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2002 11 December :: 9.43am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: mr. cochrane - "hi banani. dooby dinging ..."
WELP LET'S DUCK.
Untie the bonds tightly wrapped around them.
Binding ropes, shackles and chaines,
All carefully, deliberately knotted, word for word.
In sickness (but I booked this business trip months ago)
And in health (you watch them, I'll watch the game),
Till death do they part, averting their eyes,
Avoiding the other woman in their bedroom.
It's not for them that they remain one,
But for their three perfect, innocent, wide-eyed excuses.
They live their life blink by blink,
Teaching their most precious possessions not of unconditional love,
But of the black contract that ruined her life,
Unifying the better and the worse,
(the latter more prominent),
In a glowing example of society's demise.
i love susan.
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2002 9 December :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: the rookie lot - leaving verona
The poems to come are for you and for me and are not for mostpeople.
--it's no use trying to pretend that mostpeople and ourselves are alike. Mostpeople have less in common with ourselves than the squarerootofminusone. You and I are human beings;mostpeople are snobs.
Take the matter of being born. What does being born mean to mostpeople? Catastrophe unmitigated. Socialrevolution. The cultured aristocrat yanked out of his hyperexclusively ultravoluptuous superpalazzo, and dumped into an incredibly vulgar detentioncamp swarming with every conceivable species of undesirable organism. Mostpeople fancy a guaranteed birthproof safetysuit of nondestructible selflessness. If mostpeople were to be born twice they'd improbably call it dying.
you and I are not snobs. We can never be born enough. We are human beings;for whom birth is a supremely welcome mystery,the mystery of growing:the mystery which happens only and whenever we are faithful to ourselves. You and I wear the dangerous looseness of doom and find it becoming. Life,for eternal us,is now;and now is much too busy being a little more than everything to seem anything.catastrophic included
Cummings, 1935.
i love susan.
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2002 8 December :: 10.50pm
Kinda sad... left FOW today... it was really hard, Alex & I said goodbye like a thousand times... actually we decided it wasn't really like a "goodbye" it was more like an "i'll see you later" ... it was really emotional & both of us were teary eyed when we parted. The ride home was long & we were stuck in traffic.
The concert was excellent. We played really well and it was all worth it. Alex, Gina, Siony(sp?) and I played doubles in pool... i'm TERRIBLE! it was sweet though.. Alex would help me hit the stupid balls & after a bazillion times I finally got the stupid 8ball in :0)
YaY! Happy now.... Alex called heh.. i'll write more later :0)
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back. wow. I don't remember the last time I was this ecstatic... I can't stop smiling and i love it! he really likes me :0) heh. 1st. don't let first impressions decide how you feel about people... i'm sure glad Alex & I didn't let that happen heh & 2nd. It's NEVER impossible.
h.e.a.r.t.f.l.i.p.s
<3
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2002 7 December :: 7.00am
hey hey hey!!! I'm @ FOW now & having a blast! well kinda anyways lol... i had the worst audition known to man but made 2nd chair in the middle band...ehhh not as horrible as i thought. (6th out of 15...) anyways... its sooooooo cold here... last night we went in the jacuzzi & it was in the 40s!! haha we're dumb :0P The people are cool for the most part and I met a boy :0) heh his name is Alex and hes from Jax & he plays tenor sax. Hes a "halfrican" as he called himself heh he looks completely hispanic though.. its crazy. wow its early.... we're guna watch a percussion concert @ 8 soo yeah. I'll see you all in 2 days?? <3<3<3
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2002 4 December :: 7.48pm
My kitty has a ruptured anal :0( Pobrecita :0(
On a better note, today was my last day of school for the week :0) Tomorrow morning Ben ehh (Big Ben) & I will be flying to Tampa for the Festival of the Winds! Woohoo! I'm starting to really get excited despite how NOT ready I am for my audition. My scales are decent I guess... I would like to get them faster but I have them all 2 & 3 octaved plus my 3 octave chromatic. The audition music is decent. One etude is tricky but the other is pretty basic.
Shane broke up with Sam today. She was crying during lunch and I kinda felt bad. I don't think I should feel bad though... I had nothing to do with it.. not really anyways. Shane is the best! heh he got me an early birthday gift! I had broken my pimpin orange watch a few weeks ago and was quite distressed about it sooo Shane saw a watch online that had a bassoon on the face and written on it is "Bassoons do it best" I absolutely love it!I think quite possibly its one of the best gifts i've ever gotten :0)
Soooo lets see... Thurs - Sun w/o Vivi I know how distressed you all will be :0P ... yeah. didn't think so heh
Oh. To: Sara B., Abby D., Whitney
I fruggin hate you!!!! Better pay really close attention & tell me EVERYTHING bout the show :0( I'm soooooooooo sorry i'm guna miss it :0( have fun though it's going to be an incredible show...Grr I"m sooo envious of you guys..
To Nicole, Think of me when they play You know how I do & sing your freaking brains out!
To all of you who have no idea what my ramblings are about i'm guna miss the most incredible show in the world Sat night :0( Taking Back Sunday, The Starting Line, Glassjaw ::sigh:: what I do for band...
Have a wonderful weekend everyone :0)
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2002 3 December :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: tori amos - a sorta fairytale
the subconscious stream of
letters forming words forming phrases forming poetry formed from nothing.
all my pain and anger and frustration misre present ed on a page full of
crossed out lines
and scribbles
and
nothing .
exploiting my sadness and memories for another [half-filled] sheet of paper .
blush
ing at the mention of my own work then frantically churn
ing out piece after piece for my fifteen minutes [seconds] of this f
i c k
l e little community’s fame . yet i bring myself into it,
d r a g g i n g my feet, but
moving them nonetheless. until i find my other form of
temporary satisfaction
with myself,
Save Drugs ,
then it’s back to the drawing board,
pen aimed at paper,
stabbing out my disappointments
neatly organized and publicized and sealed with approval.
i still love everything.
i love susan.
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2002 3 December :: 9.16pm
:: Music: j. Lo - Jenny From the Block
Nacho Boy 3 (10:41:57 PM): STONER MCBONER!
Nacho Boy 3 (10:42:00 PM): ahahahhahahahahahahahahha
Nacho Boy 3 (10:43:45 PM): and you have any reply to that?
susanis a winner (10:45:14 PM): not really . i tried denying it but it didn't work so i'll just settle in my inadequacy ... when in reality, i like to think i'm smarter in various ways than people who don't smoke marijuana or take mind-expanding drugs such as mushrooms . you can insult me in your close-minded ignorance, but i like the way i live my life and feel that my reply is much more intelligent than "stoner mcboner", your original insult.
susanis a winner (10:49:59 PM): i hope you're spending these four minutes using a thesaraus to combat my intelligent reply .
i rock so hard. there is no denying it. man.
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2002 2 December :: 9.18pm
"so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick..."
yeah. I am sick.
Sick of it all, physically sick, emotionally sick, think it? I've got it :0P
Thanksgiving was nice. I got to see Kevy Wed from 1-4am :0) Good times.. drove up to Disney around 3 on Thanksgiving day.. let me tell you, cruise control is the greatest invention known to man :0P I felt like I was steering in a video game the whole way up. Disney was a lot of fun. I'm a chicken shit & couldn't think of anything to say to a cute boy that was smiling at me... grr. ummm went to see Cirque du Soleil.. excellent show, highly recommended :0) that was Fri night.. Sat night I watched the chorus sing @ the candlelight thing & then went 2 see Sevendust which was excellent also. Just relaxed cept it was freezing and I got sick :0(
I came back to several missed calls from Shane which I found peculiar. I found out some interesting info bout him 2day which I won't publically share cuz I may offend some people or something... eh
Thursday I leave for the Festival of Winds in Tampa.. good thing I haven't gotten the audition music yet.... wonderful lol O well.. guess i'll just hafta wing it :0P actually thats really not cool at all.
I really wanted to go ice skating w/(him) this Friday... but then again is that really a reality? no. I don't think i'll let it become reality again. One chance allotted, one chance blown. I shouldn't have to settle for less. I swear (they're) plotting against me... i'm getting awfully suspicious... they've been really buddy buddy & practically blackmailing eachother through me which is weird. very weird.
Thought of the day ~ Love sucks, you're better off w/o it... don't listen to all that shit " better to have lost a love then to have never loved at all" its shit. You'd proly b happier if you never had to put up w/any of that shit. Thats it.
18 days till my bday!
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2002 28 November :: 2.06pm
:: Mood: amazed at how beautiful the world really is.
:: Music: sublime - rivers of babylon
i love everything.
so yesterday i finished this paper i was writing and got in the shower like at noon and i was in the shower and the shampoo bottles on the floor started moving towards me and back and then i saw like things growing on the walls and disappearing and when i looked at the floor it looked like it was thirty feet down and i got out and went upstairs and andrea (i was at her house) was lying staring at her ceiling and we talked and talked and stared at her ceiling for like more than an hour and it was growing and shapes were coming out of it and she closed her eyes and saw a baby’s foot wrapped in a plant and stuff and i went out on the balcony and i felt like it was a boat and it was taking me away and there were these rocks that i fell in love with and the stuff in the bathroom scared me and i couldn't go in and all we said was "i feel ..." and then "i love everything" because we LOVED EVERYTHING and everything was perfect and beautiful and nothing was ever bad and there was a piece of paper and it was the most beautiful piece of paper i have ever seen.
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2002 27 November :: 6.19pm
my pic for the day.. just cuz hes sexy lol
this is me & Jessica (twister10) shes the one that brings to us all the fabulous IB/band quizzes heh
Kevy comes home to me in 6hrs!!!! the to Dennys and beach for us :0P I've missed him soooooooooooooooo much :0( tomorrow morning I leave. Joy.. maybe i'll meet a really cute boy up there heh (can't hate me for hopin eh?) who knows...
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2002 26 November :: 11.22pm
This is what I got :0) Of course i'm not like completely obsessed but duh.. sexy Sergeant Vivi and all I gota luv band a little :0P
What type of a Bando are you?
this on the other hand is the fucking funniest thing i've ever seen in my whole entire freaking life Jess... lol
Oh yeah... props 2 Jessie ehh Twister10 for making this incredible quiz :0P
For those of you who don't know... the guy in the anti bando pic is one of our drummers, Ian lol
What type of a Bando are you?
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JESSIE ROX MY SOX! <3
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2002 26 November :: 6.41pm
yeah so i'm sick.
got in a big fight w/my mom last night & she told me she hated me. Wonderful.
On a better note.... Sara B. & I fucking ROCK!!!! ahha Sara won tickets 2 the Ataris show off the radio & requested Coheed & Cambria.. she told me this & I called in & requested Brand New & the guys were really cool... the guy started flipping out & was all like "omg 2 callers in a row requesting 2 of my favorite bands, Brand New & Coheed & Cambria!" I actually finished the Cambria cuz DUH i knew that Sara just called lol He was all like " so you two are in the same house huh? and i ws like "no, she just told me that she won tickets" to which he asked me if i wanted tickets and my idiot mouth said "i'm not guna b in town" grrr... anyways they were all like " hey, we're guna go on air" to which i was like "NOOOO!!!" haha next thing i know i'm on air & we're talking & hes all like "you should go 2 the Cru Jones show tonight up @ Spankys" to which I was like "thats right, Cru Jones is playing tonight" to which he was like "you know who Cru Jones is?" and i was like "yeah, they played @ the Jim Bob Accessory Fest w/my friends' band" to which they asked me what my friends band was and i responded "Drowning Ophelia, they rock!" haha
it rocked really hard... made my day a lot better... next week Sara & I r guna win TBS tickets!!!! w00t w00t!!!!!
okay. Kevy comes home 2 me 2morrow night & I leave Thurs for Disney soooo I proly won't post again till Sun...
Have a good Turkey Day everyone <3
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2002 25 November :: 4.21pm
for Spud-tacular :0P
Snare line practicing...
battery b4 the game.. ( yes i'm very well aware our uniforms look dumb lol)
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2002 24 November :: 8.48pm
these would be some of the beloved drummers lol Drewski wanted 2 put it as his pic thing but I don't think he'll be able to shrink it small enough soooooo here they are :0) I"ll proly post more pics later <3
Today I began to live again.
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2002 23 November :: 5.57pm
:: Music: Brand New
I'm guna seee BRAND NEW & THE MOVIELIFE TONIGHT!!!!!!
Twister 10: I think I shall dub this whole situation as "Gunneson's Online Diary War"
Twister 10: ...wow, the GOD war for short.
Twister 10: Mhm...does this mean Andy = god?
picsxstarsxdream: lol
picsxstarsxdream: thats sooo great
Twister 10: ::bows::
picsxstarsxdream: does sloppy handwriting turn you on? lol
exitboot: Yep.
exitboot: no skills in writing.. they place it elsewhere?
picsxstarsxdream: lol like in bed :0P
exitboot: Yep.
exitboot: Or hand jobs.. whatever
exitboot: So does she like me?
picsxstarsxdream: why are you guna stalk her?
picsxstarsxdream: :0P
exitboot: lol
i love susan.
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