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:: Music: blink - first date
blink
blink 182 concert was awesome
we got sooo close to them [third row!!] and took tons of pictures.
travis even did a solo on his drums. it was sooo great!!!
cypress hill and taking back sunday also did a really kickass job!
-- the best part is that me and alex got in for free. gary's awesome! thanks x10 man.
we even had glow in the dark lollipops for the slow song when everyone took out their cell phones and lighters. it was soo fun
ill never forget it! love you alex!! :-)
other than that, weekend was good.. i saw mean girls with jess.. hung out with alex and we ordered TONS of food while watching titanic lol. and i played pool w/ mario kevin landis pat and brandon. it was all fun but im gonna get going, nap time! lol
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2004 4 May :: 9.58pm
my buddy.. forever
i love zach
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2004 4 May :: 8.15pm
:: Music: if you asked me to
lolol im listening to my moms old cassettes that my aunt gave her. its so fun. and funny haha! i know all these oldies and i love them.
so far ive listened to soo many gloria estefan songs like turn the beat around, conga, and its too late. ive heard innocent man, holiday, if you asked me to, always, here and now.. etc. lol.. i love these songs..
my aunt and my mom and i along w/ some other parts of our family would sing and dance to these oldies on holidays. like 2002's fourth of july we had a block party and played oldies and stuff. it was fun. i like the old songs. i miss my family..
i could see my aunt lee right now singing w/ her facial expressions and stuff.. we always have a blast. we used to stay up soo late playing scrabble or trivial persuit blasting oldies.. i cant wait to visit them
sorry for boring the few who read this. i was just having fun and remembering family lol. later
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2004 2 May :: 10.28pm
everything is always a lose lose situation..
with everything going on.. mike and christine included, i just wish people could be happy for one another instead of angry and frustrated.
i just want one drama free week! lol just one!!!
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2004 1 May :: 2.52pm
:: Music: maroon 5 - this love
last night was fun.
last night was fun.
i love kevin landis and colt. they're a blast to hang out with!
colt landis and kevin came and picked me up [[thanks landis .. ur awesome]] and we went to the mall for a little while. we had fun at spencers haha. we ran into jess for a little bit at hallmark and then kevin and colt got a little too hyper so we left and went back to kevins house.
we hung out there for a little while, ate some food, watched some tv. hung out with mike for a little while and then went to this girl allies house. i had never met her before but she was really sweet..
it was me colt kevin landis john justin allie trina and then jessica gibby michelle and andrew showed up for a little while.. it was cool.
mario and pat get back from orlando today!!! woohoo! so im thinking im gonna hang out with them tonight and probably sleep at pats house. i think im meeting up with michelle too.. but i dont know if shes stayin at pat's with me. who knows?!
but yeah, im gonna go finish the housework so i can go out tonight.. later
xoxo
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2004 29 April :: 8.52pm
COLT.. BRING ME TO THE CONCERT WITH YOU!!
LUCKY BITCH!!
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2004 29 April :: 4.14pm
thank you soo much!
thank you soo much to all my wonderful friends who have been helping me through this bullshit. i dont know what i would do without you guys!!
mario - aaah!! i love you soo much! you're the coolest kid i swear. thanks for helpin me thru everything. come back from orlando.. now lol! xoxo
patrick - yikes! where to begin. ur fucking amazing. thanks for everything pat. god knows id be lost without you. love you!
kevin - hey tall shit! ur one goofy ass motherfucker. but i love you to pieces. thanks for always being soo sarcastic. - it puts a smile on my face. you're awesome!
carly - even tho we havent hung out in what seems like forever, thank you soo much for still sticking by my side during this shit. i love you very much.
whit - i know you're having some rough times now, but thank you for still helping me out when you needed advice too. im always gonna be there for you. and thanks so much for being there for me. bffl!
zach - oh man. you are awesome zach. thanks for sticking by me through this, and after me being a disappointment to you. you are always looking out for me and i thank you for that very much. bffl. i love you tons!!
jess - oh my goodness. you are like the only one at school who really cares about me and my situation. you know the whole story inside and out. and you're always comforting me and putting a smile on my face. you are so god.damn.awesome! j.dawg and d.unit = friends for life! thanks.. for everything
michelle - SHITTLEBITTLE! you're the freaking greatest. im so glad i have you in my life. your'e always trying to help me out and i love you to pieces. friends foreverr!
kari - oh man, i remember last yr when we didnt like each other. well all thats changed. i love you soo much girl and thanks for everything. you are the sweetest! love you mucho!
heather - even tho we havent chilled in god knows how long. you've still managed to stay thru. especially thru all the shit we've been thru. thanks for caring about me. and im always there for you too. xox
jen - history wouldn't be the same without you. thanks for giving me the best advice possible. it all helps. im always there for you!!
sorry other friends who have helped me through this. but i don't want to make this entry much longer. but a special thanks to maura jimmer colt brandon s brandon b melis tyler landis alex anais jenna
oh and i swear.. theres this kid that looks exactly like danny and rj mixed into one person. its CRAZY lol
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2004 27 April :: 8.08pm
im soooo fuckin heated
FUCK YOU you shit talkin' psycho bitch
and FUCK YOU you lying skeeving asshole. you know what you did. dont deny it.
im too good for you. i dont deserve your shit. i wont be there for you to fall back on.
so fuck you. you dont deserve me. and one more word out of psycho-fuck and i swear.. somethings gonna happen.
mario was right the whole time.. and i wont stop going over there. she fucked up my first relationship.. but she sure as hell aint gonna fuck up my next one!
god damn im so fuckin heated..
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2004 26 April :: 7.40pm
it is much easier to turn a friendship into love than love into friendship
-:- tha hardest thing 2 do in life iz watch tha one u love, loving sum1 else *especially if u no ur better for him* -:-
im goin 2 smile, n make u *ThiNk* im happy, im gonna laff so u dont c me *KrY*, im gonna let u go in style, n *eVeN iF iT KiLlZ mE*... im gonna *sMiLe
Love comes to those who still hope even though they`ve been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they`ve been betrayed, need to love those who still love even though they`ve been hurt before.
*love is when i say i like your shirt and you wear it everyday. : )
SoMeDaY uLL bE sOrRy, SoMeDaY wHeN uR fReE, MeMoRiEs wILL rEmInD u, tHaT u CoULdA bEeN wIt mE...
U'LL B OuT 1 NiTe ThInKiNg Of WaT U CoUlDa Had I'LL b OuT HaViNG FuN So...Oopz...DaT WaZ Ur Bad
Im A Str0nq qirl Wh0 Keepz Mi Shyt In Line Even Wit Tearz Streamin Down Mi Face I Still Manaqe To Say
[I m F i n e]
i want t0o be rememberd as the qiirL that alwayz' =] smiLed even with a
` b r 0 k e n < l 3 h e A r t
the 1 who alwAyz briightend every 1`s day evEn iif she * cOuldnt br!gHtEn hEr oWn
being with you makes me feel like i dont have to try so hard to be happy . . it just
h a p p e n 's* <33 =)
Because of you, I laugh a lil harder,Cry a lil less n smile alot more
when it comes down to you i dun kno wat to dOo kuz boii i'd drOp the whole world to be wit you <3
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2004 26 April :: 7.30pm
:: Music: 3 days grace - just like you
FUCK HER
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you
You thought you were sitting beside me
Your were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you
I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you
You thought you were sitting beside me
Your were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
On my own, cause I can’t take liven with you
I’m alone, so I won’t turn out like you
Want me to
You thought you were sitting beside me
Your were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
i fucking cant stand her. jesso knows why. she wins. i give up. im not strong enough.. i cant handle it.. im a weak person.. and im not good enough for anyone
my self esteem is so low, along with my self confidence. im tired of feeling lonely and like nobody wants me or loves me. i need a break from everything.
but yeah, sat was mucho fun. i killed a 1/2 bottle of parrot bay all by myself. landis and tyler were TORE. it was a fun night, and hot ass joey showed up! then sunday was a bbq at brandons pool. mucho fun!
but yeah, fuck that bitch times 10!
you hurt me more than I deserve… how can u be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, how can I b such a fool?
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2004 24 April :: 5.41pm
still hate her..
i'm becoming mean! score!. i cant stand her.. i really cant
1/2 day was fuun. whole weeks been fun. its great to have mario back!
she's a fuckin bitch. if u all only knew what she did to me this time.
so fuck her.. and fuck the person she has mind-fucked. they're not worth my fucking energy anymore!!
pool has been fun. went to a laate movie on thursday which was cool. movie sucked, but it was fun going with colt mario brandon and pat. we snuck in soo much food haha. then they brought home this big ass poster thing of the girl from the girl next door.. soo funny
i drank last night, and tonight i think we're going to play pool or something.. im broke... being broke sucks lol. but last night.. i drank a lot. and i wasn't even drunk, i didnt know i could hold my liquor that well. but yeah, im gonna get going cuz im taking my mom out to dinner then going back to grubbs. later!
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love to:: carly whit meg sarah zach heather shittlebittle karebear jen john steve ashers mel ange steph jesso mario pat kevin mike colt brandon s brandon b bob billy mikey mike jon frank erik jordan izzy sosa etc.. i love and miss u guys!
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2004 19 April :: 8.58pm
i cannot believe she had the audacity to show up at my house..
i can't be mean. god help me, why cant i be mean?!
if we start talking she is going to walk all over me and i dont want to put myself in that situation.. and besides.. i still dont like her.
i cant believe she came to my house.. aaah!
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2004 18 April :: 12.39pm
:: Music: jessica simpson - im with you
i fucking hate her
hate : To have a great aversion to, with a strong desire that evil should befall the person toward whom the feeling is directed; to dislike intensely; to detest; as, to hate one's enemies; to hate hypocrisy. the emotion of hate; a feeling of dislike so strong that it demands action
yeap.. that just about sums up how i feel about that rotten, disgusting, whore-bitch psycho path mother fucker. my hatred grows more and more everyday!!
she needs to get smacked as hard as she acts.
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2004 17 April :: 2.38pm
stupid fuck
she's such a stupid psycho bitch
if she talks trash to maura and she manipulates maura to not like me anymore.. we're gonna throw down..
she will be the first fight i ever have.. and i'll be soo mad ill beat her ass.. i swear. it will be a fight to remember..
god i cant stand her!
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2004 14 April :: 7.03pm
:: Music: nickelback - someday
well.. now that my venting is done. ill get to what i did over the weekend...
thursday night i was supposed to go to anais' house, but me and michelle couldn't find a ride. so we just kinda let those plans go and are holding on to them for another night. i just kinda hung out that night, nothing special.
friday not much happened during the day that i remember. i went to kari's house that night and ashly showed up. then john and steven [kari and ashly's boyfriends] showed up. they were cool. it was fun. then john drove us girls to grubb's house. we all hung out with mike for a while cuz he was the only one home. then pat and brandon showed up and we went to get some liquor. 91 dollars worth! crazy right?! anyways. so yeah, we drank and then ash and kari left at 12 and i stayed and was gong shot for shot with mike and christine showed up, but i dont want to get into that. but anyways, i stayed till about 3:30 and then the girls picked me up to go sleep at ashly's house.
saturday took ashly to work. then i went to karis house and we talked for a while. it was great. then her mom brought me home and i just chilled overat my house for a little bit. then pat picked me up and brought me to his house and michelle and gibbi came with me. then over there was mike kevin landis pat me gibbi michelle colt mcneil jay tyler brandon mary and a bunch of other people. but yeah, some people drank. not me tho, i didnt have one sip of one drink!! i was so proud lol! then christine showed up and had to talk to mike, soe they left and "talked" or did whatever they did. then brandon colt and pat fucked w/ her car or something and left some mean messages on her answerming machine or something. me and michelle slept over, it was fun.
sunday EASTER! well i was at grubbs house that morning, so when pat woke up he took me home and i hung out there for a little while, got ready to go to carlys house. then me and my mom went to carly's and we had a HUGE easter dinner, and carlys mom made jello shots, so i had a few of those... they were awesome. then erik and mike d [not the mike from the christine/mike situation.] came over which was cool cuz i havent seen them in FOREVER! so we got to chit chat and stuff. haha. catch up on things. it was fun. then i did loots of karaoke with carly. it was great.
then i go back to school and bullshit starts again. im really not mad that they're doing stuff together, i mean like whit says, i cant just forget about him that quick, but im not doing nething with him.. so im doing a good job, im doing it slowly but surely. im just so mad at her for fucking with my feelings and my head the way she did. noone knows the whole story, but its bad... i would never fuck w/ someone's head like she did to me. but im not gonna get into it lol. but i got homework.
by the way. i went to my honor roll breakfast today and got a certificate and everything .. yay! lol
laterr!
wE l0ve 2daNce we l0ve 2paRty*wHen lifE gets haRd we bReak 0ut the BICARDI!!
mike . pat . mario . kevin . me . anais . michelle [shittle bittle lol]. kari [karebear] . becca . landis . tyler . colt . carly
xo to my other loved friends who i havent partied with in a while.
whitney . melis . zach . heather . jess . jen . megan . sarah . bob . bill . frank . erik . jordan . jon . sosa . izzy . danny . mike d . toniann . etc..
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