so freakin much.carlos n kaila made fun of me lol
~bus- chatted with my buddy amara

went home..then to aerobics..was a tid bit challenging so hopefully it juss keeps gettin harder :/ ...heh. time for homework..FUN!

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IF YOURE PLAYIN ME, KEEP IT ON THE LOW
good day good day..nothing happened in particular..i dunno it was just 'enjoyable'. didnt do anything in spanish..skipped health..hung out with my papa smurf sameen. he sanded his mug and we just talked/chilled. twas nice. then met up with my people.. walked carlos to class.. lunch was alright..studied vocab..english..drew in my planner..lol..then went to economics..where the high point of my day occured..the extra credit notes count asa test grade..YES that was my high point! heh..took the practice test..got a 64..better than usual..then it was time to go home..bus ride was funnnny!! whoa..good times. then amy came over n helped me in chem..im gettin there! she left shortly after..and i ate dinner..YUM..then did some of my homework..which is why i feel accomplished..hehe..im gonna go n finish..ttyl

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I HOPE I GET ALL MY HOMWORK DONE!
..yes stressin mi tarea..

but i had a good weekend..friday juss chilled..saturday went to city place with amara n ta..then to circuit city n then to the gardens..it was fun [yes-amara] then they dropped me off home..wow-we're a bunch of liars lolol. and i went to carlos' to see the shining..umm yea- def. not scary but i did miss the last 20 minutes or so. then we watched a chris rock stand up thing..it was funny..i had fun there too..now im here doin fuckin homework..wish me luck!

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HOW YA LIKE IT DADDY?
goin on 3 hours of sleep isnt fun..but im gettin used to it sadly. today was alright:
spanish- nuttin
math-NO test! but i was ready for it for once!! lol..we had a sub..so we didnt do anything..amara did my make up..n i chatted with my papa smurf..lol
chem- NO quiz! i was happy about that..and i kinda get it now..still gotta study tho..then amara left me..and yeah..some ppl are fuckers..heh.
lunch- ate..thats about it
art- boring..talked to my kaila..carlos didnt get his hair did lol..then WOW- talk about a giggle attack..lmao [kaila]
bus-talked to amy n kaila..fell asleep..lol rainy weather makes me tired..

then went home and had dinner..went to my first aerobics class..it was easy im hopin it gets harder..lol..n soon my friends comin over so i can tutor him..well he'll be here any minute..so im out.

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BEIN FLIPPED N DROPPED
HEY ALL!

im at carlos' casa con amara..we worked on chem for about a whole hour!! go us! then we played around..listened to music n now we're juss goofin off.. carlos is up to something but wont tell us what..hmm..gotta investigate..lol well im gonna go ttyl

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